Just about few things...

Missing many posting as usual my friends...sorry..sorry...sorry..

Been trying to update and write..but sigh...each posting would just been end up inside either the draft..and the ..scrapped!!!

The recent school holidays had just ended..so me with ritual routine....I said to my two younger kids..

mama : ..Its now only 3 of us..or 4 if ayah won't be that busy with his u.a.t...( what a computer shortform!)

maisarah : no mama...still 4 ..even if ayah is not around.....

Yes, I'm entering 25th week now...and last scan which was taken 4 weeks ago..has made everybody in the house...excited..could not wait for another addition into the house...God bless...ayah will have a gang!!...I just couldn't believe it..but pray hard and am very thankful..and blessed.....So fellow bloggers....I am counting the days before the beginning of another episode of my life ...and I begin to worry about the preparation...already feel like a big giant balloon..with cramps hear and there...

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My eldest daughter has decided to quit from her boarding school.....another headache...in addition to her loss of her wallet at Puduraya Bus Station....

I can't force her, can I?....and since ayah has been very busy lately....it took all me to draft out the plan...the appeal letter..to think about the pros and cons and present to ayah and Munirah..

It surely not going to be easy...but Munirah had set up her mind..what to do....

Next week will see mama and ayah going to JB...and back at Kl...to PPD gombak....

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It has been almost a week now since I last see my car....After 3 years..I accidentally hit a pili bomba..just a few house away from my porch...macamana boleh tak nampak!!..

Saw a huge waterfall after the hit but eventually..it was from the car..and the wreckage.....had brought me to the nearest workshop....theregoes..saving for the festive/raya...or to be exact saving for a new oven......sob!sob!sob!!!..so I tell my kids..looks like this raya..mama is not going to be pinned infront of the oven...quite relax la this time..excuse..excuse..

Grounded at home...cook whatever supply there is..and waiting impatiently for the fishmonger /'lori ikan' uncle..but to no avail....( has he stopped making rounds at my block??)...and I hope my taste bud cd still swallow the eggs..and sardine....surely make me miss of the time when I can easily go out and enjoy morning roti canai...or buy goodies at pasar malam...( Insaf ni....puak depa yang nak jamah nasi pun susah...buat aku rasa insaf...)

Thanks so much to Maksu..for your assistance in ferrying Munirah to Puduraya last Sunday...

Thanks so much to my kind neighbor - Kak Ani/Ustaz Rahim...for borrowing us your cute myvi..to send Masturah to Jeram...Rasa best gak naik kete comel nih..

I called the workshop this morning..but my unser still not ready yet.( hujan la akak...kete blom kering la..etc..entah ye ..entah tidak..cis!!).......must call again tomorrow..and the day after tommorow....paster them...paster them...

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Guess these are all about a few things...not inclusive...missing my friends gathering at the Z*one and emerald..and feeling sleepy already...hopefully I wd get a good sleep tonite....for the past few weeks...I am experienceing pregnancy imsonia...and as a result of watching Emily ROse...horror movie last Wednesday ...Maisarah cd not sleep last night ( dah tak de teman..kakak2 semua dah pi balik asrama..)..and she actually cried at wee hours in the morning..scared..(sayup2 dengar..ingatkan nangis jatuh katil ke....ish!) ...so long my friend...getting myself a cup of anmum milk ( eventhough frankly I abhor milk for this time around)...ta ta!

I miss posting to my blog

Not a diligent blogger...emmm...I've been trying to think to write something....apart from my Maisarah and Maryam popping in and out..wanting for more computer fun&games..I have been occupying myself with lots...and lots of rest..whenever I could...

I went and peek at my friends' blog ..like wanshana, mrsnordin, ibu ( eventhough she seems so quiet since the winds of change..)...and others too...I guess they are all instant source of laughter that made my day...filling in my times..with their antics and anecdotes..managed to post some comments..but what about my own postings...and mrsnordin had even said that she could not open my blog..alamak..how should I know...virus or something..not sure...but I do remember instead of writing..aku dok asyik..menambah dan menukar..'lay out'....ape yang aku dah buat..gatal tangan...kah??

Well..actually I am feeling rather strange for the past few weeks....(mixed feelings actually...because..last time I had all these symptoms..it was like 7 years ago....) ..heavy, some time sleepy..some time could not sleep...suddenly nausea starts creeping in.????..poor Maisarah..she had to endure with my 'not-so-nice-mood'..during her homework session...believe me...I am quite 'tonned' down with my two younger kids..but last night..I pinched her..( it left bruises the next morning...but I apologized and applied ointment...kot la nanti silap haribulan kena tahan kerana mendera.)..she didn't cry..I guess she know she could not escape..it was her fault..to forget her numbers and calculations..and she got 20 answers wrong in her last maths test.(but sayang Maisarah..mama janji...mama akan cuba bersabar...next time...could me?).....perhaps, perhaps, perhaps......

I am scheduled for ultrasound next week..and I am scared actually as I shall turn 40 in the next couple of months..what do you think.?..( the hpt is positive.....!!jeng! jeng!) support me , please!!does it sound that some part of me is still working after years treatment of endo/adenomyosis?.Should I be happy and proud..O God..Please help!I just had one chemical preg last May, One molar preg back in 1995 and one ectopic in 1998...Thank God I have 4 surviving angles..but all sorts of things cd happen at this age???last performance perhaps???

Mean time..I guess Maisarah and Maryam..would have to entertain them self a lot..( I shall think after this of ways to make up with them.later.) .because..If I am not writing..that means I am just being lazy..sleepy.. (besides my other routine chores like cook simple dish, driving them around) and just couldn't help doing many things..except.rest..nap..and .worry..( I have left folding my laundry for three days...they are all piled up. now .hehehe!)....Ta..ta...

Ageing?? Shortsightedness??

For the last couple of months, I've had difficulty reading my sms on the cellphone, pricking thread into needle, reading newspaper less than 1 feet, enjoying the colours of my food at less than 0.5 feet too..so what's going on?

I searched and read religiously on eyes problems...etc..etc..

In conclusion...this is indeed another symptom of ageing...Innalillah....

Don't worry..Be happy...Ayo sudah tua la..

Care to join me shopping for a new pair of reading glasses..??.Err..what do they normally asked for the best glasses for one who is shortsighted, could't stand glare esp during night driving..and dry eye also? (..mmm..asking too much?)



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At last..

Feel like announcing to everybody.....check Mate!!!

Ahoi!..Ahoi!..and especially to my dear Kakak Mun..we have streamyx back at home.yes!yes! yes!..dengan ehsan ayahmu yang tercinta...

So these few days if you had been bouncing to and fro ...deep apologies from mama le, sayang oii..( and to my fellow friends ...Hi you all!!)

As usual mama yang 'bute' IT ini would rely a lot on the expertise of others..

While configuration was taken place...bla..bla....bla...switching on and offf...

So much to write..just that so little time...lets call it off for this mean time...

Shall be right back.....ZZZzzzz

Take care you people out there...

OOOooo Why?

Last night my daughter - M3 suddenly crashed a news: " Mama...mouse problem...tak syok la.."

Of coz, it aint the mouse as it sounds...

But one of the computer devices at home suddenly not responding...


So thats it..why now??? OOoo...why?...(hujung-hujung bulan ni...aduhai..not in my budget...)

So ..what to do??

Funny that now I am sitting in front of my pc..trying to compose a post without a mouse..can u imagine..I just have to crack my mind and fingers actually..to patiently tab and tab....and tab agian..(Right from switching on this computer..finding the icon..connect to internet....this is certainly the least I expect to happen...)oopppsss...I just passed that icon..so ...shift tab and the cursor wd move back..but how about reducing the window...alamak..ini bikin saya banyak susah hati....bikin banyak kerja..lama kelamaan rasanya hampir putus asa....lambatnye...I cd go berserk like this...pls don't laugh!!

Again , I am announcing here..sorry...apologies....until I cd find a new mouse...

Resting my case....Shall miss every one!!Nice day..

Do not forget to remember me...( I must find another hobby for the mean time...)

A day without internet....poor me.....

Ta! Ta! Not sure whether this shall go through...Cross my fingers...

RM 25.90...

That was it...I lost a RM25.90 battle over my kid's school shoes..and I'm pretty mad.. actually..very mad at this 'one person'..that i swear...come rain or shine..that wd be my last visit to his shop..and I'd swear..my generation would either!

I bought m3 school shoes yesterday...as a birthday present and also to replace her worn shoes bought 2 years ago...i did not realize actually the shoe's magnet actually is not 'up-to'..but when i got home yesterday my instinct just feel 'not-right' as the box looked a little funny..

I quickly wipe 'shoe-white' on it..so that it'd dry fast ..and I think I did saw that the buckle was somehow funny as well..but I was not that clever ..continue to finish the wiping..leave them dry.. ..hopefully m3 wd get to wear them.

Today around 1 pm, m3 complained that she cd not buckle the magnet..'dah patah'.. broken..luckily she still has another shoe which she doesn't quite like...sebab tapak dah haus....

La..I was...$#@*?!!!!

I went back straight to the shop after sending m3 to her school together with goodie bags for her classmate...

I showed the shoes to the 'pakcik'..but becoz I had wipe them with show white..that 'pakcik' arrogantly denied my request for an exchange...grumbling and nagging over the loss and other losses that he had suffered becoz many parents request for exchange...

He nagged...on and on..

I cd feel that I am losing my temper..so I said:-

Me: " Pakcik..saya pelanggan tetap...sejak duduk sini saya..rasa hampir 4 tahun..macam2 kelengkapan sekolah saya beli di sini..baju pengakap, puteri islam, kasut, beg, baju sekolah, baju dalam, topi, selipar,tudung..,anak tudung...dsg...ini kasut ..saya rasa pakcik saje tak perasan..masukkan dalam kotak ..yang dah koyak hujung ni...jual pada orang..entah2..ni kasut reject..pakcik ..saje jual..kot-kot pelanngan tak perasan dan malas nak susah-payah pulang..jadi pakcik untung le....lepas tu... pakcik...bising tentang kerugian..tentang orang lain yang buat pakcik rugi...Ini rm 25.90...rm25.90!..berbaloi kah dengan jumlah untung pada barang lain yang saya dah beli!!!( Ape lak nak jawab pada Ayah!..ini pakcik tak mau kasi tukar kasut!!)...My heart beat faster...

Pakcik: "Tak boleh tukar!..Saya dah rugi banyak!

For few seconds..I was speechless...(ape ni???? I said to myself!!)..tried hard not to burst my anger..

Me: Tak pe lah pakcik..simpan je lah kasut ni.....kiralah untung pakcik banyak2!! Jgn lupa ..ade 2 lagi kedai kasut baru buka kat sini.......( there goes my big mouth!)..Was i rude?

I went away..with all the 'not-nice' feelings..I was frustrated...I think I just let the pakcik won...I think it's just not worth arguing with that st**born old gr**y man..I am sorry..I am damned angry becoz I've lost my right as a consumer ....why wouldn't I stand for my right?..chic ken!!!
I am angry for my foolishness....

I loss RM25.90..real lot that I cd use it instead for a couple of magazines/story books for my kids..or even..over a very delicious couple of KFC dinner plate..hu..hu...

But actually..when i think back..its the principle or attitude or to be exact ,his way of conducting the biz..that had annoyed me..

I abhor the incident!..really!!

The morale is...pls recheck your item..keep the receipt..in case u need to return them...if they are shoes..remember do not splash them with shoe white unless double check they are perfectly ok...

I am poorer today by RM25.90..sorry for me being so emotional...( but I least I think I had managed to get the message across to him...or maybe he just couldn't careless...)

A truly flourishing life is impossible without paid employment

Sitting in front of the home pc....trying to ease off this headache...unfortunately there's no actifast or ponstan..(was told not to take any without the gastric pill...what to do!)..

Trying to focus on the subject but many a times... on and off.. been asked by the kids on this and that ..(their homework!!...mmm..spoon feeding!!again)..well talk about the obligations of a non-working mother...If only I could escape..but surely I'd feel guilty..( duduk kat rumah..takkan le tak bule tengok2kan homework budak2...well there goes my inner speach) and feel like writing something but the mind was just 'still'....beku!saturated!!

Remember this one article read in the newspaper..(some time in 2006)..just a phrase that means a lot :

"A truly flourishing life is impossible without paid employment"

And think it'd be best if I draft first...and perhaps search for the article which I think must be somewhere in the basket of my newspaper cuttings..(yeapp...no body touches mama's paper cuttings please!!!..mind u!)..and this subject is to be continued..sorry guys...

oo yes, just found the review..if u like to read and comment ..ta ta!

p/s: But then again...my inner speach....to be continued..