Yang nak diceritakan...

Nak tulis musti ade mood...ade perasaan...( quoting kata2 penulis buku biodata Jeanne - Isteri PM..I saw this in a slot of Wanita Hari ini...)

Tapi ini bukan biodata....

Ini kesah hidup seharian, harapan, impian dan curahan perasaan...berkongsi rasa..dan cerita buat yg sudi mendengar dan berkomunikasi

ape..ape lah...

(cuaca di luar, agak gelap walupun baru kol 240ptg.hari Khamis 26/3..issshh..nak ujan lebat..kena tutp internet dulu eh....takut kilat...shot lak...jadi penulis merasakan untuk berehat sebentar...)

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Friday, 27 Mac 2009, 710pm ( hopefully this one get posted...)

and before I forget....Alfatihah to Allahyarham Zubir Ali...( used to be my fav singer esp when he was with...Harmoni, then He joined R.A.P and Ikhlas Tapi Jauh was once music to my ears too...)..Penantian is my evergreen..enjoy listening...

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So the school break has ended....( tipu lah kalu aku tak miss anak-anak yg 2 orang tu....really..when they go away..they took away a piece of me too....Salam KMun And KMas..Kenang Mama dalam doa kalian...)left me ..alone again inthe house..during weekdays..with my baby boy...


Sigh..I went to the clinic today..got few medicines for baby...poor him..has been coughing for the past 3 days...his voice now is quite husky....






(Baby..baru lepas mandi daa..)




as I am writing this..I just put him to bed....lullaby love....be a good boy..becz mama is certainly in the mood of writing..




(Baby yawning away....)


Well...reminiscing back few things ...

1. M1 is busy at my old school's field....training 'lontar peluru' for her coming mssj...and she did call mentioning..she actually saw the green block..he..he...( but so busy with sports....how's preparation for pmr?)







(On the right : Kakak Mun with boy...bedak sejuk time....during last school hols..p/s:...baby cam tak suka je..dicomot-comotkan..hihi...rashes la sayang oii..))





2. M2 is adjusting her new life with her new specs....poor her....she had complaint time and again of her eyesight..and her teacher (during last parent/teache meeting)..that she was always seen sleeping in the class....o..o.. was is becoz of her eyesight....bila rabun....tak leh fokus..tidoq je...



(At the right KMas trying out a cartoon cermin mata - entah mana dia korek dari bakul mainan Maryam....just to get a feeling camana rupa kalu pakai kacamata...hihi!)



But now, no excuse (At the left : KMas enjoying her layang2 session with ayah at pantai Jeram before curfue time of her asrama...)



ok..K.mas....hopefully u cd adjust well....and is it true that..rabun boleh dikaitkan dengan keturunan....oopss..sorry ayah...jgn kecik hati eh!!!...but I told Mas, it's not easy wearing specs around....among others..some people tend to forget the whereabout of their specs....eg: Ayah: "..Eh!..ade nampak cermin mata kita?".....( manalah kita nak tau...where u people put ur glasses..)..all the best dear...muga2 ade improvement to ur well being..

3.
M3 came back just now : " Mama, Sarah kena berdiri luar kelas tadi..."..
mama:" huh?..kenapa?"
m3: "Sarah terlupa bawak kertas jawapan periksa Bm Penulisan...tapi Sarah rasa dah letak dlm beg mlm tadi..."
And mama just remembered few minutes before her school bus came this afternoon..I had taken the paper out fr her bag...without telling her...becoz last night I was too tired and sleepy to go thru the answer with her..so I thought I wd do that this afternoon..alamak....mama too efficient???
Mama: "..REal sorry Sarah...mama bawak keluar tadi..lupa nak ckp ngan Sarah..."
m3:.."Alaaaa..mama..ni...."...
And we hugged each other..I saw tears in her eyes..( she probably ashamed just now at her school..)..and I promised to her that I wd never do that again....even kalu habuk korek pensel pun..mama akan beritau Sarah ok...

4. m4 was sick last week.....coughed...sore throat..(agaknya ...sebab tu ..baby terkena batuk this week lak...)...but she came back this week..scored A for all her test..Alhamdulillah...and she came back just now also..feeling angry and confused of her school time table..
m4: :Mama, Iyam pelik la....kenapa Harini pun ade tasmiq...balik 630ptg....?"
SO mama said..." Kan Iyam yg bagi mama surat dr cikgu semalam...starting yesterday...djh1 balik kol 630..."
I guess..she was just tired......selalu benar tertidor dlm bas sekolah...mujur pakcik bas..sabar nak tunggu dia terkedek-kedek turun dr bas...

Those were few things happening to my kids...


(latest pic of baby and moi..on the way to G**bak Medical Centre...follow up appt with My gynae and baby doc...injection for 3 mth's old laa....)



AS for me...managed to get a few pills+pain killer+ calcium for my sakit lutut/radang sendi.....well..doctor kata..it cd be arthritis .......Also...I am yet to learn all about pelvic floor mucsle...cause of its injury and weakening....( mind u..after this 5th childbirth....something is just not right there..I regret a bit for not going to my fav gynae this time around...at Amp*** Pu****)......any specific remedy my friend.??..the kegel exercise took me ages laaaaa....ape tu...kayu serapt la..majakani la...binari la...what do u think?

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on 5th march

Then : Maryam 3 months old

Ok..my dear Maryam yang masih lagi manja....here is ur turn lak...hari tu mama wish bday untuk Sarah..so here...:

Now: Maryam 7 years old

Happy 7th Birthday my little princess..( though not little anymore..)...

All our prayers darling sweet....Kenang Daku Dalam Doamu juga....

Used to be the youngest..she is especially known for one who wants to be first all the time..even if when we're back from outing...she'd quickly ran down from the car and stand in front of the door to be unlocked...Once ayah sengaja nak nyakat dia..and ayah stood infront of her...not letting her in..and she merajuk all night..no night-night kiss for ayah..( shian tol!)..Also..Kak Long pun turun berlari-lari sama nak ddiri depan pintu...and she kalah..dan merajuk nangis..juga...aduhai...ramai lak yang suka menyakat nih!

Also, in a car, she at times wd complain..why wd the motorcylist always infront of our car..at traffic..and ayah kata..laa....itu pun tak boleh kah?..Shian ayah yg hari2 pi kerja naik motor...

KNowing kids..like to 'berlumba'...I think she is so like that...in class..in school's concert...she normally make sure follow the rule one....one thing ..ok lah..good fighting spirit..on another thing..slow down sayang....becoz she'd got frustrated..and cengeng if things turn the other way round..

And she is as helpful as Maisarah too...cuma kekadang basuh pinggan..ade mengelat sket!!..also...so sayang the baby boy...waa...a caring sistah!

And Maisarah sometimes said, why ma....kalu mama tanya sarah soalan..dia pun nak jawab....hihi!!

I guess...she just doesn't want to be left out...would u agree???..We all love u Maryam...Celebration later ok!!

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Received cal from Klong juga...syukur..

M1 : Mama, guess what..kakak kat stadium larkin..

Mama : Huh! Wat ape tu?

M1: yeay..yeay..baru menang gold medal lontar peluru sukan skola men daerah jb.....sorry ma..stf kalah!!...tapi ..skola kitorang tak dpt masuk final bola jaring ( she is playing GD under-15)..kalah ngan S.e.t.a...sebelum dpt lawan stf..ooo..yess..sukan skolah tahun ni..rumah akak menang..rumah hijau.....( yes..go green go.....sama ngan mama juga....)

Mama:.waa.....Alhamdulillah...what's next?(..she ..so..like to compare her school with mine..tak pe lah...kasi can..)

M1: Ade schedule untuk msd..if lepas..mssj...

Mama:..woit..sukan sakan lak...so how do u feel..

M1: best sgt ma...and now tengah enjoy tengok acara lari-lari...kuat gak dak stf...tapi akak lebih thrill tengok abang-abang lari-lari...dan rsa mcm dpt rase ape yang mama cerita..zaman mama sibuk ikut orang pi stadium larkin...makan ais krim roti kongsi2...cuci2 mata...

mama:....@#???....amboi!...hahaha!!..( yeap..I used to love following my school frens to the stadium..watching sports event...alahai..tak kira asal dpt outing lah!..and I was never good in sports too...I survived hockey team just few first month of form one..issh..tak larat lari satu padang hoki weh!!....and selalu ponteng gi latihan hoki petang2 lepas prep....lama2 senior pun drop le mama...tak leh pakai hihi!!..and one more thing that I hate most during my secondary sch years was to run around the school compound....satu penyeksaan...)..and I do believe only those with big hearts that cd pump in much more oxygen wd excel in sports...plus those who hae extra special muscle..leg or hand etc...

M1:..Mama, nanti akak cal lagi eh!..tata...lov. so much

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and I love today!....gd night you all....I am much better in spirit!!

no news..

Yeap..as the saying goes....no news is a good news... see u when I see you...it is March already..how fast time flies....and the only thing that is constant is change....a lot of thinking lately...much time still occupied with the lil' baby..and some time back I remember one of my friends'magic equation ~ e=mc2....what the h**k?..can somebody pls elaborate..or simply means..to make things happen..requires energy..or what eh?...mind u..I am not from a pure science background...and I certainly need energy ....my two little gals are having their first 2009 school test this week...( and I wonder what Klong and Kngah are doing, right now..?)..and yeap..school hols is just around the corner..yeepee...

gals at the park..

So we had a short stress free time at the park last weekend.......and then my gal snapped my photo without even looking the back scenario..hihi! dunno who's that guy behind..


c u! and me in deep thinking...and still as thirsty as ever..

Just the four of us..

It was raining like cats and dogs outside...and time was running fast..

"going or not?"...." can we make it?"..

We only have each other..actually three.. because the little one is not independent yet!!.

Maisarah and maryam , each has their own agenda..own wish list....

Whereas mama...the grocery list..must count in..her favourite beverage..( mind u...breast feeding does not stop me from enjoying it!...nescafee....Hi Ch' Ani of Irshad......buzz me if u read this!)..

I had to bathe my baby first..so that I won't be that tired after coming back from the shop...

WE desperately need to go to the shop just to buy some few important and must buy things...ayah has to be excused...( while I am writing this, ayah is still in his office..struggling for the dateline..I presume...)..

Earlier on, maryam was given the task to jot down the list while Maisarah finishing her last bit of bm homework....

I opened the gate, started the engine..put baby beside me...(alamak..dah start nangis pulak..)

M3 switched off the lights, tv, the fan and locked the door..

M4 held the main gate..

And baby cried..all the way.....(aduhai!!!)

Arrived at the shop shortly...put the baby next to my shoulder..( oh..nasib baik dan tak nangis..)

The 2 girls helped me with all the things needed....mama paid at the counter while baby started to cry again....( he wanted to sleep....laaa...tadi mama puas dodoi kat rumah ..tak mau tido'..sabar je lah...)..and he made everyone in the shop looked at us as if it was one of the heavy drama scene...M3 and m4 carried all the groceries beg..

I had to singgah kedai Kak Mah too..just to get my favourite curry mee...and Kmah greeted baby:

"Baby...awatnya nangis ni..laparg kah????..."..

Then we had to stop by the stationery shop ..(ape lagi..budak2 ni..nak beli colour lah..pemadam lah....etc..kunun semua dah exhaustive..next week ujian bulanan...kena ready alat tulis....)

Quickly we went back...and alhamdulillah..we made it home despite few obstacles...

All mama wanted to say here is : thx so much to my two little girls...

I used to think they are still small..especially when the two eldest came back from their school...

But now...I know I can depend on them.....Alhamdulillah...I am so grateful...I am not alone getting through all this having-new-baby experience..

And perhaps..that is also the reason..ayah knows I can handle the situation...(though at times rasa macam ibu tunggal lak...and the least I wanted to do is to burden him with the groceries' list either)...he is the breadwinner....(amboi..naik manja lah yeee....u shd be lucky la ayah..never see u iron baju lagi sekarang jugak...and lemak berkati-kati..bertepu-tepu...)..ooh..yes...and ayah had to stay back to make up for the days he took mc few days ago..fell of from his bike...left some scars and bruises....( oo..my....Allah is so grateful..He still make my hubby..safe and sound..alhamdulillah..even though kaki terdengkot-dengkot....)..and I just do not want to think of the other way round..not yet!!...

It was just a small test...to see my other half in pain...not so him...

That remind me of my friend 'Helza'...she is a strong woman....taking care of her 4 boys...alone...but I know and pray ..Allah showers her with all His strengths and Kindness...I had one posting for her somewhere in 2008 : this

Remind me of ayah's pesan..: "Kalu boleh..minta tolong dengan anak-anak..mana yang boleh..."..He knows very well..that I am the type who like to do everything by myself....never want to bother others....(pas tu bila penat..tensen lah pulak!!)

Leaving me with smile in my heart..eventhough I miss our family time..but we still have each other to offer help..to ease...

Tata! I hope you all have smile (plural) in your heart this weekend..

Fatamorgana

Pulanglah pada tuhan,
Cahaya kehidupan,
Syarat bahagia di dunia,
Akhirat kekal selamanya,
Pada Allah..... Allah.....,

Sudah menjadi lumrah kehidupan di dunia,
Cabaran dan dugaan mendewasakan usia,
Rintangan dilalui tambah pengalaman diri,
Sudah surat ketetapan illahi,

Deras arus dunia menghayutkan yang terleka,
Indah fatamorgana melalaikan menipu daya,
Dikejar dicintai bak bayangan tak bertepi,
Tiada sudahnya dunia yang dicari,

Begitu indah dunia siapa pun kan tergoda,
Harta, pangkat dan wanita melemahkan jiwa,
Tanpa iman dalam hati kita kan dikuasai,
Syaitan nafsu dalam diri musuh yang tersembunyi,

Pulanglah kepada tuhan,
Cahaya kehidupan,
Keimanan, ketaqwaan kepada-Nya,
Senjata utama.

Sabar menempuh jalan,
Tetapkan iman di hati,
Yakin dengan janji tuhan,
Syurga yang sedia menanti,

Imanlah penyelamat,
Dunia penuh pancaroba,
Hidup akhirat,
Kita kekal bahagia.......

Tibalah penyelamat,
Dunia penuh pancaroba,
Hidup akhirat,
Kita kekal bahagia......

Di sudut Kamar Hatiku

Di Sudut Kamar Hatiku - Jamal Abdillah




resah hatiku merinduimu
terbayang bayang anggun senyum dan tawa mu
baru semalam rasanya bagai setahun
pemergian mu tak tertanggung

indah suasana kita kita bersama
siang dan malam seolah didalam syurga
cintamu itu cinta yang setulus jiwa
di mana ku cari gantinya...

telah ku lupa detik hitam selamanya
yang menodai cinta kita
tidak terdaya menahan takdirnya
engkau abadi didalam jaga

c/o
sepi dunia didalam riuh rendahnya
pedih jiwaku tanggung derita
patah hati ku
kesalan tiada terhingga
kau satu dalam berjuta

kepada tuhan tempat ku taruh harapan
engkau selamanya dalam bahagia
cintamu itu biarku kenanginya
di sudut kamar hatiku........

m3 turns 9...

Last Saturday was my m3' s birthday....who is m3?..As all of my broods' names begin with M so we..long ago..shall assign each member with their corresponding numbering..and thus Miss M3 is the third daughter of ours and she is Maisarah...born 21/2/2000...a strong pieces by zodiac...in dragon year of chinese calendar...


She woke up quite early that morning forgetting that it was her birthday...got bathe and came to my room....:

M3 : " Mama, Sarah dah mandi..boleh mama buatkan nestum...perut Sarah lapar la..."

Mama : " Happy Bday Sarah..wah!..Bagus lah hari ni..Sarah bangun awal dan dah mandi pun..." normally..she wd spend hours of her saturday morning in front of the pc...

M3: " Huh! Bday Sarah!"...Mama tak de ape2 ke untuk Sarah?"

And just when I wanted to open my mouth she already ran to her ayah:

M3 : "Ayah, jom kita jalan2 dan beli kek..dan..errr...permainan.."

Ayah: : " Huh!..jln2 boleh..beli permainan tak boleh! Sebab Sarah dah besar....." said ayah followed by a kiss on her forehead and hugs...

So off we went spending the day eating out and bought her cake.( which is not so bad...and half still in the freezer...tak berapa manis pulak...entah kenapa..so mama tak tau berapa lama lebihan kek itu akan berada dlm peti ais..kalau m1 dan m2 ade..sudah tentu dah habis licin...and Maryam pun being the sweet tooth pun kata kek Sarah ..rasanya..boleh la...)..and ayah had bought her, her lonng wish of a scooter......she loves it very much..even though masa kat counter nak bayar...she secretly whispered to mama that she also like to have a new barbie doll....(.but ayah kata tak payah....again and again!)...hihi!..muka 10sen lepas tu...

As she grow older...I can see she has starting to grow and have few beautiful personality...helpful is one thing about her so far...study wise, she is the one who constantly need extra coaching...overall I am just so blessed!..oo..yes...she is one with a strong physical too...a bit lasak laa...( She has pleaded to ayah to join tae-kwon-do but ayah kata tunggu next year lah..)one who is also very sentimental....and kalu visitors datang dan nak balik..dia pulak yg cepat nak nangis...she is affectionate..still nak manja2 ngan ayah...

Okay Maisarah..u might not understand all the meanings above but as of now..just belief that mama and ayah love u so much...as usual..all the prayers in the world from all of us.....Kenang Daku Dalam Mu....Be anak Solehah.., Insya'allah...

p/s:...She had quite a rough day on Sunday learning Maths with ayah..and she secretly told me...never ever want to ask ayah again.....shian dia...

Maksud yang sama??

Semalam malam Maisarah tanya pada mama tentang maksud beberapa perumpamaan Bahasa Melayu, antaranya yang buat mama agak keliru sket.....

1) Tak dapat rotan akar pun berguna

2) Dah dapat gading bertuah, tanduk tidak berguna lagi...

Yang pertama tu mama kata sudah tentulah kalu kita hendakan satu barang tapi setelah penat dicari dapat jugak barang lain yang hampir serupa dengan yang dihajatkan tadi:
Contoh ayat:
Sarah tidak perlu membeli buku log baru untuk Persatuan Puteri Islam kerana dia masih boleh menggunakan buku log kepunyaan kakaknya yang masih banyak lagi ruang muka surat yang kosong.


Yang kedua tu ibarat seseorang memperoleh satu benda yang kini lebih baik nilainya dari yang terdahulu:-
Contoh ayat:
Apabila ayah menghadiahkan basikal yang baru kepada Sarah, beliau tidak lagi memerlukan basikal yang dahulu yang sudahpun kecil untuknya.

Tapi selepas tu sebelum menutup mata, mama teringat kedua-dua peribahasa di atas kalu diteliti atau di amati betul-betul. Iaitu kedua-duanya menggunakan 2 objek, yang baru dan lama samada yang kurang elok atau lebih elok...

Hi..entahlah....fikiran mama pun melayang.....macam-macam...hendak ditulis di sini nanti karang panjang berjela pulak rajuk mama pada ayah...

Merajuk pada yang sayang...tapi kalu dah tua-tua macam ni..merajuk pun orang dah tak perasan dah..atau mungkin sudah selalu sangat merajuk...orang dah tak terlayan...

Sesungguhnya rezeki , ajal, maut dan segalanya adalah ketentuan Ilahi..bersyukur...bersyukur....life is much more than just thinking about one's own feelings....problem must be countered with a solution.... and the other person is worth more than you might ever think of...komunikasi biar jelas..biar jelas...biar jelas..

Dan seperti biasa..kalu rase macam tak best aje..mama akan buka radio...untuk tenang2kan diri..tetiba keluar lak lagu kegemaran mama ni:-

Mengapa dirindu - Uji Rashid

Anak punai anak merbah
Terbang turun buat sarang
Anak sungai pun berubah
Ini pula hati orang
Mengapa dikenang

Asal kapas jadi benang
Dari benang dibuat baju
Barang lepas jangan kenang
Sudah jadi orang baru
Mengapa dirindu

Kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam mimpi
Kasih yang baru simpan di hati
Kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam mimpi
Kasih yang baru simpan di hati

Selat teduh lautan tenang
Banyak labuh perahu Aceh
Jangan kesal jangan kenang
Walau hati rasa pedih
Mengapa bersedih

Kalau pinang masih muda
Rasanya kelat sudahlah pasti
Kalau hilang kasih lama
Cari lain untuk ganti
Mengapa dinanti

Patah 'kan tumbuh hilang berganti
Akan sembuh kalau diubati
Patah 'kan tumbuh hilang berganti
Akan sembuh kalau diubati

Sayang mengapa dirindu

An excerpt of an article from the star...and the likes..of my newborn son..

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The 3-D scan (left) was taken in Aug'2008...then, none of us wd have imagine the exact look of him...It was the first sight of him . My first thought was how thankful I was that God shower me with such kindness to answer my heart desire without even asking Him to do it! It was an awesome moment.

However, then I found myself bombarded with fear! Fear of miscarriage, fear of people's judgments, fear of taking care of baby when Maryam is a darling big girl already, fear of disability that might be much more than Down Syndrome. It was a horrible hour of discovery!

Since that time I have been focusing on what Allah says is true ~ that children are a gift and blessing. I'm feeling loved by Him in such extravagant way ~ it's indescribable.



but now..look at his latest photo......

Remembering back those last few minutes before the delivery, he had shown signs of stress inside my womb with his heart beat shooting up..and I was just 7cm dilated....Gosh..Alhamdulillah Allah had made it easy for me, for him and for the doctor and her team as she helped me going thru that delivery process.....Out he popped out....and ayah was made to cut his umbilical cord....painful..painful...Allahu Akbar...

Just look at him..I am so speechless....

What say you...?...everybody in the house would not mind carrying him around....especially my two younger girls, Maisarah and Maryam....and at times, I just let both of them playing with the baby..(at least for me to have a cuppa milo or very short nap)..they surely have all the energy in the world to play with their lil' brother...and the eldest sisters just can't wait for the next school holidays to cuddle, kiss and do nothing but just sit beside him....watch him..waiting for his next smile...



The sisters adore him ( a little too much) and it is a delight to see them interact. I just can't imagine Md Mikhael being who he is without the sisters and vice versa.


And I can't imagine myself without any of them.

In fact, I can't imagine any one of our family without all the others. It's a complex system of relationships, but each individual is a vital part of what Allah intended to help each other one grow..

And Maisarah now think taking care of babies is not as easy as playing her pc-nanny games..and since the eldest sisters are not around, she normally become my great assistant..only not to 'dukung' the baby long enough...musscle tangan tak cukup kuat..thx sayang...









And mama rituals after solat had to be shortened too nowdays..ambil yg wajib saje.....just to accommodate the crying baby...and where kusyuk is concerned..Allah saje yang tahu...O Lord...forgive me!!..

The same goes to Maryam too..She especially would immitate all the rhyme songs I sang..just to make sure the baby always calm...at times feel frustrated if baby just wont stop crying after all her effort..shian Iyam...do not give up darling..mama count on u too!

well....it really helps to have somebody assist u with the baby ...so u wont get stressed out all day long...but come to think of it...how do our others manage?..especially my late mum when my late dad was always off-shore....O..dear Lord...grant me w your greatest strentgh please!..Ameen...

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At a recent 'bi-monthly tazkirah/bacaan yassin' session at my house community, I was approached by a neighbour...:

"Ape khabar Maz?..Baby sihat?...Sibukkan ngan baby kecik..kesian Maz...."..( oooo...that was so a 'caring' question..)...Mana babynya?

I would love to spend the whole evening telling her all my happiness and also woes..like I normally did to my late parents!!( I mean the 'lack-of-energy' side of me)...but had to just reply with smile that baby is taken care by ayah left with my expressed milk...Time and time again I have to remind myself not to 'overdo' the complain..It was because at a recent relatives gathering, when I accidentally mentioned about my 'hardship', the other person gave this comment:

"U should be lucky lah..can't complain more...we are married for nearly ten years and still waiting...".. ooo...I see... I again being the sensitive or that person meant something else....waaa....I had become very sensitive maaa....Being a cancerian..there goes my sensitivity!

And at another gathering, I grumbled a little about my busy husband..but was encountered with this comment :

"Well actually..u should be grateful..U still have a husband..many out there are searching high and low for a husband...."....waaa...not sympathetic enough !!I gulped!!like I was chocked of Cola!

I cannot complain meh!..then how to improve???

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Time and again I do have to let ayah take care of my baby.

The truth is...at some place..it is just inconvenient to bring him along especially when for the past several days, he has been acting according to his 'mood'..and I just don't want that extra focus during the 'bacaan yassin' session if he yells or something like that...

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And talk about having baby at forty..I do miss having meal out..(not that we always eat out lah...)..but nowdays If it was not becoz i was so determine to skip cooking then I really have to equip myself with all the patience attending to this little boy while everybody is busy helping themselves with the food ordered....I am so jealous of u ayah..and If I merajuk pun..u never will perasan...

Funny..that the baby also wd demand for his 'feed' whenever we were outside..so there I was...quietly at one corner...under my hijab..I wd let my baby has his own share of his lunch/dinner...but in the public..I just cdn't comprehend of the 'busybodyness' of some people....so rude that I sometimes feel like shouting to that person:

"Eh Mr/Mdm..can u not look please!"....am i asking too much....??? ayooo...

Well some Malaysians just like to stare.....

And I feel amused by the below excerpt from the star..a famous columnist..like some of her writings..resembles what I feel..what I experience..(except for that swimsuit and over use of pamela Anderson 'thing'...oopss..sorry...).:-

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"MISSION IMPOSSIBLE

(BUT THEN AGAIN WITH MARY SCHNEIDER)

The American woman who recently gave birth to octuplets intends to breastfeed them all. Good luck with that.

I JUST read about the American woman who recently gave birth to octuplets – six boys and two girls. Her doctor had told her she was expecting seven babies, so when baby number eight made an appearance, he was surprised.

“It’s quite easy to miss a baby when you’re anticipating seven,” he said by way of explanation.

Although the doctor’s statement made me wonder about the quality of the medical care this new mother had been receiving, I was more taken aback by her intention to breastfeed all her babies. With only two breasts and eight babies, I’m not sure if this is possible.

If any of her babies are like my firstborn (he was the kind of baby who nursed for 45 minutes at a time, with 20 minute breaks between feedings, all day long, and several times a night), there won’t be enough time in a day to breastfeed eight babies. Of course, she could breastfeed all of them just once a day. Or spend her days doing nothing but eating, drinking and expressing two gallons of milk with the aid of a breast pump. But then, she might not like the idea of spending all her waking hours bonding with a small electrical appliance.

Since the new mother will probably be housebound for the next three years, (I can’t see her taking her babies to the mall for a little shopping trip any time soon, or popping into her favourite restaurant for a light lunch with her brood in tow) she will be spared the stigma attached to public breast-feeding.

Some people are uncomfortable at the sight of a baby being breast-fed. They will whisper overtly to their companions and then assume the same sort of look of disgust that is normally reserved for someone who’s just taken all her clothes off and doing a pole dance in the middle of a funeral service.

Then, there are the overly curious people who ogle you in the hope that they will get a glimpse of your breast. I once attempted to nurse my son in a five-star hotel. Although I was sitting at a table in a quiet corner of the restaurant, and I’d covered myself and my son with a large shawl, I could feel the hot stares of some of the other diners boring into me.

One man even got up from his table and wandered over in my direction while pretending to talk to someone on his handphone. I know so, because as he was looking at me out of the corner of his eye, the handphone that he was talking into began to ring.

Still, despite the difficulties associated with breastfeeding in public, I tried not to curtail my social life too much while I was nursing my son.

When my son was three months old, my then husband even took us to Pulau Pangkor for holiday. On the drive to Lumut, all I did was nurse my son. On the ferry across to the island, all I did was nurse my son, and once in the hotel, all I did was nurse my son. When I look at the photos of that trip, all my memories are centred on breastfeeding.

I have a photo of me standing on the beach, in a swimsuit with a plunging neckline, the rising sun peeking over my shoulder and my son sleeping in his stroller next to me. My breasts were huge: two swollen melons squeezed into a piece of lycra. I looked like a sleep-deprived, red-haired, slightly shorter version of Pamela Anderson.

Well, okay, maybe not Pamela Anderson. It’s amazing what lack of sleep will do to your sense of perception.

That particular day, after my son had had his first morning feed beneath a shady tree near the hotel’s swimming pool, I placed him over my shoulder to burp him. He duly obliged, in a loud undignified manner, then fell asleep almost immediately.

It wasn’t until I returned to my room two hours later, after doing my Pamela Anderson impersonation as I sashayed around the swimming pool, that I caught sight of a long streak of milky vomit on the rear of my swimsuit.

After eight months of breastfeeding, I stopped – only to begin again 13 months later when my daughter popped into the world with a loud lusty cry.

I wish the mother of the octuplets good luck with her quest.

P/S: AND i WISH THE NEW MOTHER GOOD LUCK TOO!!

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True , one cannot imagine exactly how chaotic it will be if the baby cry demanding for milk..demanding to be soothed.....change diapers....etc..unless..one experience it....I feel so 'ronyok' at times...

I had once thinking of opening a childcare centre after quiting my 9 to 5 job...but hey baby...I am not patient la....

Even my daughters could sense my 'tense' if the baby won't stop crying...and especially to ayah...whose my many glare and gestures..enough to make him understand my turmoil of emotions and wd come to the rescue best ..(ni pun if he is around lah!!)..and if he had to stay back at his office..Allah saje yang tahu..)..yeap....If only the scientist could invent some kind of tube so that my milk could be easily transfered to the baby without me having to wake up in the wee hours of the morning..I am so deprived of sleep..

Nowdays...my priority is the baby....and I seldom now answer the phone...I normally wd put my phone on silent mode whenever the baby is sleeping.....as a result..many people complain..why I don't pick up the phone..only my hubby understand my 'moodiness'... The baby is easily disturbed..like a needle fall on the floor or biting biscuit also he can hear one..aduhai...and at times it is just a painstaking job to put him to sleep agian...I am exhausted! We certainly have to follow his schedule..Once evening I had a visitor and as a result I delayed his bathing and sleeping..so he got merajuk....so angry sebab dikejutkan.(ye lah..visitor datang nak tengok dia!..)...and I took almost one hour...from cuddle to the buai..to the bed...bobok-bobok..back to the buai again...oh my...

Not only do I have to endure with all the physical change of my body..the extra tyre...the back ache....but emotional as well...oh yes....'kegel exercise' has suddenly been my interest...ayoo again!..also..can somebody invent a pacifier that feel and taste exactly like the real one....I think mine has become exhausted too from excessive 'friction'...and I sweat a lot too...sorry dear...the electricity bill has to put up with my need of the air cond!!..Hormone..hormone...and ayah can I have my hair cut this weekend???what about kasi kerinting ???just to spice up my life....and more of ferrero roche choccolate please....

I just bought this cream...kunun...determine to get rid of that bloatedness....well...sapu kat perut..etc.

And the jamu for the 'rahim'....

these two products enough to make me perspire like those jogathon runners...

And I am yet to do any work outs just to get rid off all those baby fat....alamak!!








Thus I do have to hold on to this patience...because he is just heaven..and until next post....until I am more relaxed and calm...(hoping and praying that I dont fall into the category of those experiencing post parturm depression...eeeuuwww so scary oneee..nauzubillah!!.) ......wishing all my blogger friends...productive week ahead...

p/s: I am off fb too.....can't spend so much time on other things...( I got addicted to fb and tend to become grumpy if baby is crying..and this is not nice, isn't it....well talk about priority beb!..)

and to Munirah and Masturah if u happened to peep thru this blog at ur school..this is definitely one of my favourite singer..the best ever Uji Rashid and song for the mothers..I miss my late mum....Alfatihah...no wonder as I quote our prophet Muhd (pbuh)..that mothers should be valued and cared off 3 times more than the father....bless you all mothers out there...tata!

and oo yes..to kak long and kak ngah..yesterday as mama went back from fetching maisarah as usual ( her koko day)...i came across many students wearing you all punya school uniform...and..wa....mama miss u all so bad...and prayed..one of these days..either of yu two please ring me...

My first ever grand tf85reunion

Hi you all...

It has been almost a week now since that grand tf85 reunion...and I was hoping before in my previous post to write about more in detail..(...nanti lama sangat...basi lak cerita ni...)..and as u read this, there is a background song - Suratan atau Kebetulan by Kenny , Remmy Dan Martin..( amongst malay song compiled by Leha..)..love the song..

( a 53% turned up, i.e 60 of 114.....farthest right is me....thx to the team of organizer....)



So..as I went into the dewan..shake-shake hands..kiss kiss cheeks..and there at the registration table was grreted by Linn ali, Liz..busy with the doorgift la..name tag la..not forgeting payment lah of coz..Then I saw my long last friend:

"Eh...(I paused...)Yan kan....?"...and she smiled ( macam nak suruh aku teka lagi...) and as if there was no other proper question..I asked again:

"Berapa orang askar?"..and she jokingly replied.."Tak de.."...huh?...so Yan being Yan..that sense of humor still exist...kita macam same je lah Yan..sudah rabun dekat..cuma you je yang bawak ur glasses ke hulu ke hilir..

Then Leha came and asked : " Eta, dah habis pantang ke?..anak tak bawak?..I bawak my boy..."...alamak Leha..aku baru nak menghilangkan rasa bersalah..and yes..your boy sungguh baik...suci je..muka dia....geramm..rase nak peluk gigit..

Headed on..I was n't sure where to sit...each and everybody was busy hugging each other..all the laughter..fulfilled the hall....and I saw ( my other long last classmate )Pis, Ogy, Anis..and Awe..( wah..ko begitu solehah sekali..sambil bawak escort lagi!)

So I sat with Honey ( ex-dormate), Netty, yan, Idah E...later joined by Hye..and Nan Aini...
( wah...as described by my other blogger friends.etc, mrsnordin anggun cam Mak Datin..)..A little while came in Shana
in red ( who had called me the night before about the dress etc...) with Abid and E-boo as well...wah depa-depa nih memang selalu konvoi...and looking elegant as well....(terdetik hati ku..karang ade gak salah sorang if not all yg akan di undi best dress...hihi!..masin agaknya mulut aku..)..and I saw mc zae too...and the rest all...

And Thnx Ieja..untuk ole-ole itu semua..comel-comel belaka...aku terharu....more to come kah?...ahaks!..( and my Klong kata...ini dr Auntie yg rumah dia kita pi tu hari ye..mama....yg dlm tandas pun ade plastik tempat dia kerja...hihi!!see..my daughter pun jenis observe...and yeepiiee..next raya..blue theme yeay!!)

On the table itself, ade small cup cakes must be from eyerin which are so delicious...and thx Yan for giving me your share..entah kenapa semenjak dua menjak habis pantang i so love all sweet things..To my right..I saw Anne, Zaza..sitting along with Neng, Wan and Mahinar....( yang juga kelihatan ibu solehah..mithali sungguh....)

Opened with doa recitation was by Pn Roslaila Puspa..(amboi Alang..tak kisahle tu...ustazah avon rock yang sememangnya anggun...)

And the show began with Along ( I first thought...nanti nak request Along nyanyilah...but later on terlupa..) and Dada..quite a times before welcome speech..try to calm the girls..."Hello Girls..can we start now....hello....hello!"..."Kita ade banyak event nih oiii"...so Mdm Chairman pun berucap...all the yesteryears..together with her belongings which she still kept..like the school apron and some badges...( amboi..Dada..ko masih simpan all those things...).

All the prefects later were called upon to sing the schools song...( and berbaris lah para pengawas....dengan pelbagai warna dan gaya...)..and I neer know ade lagu sekolah English version!!

Came the slide show after that..and everybody rushed to the front....well...aging la beb..can't see from far...and we laughed and laughed over all those old pictures..bravo to GYlle... messages came from kmar and Farid yang jauh di perantauan...


The next was..eat and eat..( Tuti was invited to read doa makan tapi dia tak mau...segan kah..pas ti siapa baca ek...arrr there goes my memory again...) and talk...and came the lucky draw..(hihi..tak sia-sia..dpt gak satu hadiah.)...but first have to answer few question and mine was...what is full description of LDDS?..huh?..I was blank at first..and looking at the audience for clues..I just read few lips...nasib baik..nasib baik..thx shana..(rasenyelah..sebab u yg depan meja tuh...the rest I tak perasan..hihi..rabun jauh gak!!!..dan termasuk malu dan nervous depan kengkawan semuaa...stage fright! eh!!macam kelakar je aku jalan..bila Dada panggil)



There were games like:
1) matching and compiling pieces of photo...(at the back written smjm la, toing la..bejot la..)..
2)sms games...which I surrender la huh...patik ni dah rabun dekat ..tak pe lah..sorry organiser...bukan tak sport..but I know somehow org lain lebih layak..( I think the minute Dada annouce - u may start -//after a ..blink I saw Ogy...uiisshh..cepatnya..and true Ogy won the prize..)

SOme other prizes were best dress for each house...for these each table was given a form..and we were supposed to vote others not from the same table we were sitting...dan mereka-merak yang anggun telah memenangi hadiah..( Abid- merah, Bj-hijau, Nan aini- merah dan Ieja-biru..) siap di suruh cat walk lagi with of coz background music...

Also prize for lucky chair..and Netty walked away with it..( aku yang perut agak kembung nih..mengah gak nak membelek-nelek bawah kerusi...siapa la punya idea ni..)

Also...if anybody found pebble inside one the doorgift given..huh?..pebble ape tu Pis...?..WOi..Batu jalan le beb.....and if not mistaken gee dpt..wah seronok..jauh2 dtg berbaloi..

and few other game including guessing which act belongs to a teacher..I guess I didn't focus..sapa menang eh?

While eating we chit chat, shared stories of our everyday life, about kids, about old teachers...hihi gossip!...and " Eh Yan...look at hye..cute..even the socks matched with the sandals...'"..we giggled...and Hye,,kita gurau je lah...and did mention to hye about my 'forgetfulness''..for being me now..and Hye said that was why she chose teaching line..the mind exercise a looottt..and thus Hye...excuse me for looking at your socks..I had once involved with all those numbers crunching job..date line everything..never thought my observation was based on one of the so used nature of my past job..to scrutinize..to be diligent...to be thorough..or it is just me being a full time mother..power of observation must tip top!

Then each was given rose..with background music..sekuntum mawah merah....waduh sayhdu...ye lah..sejak tua-tua ni...jarang benor nak dpt bunga...and actually I dont mind though i f my hubby forget about flowers..I prefer dining at 'good food' restaurant lah!!!..( waaa..that's remind me..he had not belanja me makan juicy steak sejak mengidam kelmarin..ayooo..yang...bila nak belanja nih...)

And we distributed each with 2 cds..malay and english song...all yesteryears fav song...compiled by Leha..later i learnt..some got one..some got two..and some forgot about it...and while i am writing this..I believe Leha is still burning few more cd..for those requested..including Leelany, Kmar..etc..( those who cdn't come..go on being jealous...hihi!))...and I wonder what was the story behind the stickers as related by Leha/Dada about Sal being talian hayat...

Everybody was busy catching with each other..and truly I do feel regret..cdn't have longer time to minggle more...and missed all the opportunities to take photos...( tak dak camera la beb!)..and thus this posting is rather dry of own photos collection..hihi!

Prizes were also given to :-
1) most maintained figure - gylle lah..
2)most children - Mahinar.(7 kids..ooo)
3)first pay master - Faridah Ejam
4)Furthest to come - Gee...(kot!..)
5)First to Mecca - Pis ( was Reha but she tak dtg..jadi the next earliest..)
.etc...etc..tak ingat ade lagi kah??.

Then came the photo session..class photo, house photo, origin photo..and including the 'free hair' also...hihi...ade -ade je lah korang ni...sapa yg tiba-tiba teringat cam tu..anyway...jauh dari sudut hati ku..aku sentiasa mendoakan sahabat-sahabat kalian...amin..


( AMong the 5 Soc scie girls who came - Back row ( L to R) : Oya, Netty, Hye, Awe,Ogy, Anne, Pis and Front row : Jue, Yan, Zaza, me, Anis) - photo courtesy of Dada if I'm not mistaken..


The cutting cake ceremony, together with cake for Weeda..(member punya bday le hari tu..)..was I think the last event..later we saw..few starting making calls..or answering calls....well..time to depart..few were seen hugging bye-bye and had to rush back early....and I was greeted by Abid :" Eh..balik naik ape...?"...

."..emm..tengah tunggu che abang....". Isaid..

"WAh..sungguh manja..kitorang ni sungguh berdikari...tidak dimanjakan langsung..."..Abid smiled back..well..blessed in whatever circumstances lah dear abid oii..u..me..lagi pulak..I ni pun tidak hafal semua jln2 kat klang valley ni takut sesat barat...

And..my..oo.my......not forgetting , there are those heading to another venue..for extra curriculum activities...hehe....bestnye..kamu-kamu....( at this point of time..I was so engorged....ooppss..sorry!!)

Few were seen gathered at the back of the hall...membeli barangan buatan Eyerin..bestnye....

Pis also was seen carrying around donation box..for the palestinians..alahai Pis..kita lom ghaji laa...

Many have regarded me as looking the same.not much difference..noticeable meh!.

Intan said I am so motherly....( she cd have read my blog kot..!)...Well Intan...again..semenjak bekecimpung dengan dunia ibu/isteri sepenuh masa..beginilah aku seadanya...for some..true or not..the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence...but again..Allah saje yang tahu..what the best for us..mean while we just go ahead with life...after all..life is about choices...there shall be hiccups here and there..but I guess..I shall no more be lonely..I still have reachable friends...( cari aje contact no dlm list yg Gylle/dada kasi..)..and even kengkawan dlm fb pun telah bertambah..dan semangat berkawan, bertukar cerita, mengusik mengejek..telah kembali menular di kalangan kekita...membuak-buak rasenya untuk berjumpa semula....

So..I shall put a full stop here...my narrative of my ex school reunion..the way I see...the way I feel...(thousands apologies dear you all...If I had missed things here and there..).u are still the same....glad our paths had crossed...for more stories pls visit: here
and I believe..Dada and the Gang had done a well job done...cayang you all..u know who u are..

To Dada and Shana whose sweet wonderful words had made me went to the reunion..thx...aauww..meoww..

I shall wait for the cd lah Dada..for all the slide, photo and videos compilation...

And...the next wd be at Penang????..eee..tak sabar....bersiap-siap sedia lah kamu-kamu orang Utara..Pn Leelany..Shitot...and Hye leh join gak ?

p/S:..I know Shana, Neetot, Anis, Ogy, Oya, Yan are meeting tonite...(eee..jelesnye..)..and excuse me girls..I ade beg-beg tangan..sungguh tak selesa arr for all girls meeting..jadiknya..terpaksa mengecualikan diri sendiri..dan si suami ku amat sibuk (semalam overnight kat opis....aduhai..) untuk memberi sepatah dua kata tentang hajatku bergumbira ngan kengkawan..tak pe lah...enjoy yourself..nanti update eh..

Tata!...and sorry too...spelling error!!!!here and there...so be them...