Satu keajaiban - PMR 2009

Maybe I am a bit exaggerated for some...but this is what I am feeling right noww...

So grateful..sangat bersyukur...and this is just a short note to thanx all ..for the effort, the hard work, prayers..motivations...

To Kakak....sekalung tahniah buat kakak..satu pencapaian yg sgt luar biasa...apetah lagi bile mengenang kembali liku-liku perjalanan dan diari pelajar seni berserta semua warga kerja di Sekolah Seni....menumpang tetapi bekerja keras...tahniah again....

Kenang kami dalam doa mu.....(pss..Dasyatnya doa ibu!)

Full house

And my nest is full again...hoooraeyyy.hoorraeyy....

Yeap!my house is in chaos of my batch 2 kids' toys, masak2 and barbie...books everywhere..and Little Mikhael shall add up to it since he's now busy crawling..( even though he shd be walking anytine now..), geledah sana dan sini..

My leisure time in front of pc has to be shorterened now....becoz my batch 1 kids seem to be too glued to them....( kalaulah pc to boleh bercakap.....)..and of coz....rasenye2 bil letrik akan naik mendadak...

So what am I doing now infront of this pc?....Thought I want to update about recent activities...the beach, the trip to johor, the movie...( err,..Twillight????Christmas Carol..but of couurse not that latest flim of J*lang..) sambutan aidil adha, Mikhael kena cucuk untuk umur setahun, and latest horror..my car alarm didn't function and of coz I panicked frantically!!and how we were so excited to get onto the Commuter train..just to get fr Rawang to Mid Valley...and only to get cramped inside the 1 and quarter hour journey....mcm..mcmm..tapi rase tak tertulis lah pulak..

I think I am tired...so hanya rase nak bersantai saje..perkara yang sepatutnya dibuat..di rancang..dibiarkan begitu saje..lets keep the stress level very minimal lah huh!....Last time I used to wake my kids up very early in the morning..but now...biorle...lepas subuh...bergoleklah mereka...sesekali main badminton atau berjogging...and breakfst..ape yg ade...tak payah nak berpeluh2 di pagi hening ..menumbuk batu menggoreng nasi...I just want to keep things easy...pendek kata memang relax!..kerja2 rumah buat saje yg musti..like basuh baju..( masak boleh ad aleternatif...ade org lain yg masak atau kedai saje..atau maggie....hahah) ..lipat dan susun baju...lett the kids worry about that...and sapu dan mop bila perlu..and rasenya budak2 itu tersgtlah sukeeer...and I just caught my m 3 and m4 lumurkan bedak pada anak2 patung Barbie.....arrrgghhhh!..tak kuasa nak marah2..biorkan...akan ku hulur tali layang2 itu sepanjang mungkin...

Have u ever feel that sombody's watching u?

Perkahwinan..

Adakah saya terlalu sibuk dengan pelbagai kerenah anak2?

Adakah saya terlalu letih dengan pengurusan pelbagai hal-ehwal di rumah?

Perlukah saya pada motivasi bagi peningkatan penceria warna perkahwinan?

..Dan pelbagai persoalan....

Saya suri rumah sepenuh masa..bergelumang dengan apa saja cabaran yang bersangkut paut dengan gelaran suri rumah itu..sebagai ibu..sebagai isteri...(Mungkin sebagai anak tidak lagi..kerana kedua ibubapa telah pulang menyahut seruan Ilahi..saya bersyukur...)..

Pagi ini setelah merasa agak tenang dan beres dan tugas biasa..saya kembali menyusuri internet..saya mencari makanan rohani..sementelaah..saya tidak ade banyak pilihan untuk berdiskusi..rata2 jiran 2 bersebelahan ramai yang bekerja..kalau ade pun..mungkin kurang sesuai untuk saya tiba2 dtg mengetuk pintu jiran dan berbincang tentang makanan rohani...

Lalu saya singgah di blog Ustaz Hasrizal dan mencari artikel yg bersesuaian...menerusi artikel beliau yang bertajuk mengurus pemikiran tentang perkahwinan.

"Bagi pasangan yang berumahtangga, setahun dua yang pertama, biasanya indah dan ditambah lagi dengan kedatangan cahaya mata penyeri rumahtangga. Tetapi apabila masuk tahun ketiga dan keempat, hubungan suami isteri akan teruji. Mudah terjadi, suami mula mudah marah terhadap isteri. Manakala si isteri pula kerap tertekan dengan ‘warna sebenar suaminya’.Saya masih ingat kata-kata Profesor Abdullah al-Ahsan di UIA ketika mengulas tentang Romanticism, “kita selalu tidak rasional dan realistik semasa kita romantik!”. Mungkin di awal perkahwinan, romantik itu kuat mendominasi rumah tangga. Ketika itu suami fokus kepada isteri dan isteri pula fokus kepada suami. Tetapi ketika munculnya anak pertama, kedua-duanya beralih fokus kepada anak dan selepas muncul anak kedua, fokus itu perlu diubah suai lagi. Semasa itulah, rumahtangga lebih didominasi oleh tanggungjawab dan tugas. Seronok-seronok sudah berkurang sedikit. Tetapi ia adalah proses biasa.

Hubungan suami dan isteri boleh selamat dan terus memanjat usia matang pada tahun-tahun yang berikutnya. Selamat kerana proses itu berlaku di dalam perkahwinan, bukan di luar. Ini adalah kerana, perkahwinan sebenarnya menggabungjalinkan antara cinta, kasih sayang, tanggungjawab dan peranan. Ada hari air pasang, cinta memainkan peranan. Ada hari air surut, maka tanggungjawab dan kematangan pula mengambil tugas.

Saya pasti anda yang sedang melayari bahtera perkahwinan dan membaca akan tersenyum sambil mengangguk-angguk..Saya masih belajar..anda juge..

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Dapatkan toolbar siaran ikim.fm di sini:...untuk di muat turun...

Dulu semasa radio kat ruangtamu masih berfungsi, selalu kami jadikan siaran ini sebagai loceng bangun pagi...

Habis ramadhan kelmarin, radio tiba-tiba senyap ( sebelum itu kilat sabung menyabung di luar..)..Innalillah...sudah saya utarakan pada Mr Mc Guyer..tapi beliau masih belum berkesempatan menerjah meneropong ape masalah.....

Lewat habis makan tengahari tiba-tiba rase hendak menjenguk faebook..dan..telah berjumpa dengan toolbar stesen radio ikim..

Jadi dengan berbesar hati ingin berkongsi dengan semua..Selamat mendengar!!

Buai laju-laju...

There weren't many playground offering this kind of swing..so when we found this one I said to my DH..let the boy try arr..see..if he like or not...and he did..(Location: Late parents' house at Gombak).

This pic was taken in June 2009..only now I could locate the video....( I am still learning with all this multimedia thing...)

Sebagai kenang-kenangan...and please excuse the background sound..I think it was his's ayah....( jgn marah yang...ur boy need ur sound to make him feel..that the world is fun..full of excitement...)...Ohh....I so love his cute little smile...he rarely smile though..and some say..this one he takes after his daddy..;D...

And to KMoon and KMas..you'll surely miss him...tapi tak pe...school holiday lagi seminggu...by all means....take over some of my duties..by all means...yeay the nest shall be full again..lai.lai..lai..

p/s: I am in jovial mood...lallla..llaa...so everyone in the house adore me...as if I am celebrity..but when mama is in a-not-so-nice-mood...u now lah...but still I am a celebrity to my kids...not many huh!

While I am writing this, Mikhael is so sound asleep..overdose of few medicines...selsema, cirit birit and thrush in his mouth..get well soon sayang..be strong..be strong!

1Malaysia - Malam Gala Seni SSjb & Sehati Berdansa Tribute to Sudirman

We had a splendid time last weekend watching the performance of various students and teachers of SSJB..which was called Malam Gala Kesenian SSJB 2009 : watch pics here..this year's theme was : Khazanah WarisanBudaya Bangsa....( jadinya segala gerak tari, susunan musik, lakunan pentas...termasuk juga pameran seni visual..berlandaskan tema tersebut..so no MJ's beat it or Billie Jean alike...like they did during the Form 3's Produksi PMR last July...shian sape2 yang minat MJ).

I had missed taking photos...(ape da...last minute..kamera rosak..ish!ish!)....

Even my DH had missed capturing some good moments of our dear Moon...with his hp//like he always did ( Shian ..ayah..lullabying little Mikhael...three quarter of the show...and mama was given the chance to sit and relax..as ayah said..he had full view last year when mama was heavily pregnant with m5...)

And we had not expected our Moon to be on stage...as she had called previous day...

Moon: :Mama,kita tak berlakun...belakang tabir saje...tapi jgn lupa ma, dtg awal..takut tak dak tempat duduk.."

Ma: Ok..tak pe lah...kitorang dtg..ape lagi event?

Moon: Ade anugerah untuk seni gak?

Mama : Kakak?

Moon:..he...he..surprise..surprise..

But upon opening, there she was..waving to everybody...and of coz...with her size...so noticable la...and I cdn't help but smile...I think I miss her so much..that a glimpse of her..caught my eyesight..well talk about separation...

The whole show was a superb..I admire the 1Malaysian dance performed by those students majoring in Seni tari..The drama was gorgeous...( dan sudah tentu di mana ade anakku..di situlah hatiku terpaut...) . 5 dramas were performed carrying own subjects, dances, music....and my kids love the one with dragon....Background music was marvelous ..Well they've got the talent..after all the hard work and effort..collaboration between the students and the teachers as well...A few minor technical error like microphone etc..but never mind...cheers and big applause to everybody who had made the show,direct and indirectly..

Being one of the emcees..my Moon has her voice to offer too...when one of the mics has problem..mcm2..sampai serak2 suare!..

All in all, I must say..this is the beginning of something big...remembering in my old time days...where in the scondary school..concerts etc..were delivered by us...we had few talents..tapi setakat itu sajelah..but here in Sekolah Seni..skill are sharpened and the results are through the show..I love the determination, the hard work..the discipline of each individual...Oh..And Bravo to the directors, dance choreographer, stage manager, music arrangement, wardrobe..etc....

Hang on there, dear...you need all these habits to perform out there in the real world..in the office...or in any organization that you all shall join after finishing ur school...

bukan senang nak jadi senang..

Now I understand..why my daughter has many grievances...of her tiredness...of her fatigue...as well as to balance with her academics..not forgetting her duties as servant to Allah too..O Allah, please give everybody strength...

Awards are presented to all 'A's scorer of academic for each tingkatan and also best in the four majors ( seni visual, seni tari, seni musik dan seni teater ) for each tingkatan...

And the awards presenter include, the vvip from Jabatan Pelajaran Johor dan Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia Bahagian Sukan Dan Seni...Also famous actress Pn Rosnah Johari and actor (who was also my ex-teacher/part timer as guru drama in my former school) Encik Jalil Hamid...and En Jalil's son had won best Seri lakun for form 2...owh!...bestnyee...( ye lah..ke mana tumpahnya kuah kalu tak ke nasi...)

What about my daughter?...A candidate for her major...Anugerah Seri Lakon Pentas..but her friend had won it..he..he..Mama tau...mama tau siape dia..

And we have the teachers performing as well...(eemmmm..sebab itu lah anak muridnya cam tu...cikgu2nya pun sporting habis...)..amboi2...and I love best the part when everybody were on stage....One Malaysia...Malaysia Boleh!

Look forward for another show...(oo..oh..they are going to a resort. next week.to celebrate the winning of real academic..awards..give away..etc..emm..this one parents are not welcome...sob! sob!..)

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And on that very night also, A*stro had live telecast of M*lam Sehati Bedansa... theme- Special tribute to Sudirman with a touch of 1Malaysian dance as well....

My admiration towards late Sudirman...has brought me to love all his songs...especially those old where I grew up listening to..

Amongst the song I like..( well too many to write down actually...) is Bila Hati terpikat...and I am sharing this below video..performed by Didie and her partner..a superb energy!..a great dance..for a great song!..and the commentator was sharp and honest!

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Nov..ember...yes! and Raihan- Haji

Its November of the year again...kids' school are finishing..and few things creep into my mind...hang on there...why worry...

And like every where, tv and radio for example....showing the matters about Haj...Mecca...and those going..hopes for those who are going to go....

My DH is so keen lately on watching all documentaries ....

"WE should pray...for Allah's Mercy..for best health and 'rezeki'...make it easy for us and those wishing to go..."

And suddenly this Raihan's song attracts my attention so much so that I can't resist to share it in my blog:

Wishing all my blogger friends out there..in fact everybody who's going to Mecca this year...insy'a'Allah...Haji Yang Mabrur..Bon Vovage..dan Kenang Kami Dalam Doa Kalian...

References dan Doktor

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I had been addicted to my fb...reconnected with many long lost friends..exchanging stories...viewing photos..and comments.....yeah..u laugh..makcik duduk rumah macam I...this is amongsts chances nak chit chat ngan kengkawan....boleh belanja makan2..virtually u know!..and it does switch off the stress button somehow....

My addiction to fb however has brought me to know some people whom I was so shy to talk too...esp all those successful people outthere..and for example I found Prof Dr MUhaya...( my super-duper senior of stf..)..and she had written a book which I hope I cd get to buy....oh and she has her own blog here

And I know this book is going to be favoured by many out there who inspire to be a doctor...for parents...for makcik2 like me yang rase sangat kagum dengan mereka yang berkeupayaan ..fardu kifayah for us...wanita-wanita...

Infact.my gynae at G*mbak M*edical c*entre had asked one of my daughters.if any of them wanted to be a doctor..Dr M*rsita Mansur said..we need more woman doctors lah dear..and i should encourage my angles if ade yang menunjukkan minat..well...I am not good with science...even if i scored straight 'A's for my general science subject...(hee...rase kecil sangat dengan those my frens who carried around books of pure bio, kimia dan fizik....). masa form 4 and 5 at my former school..I still think pure sciences drive me crazy..and not sure either if in me ade tak keturunan pakar sains...wallahualam...

And if I am being ambitious... I don't know..but dalam hati Allah saje yang tahu....

Byeee..you all..have a nice weekend....I have another week to tengokkan my daughters revision...( my primary kids baru je habis pereksa skolah agama..then sekolah kebangsaan..) end of next week...yes!....spring cleaning of the house..lall.alla.....la...and jalan-jalan cari makan!....yeepie...

My dear..oo..my dear...bawak lah kita jalan2...eemm..ade bajet tak?...rumah tumpangan Ah Tong yang murah2 and safe... boleh ape?....

When my 'friend' comes..

My friend has not visited me since the birth of my little man..and I love to think it's because of me 'bf'eing my boy..

And normally when my friend come..I wd go a little 'hay-wire'...yeah..perhaps that kind of pms thing...and due to that...I wd request for a little bit ofextra rest..and somebody will hae to take over the duty of me - 'you are my everything'.

Late last night, I prepared the ingredients for tomorrow's breakfast..and put into the freezer..so that come tomorrow tidaklah terkocoh2..what more if my boy suddenly bangun, merengek...etc..

Somehow or rather when I woke up...the 'cekodok pisang' has been cooked and nicely served on the table...lazy me!

(I remember saying and salam2 my two kids before they went off to sekolah agama..and ter'tidoq balik...eemmm..must be the effect of that 'pain-killer' and 4 times bangun memalam kasi susu pada baby...)..

Then later my two kids balik dari sekolah agama.And ...

Maryam : " Mama, masak ape?..emm..ade lagi tak cekodok tadi?siapa yang masak"

Mama:..ohh..ade orang le tolong mama masak tu!

Maisarah" Sedap lah kue yang Sarah bawak bekal tadi.kawan sarah pun suka..pandai orang yg masak tu."

HEEEeeeee.......tak aci!..Lembu punya susu..sapi dapat nama!...

Aik..siapa yang lembu ..siapa yang the other one?.....siapa?..siapa?...orang bunian yang masak?

There goes the smile in my heart.....who Else?..thx dear!

Hati-hati...

Hujung minggu lepas, kami lawati beberapa rakan dan destinasi terakhir adalah menghantar Kngah balik ke asrama..

Kami selalu melalui kawasan pusara itu (sebelum sampai ke Maahad Hafiz, Jeram)..Sementelaah, anak2 biasa menemani kami ke pusara atuk dan nenek mereka..

Entah tiba2 terdengar anak saya berkata:

"Mama, nanti kalau mama meninggal, Sarah kebumi mama kat sini?"kata Sarah

"Eh! Jgn..nanti jauh sangat kita nak datang lah Sarah.."kata Maryam

Mama hanya berdiam..entah kenapa tiba2 terasa ade air bergenang di kelopak mata..

"Mama, kalau Sarah?..nanti mama jgn sedih tau!kalau boleh, sarah nak dalam bulan ramadhan..sebab ustaz kata, nanti terlepas seksa kubur..err..."

Mama:"Insya'Allah, kita tak tau di mana dan bila, juga siapa pergi dulu lah Sarah"

Maisarah: :"Assalamualaikum ya Ahli kubur!"..kedengaran suaranya dari belakang kereta sejurus kami melewati kawasan perkuburan di Jeram.

Maisarah:"Hati-hati dengan Mungkar dan Nangkir!:..

Mama terkedu dan tersenyum juger..(dalam hati..ade-ade je Maisarah!..ternyata masih banyak lagi yang kamu harus tahu anakku!)

Maisarah & Maryam: " Mama, kitorang kena hafal tugas malaikat untuk pereksa skola agama..betul kan ma?"

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“Sesungguhnya pada kejadian langit dan bumi, dan pada pertukaran malam dan siang, ada tanda-tanda (kekuasaan, kebijaksanaan, dan keluasan rahmat Allah) bagi orang-orang yang berakal. (Iaitu) orang-orang yang menyebut dan mengingati Allah semasa mereka berdiri dan duduk dan semasa mereka berbaring mengiring, dan mereka pula memikirkan tentang kejadian langit dan bumi (sambil berkata): “Wahai Tuhan kami! Tidaklah Engkau menjadikan benda-benda ini dengan sia-sia, Maha Suci Engkau, maka peliharalah kami dari azab neraka” [Aal 'Imraan 3: 190-191]

Few things in October 2009

So my eldest finished her PMR last week and I was worried to death...(macamlah nak pi perang Badar ke ...ape ke)...Had prayed days and nights...Insya'Allah KLong Tembam...Usaha, Doa , Tawakkal...(that's our magic phrase, remember..)...And di sini punya lah tunggu bila lah si Tembam tu nak tepon....and At last a simple message came thru my fb....."Mama..., Kakak dah habis exam...."..hah hahh..so I know she is living safe and sound, alive and kicking....Ok....now she'll be busy at her school with all those performing arts session....
( P/s:..Kak..boleh kurus balik kan?....ye lah..all the jogging and warming up session...termengah-mengah...lose few pounds eh?)...Miss u my one and only Bambina..

And we had also acompanied my Sister in Law to KLIA to send away her hubby..
( my brother - itu si Ch'Mok..) to Libya..shian ni..take care ok...and ade picture lah ( thx to Ch'Da):..Sayang isteri...tinggal..tinggalkan...apparently Ch'Da is 7 months preggo...kena tabahkan hati tu Ch'DA...


(From left: Ch'DA, Maryam & Maisarah kat depan , me and muhammad mikhael ,my hubby...)

And Syawal also has come to an end.. with me tak sempat habiskan puasa enam....eemmm...completd few days..but then I had this severe cough..yeap..too much of biskut raye..rendang segala...( or was it the Susu Kambing which I had just started consumed some five days ago....eee...anybody minum susu kambing ..ade side effect kah?...)
We managed to attend few open house..with few also came over....and so the balang for all kueh raya dah kosong...kenalah letak dekat snki...basuh dan simpan untuk tahun depan..haha..haha...cam tu je Raye?..Again hajat hati nak jemput ramai kawan dan sedara..and masak extra dish..tapi kudrat tak daya...macamana tu?...And my cousins had hinted long time ago.."K.Eta, can we come 5 cars (12 adults and twelve kids..) and serang ur house?..."....alamak....jemput2 tepung buleh ?...but its ok , if any of you my blogger friend....kalu nak dtg...mari le....

And my hubby had asked a contractor to fit 'safety' gate at few places in my house..Ini kerana si kecil bujang itu..sudah merayap-rayap, panjat tangga (kunun adventure la tu)...masuk toilet...
Once Kak Maryam lupa nak tutup pintu toilet..lepas balik skola..and berlari-lari masuk toilet tanpa disedari ade sikenit mengekori..maka terdengar jerit pekik....

"Mikhael!..Jgn Mikhael, Jgn masuk jgnMasuk Mikhael!..Jgn!....Mikhaeeeeeellll...mama......."...suara Maryam memecah keheningan waktu nak Maghrib

Mama kat dapur bawah terpinga-pinga ...ape lah yg sibuk kat atas...

And then....
"waaa....."..my little man nangis ..agaknya terkezut sebab kakak dia terpekik-pekik..
Ok now fence are fixed..good thing..senang kerja saya..but on another thing....aduhai..kena langkah-langkah..dalam rumah pun ade hurdle...ape nak buat....lagi beberapa tahun..kasi angkat jual itu besipagar...err..ade sape nak chop?

So...come end of October..exams for Skolah Agama for Maisarah and Maryam...enmm...dah longgar..longgar....bila nak ulangkaji..

And of course..November shall peep in...wth exam for Masturah...and the above two (sekolah kebangsaan)...and who's going to remind them..oiiitt..belajar oiii..belajar...Me as usual?..

Thats about it...it is quite difficult nowdays to sit in front of pc...( kekadang to jenguk fb...etc..) my little man seem to need my attention all day..but until dia tidoq...emm..heaven..some time I just wish...ade quick and instant assistant..like a bibik for exmple...
"Bibi..pergi dapur and cook something?..or do that?..or do this?...sigh..I

At times, i d be so bothered with Md Mikhael merengek2..hatta to do business in toilet pun macam kena tahan2 tunggu dia tidoq....well thats' life..ingat senang ke nak jaga anak..but my late mum survived..and so did others..Sabar je lah...I must sabar, mustn't I??

And oo why si Kak Ngah just called..:"Mma, nak spend overnight umah kawan this Friday..umah dia ade buat kenduri..bla.bla.."
And mama said "No"..Sorry Kngah..this is not the time u nak tidoq-tidoq umah orang..furthermore mama tak kenal dgn ur fren's mum..( oo..yes,,we'd met masa ambik report card..tapi kami tak sempat berborak..een though mama had few timws tried to make eye contact??!!)..."Eh!..Kngah, are u suppose to do ur revision and we had brought u balik rumah last weekend?"
Ape daa...sendiri tau jawapannya..masih nak telepon mama..( with ur friend clinging at the other end of the phone..)..and when I asked why nak pi tidoq umah dia..
Kngah kata kawan dia nak tunjukkan skrip yg mak dia buat....Say What?..Skrip amendenya?perlu kah?..and why on earth tak tepon ayah saje...?...he he..ish..ish macam2 ..an dI said gd bye to Kngah..allowing her to follow her friends to outing on Sunday..but..no..no...overnight k...( nape lak me sound like berleter??/)

And I still have few things unsettled....bills?. exam question papers?...house chores?....ingredients for some cakes/biscuits?...ape lagi?....

Nice day you all...Selamat berhujung minggu..

Dan sebagai santapan mata, terimalah gambo raya kami yang tak seberapa ini:

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Salam Aidilfitri 2009

Alhamdulillah..1 syawal (Aidilfitri) has passed..so does the celebration....nothing much though..except for usual cooking, usual visits to aunt's house..and tv and eat and sleep and worry about the meals throughout the holidays...

Had tried one new recipee..Laksa Johor....kids love it..and hingga menjilat jari..( walupun tak cukup sayur mayur...bantai aje daa...)

To Jb on Friday and overnight at another aunt's house..

Prior..Singgah Sepang and Port Dickson...In- laws..in- laws...

To Kota Tinggi..Hubby's side...

Sent KLong....(Bye Dear..all the best for your PMR)

Back to Rawang on Sunday....singgah Pj...in-laws and mother in Law...

To Jeram...sent Kngah...and who says I cd hold on to my tears..even Maisarah was crying...

And where are my photos????how come this year raya got no photo???...aiyooo..tak sempat upload kah?

But wait..amongst many photos..I like this one best...


1)p/S:..I still miss being pampered by my late mum's cooking...on pagi raya...


TO all my blogger friends..Happy Hari Raya....yeepiee...

Farewell..

If it wasn't The Almighty who had made it easy....

Then for sure I'll miss that last moment...

Unsure whether it's worth travelling down south, i had managed to seek guidance from Him..

Without further delay..I straight away packed all the things necessary..with time and again seek opinion or rather green light from my hubby...."should we go?"...when?..how?..What are the plan..if this happened?..or what to do if that happen?...wd we be able to reach there in time?...

Gosssh...Only Allah knows my woes...

Prior to departure, my hubby had googled for some route in jb ( as we 'r not familiar with many).We had called several clinics and private hospital asking for home doctor..but none available...and in case needed, we had jot down few phone numbers, like ambulance and nearest clinics/hospitals...(entah lah...we just did what we thought sensible..)..After subuh, off we went to fetch KNgah at Kuala Selangor..eemmm..I had not had my sleep..so ter tido2 gak dlm perjalanan.Finally we reacxhed Jb around 1 pm.

There I saw my grandfather....weak..restless...eyes shut...thirsty too..I think!.

I have seen this kind of gestures...few hours before both my parents passed away...but nothing is sure..nothing...albeit many signs....no exact 'hadith' to support my thinking..just a normal..kebetulan..or kebiasaan orang melayu...

Datuk cdn't eat for the past two days..little fever....that's what my aunt told me..and kept telling to my aunt before the collapse that he did see like somebody is watching at him..so what wd u think?...

After solat zohor me and hubby recited the 'Surah Yasin'...time and again I called for his name...he was weak...but his eyeball were busy behind his lids..( Sakaratul Maut?..I am in denial...) and since my aunt said she's probably taking my datuk to S'pore next morning..so I thought , i'd better go and fetch my eldest nearby who's busy with the PMR trial..Meanwhile Little Mikhael is restless too...

No more words..and jokes...syukur I visited him last July in my last entry here...Well..we've missed each other for some 9 years..He last wrote to me in 2004..conveying his state of health...

( here are some pictures of our last visit..)

And why Mikhael is so restless..tak moh pandang datuk...













( (The only gambar yang datuk facing the camera...)












Everybody tengok camera yang maksu ambik..Mikhael sorang pandang pada Ayah punya hphone...







While KLong was so emotional...( dia rindu pada neneknya more than words cd ever say..)

And KNgah..as usual the loving smile...
..eemmm...nampak macam datuk nangis..mungkin masa ni my aunt kata kat my datuk yang my mum dah lama meninggal...





On the way to Larkin from Tmn Rinting..my aunt called...saying datuk seem to be having difficulty in breathing..So I straight away call ambulance and requested my second to accompany my aunt to the Hospital Pakar I*mail...while me hopefully be granted permission by my eldest pengetua..nak bawa K.long keluar jap...and I told my aunt to stay calm ..and Insya'Allah we shall meet at the said hospital..

While I was busy at my eldest's headmister's office..my grandfather is fighting for his last breath..( Later when asked..my second said..it was painful mama...kesian tengok atuk...and my second was there with my datuk inside the ambulance....she actually had felt a swift breeze of cold air.enough to naikkan all the bulu roma....oo..Malaikat Izrael?....)..and he stopped breathing...Innalillahi Wainna.Ilahi Rojiun.....tepat jam 4.44 petang, hari khamis 20 Ramadhan..10 Sept 2009....( same time with my late mum...in Ramadhan too..)..He was 86..

We reached at the Hospital only to be greeted by my aunt..tearfully...and I saw him motionless on the bed...I bid farewell too....Alhamdulillah Datuk..ini bulan yang mulia..tamatlah sudah segala penderitaan..kesengsaraanmu..mudah2an datuk ditempatkan bersama para syuhada..para solihin...

After the 'normal' preparation and procedure..datuk was brought to my uncle's house in Spore ( not easy procedure though! but since some of m uncles had insisted...so datuk pun dibawa lah ke Singapura..for burial next morning...and we just stayed at my aunt's house in JB..the house was quiet..solemn....solemn....sad...( tak de pasport laa...)

A loss which shall take time to heal...

And I am still in 'unexplained' mood....

Few days back, I had mentioned to my hubby..lets celebrate this raya in Jb with him..but the plan now has to be changed...eemmm...

I have learnt and read about 'Sakaratul maut'..and this subject has been close to my heart since the demise of my parents....interesting topic..all humankind shall go through..

Mudah2an kita semua dipermudahkan di kala saat2 sakaratul...Mati itu pasti..tetapi..selagi hidup..berjuanglah..beribadahlah....carilah kebaikan...kita tidak tahu bila maut akan menjemput...

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1) Photos extracted..taken during our last visit( me, K.Long, K.Ngah and Mikhael..)..some time datuk wd smile..some time he cries...

2)Writer is wishing Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all her blogger friends...

September oo.. september

Since early this year..I have marked this month....and of course month of October itself ( for my eldest to sit ofr her big exam - PMR).

Entering 40+ this year and today half way through Ramadhan...

Alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..16 years of marriage...still learning..still learning...

Masih terkial-kial nak rebut peluang Jutawan di dalam Bulan ramadhan...keredhaan Ilahi..insan taqwa..

Masih terkial-kial menyudahkan jahitan sarung sofa...(not from a profesional look but enough to ganti the old 16 year's look)..thx a lot for the basic SRT learnt!

Masih mencongak-congak bila dapat membuat sedikit biskut raya kegemaran anak2..tempahan kueh tat abang...kek lapis....entah le...

Sepasang baju raya yang dibeli untuk anak2 ade yang nak kena 'ubahsuai'....yang panjang kena dipendekkan...eemm..bila agaknya..

Ramadhan kali ini sedikit berbeza...

Kehadiran Md Mikhael...my little man...memenuhi waktu santai...

Maisarah dan Maryam..tidak banyak kerenah bersahur , berpuasa dan berbuka...

Munirah dan Masturah...dengan tugasan mereka...

Memohon kekuatan dari Ilahi..untuk dipermudahkan segalanya..segalanya...Ameen..

Mohon keampunan dari Ilahi atas dosa2 lampau...

Mohon dimakbulkan doa...Ameen..Ameen...

Alfatihah untuk ke dua arwah orang tuaku ...

Hello..

Waa...so long no see...no write....no story...

NO INTERNET!!! ( almost 3 weeks..on and off...and u boleh imagine serba tak kena dibuatnya...like u r missing smethig..or rather tak bubuh perisa dalam masakan......)

Called tm..several times...some times managed to get the people..sometimes...tunggu punya tuggu..dpt cakap sekejap..tetiba line putus..entah ape-ape kan!...

Meanwhile..without internet..managed to clean the fridge...some thing spilt over..and nobody cares to bersihkan..bila tanya..sape yang tumpahkan ni...tak dak sape nak ngaku...mcm2 sisa..keropok, gula lolipop separuh habis,..butter dah luput tarikh,,,cili dah kering..dan segala..see I tell you....entah sjak bile peti ais ni terbiar.....( adoi mak..ponat den oii!!...)..and again..keep re-arranging the perabut and stuff kat ruang tamu...entah berapa kali punya position...

(Initially just trying to seek cause..sebab tetiba ade agas berterbangan kat rumah...even dmn tudung saji..oo..lupa..lubang kat tudung saji takcukup kecik untuk depa..issshh!!!....mana dtg depa ni??..Spray/ubat nyamuk....tak jalan daa...arang, soda, daun pandan serai segala....Hello! heloo!..father of my kids...AGAS NAK BUAT CAMANA EK???.)

So today..briefly..sempatla..jenguk few of my fren's blogs....jenguk fb...chek and delete yahoo email...pheww...

Kids..2 orang kat rumah duk pulun belek-belek ...selak-selak buku..Ujian Ogos...
M2 - pulun dgn Ujian Ogos....akademik dan ngajinya....
M1 - percubaan pmr

And My baby boy...dah mula nak bertatih....( and tolong!..anakku..pinggang mak ni dah penat naklayan kamu bertatih.....so clingy Mikhael oii...)...age factor limits my 'pergerakan;..and at times I just surrender..and bagi lah dia ape saje..asal tak tercekik!...O Tuhan...gie me strength..

Had tried cuba puasa sunat nisfu syaaban..aduhai..haus tekak..lemah badan...( Eh!..ustaz kata ibu2 yang menyusu tidak diharuskan puasa...wah!..best!...tapi berapa lama nak ganti pulak???)

and ..Ramadhan nak tiba..yeepiee.....best!..

bYE YOU ALL....

Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Ustaz Asri - Rabbani...

p/s:.Sakit sendi segala..itu baru bersihkan peti ais dan ubah perabut....nite nite..

Topeng ? Ape itu H1N1?..Moon

Came back yesterday evening from school.. saw Maisarah with the mask...

Mama: Eh! Mana dpt ni Sarah?

M3: CIkgu kasi ma..percuma..suruh pakai..Selsema Ba Alif Ba Ya...(Oppss..kita tak leh sebut yg itu ma..sebut khinzir...)

Mama: Emm..banyak le stok cikgu...( Dan rase pelik..kenapa tiba2 macam satu peristiwa besar lak..oho..oh..nak kena awas kah?..habis camana nak gi jln2 bawak baby?...H1N! telah menular???)

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About 645 pm..Maryam came back ..also pakai mask hijau..(Aiish..mcm scene dalam bilik kecemasan hospital la pulak?...)

Maryam: Ma..ok Tak Yam pakai ni?..Cikgu bagi..suruh pakai?..

Mama:..(Nak ambik hati anak....belek2 lah topeng tu..)

Maryam:..Ma, kita kena pakai selalu kata cikgu dan pakcik Bas...sebab penyakit selsema H1N1 tu dah dekat..

Mama:..Huh?....dah nak dekat?...alamak....(bukanke dah lama kempen..ape yg dekatnya..?)..okay..nanti esok tanya cikgu..ade jual lebih tak?...nak kasi kat baby..boleh?..

Maryam:.Maa..tak yah le tanya cikgu..ma ajakle ayah pi Mydin...pot pet..pot.pet...

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If the H1N1 that serious...then..nak keluar rumah pun rasa cemas juger...luckily, My car's battery dah flat...plus..lesen memandu dah expired..waa....a. ..good excuse.....tak yah drive..
Tetapi...tengok resources dlam freeze dan almari..alamak..replenishment..siape nak tolong ni?..Tolong??..

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Moon, Kami doakan semuanya ok..jgn risau sgt pasal minor operation tu....insya'Allah..Berdoalah anakku...mohon yang terbaik...Aduh..rase nak pi Jb lagi......Ayah.bawak kita pi jb weekend ni?..

(Yeap..Moon just had ultra sound scan at JB's gen Hospital.. radang kelenjar?...a possible minor opeation?..me am waiting for the warden's update....)..aduhai...

Yasmin Ahmad - ..Ne Me Quitte Pas, 51 stress??

Untuk ramai orang..nombor 51 hanyalah satu nombor..tunggal...dan biasa-biasa saja

Untuk saya..nombor 51 menyaksikan pemergian beberapa tokoh seni yang terkini...contoh: Michael Jackson dan Arwah Yasmin Ahmad..lagenda seni tersohor...
( terdahulu ..saya kira Arwah Sudirman pun pergi awal....)

Untuk saya ..kebetulan..nombor 51 mengingatkan saya juga kepada arwah bonda....yang juga meninggalkan kami ketika Allahyarham berumur 51..hampir kepada 52....kerana barah usus...

Satu sahaja teori yang saya suka kaitkan antara mereka bertiga..adalah keupayaan dan tenaga yang luar biasa di dalam bidang masing-masing...yang mereka kerah..dan kerah...ibarat lilin menerangi bumi...berkorban ape saja demi merealisasikan kehendak, cita-cita sendiri..ya..mungkin juga untuk orang lain...ape yang saya boleh katakan mereka ini..telah ditakdirkan pergi dahulu..Allah sahaja yang tahu..kenapa mereka dipanggil awal...Mungkin itu yang terbaik..untuk mereka..dan juga untuk orang2 lain...

Saya teringat pada petikan buku Tok Guru Hadi (Mursyidul Am- Pas)..dalam salah satu buku persediaan mati.....
"Sesungguhnya mati itu ibarat..kerehatan daripada ape saja kesukaran..kesakitan..di dunia.."..

Jesteru..apakah kita tahu kesukaran, kegelisahan yang melanda jiwa2 di atas..Wallahualam...

Saya tidak berapa mengenali Michael Jackson (yang dikatakan telah memeluk Islam...???)dan Yasmin Ahmad secara peribadi..hanya sempat menonton, mendengar..hasil karya seni...tetapi umum mengkagumi mereka...Alfatihah...

Tetapi saya sempat mengikuti..menyaksikan..jerih payah seorang wanita...membantu suami mencari nafkah...ini mak lakukan setelah ayah pencen..(berjualan sarapan di gerai waktu pagi dan petang di sekolah agama..)...membesarkan anak2...cucu2...dan akhirnya rebah pada penyakit barah..itu hanya penyebab...tetapi saya pernah mendengar rintihannya tatkala stress yang terlampau tinggi..:"Ta..Mak rase penat sangat...tapi apa kan daya....?

Antara makanan yang mak akan sediakan:
A)Makanan Berat: Mee goreng, Kue teow goreng, Bihun goreng, Nasi empit -kuahLontong,-kuah kacang, Roti jala dan Kuah Kari..(kekadang ade nasi lemak dan laksa)
B)Kueh goreng : Karipap, Cucur badak, Cucur pisang, Keria
c)Kueh lembut: Talam, Kueh lapis, Kueh Bakar, Kueh Bengkang, Seri Muka, Koleh Kacang..

( Tapi.sayang..seribu kali sayang..saya tidak sempat belajar kebanyakan menu masakannya..her speciality include kek lapis sarawak dan kueh tat yang sgt lazat)

Menu di atas adalah satu kemestian di atas meja jualan...persiapannya...ooh..oh..tanya saja pada adik2...dapur berkecah..hihi!


Entah mana datangnya kekuatan arwah Mak..selama bertahun...(dengan ayah sebagai pembantu khas.....kekadang adik beradik..)..dan kadang2 ambil tempahan 'catering'..serta jualan kueh kek biskut raye...Tuhan saje yang tahu..

Dan apabila mengenang Yasmin Ahmad..tiba2 saya teringat pada satu lagu 'background' adengan slot dalam filem Mukhsin..."If u go away..(Ne me quitte pas..)"...(Oh..oh.jangan tanya saya tentang spanish atau French..walupun sempat belajar Bahasa Perancis dari tingkatan 1 - 3..tapi semata-mata untuk penuhi syarat sekolah..maka yang tinggal di dlm ingatan sisa-sisa bahasa...seperti merci beaucoup!!...terima kasih banyak!)

Lagu asal nyanyian Ne Me Quitte Pas dari Mr Jacque Brel.(1947).kemudiannya saya petik dari video Dutsy. Springfield (1967)..Kalau tak silap ,saya pernah mendengar arwah mak menyanyi lagu itu semasa saya kecil..tatkala ayah membuka radiogram....Oh..kenangan..( Arwah Mak sangat pandai menghafal lirik lagu inggeris..biarpun tidak tamat persekolahan...kerana memberi laluan pada adik2nya..)




Saya juge teringat pada kawan lama saya, helza, yang telah kehilangan suami pada usia yang lebih awal..Kata beliau..:Beliau membesar tanpa kaseh sayang ayahnya..dan berharap anak2nya tidak menerima nasib yang sama tetapi Allah tahu yang terbaik...saya ade satu post untuknye kelmarin..disini... (to my friend who has lost her husband)
Dan sekali lagi Semuga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mereka2 yang terdahulu pergi..Muslim/muslimat,mukmin/mukminat...

Setiap jiwa pasti akan merasai maut....

Mudah2an kita juga tergolong dalam golongan yang Allah permudahkan cara pemergian....di saat sakaratul Maut...amin....

p/s:..Saya mungkin belum diuji dengan ujian yang lebih hebat....tahap stress saya mungkin biasa-biasa saje...dan saya tahu Tuhan akan menguji hambaNya mengikup tahap kemampuan indiidu tersebut...aduhai..dan saya pasrah!!!Saya harap saya boleh mewarisi semangat hidup dan kekuatan fizikal mental mak...emmm..tetapi pada umur 41 tahun ini..cabut ubi pun payah..macamana tu??..dengar baby melalak-lalak pun pening dan cemas...macamana pulak tu?..

- Dusty Springfield from her tv show in 15 Aug 1967...(belum lahir lagi daa..)..sekadar hiburan....Moonn..mama suka laguni...

A weekend in Johor Bahru

Had spent last weekend in Johor Bahru....to meet 2 purposes:-

1) To meet my grandfather (late mum's side)...82 years old..used to live in Singapore (place where I was born)...now been taken care by my auntie who lives in JB...Alhamdulillah I am so grateful to Allah...I had been praying days and nights..cry sometimes.....longing to meet my dear 'datuk' whom I last met in 2001...for some circumstances..I can't renew my passport..hahah!....and I thought if anything happens to him..I am just 'pasrah'..and at last..we met..with tears....(air mata masih bergenang...bila mengenangkan..a man so strong and lovable..last time..now just lie down..sakit tua...)..we hug each other and said bye-bye...promising to come back..

Terlalu banyak memori bersama datuk..Hj Abdul Wahid Bin Hj Abdullah...
1) He registered my birth
2) He took care of me when my dad was away sailing and mum went to work

3) He brought me sight seeing at Spore town centre on his bicycle (Geylang to Orchard..on a bike in 1970's???)...remember the lion sculpture at the heart of Singapore..yes..we were there...we were there...eating ice cream...etc..

4) He sent me letters, stamps, cards, money, video tape and cassettes....when I was in boarding school and when I was in Portsmouth, even until I am married..last one was written in 2004....none after that becos of his sight and shaken hand...

5) He visited me almost every month (1981-1985) when I was schooling in Johor Bahru..away from my parents who stayed in Labuan and Lumut..imagine...we wd scooped up whatever in the school canteen just to let time pass...things which he wd normally brought..include..apples, kacang dan asam....my favourites..

6)He was my motivator....and still am...

...ooo....as much as I miss talking to both of my parents..I miss talking to him too..due to his bypass surgery..his leg muscle had became weak...diabetic..and I personally think after my mum passed away (1998)..his health began to deteriorate..(nenek pula lebih dahulu meninggalkan beliau pada tahun 1988)...

..and..i am crying while writing this..I keep telling to my daughters..this is your grand dad...(mungkin anak2 tidak dapat memahami rindu seorang cucu kepada datuknya sepenuhnya kerana datuk2 mereka telah pulang ke rahmatullah pada tahun 1996 dan 2002) ..as for me, this is the only datuk I have known coz Tok Wan Shahabuddin had long gone before my parents' marriage...so much memories....I am praying..Allah gives him strength to carry on...he suffers from short term memory loss..sekejap ingat..sekejap lupa..untuk seorang yang biasa menitipkan kalimah Allah..itu adalah satu kesedihan untuknya..infact when we were there..when my auntie berkali-kali kata : Pak..ini Ita...cucu bapak...anak K.Esah.."...the first impression was tears roll down his cheek....and when my aunt mentioned about the demise of my parents..he asked:..Dah meninggal?..Bila.../..followed by tears again...surprisingly..my daughters pun nangis juger...dear all please make du'a for me....for my datuk...

Gambar kenangan bersama datuk : Moon, Mas, Myself and litle Mikhael..Not in pic were Maisarah and Maryam..busy playing with their cousins..and of coz si Ayah tukang ambil gambar...

....well..I am so emotional when I talk about my ancestors..pelbagai cerita kekuatan orang melayu di zaman jepun, komunis dan Inggeris.....( to be continued..)

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2) To see, watch and give moral support to my dear eldest daughter..who's studying in Sekolah Seni JB...She and her form 3 friends shall perform arts production..PRODUKSI PMR 2009 ...for their PMR assessment...well u bet..the hall was full...the people from the Ministry of Education, Lembaga peperiksaan. tetamu vip..para jemputan...etc....dan dewan itu agak panas juger malam itu dengan kehebatan persembahan pelajar..muzik,teater, tarian dan visual...Heartiest Congratulations to everybody who took part...direct or indirectly...a superb and well done....All the best dear...now seni dah habis....concentrate pada PMR academic lak...gd luck for PMR...USaha Doa Tawakkal...(Iss..nak balik Rawang..dia pulak yang nangis beriya....)..
Mun..Billie Jean's Music was superb!!...dan mama masih terpegun dengan kekuatan rakan2mu..

( copy image from her school's web site : who can spot Munirah??...sitting second row from right..hihi!)

On the way to Ch' Nor's house: Mas, Moon, Mak Su Jijot and Mikhael...

Yeah..bergambar dulu sebelum show...maksu, me and Ch' Midah...( perut lapar juger...)


(Moon after her last show:..Come on Datin Jasmin...Come on...)

( Moon with some of her favourie teachers...Sayang Cikgu..berkat anakku!)

( Moon explaining something to her Nenek Midah..while mama attaining ot Mikhael who 's so sleepy.....oooitt..dah pukul 11 malam daaa..)

( Family picture...three boys on the left..my cousins...anak2 Ch' Midah...and us....Mikhael tak moh pandang depan...)


( Ok..in this picture complete Kaum Bani Musa....shian baby..nak tido and K.Mas trying to pujuk him...)

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Had a wonderful journey...tiring but meaningful...

Cdn't wait for another trip to JohorBahru..perhaps...during school break for HariRaya..Insya'Allah....

p/s:..I am in festive mood already.....yeepiee...Selamat Hari raya...Theme Fazidah Jonet...Lal..lala..lala..

Hari 'report card'..dan kecewa..

Perkara ini telah berlaku beberapa kali semenjak saya berpindah ke sini..dan sementelaah..anak2 saya yang dahulunya bersekolah disini..

Pagi itu saya merasa sangat teruja untuk berjumpa dengan guru kelas anak saya..bagi membincangkan prestasi, keadaan dsbnya...namapun hari terbuka....surat juga telah diedarkan kepada anak saya seawal 2 minggu....antara lain kandungan...

"bagi tuan puan berbincang mengenai prestasi pelajar...."..

Tetapi bila sampai di kelas...guru kelas tidak dapat hadir..jadi yang saya dapat jumpa hanya cikgu ganti...

("Nak tanya ape dengan cikgu ganti?..."kata hati)

Jesturu saya beranikan diri untuk bertanya...tentang anak saya..

Cikgu ganti :"Maaf Puan, saya guru ganti...bidan terjun..saya tak boleh beri komen tentang anak puan..yang saya boleh komen tentang satu pelajaran saje...yang saya ajar"

Saya:...Laa....habis tu..dtg tandatangan, serah buku 'adab belajar' dan bayaran yuran...tu je lah...
( dan saya sampaikan perasaan kecewa saya kepada guru tersebut..guru hanya tersenyum sinis!)...bagaimana tentang matapelajaran anak saya yang agak lemah???

Ape la....( saya tidak puas hati!)....#@33335%%6&!~~~"''***&&&@###:(

Atau saya sahaja yang teruja..guru kelas anak saya ade hal lain yang lebih penting!!!grrr....

Sunat Rejab

Sharing...excerpt from tv3's Alkulliyah slot...

Berdoalah...

"Ya Allah..berkatilah kami dalam bulan Rejab ini...dalam Bulan Syaaban Yang akan datang..dan sampaikanlah kami pada Ramadan...amin.."

DOa ajaran Rasulullah saw kepada Muaz Bin Jabal...

"Ya Allah..bantulah aku untuk mengingatiMun,jadikan aku hamba yang selalu mensyukuri nikmatMu dan bantulah aku dalam memperbaiki amalanku..amin...

(.muslimat persatuan penduduk di sini akan mengadakan gotong royong memasak bubur asyura...., diikuti dengan mengacau wajik....emm..seperti tahu-tahu..kehendak teringin...)

PPSMI

..Yeay..Hip- Hip ..Hooray.....

As a mum to a bunch of kids...the above topic has been close to my heart..ever since being a stay-at-home mum......There were times..when my spirit was high..I wd come up with few ideas, strategies..etc..but again..implementation???(yeap.I am questioning myself...again..)..Allah knows best!

To my kids..( 2009- std one, std three, form two and form three..).come 2012..whomever concern...year one..year four..form one..form four..all the best....study hard..study smart...

To Baby Mikhael...kita ade beberapa koleksi buku matapelajaran Sains dan Matematik dalam Bahasa Melayu (mungkin ade banyak lagi tapi baru bulan lepas mama kumpul dan jual kepada surat khabar lama...emm..ingatkan takkan perlu lagi buku versi bahasa melayu..)dan Inggeris..pilih..pilih....( Oooiii..ayah..tapi silabus mungkin berubah....makanya...kita perlukan kecairan modal di sini...)

Nice weekend you all..USAHA*DOA*TAWAKKAL....

p/s:..Writer just celebrated her recent 41th Bday..Alhamdulillah...

Saya gembira kalau anak saya faham dengan mata pelajaran Sains dan Matematik..itu yang penting!...anak2 seperti menjadi bahan ujian..(itu pandangan saya..)..seperti juga anak saya yang belajar di sekolah seni....

Di telan mati emak..diluah mati bapak..

Tajuk sedemikian....petikan peribahasa orang melayu lama...

Habis sudah cuti sekolah..tunggu lagi...

Cuaca agak panas...

Idea juga juga kering ..kontang...walaupun ade banyak kesah yg ingin ditulis...cuma tidak ade mood penyampaian ..dan olahan..

Rindu pada bicara kawan2..

Berhenti di sini...

Peperiksaan dan sesuatu yang gusar..

Oooo...ambik masa sket dari kerja2 rumah....

Malam ini..(setelah berbincang serba sedikit tentang ape yang nak dilukis untuk periksa subjek seni esok)..anak2 saya tidor lena...letih sepanjang musim peperiksaan..agaknya.....

Dan terus terang saya juga keletihan...ingin saja menjerit ke sekian alam....ooo..Tuhan...usahaku tidak setinggi mana...harapan dan perancangan tidak dapat direalisasi sepenunnya...(sedikit kecewa kerana ayah tidak berada di paras yang sama dalam memerhati anak2 membuat latih tubi...barangkali ayah punyai sebabnya yang lebih 'prioriti'...saya akur...)

Berbicara tentang 'prioriti'..saya suka merujuk kepada bait-bait penulisan, huraian dan penerangan Prof Yusuf AlQardawi..melalui bukunya 'Memahami Keutamaan'...

Gusar dari sudut mana?..Entah ?...tapi yang saya pasti..anak2 seperti tidak tahu ape yang hendak di ulangkaji jika tidak dipimpin..sampai bila?..pasti saje saya teringat zaman sekolah..tidak ade sesiapa yang memimpin..habis buku tulis..buku teks saya baca..mungkin arwah ayah ade sesekali menjenguk..dan arwah emak meninjau-ninjau..tapi nyata untuk keputusan2 yang saya perolehi sepanjang zaman persekolahan..saya pasti tiada siapa yg akan menolong ..kecuali diri sendiri..kenapa agaknya?..atau saya yang memanjakan mereka...?..

Paling klimak kegusaran ini apabila menunggu anak saya M3 menyelesaikan masaalah kira-kira..iya untuk anak saya M4..dia ade tahap keyakinan yang tinggi..mungkin juga dia fokus di kelas..(alhamdulillah..) lalu dia saya biarkan tidor awal...manakala M3..masih lagi terkial-kial..saya buntu...saya belek buku teks..buku aktibiti..buku tulis...seperti ade jawapan ..Terus terang saya seperti tidak menyukai cara penyampaian...silabus..mungkin...saya tidak tahu apakah saya sorang merasa demikian..saya mula menjiwai ...menyusuri mereka2 yang mungkin ada anak seperti anak saya..yang tidak berapa laju...dalam menguasai bahasa inggeris..lalu menyelesaikan masalah matematik..menjadi beban...saya kira malam tadi saya banyak bersabar...saya pasrah!..

Kekadang saya reingat pada peristiwa M3 jatuh tangga hingga terpaksa berjahit dahi..ade kesankah di situ pada tahap konsentrasinya...(kerana saya juga pernah jatuh ..berjahit juga dahi.)..

Ssaya juga teringat tatkala M3 sakit telinga dan kami terpaksa membawanya bertemu pakar telinga..dan apabila ujian sound dibuat pada telinga kanan..dia hanya boleh menangkap bunyi 95-98%..adakah ini mengganggu juga...Saya bersangka baik dengan Allah..pada banyak tragedi hidup...

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Saya tidak ade ilmu khas di dalam bidang perguruan...(saya mungkin pernah bercita-cita menjadi guru...tapi banyak kali permohonan untuk KPLI atau DipEd...ditolak.maka saya rase..saya tidak ditakdirkan menjadi pendidik secara formal!..lalu saya cuba bidang audit dan akaun..dan saya jalan terus ..sehingga saya keletihan dengan pelbagai cabaran..saya lemah dengan 'multi tasking'!)

Ssaya ajar anak saya seperti mana saya belajar dulu..mungkinkah perlu pada teknik baru...zaman sudah berubah?...saya lihat anak saya juga lemah dalam membuat ayat yang mudah..baik bahasa ibunda..apetah lagi B.INggeris...tidak cukup latihan..tidak cukup latihan....(di sekolah..di rumah...) akhirnya itu yang saya temui sebagai jawapan...dan saya akan pastikan berlaku pada hari-hari mendatang...insya'Allah...

Untuk anak2 saya yang telah bersekolah menengah yang tinggal di asrama...hanya doa yang saya dapat sisipkan...cubalah berusaha bersungguh-sungguh..walupun tanpa pemantauan..mama berharap kalian tahu tugas sebagai seorang pelajar...sebagai seorang anak bangsa..sebagai seorang muslim sejati...

Dan anak-anakku..perjalanananmu masih panjang....pandai-pandailah membawa diri..jika diditakdirkan hayat kita berpisah awal...kerana..mama tidak akan selalu dapat membantu..usahalah...ikhtiarlah..berdoalah..sesungguhnya..Allah pasti mengangkat derjat orang2 berilmu ketempat yang lebih tinggi...

..Hasil nukilan seorang ibu yang risau dengan keupayaan sendiri..

The many times we moved and met new neighbour

I was attending to who else the 'merengek' little prince when I heard those commentators on tv-MHI....'how well do you know ur neighbour'....mmm quite an interesting topic for today's morning..

(but before long..this probably my last post for the couple of weeks...becoz..I need to finish some accounts project..(carik mkn sket-sket lah huh!)..and also..during school holidays..pc's are for kids....tak kisah le tu..janji under supervision...tata!)

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Do yo u know ur neighbours?..their name, work, kids, background..etc?

Why we must befriend our neighbours?..what are the benefit?what rights do they have in Islam?

" A neighbour is a person who resides within forty houses to the right or left, above or below one's house".(Hadith - Tabraa-nii)

Rights: And there are four principles around which a neighbour's right evolve:
1) Not to cause them difficulty
2)Protecting them from one who intends to harm them
3)/dealing with them amicably
4)Tolerating and forgiving their bad temper and rudeness...

Do not harm your neighbour - eg : adultery , theft, abuse, littering..etc

Protect the Neighbour - Our noble Rasul s.a.w describe a muslim as being one who helps and protects a fellow brother, does not hand him over to an enemy, and does not oppress him
( Hadith - Bukhari and Muslim)

Fair dealing with neighbours - (apart from 1 and 2 above )..include condoling at the time of distress, congratulating on happy event, visiting when ill, not raising one's house ( building a higher storey),offering janazah salah on a death..Grant and meet needs for instance ..salt,water tools., respect privacy time..etc

Tolerate the mischief of a neighbour..- Turn a blind eye on a neighbour's errors and shortcomings..To overlook and pardon is to create friendship and intimacy
( Surah Arfusilat 41:34)

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The discussion can go on and on...such an interesting topics..after all we cdn't live alone...jiran itu rezeki..at least they can offer us any kind of assistance when required..vice versa...

I learn how to treat my neighbours most from my own parents..She always remind me though...Buat Baik Berpada-pada...the rest..thru books...thru living in a boarding school..etc..and I had met with many kind of people..most are kind. and helpful..respect ur privacy..but had bitter experience too...

(O..yes my mum always forbid me to eat at sbody's place without her around...and there's once I had to go this mAkcik Leha's ..(mak jugak yg suruh..nakmesin gula..)Then this makcik ajak mkn lunch which I denied many times but later accept and ate happilly after she had convinced me that she won't told my mum...kenyang I balik..Esok...baru balik dr mengaji..dush-dush mak rotan.."kenapa makan rumah orang?"..Of coz dlm terpinga2..dan sgt menyesal ..oo..that makcik jahat!..bukan kah dia yg beriya-iya ajak aku makan?
"Mak dpt tahu dari Makcik Mon, Makcik Leha kata ..anak si Esah tu mcm lapar..kesian:"..my mum screamed...dush-dush..adoi!...yeap Mak sgt garang...mungkin dia tak mahu org lihat kami mcm bangs*t kot!..mungkin jugak dia prihatin..takut kami kebiasaan..manalah tahu...orang tu ration cukup2 utuk family dia saje...Jgn susahkan orang..pesan mak berkali-kali!....dan wasiat itu..aku turun temurun kpd anak2ku....dan wasiat lain-lain)..sebahagian kisah silamku..kekadang rsa mak macam mak tiri pun ade! lebih-lebih lagi bila ayah pi belayar kapal...mak akan jadi sgt garang!

For some I may look very nice lady..softspoken..but had it ever occured to you...

I pernah bergaduh ngan my jiran..(mm..regret it later..)

Oh!..and I pernah tolong meleraikan orang bergaduh..siap berparang-parang..isshh..seriau....dan cakap maki hamunlak tu..ooo....ini zaman ape?...macam canibal lak!...lain kali nampak orang gaduh..tak mau masuk campur la!

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Yes, among those who know us..we are the champion of house movers..haha!..including current, we have moved and moved into several house of different location, different type of housing, different community...for different purposes...and I cd tell you....pindah ain't easy...I was the one who'll paster and paster my husband...."Yang..lets pindah...Yang..jom pindah..I don't like it here...or selalunya..buleh kita pindah kat sket ngan umah mak..."..hihih!...and thus we have met with few people - neighbours..pelbagai ragam juga...

First - it was after we're married...an apartment at Wangsa maju...Sec 2 - 4th floor..with no lift...so peaceful until there's a problem with the kittchen sink...and to cut short..I was heavily pregnant with M1...tak larat nak panjat tangga...I remembered there's the man who wanted to deliver our first TV and washing machine....gosh...I was just speechless when he finally managed to reach our floor..alone....kuatnya orang2 deliver nih!...but one thing I like wangsa Maju..sebab ape lagi dekat dengan Alpha Angle...tak kisah..jln kaki atau kalau malas tunggu teksi...hanya kerana nak makan kat foodcourt dier...(especially masa mabuk - buatan orang!)...Then 2 weeks about to give birth..my mum voluntered to take care of her first cucu...ape lagi.....ibarat mengantuk di sorongkan bantal...lagi pun almost every weekend asyik pi umah Gombak..might as well pindah...Alhamdulillah ade umah sewa dekat ngan umah ayah...tanpa berpikir panjang..bayar deposit..and pindah...woooiissshhh!!...(kisah turun naik angkat barang, pack and search for lorry...hubby's department!)..where neighbours are concerned..tak ramai yg kenal...lagi pun kerja pagi..balik dah malam...Here only about a year..I was with MPAJ then..

Then Taman Koperasi Polis ( near to Taman Melewar/Kg Pdg Balang)..still working...M2 was born. kenal jiran gitu-gitu je..but jiran sebelah kanan rajin angkatkan jemuran..kalu hujan..jiran sebelah kiri pun kerja...petang/hujung minggu sape-sape ala kadar..anak2 yg main sama2...here almost 4 years..Bulan puasa..tukar juadah..Here, almost everywhere I go, people shall know me as anak Mak cik Esah - lontong...Ramai warga tua...From MPAJ , I began to serve Abr*r.

Then desperate to take care of my ailing mum..( one day mak said to me..eh..lets stay together..mak nak pindah...never occured to me she wants to pindah to another world..later baru perasan...so all of us to Taman Setiawangsa..Wah!..2 1/2 storey..mak oii...beautiful scenery cuma public transport tak de..and selalu masalah air...jiran kira China yang memang tak pernah jumpa..(lagi pun duduk sini 4 bulan je)..but sebelah kanan was the house of my ex-A level friend's...khaliDa**ti Kha**d.Baru pindah situ 3 bulan mak passed away..( a month after coming back fr Umrah with me..where I left my hubby and kids..shian ...)haru biru just imagine..2 days before hari raya Jan 2008...On mak's funeral..ade gak a few jiran yg datang...so ayah and me decided to move back to his old house kat Gombak...pindah lagi..

All of us sardined into ayah's house...ayah was happy I think...somebody cd take care of his makan minum...mak su still form 4..and my bro kamal..(orang bujang le.. ke sana ke mari.).since there were only three room and us packed in one room..we decided to move..only nearby...Taman pelangi...which saw ayah almost everyday. on his bicycle.to see his cucu...here tak lama juge..but next neighbour was ok..our kids got along..and we too...until every night ade je bunyi anjing menyalak..dan bunyi entah ape2 kat dapur malam...oo..oo...meh pindah !..I quit Abr*r..became house wife!..I has miscarriage - ectopic preg and had to undergo laparratomy..it was twins...Hubby also had his dengue fever in this house..I had to sell my house in Cheras..(tak sempat duduk pun!). Hubby bought an apartment at Puchong ..(tak tau bila siap..)

Then since hubby moved to tv3..we had to find a house nearby...I had a slow talk with ayah..we found a house at Sg Buloh...Ayah reluctantly let me go..which was quite far for him..difficult to see me and his cucu..I promised..I will visit ayah during weekend kalu tak de hal lain...I joined Irsh*d....kerja balik...imagine from sg buloh to tmn permata....then M3 was born..hectic jam made me want to move..and of coz to be nearer back to my dad...Sg Buloh tak lama juga..almost 2 years..

So..the search begun..sangat bahagia dapat satu rumah sewa di Tmn Koperasi Semula.Every Saturday night a pasar mlm right infront of the house...Playground dekat..Kedai Dekat...My left..chef with M.A.S...selalu dpt mee goreng yang sedap..My right...warga emas..caring..Anak2 start school...Fr some reason I had to quit my job...housewife again...M4 was born.Saw late dad almost everyday..Mcm persitiwa..until ayah sakit..dan akhirnya left us...so my hubby said lets pindah to Puchong..a tiny flat...

Puchong..ok...then since kids have grown up and since there's only one bathroom with kids selalu ganggu ayah's time..:..Ayah!..kiter sakit perut gak....or Ayah!..cepatlah!.."..and my hubby kekadang dengan masih bersabun dan bersyampoo..tapi pakai tuala lah!.terpaksa keluar dr bilik air..yg peliknya..tak pernah lak ganggu mama..haha..sebabb mama garang!!!..also sebab incident M3 jatuh tangga kena tolak ngan ank jiran..berdarah dahi..kena jahit juga..dan kalu balik sbeli grocerries..penat sgt..nak punggah barang!..Here I change job quite few times..from Khalifah at ampang, to Brunel at Jln Sultan Ismail yang sesak tu and then to MMV..an oil manufacturer in Shah Alam...lepas tu..quit lah akhirnye..esp when M1 patah kaki kena tolak kawan jatuh kat skolah..myself operation buang hempedu....mcm2 history...Late 2002- late 2005!...But I miss puchong!..tesco, giant, Jusco...mcm..senang shopping!Now rent to a new married couple...bulan2 duit sewa masuk bank..syukur!
So alhamdulillah we managed to secure a loan..and now at Rawang...best..yeay!

Rawang...currently..ok lah hah..Baru masuk tahun ke 4Jiran sepakat membawa berkat....Yang salah jadi sempadan...Tak baik tak bertegur sape sesama muslim lebih 3 hari..munafik!...m5 lahir!

p/s:..Puchong dan Rawang..dah penat nak tulis banyak..lain kali cerita lah!..Budak kecik tu dah bangun!

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As always my hubby sealu pesan.."Sabar Yang..Jadilah pemaaf..whenever I grumble..complain..and alike.."...Neighbours are human...tolerate their shortcomings."...kan bahagia...happiness ever after.....oo..ok!..

Hair Saloon with Kids..

I stopped going to the hair saloon looonggg.ago....I think last one was when I was in form four kot..sesaje mengada nak kerintin rambut...and it took ages..sampai tertido2..that time..harganya..mungkin less than RM50..kot..dah tak ingat bape..tapi terbang jugaklah duit my late dad....

And it was not the first either...seingatnya..mase kecik2 selalu temankan my late mum gi kedai cina kat Sembawang, woodlands...kerintin, buat rambut dsbnya..especially kalu mlm tu ada party..at Navy Mess...( Jgn tak caya..my mum had once won 'the most glam woman'..and of coz my dad..hidung kembang setaman..)..Kekadang oleh kirana lama sgt my mum wd ask the lady to perm my hair also....rela dalam paksa!..hehe!..kenangan lama..

After that..its either I let my hair long atau guntin sendiri..(percaya atau dak?....)...Why susah?..You only need two mirrors, a sharp scissors, few sepit rambut....snip..snip....never mind..the tinggi rendah..after all..if I wanna go out..nobody knows what....only my hubby and kids..(and siblings...mak su was always the one to notice pun!..)..selalunye deap kata..wokey je!!(..emmm mengampu la tuh!).

But I wanted to tell this incident..it happened last school holidays...eh!..why sikalang mau cerita...eemm..mungkin sebab...perasaan hancus itu dah hilang kot...plus today..my feelings inside is a bit grumpy....so to heal..I feel like writing la pulak...nak keluar shop tak dak bajet!

Why grumpy? I cook but ayah said dah makan..habis tu sape nak makan lauk lebih tu..welll..dileema for me..a stay-home-mum..at least have the courtesy to inform lah kan...normally bf 6 I wd make sure..dinner is ready..kekadang beli je kat pasar mlm...yang penting ade food on the table..becoz I prefer to bathe and get clean before Maghrib...lepas Maghrib..kids must makan...and baca buku..or homework..ape-ape....jelah...I set my own timetable..becoz by nine..I wd prefer just lazy around...bf my boy..and doz offf....or perhaps...internet time...(..pagi tadi tergolek lauk kari dan sayur...teringat mlm semalam..Sarah mengecek nak tambah lauk..tapi aku kata..isshh..simpan sket untuk ayah..tapi rupenya si ayah tak heran pun ngan lauk kari tu..sapa tak grrrrr....isssh!!..jahat!..tak mau kawan!.( and Yang..if you read this..it was not the first time...you know it...and you know I seribu kali memang tak suka..tak suka...selalu buat kita.........hari ini cam nak balas dendam!!!.nanti kau!..haha!..me so evil?...do you I think I dare?..takut tak mencium bau syurga...)

Di telan mati emak

Di luah mati bapak!!!!

I might as well write..lagi pulak si teruna itu tidor....syukur alhamdulillah...heaven!!

O yes..pasal hair saloon tu..

Yeah...that morning...after I got my monthly allowance fr my banker..(who else?.)..I thot..lets bring kids to a hair do today... sch hols treat la kunun..

The 6 of us melilau carik kedai gunting..dari Rawang..sejauh ke SUngai Buloh...( pi Sg buuloh shopping compleks sebab my eldest nak carik tudung and si KNgah nak cari uniform..kawat kaki..etc...)..penant jugak..dah le dukung siteruna itu..then drove back to Rawang..singgah le kat Country HOme...saw a hair saloon...ok..

In we went...greated by a fine lady.."..oo..mau gunting ka kakak?.."

Berapa gunting?

Rm11...so I sangka ok lah..untuk 4 orang..

I sat in one corner...lullaby my boy...time and again tengok all my angles duduk kat kerusi..stand by

Then nyonya tu tanya:.."kak..mau cuci?"

Berapa cuci?

RM13...(oo.oo..ok...skali gunting and cuci..murah gak tu...so I agreed)..

The girls enjoyed being massaged, shampooed...etc..

Nyonya tanye lagi..."kak, rambut kering..kasi minyak dan blow juger?

Berapa tu?

RM4...( o..ok jugak..so I agreed..)

Nyonya lagi...:"Kak, in shampoo utuk kelimumur, bagus untuk anak akak, guna shampoo ni?

Ok...

Then nyonya lagi..:"Kak, ini ade kutu sket..kasi steam, special shampoo...?"

Berapa?

RM 38 untk steam....( I thought the price include sekali gunting and shampoo....so Iagreed..?

And everybody was happy..half and hour jugak kat situ...

Masa nak bayar....cube teka berapa....

No negotiation...shampoo special kena beli (rm35)..sebab dah guna...gunting, cuci, blow, steam, tratment..semua lain-lain harga...Not 2 in one ..etc...

Alamak!!!

Almost RM200.....Is my maths that terrible?...So idiot me? kena tipu kah?..atau aku tak faham nyonya tuh!...sumpah lepas ni...no more visit to kedai rambut nyonya!

Nak marah kat siapa?....bayar je lah terkulat2....( dalam hati rase sannggggggaaattt marah dan terkilan....)..

All girls looked at me....

Mama: "Tak pe lah Yang....best tak..satu hari di kedai gunting rambut?

All replied....Beeesssssstt!!

Do I need to complain then?...Dear Yang...Ampun maaf..A big Mistake..

Malam tu tak tido lena..I lost my allowance cam tu jer..baru bulan lepas ingat nak beli selipar baru..and ingat nak savings sket..kot-kot buleh treat my kids to a special dinner some where..eeemmm...hampeh!!

Lepas tu ikat perut 2 minggu..sardin and telor terkulat-kulat....Law of Economics....Opportunity of Cost...( Kos melepas...in Malay!!)

I abhor the nyonya kedai this mucchhh!!! later when I relay the story to my sister..( who loves to go to hair do...)..Mak su kate..." Kak...dia kelentong akak..."...

p/s:...tapi ade rase cam nak kerintin rambut lately...and kasi 'kaler' sket..kunun nak tutup grey hair....eemmmm...sape nak tulung?...Mana bule buat sendiri kan!

Nice Day you all!..Hope you hae a productie week ahead..and jgn sekali2 blur cam I...pi kedai kena kelentong!

Iklan berbayar , aku punya blog ... dan Novel

Akhir-akhir ini seperti banyak pula cerita-ceriti tentang iklan berbayar...manafaat kepada blogger sekelian..

Atau dalam erti kata sebenar..dan paling menarik perhatian sesiapa sahaja adalah..jutawan internet...

Entah...barangkali aku sahaja yang baru terbuka mata tentang perkara sedemikian rupa...sungguhpun Drirfankhairi telah muncul di kaca mata tv semenjak dua menjak lalu....dan kemudian..macam2 lagi pihak...wah!..Mewah!

Aku cuba-cuba juga menjengok g***le ad**nse...

Kaedah bahasa nya yang rumit atau aku sahaja yang tidak faham-faham..

Tapi yang paling tidak sesuai..kalu keluar iklan-iklan yang tidak sepatutnya..puas gak beberapa kali aku cuba tapis atau 'filter'....tengok2 hak yg tu jugak yang keluar...camtak best kan!..(kalu lah pembaca faham ape yang aku maksudkan...)...ye lah sape tak nak peluang duit masuk dlm poket begitu 'klik' saje...tapi senang kali..pasti aku tidak mau di 'cop'...pengiklan..untuk..si..itu dan si ini...

Sudahnya..'delete' aje....mungkin jika aku dah mahir bab-bab menapis nih...dapat gak mengaut sediki sebanyak hinggit atau sen..nak kena buat kajian nih!...tapi bila?..ni pun tunggu Sang Teruna ku tido...dpt le menjelajah ruang siber...walupun mata dah sekelat kopi cap kapal api!

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Lagi satu...tidakle pernah aku tahu..blog-blog para blogger buleh di sita..atau dlm bahasa Inggeris..suspended....

Waaa..cam suspens gak nih!...

Hinggakan ade yang mencadangkan..tulis aje blog dalam bahasa ibunda kita....atau saje buat blog baru..beralamat http://akupunyablogakupunyasukalah...

Oo...naik sasau lak...di pagi hening begini..sepatutnya tido awal...kemudian menyahut sunah Nabi..Tahajud..ini dak..melayan alam siber....ape da...

Kepada adik-adikku....nak kaya tak?

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Selamat Berhujung Minggu...dan Selamat Hari Guru juga...kepada rakan taulan..guru2 kepada anak2ku..

p/s:..Penulis ingin menyampaikan terima kasih yg tak terhingga kepada mereka2..insan2 yang pernah menjadi guru padanya..secara langsung atau tidaklangsung....dan sudah pasti akan sentiasa mengenang kedua Ibubapanya....sebagai guru paling berharga...Alfatihah...

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.Sedang juga cuba menghabiskan novel :Warkah Cinta Berbau Syurga..oleh A.Ubaidillah Alias.....kepunyaan Klong (di beli semasa pesta buku baru2 ini...dah habis baca masa tinggal kat asrama seminggu sakit mata...)yang tertinggal kelmarin.....(wadus..persis percintaan mama dan ayah..kata anakku!)

Hendak gugur..gugurlah nangka
Jangan menimpa si ranting pauh
Hendak tidur..tidur lah mata
Jangan mengenang orang yang Jauh...

Penulis juga mengagumi buku ini....(khas buat anak2ku....bukan untuk perbandingan..tetapi sekadar menjadi iktibar........Dia Yang Maha Mencipta Dan Berkuasa....)
Catatan Hati Nik Nur Madihah - Rahsia 20A spm..