To You..

And for the sleepless nights...I think let me jot something here,

My 3rd gal shall undergo an operation for her enhanced tonsil..so big that the doctor said they're in stage 4 and as parents, what wd u think?

She has shown the symptoms from her very early age...selsema pagi, mengantuk dlm kelas..berdengkur itu perkara biasa!..(some time same kuat dengan her ayah!) time and again, we had few doctors suggesting to us to consider having her tonsils removed...For us, it sounds horrified..especially to her...tragic the maximum!..

We brought her to see an E-N-T specialist...oo..oo....she was so excited to get to see the inner side of her throat, ear and nose...at least she knows what are the things bothering her for quite some time...Dia dok ingat ade pasir kat dlm telinga lepas berkelah kat Tg Balau last Disember...Itu pasai asyik dok suruh ayah pi korek telinga....and ayah did!..but she still rase tak cukup dengar...So when we went to the specialist, the doctor said the adenoid and tonsils has grown together, hence making the pressure inside her ear became negative, pulling back her gegendang...OOoiisssshhhh..we listened and watched!Some hearing assessment were done and proven...there's problem in there!

Afraid of any further difficult outcome that might come...medical terms like sleep apnea, stop breathing for few seconds at night,recurring sore throat..sickness, sleepy head....low focus in the class....etc...left us with any other choices?...and since recently she mentioned, ade some frens calling her names..(even pakcik van sekolah!..~...Oii!..Pe*ak/ T*uli)..becos she didn't respond in time!..

Actually, I had long realised she was a bit slow in responding...like macam nak panggil dia..(dari tingkat bawah ke atas) macam nak kena jerit kuat sket..And kalau suruh perlahankan olume tv, dia suka nak tengok tv dekat2...
So we think it is about time..and of coz, ayah is busy thinking about the ringgit!

Please make du'a for us my blogger friend...for her operation and speedy recovery...I am hoping she would recover and at least would assist her in her well being and studies!

Mama sayang Maisarah!

Topeng ? Ape itu H1N1?..Moon

Came back yesterday evening from school.. saw Maisarah with the mask...

Mama: Eh! Mana dpt ni Sarah?

M3: CIkgu kasi ma..percuma..suruh pakai..Selsema Ba Alif Ba Ya...(Oppss..kita tak leh sebut yg itu ma..sebut khinzir...)

Mama: Emm..banyak le stok cikgu...( Dan rase pelik..kenapa tiba2 macam satu peristiwa besar lak..oho..oh..nak kena awas kah?..habis camana nak gi jln2 bawak baby?...H1N! telah menular???)

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About 645 pm..Maryam came back ..also pakai mask hijau..(Aiish..mcm scene dalam bilik kecemasan hospital la pulak?...)

Maryam: Ma..ok Tak Yam pakai ni?..Cikgu bagi..suruh pakai?..

Mama:..(Nak ambik hati anak....belek2 lah topeng tu..)

Maryam:..Ma, kita kena pakai selalu kata cikgu dan pakcik Bas...sebab penyakit selsema H1N1 tu dah dekat..

Mama:..Huh?....dah nak dekat?...alamak....(bukanke dah lama kempen..ape yg dekatnya..?)..okay..nanti esok tanya cikgu..ade jual lebih tak?...nak kasi kat baby..boleh?..

Maryam:.Maa..tak yah le tanya cikgu..ma ajakle ayah pi Mydin...pot pet..pot.pet...

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If the H1N1 that serious...then..nak keluar rumah pun rasa cemas juger...luckily, My car's battery dah flat...plus..lesen memandu dah expired..waa....a. ..good excuse.....tak yah drive..
Tetapi...tengok resources dlam freeze dan almari..alamak..replenishment..siape nak tolong ni?..Tolong??..

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Moon, Kami doakan semuanya ok..jgn risau sgt pasal minor operation tu....insya'Allah..Berdoalah anakku...mohon yang terbaik...Aduh..rase nak pi Jb lagi......Ayah.bawak kita pi jb weekend ni?..

(Yeap..Moon just had ultra sound scan at JB's gen Hospital.. radang kelenjar?...a possible minor opeation?..me am waiting for the warden's update....)..aduhai...

Its the thots that counts

Suasana hari Jumaatpagi( 8 mei 2009)

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And maryam came back yelling..Mama!..Mama!...lagi beberapa hari...hari Ibu...I Love u Mama...

(And any mum's heart wd surely melt....)

Maryam: Mama, Kat book shop skola ade jual bunga..Iym ingat nak beli untuk mama..mama suka?..

Mama:..oo..mustilah..( sambil kehairanan...hadiah surprise dah kasi tahu 'in advance')

Maryam :...Nanti duit seringgit, Iyam tak mau guna....mama jgn lupa bekalkan air penuh...Iyam tak mau belanja....( sambil berlari ke bilik air..bersiap untuk ke skola..)

Suasana petang Jumaat

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Mama: Hai Iyam...ape kabar?

Maryam : Mama!..Iyam ade hal sket nak cakap laa..

mama : Nape la pulak

maryam: Iyam dah beli bunga tu..tapi bila dalam bas , ade kakak djh 2 mintak tukar bunga tu dengan sepit rambut..harga 30sen...Iyam kata okey lah..tapi dlm hati sedih jugak..Tapi kelmarin , Sarah dah pesan jangan bergaduh dengan kaka2 besar..jadi Iyam kasi jelahbunga pada kakak tu...tak pe lah..Iyam letak sepit ni kat bekas kaca mama eh!!...

Mama:..(..Why some people so mean.....!!)

Mama and maryam hug each other..

Mama: Tak pe sayang..ape-ape pun...mama terima..yg buat mama lebih happy bila anak2 mama ingat pada mama...dan lagi satu..lain kali Iyam kena berani pertahankan hak Iyam...tak payahlah lagi kasi barang2 pada orang lain...( And wonder..kalau dia faham atau tidak..as she is a very nice gal...gosh....loooks like I have another homework..to teach my daughter lessons of life...)..Mama loves u sayang!!!!

I guess...entah skil ape lagi nak ajar pada my small maryam....bukan sekali..ade a few times gak..dia dengan senang hati...bagi duit belanja kat kawan2 dia...bagi pensil warna dan entah ape lagi..(Kita bukannya hidup mewah sangat sayang oii.....mama tak kerja..ayah..ibarat kais pagi..makan pagi...kena lah jimat juga...)...and I dont really like the idea of bully...if that fits the word...cd it be my daughter tak pandai menggunakan kuasa atau kawan2 dia dengan mudah ambil kesempatan...entah lah..what to say..what to say..( aku dulu tak pandai lak nak minta tukar barang2 orang..)

Suasana malam Jumaat..sebelum tidor
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Maryam: Mama..mama nak lagi tak bunga cam tu?...cantik tau..ade teddy bear dan kad bentuk 'love'...

Mama:..Tak pe lah Yam..it is ok...

Maryam: HAri Isnin kalau ade jual lagi kat Book shop..Iyam nak beli lagi lah!..

(..O..Tuhan..lihatlah anak ku ini....)

Maryam..(merengek manja sebelum terlena tido...): Ma...bila gigi Iyam dua depan ni nak tumbuh?.....Si Iskandar tu suka ejek ..Iyam rongak!..

Mama:..Dah lah Iyam....ambik masa gigi nak tumbuh....kena minum susu banyak...dan biarlah SiIskandar tu..jgn layan sangat..

Maryam: ..tulis nota kat kertas..(."Ayah, jgn lupa beli fresh milk lagi esok...)...kasi pada mama..untuk di beri pada ayah...and she dozed off...

Maisarah:..Mama..Sarah sayang mama jugak....and tertido jugak....

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Small matters...big impact to myheart...
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Happy mother's day to all mumies out there...to their mummies too...

p/s: Writer misses her 2 eldest daughters very much..and off course she can;t help but to remember a person so wonderful in her life...her late mum..who peacefully left her and siblings plus late father(who follow suit in 2002) like 11 years ago...a month after coming back from umrah...2 days before 1998 Eidul fitri....Mak...(Monawa Abdul Wahid..a.k.aEsah)..Alfatihah...tears roll down....

Just the four of us..

It was raining like cats and dogs outside...and time was running fast..

"going or not?"...." can we make it?"..

We only have each other..actually three.. because the little one is not independent yet!!.

Maisarah and maryam , each has their own agenda..own wish list....

Whereas mama...the grocery list..must count in..her favourite beverage..( mind u...breast feeding does not stop me from enjoying it!...nescafee....Hi Ch' Ani of Irshad......buzz me if u read this!)..

I had to bathe my baby first..so that I won't be that tired after coming back from the shop...

WE desperately need to go to the shop just to buy some few important and must buy things...ayah has to be excused...( while I am writing this, ayah is still in his office..struggling for the dateline..I presume...)..

Earlier on, maryam was given the task to jot down the list while Maisarah finishing her last bit of bm homework....

I opened the gate, started the engine..put baby beside me...(alamak..dah start nangis pulak..)

M3 switched off the lights, tv, the fan and locked the door..

M4 held the main gate..

And baby cried..all the way.....(aduhai!!!)

Arrived at the shop shortly...put the baby next to my shoulder..( oh..nasib baik dan tak nangis..)

The 2 girls helped me with all the things needed....mama paid at the counter while baby started to cry again....( he wanted to sleep....laaa...tadi mama puas dodoi kat rumah ..tak mau tido'..sabar je lah...)..and he made everyone in the shop looked at us as if it was one of the heavy drama scene...M3 and m4 carried all the groceries beg..

I had to singgah kedai Kak Mah too..just to get my favourite curry mee...and Kmah greeted baby:

"Baby...awatnya nangis ni..laparg kah????..."..

Then we had to stop by the stationery shop ..(ape lagi..budak2 ni..nak beli colour lah..pemadam lah....etc..kunun semua dah exhaustive..next week ujian bulanan...kena ready alat tulis....)

Quickly we went back...and alhamdulillah..we made it home despite few obstacles...

All mama wanted to say here is : thx so much to my two little girls...

I used to think they are still small..especially when the two eldest came back from their school...

But now...I know I can depend on them.....Alhamdulillah...I am so grateful...I am not alone getting through all this having-new-baby experience..

And perhaps..that is also the reason..ayah knows I can handle the situation...(though at times rasa macam ibu tunggal lak...and the least I wanted to do is to burden him with the groceries' list either)...he is the breadwinner....(amboi..naik manja lah yeee....u shd be lucky la ayah..never see u iron baju lagi sekarang jugak...and lemak berkati-kati..bertepu-tepu...)..ooh..yes...and ayah had to stay back to make up for the days he took mc few days ago..fell of from his bike...left some scars and bruises....( oo..my....Allah is so grateful..He still make my hubby..safe and sound..alhamdulillah..even though kaki terdengkot-dengkot....)..and I just do not want to think of the other way round..not yet!!...

It was just a small test...to see my other half in pain...not so him...

That remind me of my friend 'Helza'...she is a strong woman....taking care of her 4 boys...alone...but I know and pray ..Allah showers her with all His strengths and Kindness...I had one posting for her somewhere in 2008 : this

Remind me of ayah's pesan..: "Kalu boleh..minta tolong dengan anak-anak..mana yang boleh..."..He knows very well..that I am the type who like to do everything by myself....never want to bother others....(pas tu bila penat..tensen lah pulak!!)

Leaving me with smile in my heart..eventhough I miss our family time..but we still have each other to offer help..to ease...

Tata! I hope you all have smile (plural) in your heart this weekend..

m3 turns 9...

Last Saturday was my m3' s birthday....who is m3?..As all of my broods' names begin with M so we..long ago..shall assign each member with their corresponding numbering..and thus Miss M3 is the third daughter of ours and she is Maisarah...born 21/2/2000...a strong pieces by zodiac...in dragon year of chinese calendar...


She woke up quite early that morning forgetting that it was her birthday...got bathe and came to my room....:

M3 : " Mama, Sarah dah mandi..boleh mama buatkan nestum...perut Sarah lapar la..."

Mama : " Happy Bday Sarah..wah!..Bagus lah hari ni..Sarah bangun awal dan dah mandi pun..." normally..she wd spend hours of her saturday morning in front of the pc...

M3: " Huh! Bday Sarah!"...Mama tak de ape2 ke untuk Sarah?"

And just when I wanted to open my mouth she already ran to her ayah:

M3 : "Ayah, jom kita jalan2 dan beli kek..dan..errr...permainan.."

Ayah: : " Huh!..jln2 boleh..beli permainan tak boleh! Sebab Sarah dah besar....." said ayah followed by a kiss on her forehead and hugs...

So off we went spending the day eating out and bought her cake.( which is not so bad...and half still in the freezer...tak berapa manis pulak...entah kenapa..so mama tak tau berapa lama lebihan kek itu akan berada dlm peti ais..kalau m1 dan m2 ade..sudah tentu dah habis licin...and Maryam pun being the sweet tooth pun kata kek Sarah ..rasanya..boleh la...)..and ayah had bought her, her lonng wish of a scooter......she loves it very much..even though masa kat counter nak bayar...she secretly whispered to mama that she also like to have a new barbie doll....(.but ayah kata tak payah....again and again!)...hihi!..muka 10sen lepas tu...

As she grow older...I can see she has starting to grow and have few beautiful personality...helpful is one thing about her so far...study wise, she is the one who constantly need extra coaching...overall I am just so blessed!..oo..yes...she is one with a strong physical too...a bit lasak laa...( She has pleaded to ayah to join tae-kwon-do but ayah kata tunggu next year lah..)one who is also very sentimental....and kalu visitors datang dan nak balik..dia pulak yg cepat nak nangis...she is affectionate..still nak manja2 ngan ayah...

Okay Maisarah..u might not understand all the meanings above but as of now..just belief that mama and ayah love u so much...as usual..all the prayers in the world from all of us.....Kenang Daku Dalam Mu....Be anak Solehah.., Insya'allah...

p/s:...She had quite a rough day on Sunday learning Maths with ayah..and she secretly told me...never ever want to ask ayah again.....shian dia...

M3 turns 8 today...

Assalamualaikum Sarah..

Hari ni B'day Sarah le...Happy 8th Birthday...Insya'Allah when all kakaks are here for the coming school holidays nanti , kita pi beli kek ok..and insya'allah we shall have a little 'surprise' for you my dear..

PANJANG UMURNYA (2X), PANJANG UMURNYA SERTA MULIA ,SERTA MULIA. ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU (2X), ALLAH SELAMATKAN MAISARAH, ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU..

And time flies so fast....feel like just yesterday Mama had those labour pain and u were safely born on 21.2.2000 at A****G P***** Hospital...a crying baby..(used to be)..Funny .from you were born until at least 1 year old...u never fail to cry whenever we were on a journey in ayah's car..what was wrong..we simply don't know...once on our trip to balik kampung. poor ayah had to stop by the r&r just to pasang ur buai and ayah patiently trying to sooth u down..lullabying..and at the time ..for sure u know what had happen to mama...(he he..grumpy me)...and those memories shall stay with mama..infact with KMoon and KShua as well...and back then u were fondly name as Lala..or actually short form of Melalak..(omit the k and become Lala).Ok sayang U are now 8 years old...Mama shall always pray for you to be a good servant to our Creator and be granted with wisdom to know the difference and be protected always...so more be loved by all mankind..and as always...

Kenang Daku Dalam Doamu