To You..

And for the sleepless nights...I think let me jot something here,

My 3rd gal shall undergo an operation for her enhanced tonsil..so big that the doctor said they're in stage 4 and as parents, what wd u think?

She has shown the symptoms from her very early age...selsema pagi, mengantuk dlm kelas..berdengkur itu perkara biasa!..(some time same kuat dengan her ayah!) time and again, we had few doctors suggesting to us to consider having her tonsils removed...For us, it sounds horrified..especially to her...tragic the maximum!..

We brought her to see an E-N-T specialist...oo..oo....she was so excited to get to see the inner side of her throat, ear and nose...at least she knows what are the things bothering her for quite some time...Dia dok ingat ade pasir kat dlm telinga lepas berkelah kat Tg Balau last Disember...Itu pasai asyik dok suruh ayah pi korek telinga....and ayah did!..but she still rase tak cukup dengar...So when we went to the specialist, the doctor said the adenoid and tonsils has grown together, hence making the pressure inside her ear became negative, pulling back her gegendang...OOoiisssshhhh..we listened and watched!Some hearing assessment were done and proven...there's problem in there!

Afraid of any further difficult outcome that might come...medical terms like sleep apnea, stop breathing for few seconds at night,recurring sore throat..sickness, sleepy head....low focus in the class....etc...left us with any other choices?...and since recently she mentioned, ade some frens calling her names..(even pakcik van sekolah!..~...Oii!..Pe*ak/ T*uli)..becos she didn't respond in time!..

Actually, I had long realised she was a bit slow in responding...like macam nak panggil dia..(dari tingkat bawah ke atas) macam nak kena jerit kuat sket..And kalau suruh perlahankan olume tv, dia suka nak tengok tv dekat2...
So we think it is about time..and of coz, ayah is busy thinking about the ringgit!

Please make du'a for us my blogger friend...for her operation and speedy recovery...I am hoping she would recover and at least would assist her in her well being and studies!

Mama sayang Maisarah!

Sentimental mood ..

What to doo...

Suddenly being sentimental..saw me listening to all oldies..while catching up with ironing etc..

But sad songs makes one sad also...(he..he..I am missing my big gals again...sob!sob!)..selalunya para2 ibu gitulah..

Well lets hear to some happy tune...Oo..Sudirman?


Or Kartina DAhari?

Taking a long break

Yes, I am..

I have to stop my writings...need to focus on other urgent matter..

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Just discovered my boy is mild asthmatic and my 3rd gal is stage 4 large tonsils+sinusitis....I am Florence nightingale..2 in 1 role..

(Last weekend was a hospital trip..) While M3 was nervous about her running nose and chances of peeping at the innerside of her ears, M5 had his first lung xtray and nebulizer..oowhhh...oh yes, he got that extra attention for his howlingg ....and of course daddy's pocket shrunk!!

Bad news to me too..deactivate my fb account..that's great!..but then..can I live wthout peeping into it?..Ha..ha..nanti ade msg..terlepas lak..

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I might come back to this blog..or perhaps a make-over...or perhaps create another blog...less stories about personal..less openness...more on interest..I don't know..obviously..it is difficult to put in writing nowdays...the madness of expressing....me and my expression...I am mad? Mental?..I am angry with myself or somebody else? Is it fair?Do one voices out?..Or just keep it inside..pretending ?I miss my dad?.Can I not just be calm and relax? I am exhausted?..why ask?

I hate my shortsightedness!!and I hate most, I cdn't focus on my part time accounting work!..Abhor, Double hate, Loath entirely!!!!..Soorryy..all the negative coming out!!

I need laughter!..So if u don't find me here, probably I am out there..finding something to tickle me up..boost the hydrogen level in my mind...

o..oo.. yes, I have this one funny scene ( at least it made me laugh!)..from The Grinch ~Jim Carrey...(Do not forget to 'pause' my music..)




...Sigh...

May tomorrow be a perfect day
May u find love and laughter along the way
May God keeps u in His tender care
till He brings us together again...

Where are my writings??Feb 2010 already?

January 2010 considered gone already..and I am still no where in adding news and about of past happenings..Aiyoo.....sorry my blogger friend and esp to two of my big gals somewhere in Jb and K.S'hgor!... :( .......

how can I explain?

Well , blame on my poor time-management!....to be exact..why so addict to f*cebook????..And some said in the next month, it will require payment...guess by then, I am free fb!..ha..ha..U bet!

Frankly, my little boy now only took about an hour nap, morning and afternoon. I used to squeeze between his nap hours to do the house chores...and surfing the internet..but now, as he has started to go mobile...he got so active whenever he is up and about...there goes my starring at the pc....so how?

tell me friends, what is ur normal productivity hours and span?...

Still, I plan to do a bit housekeeping to this blog..got lots and tonnes of fren's blodgaddress to add...Can i Fit everything in my blog?..blogs I follow, current affair, my srikandis' frens, my other kelakar frens..(yes, I got so many kelakar frens out there...where I blog hop...just to increase the Hidrogen level in my brain...).my cooking, child interest, food fo thot, motivational..and music..all in one??..Well, thats a lotttt!!..

And everytime my hands got on my kLong's laptop ( he..he...Yeap, she got a new laptop from his uncle for her straight A's PMR...so mama tumpang la kakak oiii!)..I click here and there and at the same time feeling much guilty of the long due accounting work I promise my Bro to complete and Abg K*din dah banyak kali bising..oooiii! dah due lah!..satu tahun denda rm 20!....I just can't resist the temptation to be so kepoh of my fb..roaming around comments of others, photos of frens been uploaded!..so whats priority now?...

And then , I still prefer to update my blog at my old desk top...(the only harta yang I ade drpd EPF..remember we cd wdraw monies from epf to buy pc..and then becoz of some culprit..freeze lak akaun epf..entah ape2)..becos..of big screen lah I suppose..Mata saya sudah rabun dekat tahap kronik..and lasik wd cost me a thousand yearsssss...(remember I am a house wife..!..)!..But still and but, itu desk top computer sudah semakin lambat..berapa kali En Mu*sa tukang komputer itu sudah tengok2an itu pc..tapi masih lembab...jadi nak tunggu pc log on...bla..bla.., kekadanag it got jammed or hanged..and even if theres so big tunder, this pc akan kena kilat punya..waa...sgt sensitif pulak!..and I wd have to wait for itu En M*sa Tukang komputer sekali lagi tukar network card..etc..(Oh..Saya tak paham perkara dlm isi perut komputer!)..harapan tinggal harapan..

But today, at this hour, I want to say to my frequent visitor..hey, I am still alive..and having difficulty in managing my time, balancing between facebook and housechores plus demanding todler..attendingg to two busy primary school gals..and missing her big daughterss...all the time...all the time...and then end up, joining my son afternoon's nap!

Enclosed here pics of none other than my broods....( latest I think!...the last family dinner together in 2009, before my Eldest and Second went back to their school...)..and I can't help looking at their past photos....



Guess who ?..(Mama and Moon at 1+ year old!..venue- Spore)













Mama and Moon - right after the pmr result 2009 was announced












Mama, Moon and Mikhael, on the stage of Sekolah Seni...




Moon/Klong (after 15 years...) with fav buddy..on th way to a kenduri Dec 2009








As usual KLong imitating Mikhael






Klong w Maryam






Klong and Maisarah








Klong and her only 'adek'..She never thought she will have another 3 adiks...and admit she has big responsibilities...


Us, at pantai Remis, sending off Kngah...Dec 2009







And wishing all..happy february!..(Excuse, me am so motherly...busy and alive!)

Will be back!!

Selamat tahun baru 2010

Masih tidak sempat untuk menulis tentang pelbagai peristiwa akhir 2009..sebagai kenangan tatapan umum terutama anak2...:-
1) Hari Ulang Tahun Mikhael yg pertama = 24/11/09
2)Hari Ulang Tahun KMas yg ke 14 = 18/12/09..dan mendaftar semula ke Maahad Haf*iz Jeram...Selamat Maju Jaya----Gd Luck for ur PMR 2010.
3) Perjalanan ke Johor Bahru., Klong menerima keputusan PMR 2009 pada 24/12/2009...(Alhamdulillah- sungguh tidak disangka...menjadi contoh yg baik untuk adik2 sekalian..cemerlang akademik dan akhlak juger ye...mama sayang kakak!)
4)Kenduri Kahwin dan DOa Selamat rumah Pakcik/Makcik di JBahru = 25&26/12/2009
5) Hari Ulang Tahun CIk Abgku yg ke 42 = 31/12/2009 (Selamat Ulang Tahun Bang!)
6)Perjalanan ke JB semula menghantar KMoon kembali Ke sekolah= 2/1/2010
7) Kenangan tinggal bermalam di rumah keluarga Angkat di Gelang Patah ( Pakcik Aziz dan Mak Mon)..ooowwwhh..so nice to be pampered, mendengar pelbagai peristiwa pengalaman mereka semasa menunaikan haji, mendengar dan menerima pelbagai nasihat tentang mendidik anak2 serta mendekatkan diri pada yg Maha Esa..di usia mulai menjejaki 40an.....dan merasa sangat rindu pada arwah orang tuaku...Alfatihah!!

* Pakcik Aziz dan Makmon adalah antara rakan karib arwah orangtuaku...(Pakcik Aziz seorang pesara tentera laut dan kami pernah sama2 berjiran semasa di rumah tinggi , singapura..awal 70an..)..dan di rumah merekalah tempat persinggahanku semasa bersekolah di JBahru
( 1981-1985)..sementelaah arwah orangtua menginap Labuan dan Lumut!)

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Awal tahun seperti biasa....pelbagai perkara yg lebih menuntut perhatian...tidak lupanya kerenah anak kecil yg semakin membesar....

Ade sedikit keletihan dengan tugasan apabila anak2 mula bersekolah..(Mudah2an Allah beri kekuatan jasmani dan rohani...sihat tubuh badan demi menjalankan amanahNya..)

Merindui anak2 yg telah ke asrama...KMun dan KMas..(Kenang Kami Dalam DOa mu..anak-anak2ku )

Memikirkan bila boleh membuat perancangan tentang pelbagai perkara terlebih lagi...dari sudut ekonomi dan pendidikan anak2...seterusnya perlaksanaan...

Meninjau2 waktu sesuai memulakan semula aktiviti kerja sambilan...duit poket!..(Sorry Pak LOng....account for auditing dah lama dueeeee!!)

ALhamdulillah....Masih dipanjangkan umur untuk tahun ini....mudah2an boleh dimanfaatkan dengan pelbagai ibadah, peningkatan..istiqamah....

Selamat Tahun baru semua..Kenang Kami Dalam DOamu....MUdah2an kalian juga beroleh keberkatan Ilahi dan DipermudahkanNya segala urusan...Hingga ketemu Lagi..

Satu keajaiban - PMR 2009

Maybe I am a bit exaggerated for some...but this is what I am feeling right noww...

So grateful..sangat bersyukur...and this is just a short note to thanx all ..for the effort, the hard work, prayers..motivations...

To Kakak....sekalung tahniah buat kakak..satu pencapaian yg sgt luar biasa...apetah lagi bile mengenang kembali liku-liku perjalanan dan diari pelajar seni berserta semua warga kerja di Sekolah Seni....menumpang tetapi bekerja keras...tahniah again....

Kenang kami dalam doa mu.....(pss..Dasyatnya doa ibu!)

Full house

And my nest is full again...hoooraeyyy.hoorraeyy....

Yeap!my house is in chaos of my batch 2 kids' toys, masak2 and barbie...books everywhere..and Little Mikhael shall add up to it since he's now busy crawling..( even though he shd be walking anytine now..), geledah sana dan sini..

My leisure time in front of pc has to be shorterened now....becoz my batch 1 kids seem to be too glued to them....( kalaulah pc to boleh bercakap.....)..and of coz....rasenye2 bil letrik akan naik mendadak...

So what am I doing now infront of this pc?....Thought I want to update about recent activities...the beach, the trip to johor, the movie...( err,..Twillight????Christmas Carol..but of couurse not that latest flim of J*lang..) sambutan aidil adha, Mikhael kena cucuk untuk umur setahun, and latest horror..my car alarm didn't function and of coz I panicked frantically!!and how we were so excited to get onto the Commuter train..just to get fr Rawang to Mid Valley...and only to get cramped inside the 1 and quarter hour journey....mcm..mcmm..tapi rase tak tertulis lah pulak..

I think I am tired...so hanya rase nak bersantai saje..perkara yang sepatutnya dibuat..di rancang..dibiarkan begitu saje..lets keep the stress level very minimal lah huh!....Last time I used to wake my kids up very early in the morning..but now...biorle...lepas subuh...bergoleklah mereka...sesekali main badminton atau berjogging...and breakfst..ape yg ade...tak payah nak berpeluh2 di pagi hening ..menumbuk batu menggoreng nasi...I just want to keep things easy...pendek kata memang relax!..kerja2 rumah buat saje yg musti..like basuh baju..( masak boleh ad aleternatif...ade org lain yg masak atau kedai saje..atau maggie....hahah) ..lipat dan susun baju...lett the kids worry about that...and sapu dan mop bila perlu..and rasenya budak2 itu tersgtlah sukeeer...and I just caught my m 3 and m4 lumurkan bedak pada anak2 patung Barbie.....arrrgghhhh!..tak kuasa nak marah2..biorkan...akan ku hulur tali layang2 itu sepanjang mungkin...

Have u ever feel that sombody's watching u?

Perkahwinan..

Adakah saya terlalu sibuk dengan pelbagai kerenah anak2?

Adakah saya terlalu letih dengan pengurusan pelbagai hal-ehwal di rumah?

Perlukah saya pada motivasi bagi peningkatan penceria warna perkahwinan?

..Dan pelbagai persoalan....

Saya suri rumah sepenuh masa..bergelumang dengan apa saja cabaran yang bersangkut paut dengan gelaran suri rumah itu..sebagai ibu..sebagai isteri...(Mungkin sebagai anak tidak lagi..kerana kedua ibubapa telah pulang menyahut seruan Ilahi..saya bersyukur...)..

Pagi ini setelah merasa agak tenang dan beres dan tugas biasa..saya kembali menyusuri internet..saya mencari makanan rohani..sementelaah..saya tidak ade banyak pilihan untuk berdiskusi..rata2 jiran 2 bersebelahan ramai yang bekerja..kalau ade pun..mungkin kurang sesuai untuk saya tiba2 dtg mengetuk pintu jiran dan berbincang tentang makanan rohani...

Lalu saya singgah di blog Ustaz Hasrizal dan mencari artikel yg bersesuaian...menerusi artikel beliau yang bertajuk mengurus pemikiran tentang perkahwinan.

"Bagi pasangan yang berumahtangga, setahun dua yang pertama, biasanya indah dan ditambah lagi dengan kedatangan cahaya mata penyeri rumahtangga. Tetapi apabila masuk tahun ketiga dan keempat, hubungan suami isteri akan teruji. Mudah terjadi, suami mula mudah marah terhadap isteri. Manakala si isteri pula kerap tertekan dengan ‘warna sebenar suaminya’.Saya masih ingat kata-kata Profesor Abdullah al-Ahsan di UIA ketika mengulas tentang Romanticism, “kita selalu tidak rasional dan realistik semasa kita romantik!”. Mungkin di awal perkahwinan, romantik itu kuat mendominasi rumah tangga. Ketika itu suami fokus kepada isteri dan isteri pula fokus kepada suami. Tetapi ketika munculnya anak pertama, kedua-duanya beralih fokus kepada anak dan selepas muncul anak kedua, fokus itu perlu diubah suai lagi. Semasa itulah, rumahtangga lebih didominasi oleh tanggungjawab dan tugas. Seronok-seronok sudah berkurang sedikit. Tetapi ia adalah proses biasa.

Hubungan suami dan isteri boleh selamat dan terus memanjat usia matang pada tahun-tahun yang berikutnya. Selamat kerana proses itu berlaku di dalam perkahwinan, bukan di luar. Ini adalah kerana, perkahwinan sebenarnya menggabungjalinkan antara cinta, kasih sayang, tanggungjawab dan peranan. Ada hari air pasang, cinta memainkan peranan. Ada hari air surut, maka tanggungjawab dan kematangan pula mengambil tugas.

Saya pasti anda yang sedang melayari bahtera perkahwinan dan membaca akan tersenyum sambil mengangguk-angguk..Saya masih belajar..anda juge..

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Dapatkan toolbar siaran ikim.fm di sini:...untuk di muat turun...

Dulu semasa radio kat ruangtamu masih berfungsi, selalu kami jadikan siaran ini sebagai loceng bangun pagi...

Habis ramadhan kelmarin, radio tiba-tiba senyap ( sebelum itu kilat sabung menyabung di luar..)..Innalillah...sudah saya utarakan pada Mr Mc Guyer..tapi beliau masih belum berkesempatan menerjah meneropong ape masalah.....

Lewat habis makan tengahari tiba-tiba rase hendak menjenguk faebook..dan..telah berjumpa dengan toolbar stesen radio ikim..

Jadi dengan berbesar hati ingin berkongsi dengan semua..Selamat mendengar!!

Buai laju-laju...

There weren't many playground offering this kind of swing..so when we found this one I said to my DH..let the boy try arr..see..if he like or not...and he did..(Location: Late parents' house at Gombak).

This pic was taken in June 2009..only now I could locate the video....( I am still learning with all this multimedia thing...)

Sebagai kenang-kenangan...and please excuse the background sound..I think it was his's ayah....( jgn marah yang...ur boy need ur sound to make him feel..that the world is fun..full of excitement...)...Ohh....I so love his cute little smile...he rarely smile though..and some say..this one he takes after his daddy..;D...

And to KMoon and KMas..you'll surely miss him...tapi tak pe...school holiday lagi seminggu...by all means....take over some of my duties..by all means...yeay the nest shall be full again..lai.lai..lai..

p/s: I am in jovial mood...lallla..llaa...so everyone in the house adore me...as if I am celebrity..but when mama is in a-not-so-nice-mood...u now lah...but still I am a celebrity to my kids...not many huh!

While I am writing this, Mikhael is so sound asleep..overdose of few medicines...selsema, cirit birit and thrush in his mouth..get well soon sayang..be strong..be strong!