References dan Doktor

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I had been addicted to my fb...reconnected with many long lost friends..exchanging stories...viewing photos..and comments.....yeah..u laugh..makcik duduk rumah macam I...this is amongsts chances nak chit chat ngan kengkawan....boleh belanja makan2..virtually u know!..and it does switch off the stress button somehow....

My addiction to fb however has brought me to know some people whom I was so shy to talk too...esp all those successful people outthere..and for example I found Prof Dr MUhaya...( my super-duper senior of stf..)..and she had written a book which I hope I cd get to buy....oh and she has her own blog here

And I know this book is going to be favoured by many out there who inspire to be a doctor...for parents...for makcik2 like me yang rase sangat kagum dengan mereka yang berkeupayaan ..fardu kifayah for us...wanita-wanita...

Infact.my gynae at G*mbak M*edical c*entre had asked one of my daughters.if any of them wanted to be a doctor..Dr M*rsita Mansur said..we need more woman doctors lah dear..and i should encourage my angles if ade yang menunjukkan minat..well...I am not good with science...even if i scored straight 'A's for my general science subject...(hee...rase kecil sangat dengan those my frens who carried around books of pure bio, kimia dan fizik....). masa form 4 and 5 at my former school..I still think pure sciences drive me crazy..and not sure either if in me ade tak keturunan pakar sains...wallahualam...

And if I am being ambitious... I don't know..but dalam hati Allah saje yang tahu....

Byeee..you all..have a nice weekend....I have another week to tengokkan my daughters revision...( my primary kids baru je habis pereksa skolah agama..then sekolah kebangsaan..) end of next week...yes!....spring cleaning of the house..lall.alla.....la...and jalan-jalan cari makan!....yeepie...

My dear..oo..my dear...bawak lah kita jalan2...eemm..ade bajet tak?...rumah tumpangan Ah Tong yang murah2 and safe... boleh ape?....

When my 'friend' comes..

My friend has not visited me since the birth of my little man..and I love to think it's because of me 'bf'eing my boy..

And normally when my friend come..I wd go a little 'hay-wire'...yeah..perhaps that kind of pms thing...and due to that...I wd request for a little bit ofextra rest..and somebody will hae to take over the duty of me - 'you are my everything'.

Late last night, I prepared the ingredients for tomorrow's breakfast..and put into the freezer..so that come tomorrow tidaklah terkocoh2..what more if my boy suddenly bangun, merengek...etc..

Somehow or rather when I woke up...the 'cekodok pisang' has been cooked and nicely served on the table...lazy me!

(I remember saying and salam2 my two kids before they went off to sekolah agama..and ter'tidoq balik...eemmm..must be the effect of that 'pain-killer' and 4 times bangun memalam kasi susu pada baby...)..

Then later my two kids balik dari sekolah agama.And ...

Maryam : " Mama, masak ape?..emm..ade lagi tak cekodok tadi?siapa yang masak"

Mama:..ohh..ade orang le tolong mama masak tu!

Maisarah" Sedap lah kue yang Sarah bawak bekal tadi.kawan sarah pun suka..pandai orang yg masak tu."

HEEEeeeee.......tak aci!..Lembu punya susu..sapi dapat nama!...

Aik..siapa yang lembu ..siapa yang the other one?.....siapa?..siapa?...orang bunian yang masak?

There goes the smile in my heart.....who Else?..thx dear!

Hati-hati...

Hujung minggu lepas, kami lawati beberapa rakan dan destinasi terakhir adalah menghantar Kngah balik ke asrama..

Kami selalu melalui kawasan pusara itu (sebelum sampai ke Maahad Hafiz, Jeram)..Sementelaah, anak2 biasa menemani kami ke pusara atuk dan nenek mereka..

Entah tiba2 terdengar anak saya berkata:

"Mama, nanti kalau mama meninggal, Sarah kebumi mama kat sini?"kata Sarah

"Eh! Jgn..nanti jauh sangat kita nak datang lah Sarah.."kata Maryam

Mama hanya berdiam..entah kenapa tiba2 terasa ade air bergenang di kelopak mata..

"Mama, kalau Sarah?..nanti mama jgn sedih tau!kalau boleh, sarah nak dalam bulan ramadhan..sebab ustaz kata, nanti terlepas seksa kubur..err..."

Mama:"Insya'Allah, kita tak tau di mana dan bila, juga siapa pergi dulu lah Sarah"

Maisarah: :"Assalamualaikum ya Ahli kubur!"..kedengaran suaranya dari belakang kereta sejurus kami melewati kawasan perkuburan di Jeram.

Maisarah:"Hati-hati dengan Mungkar dan Nangkir!:..

Mama terkedu dan tersenyum juger..(dalam hati..ade-ade je Maisarah!..ternyata masih banyak lagi yang kamu harus tahu anakku!)

Maisarah & Maryam: " Mama, kitorang kena hafal tugas malaikat untuk pereksa skola agama..betul kan ma?"

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“Sesungguhnya pada kejadian langit dan bumi, dan pada pertukaran malam dan siang, ada tanda-tanda (kekuasaan, kebijaksanaan, dan keluasan rahmat Allah) bagi orang-orang yang berakal. (Iaitu) orang-orang yang menyebut dan mengingati Allah semasa mereka berdiri dan duduk dan semasa mereka berbaring mengiring, dan mereka pula memikirkan tentang kejadian langit dan bumi (sambil berkata): “Wahai Tuhan kami! Tidaklah Engkau menjadikan benda-benda ini dengan sia-sia, Maha Suci Engkau, maka peliharalah kami dari azab neraka” [Aal 'Imraan 3: 190-191]

Few things in October 2009

So my eldest finished her PMR last week and I was worried to death...(macamlah nak pi perang Badar ke ...ape ke)...Had prayed days and nights...Insya'Allah KLong Tembam...Usaha, Doa , Tawakkal...(that's our magic phrase, remember..)...And di sini punya lah tunggu bila lah si Tembam tu nak tepon....and At last a simple message came thru my fb....."Mama..., Kakak dah habis exam...."..hah hahh..so I know she is living safe and sound, alive and kicking....Ok....now she'll be busy at her school with all those performing arts session....
( P/s:..Kak..boleh kurus balik kan?....ye lah..all the jogging and warming up session...termengah-mengah...lose few pounds eh?)...Miss u my one and only Bambina..

And we had also acompanied my Sister in Law to KLIA to send away her hubby..
( my brother - itu si Ch'Mok..) to Libya..shian ni..take care ok...and ade picture lah ( thx to Ch'Da):..Sayang isteri...tinggal..tinggalkan...apparently Ch'Da is 7 months preggo...kena tabahkan hati tu Ch'DA...


(From left: Ch'DA, Maryam & Maisarah kat depan , me and muhammad mikhael ,my hubby...)

And Syawal also has come to an end.. with me tak sempat habiskan puasa enam....eemmm...completd few days..but then I had this severe cough..yeap..too much of biskut raye..rendang segala...( or was it the Susu Kambing which I had just started consumed some five days ago....eee...anybody minum susu kambing ..ade side effect kah?...)
We managed to attend few open house..with few also came over....and so the balang for all kueh raya dah kosong...kenalah letak dekat snki...basuh dan simpan untuk tahun depan..haha..haha...cam tu je Raye?..Again hajat hati nak jemput ramai kawan dan sedara..and masak extra dish..tapi kudrat tak daya...macamana tu?...And my cousins had hinted long time ago.."K.Eta, can we come 5 cars (12 adults and twelve kids..) and serang ur house?..."....alamak....jemput2 tepung buleh ?...but its ok , if any of you my blogger friend....kalu nak dtg...mari le....

And my hubby had asked a contractor to fit 'safety' gate at few places in my house..Ini kerana si kecil bujang itu..sudah merayap-rayap, panjat tangga (kunun adventure la tu)...masuk toilet...
Once Kak Maryam lupa nak tutup pintu toilet..lepas balik skola..and berlari-lari masuk toilet tanpa disedari ade sikenit mengekori..maka terdengar jerit pekik....

"Mikhael!..Jgn Mikhael, Jgn masuk jgnMasuk Mikhael!..Jgn!....Mikhaeeeeeellll...mama......."...suara Maryam memecah keheningan waktu nak Maghrib

Mama kat dapur bawah terpinga-pinga ...ape lah yg sibuk kat atas...

And then....
"waaa....."..my little man nangis ..agaknya terkezut sebab kakak dia terpekik-pekik..
Ok now fence are fixed..good thing..senang kerja saya..but on another thing....aduhai..kena langkah-langkah..dalam rumah pun ade hurdle...ape nak buat....lagi beberapa tahun..kasi angkat jual itu besipagar...err..ade sape nak chop?

So...come end of October..exams for Skolah Agama for Maisarah and Maryam...enmm...dah longgar..longgar....bila nak ulangkaji..

And of course..November shall peep in...wth exam for Masturah...and the above two (sekolah kebangsaan)...and who's going to remind them..oiiitt..belajar oiii..belajar...Me as usual?..

Thats about it...it is quite difficult nowdays to sit in front of pc...( kekadang to jenguk fb...etc..) my little man seem to need my attention all day..but until dia tidoq...emm..heaven..some time I just wish...ade quick and instant assistant..like a bibik for exmple...
"Bibi..pergi dapur and cook something?..or do that?..or do this?...sigh..I

At times, i d be so bothered with Md Mikhael merengek2..hatta to do business in toilet pun macam kena tahan2 tunggu dia tidoq....well thats' life..ingat senang ke nak jaga anak..but my late mum survived..and so did others..Sabar je lah...I must sabar, mustn't I??

And oo why si Kak Ngah just called..:"Mma, nak spend overnight umah kawan this Friday..umah dia ade buat kenduri..bla.bla.."
And mama said "No"..Sorry Kngah..this is not the time u nak tidoq-tidoq umah orang..furthermore mama tak kenal dgn ur fren's mum..( oo..yes,,we'd met masa ambik report card..tapi kami tak sempat berborak..een though mama had few timws tried to make eye contact??!!)..."Eh!..Kngah, are u suppose to do ur revision and we had brought u balik rumah last weekend?"
Ape daa...sendiri tau jawapannya..masih nak telepon mama..( with ur friend clinging at the other end of the phone..)..and when I asked why nak pi tidoq umah dia..
Kngah kata kawan dia nak tunjukkan skrip yg mak dia buat....Say What?..Skrip amendenya?perlu kah?..and why on earth tak tepon ayah saje...?...he he..ish..ish macam2 ..an dI said gd bye to Kngah..allowing her to follow her friends to outing on Sunday..but..no..no...overnight k...( nape lak me sound like berleter??/)

And I still have few things unsettled....bills?. exam question papers?...house chores?....ingredients for some cakes/biscuits?...ape lagi?....

Nice day you all...Selamat berhujung minggu..

Dan sebagai santapan mata, terimalah gambo raya kami yang tak seberapa ini:

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Salam Aidilfitri 2009

Alhamdulillah..1 syawal (Aidilfitri) has passed..so does the celebration....nothing much though..except for usual cooking, usual visits to aunt's house..and tv and eat and sleep and worry about the meals throughout the holidays...

Had tried one new recipee..Laksa Johor....kids love it..and hingga menjilat jari..( walupun tak cukup sayur mayur...bantai aje daa...)

To Jb on Friday and overnight at another aunt's house..

Prior..Singgah Sepang and Port Dickson...In- laws..in- laws...

To Kota Tinggi..Hubby's side...

Sent KLong....(Bye Dear..all the best for your PMR)

Back to Rawang on Sunday....singgah Pj...in-laws and mother in Law...

To Jeram...sent Kngah...and who says I cd hold on to my tears..even Maisarah was crying...

And where are my photos????how come this year raya got no photo???...aiyooo..tak sempat upload kah?

But wait..amongst many photos..I like this one best...


1)p/S:..I still miss being pampered by my late mum's cooking...on pagi raya...


TO all my blogger friends..Happy Hari Raya....yeepiee...

Farewell..

If it wasn't The Almighty who had made it easy....

Then for sure I'll miss that last moment...

Unsure whether it's worth travelling down south, i had managed to seek guidance from Him..

Without further delay..I straight away packed all the things necessary..with time and again seek opinion or rather green light from my hubby...."should we go?"...when?..how?..What are the plan..if this happened?..or what to do if that happen?...wd we be able to reach there in time?...

Gosssh...Only Allah knows my woes...

Prior to departure, my hubby had googled for some route in jb ( as we 'r not familiar with many).We had called several clinics and private hospital asking for home doctor..but none available...and in case needed, we had jot down few phone numbers, like ambulance and nearest clinics/hospitals...(entah lah...we just did what we thought sensible..)..After subuh, off we went to fetch KNgah at Kuala Selangor..eemmm..I had not had my sleep..so ter tido2 gak dlm perjalanan.Finally we reacxhed Jb around 1 pm.

There I saw my grandfather....weak..restless...eyes shut...thirsty too..I think!.

I have seen this kind of gestures...few hours before both my parents passed away...but nothing is sure..nothing...albeit many signs....no exact 'hadith' to support my thinking..just a normal..kebetulan..or kebiasaan orang melayu...

Datuk cdn't eat for the past two days..little fever....that's what my aunt told me..and kept telling to my aunt before the collapse that he did see like somebody is watching at him..so what wd u think?...

After solat zohor me and hubby recited the 'Surah Yasin'...time and again I called for his name...he was weak...but his eyeball were busy behind his lids..( Sakaratul Maut?..I am in denial...) and since my aunt said she's probably taking my datuk to S'pore next morning..so I thought , i'd better go and fetch my eldest nearby who's busy with the PMR trial..Meanwhile Little Mikhael is restless too...

No more words..and jokes...syukur I visited him last July in my last entry here...Well..we've missed each other for some 9 years..He last wrote to me in 2004..conveying his state of health...

( here are some pictures of our last visit..)

And why Mikhael is so restless..tak moh pandang datuk...













( (The only gambar yang datuk facing the camera...)












Everybody tengok camera yang maksu ambik..Mikhael sorang pandang pada Ayah punya hphone...







While KLong was so emotional...( dia rindu pada neneknya more than words cd ever say..)

And KNgah..as usual the loving smile...
..eemmm...nampak macam datuk nangis..mungkin masa ni my aunt kata kat my datuk yang my mum dah lama meninggal...





On the way to Larkin from Tmn Rinting..my aunt called...saying datuk seem to be having difficulty in breathing..So I straight away call ambulance and requested my second to accompany my aunt to the Hospital Pakar I*mail...while me hopefully be granted permission by my eldest pengetua..nak bawa K.long keluar jap...and I told my aunt to stay calm ..and Insya'Allah we shall meet at the said hospital..

While I was busy at my eldest's headmister's office..my grandfather is fighting for his last breath..( Later when asked..my second said..it was painful mama...kesian tengok atuk...and my second was there with my datuk inside the ambulance....she actually had felt a swift breeze of cold air.enough to naikkan all the bulu roma....oo..Malaikat Izrael?....)..and he stopped breathing...Innalillahi Wainna.Ilahi Rojiun.....tepat jam 4.44 petang, hari khamis 20 Ramadhan..10 Sept 2009....( same time with my late mum...in Ramadhan too..)..He was 86..

We reached at the Hospital only to be greeted by my aunt..tearfully...and I saw him motionless on the bed...I bid farewell too....Alhamdulillah Datuk..ini bulan yang mulia..tamatlah sudah segala penderitaan..kesengsaraanmu..mudah2an datuk ditempatkan bersama para syuhada..para solihin...

After the 'normal' preparation and procedure..datuk was brought to my uncle's house in Spore ( not easy procedure though! but since some of m uncles had insisted...so datuk pun dibawa lah ke Singapura..for burial next morning...and we just stayed at my aunt's house in JB..the house was quiet..solemn....solemn....sad...( tak de pasport laa...)

A loss which shall take time to heal...

And I am still in 'unexplained' mood....

Few days back, I had mentioned to my hubby..lets celebrate this raya in Jb with him..but the plan now has to be changed...eemmm...

I have learnt and read about 'Sakaratul maut'..and this subject has been close to my heart since the demise of my parents....interesting topic..all humankind shall go through..

Mudah2an kita semua dipermudahkan di kala saat2 sakaratul...Mati itu pasti..tetapi..selagi hidup..berjuanglah..beribadahlah....carilah kebaikan...kita tidak tahu bila maut akan menjemput...

p/s:
1) Photos extracted..taken during our last visit( me, K.Long, K.Ngah and Mikhael..)..some time datuk wd smile..some time he cries...

2)Writer is wishing Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all her blogger friends...

September oo.. september

Since early this year..I have marked this month....and of course month of October itself ( for my eldest to sit ofr her big exam - PMR).

Entering 40+ this year and today half way through Ramadhan...

Alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..16 years of marriage...still learning..still learning...

Masih terkial-kial nak rebut peluang Jutawan di dalam Bulan ramadhan...keredhaan Ilahi..insan taqwa..

Masih terkial-kial menyudahkan jahitan sarung sofa...(not from a profesional look but enough to ganti the old 16 year's look)..thx a lot for the basic SRT learnt!

Masih mencongak-congak bila dapat membuat sedikit biskut raya kegemaran anak2..tempahan kueh tat abang...kek lapis....entah le...

Sepasang baju raya yang dibeli untuk anak2 ade yang nak kena 'ubahsuai'....yang panjang kena dipendekkan...eemm..bila agaknya..

Ramadhan kali ini sedikit berbeza...

Kehadiran Md Mikhael...my little man...memenuhi waktu santai...

Maisarah dan Maryam..tidak banyak kerenah bersahur , berpuasa dan berbuka...

Munirah dan Masturah...dengan tugasan mereka...

Memohon kekuatan dari Ilahi..untuk dipermudahkan segalanya..segalanya...Ameen..

Mohon keampunan dari Ilahi atas dosa2 lampau...

Mohon dimakbulkan doa...Ameen..Ameen...

Alfatihah untuk ke dua arwah orang tuaku ...

Hello..

Waa...so long no see...no write....no story...

NO INTERNET!!! ( almost 3 weeks..on and off...and u boleh imagine serba tak kena dibuatnya...like u r missing smethig..or rather tak bubuh perisa dalam masakan......)

Called tm..several times...some times managed to get the people..sometimes...tunggu punya tuggu..dpt cakap sekejap..tetiba line putus..entah ape-ape kan!...

Meanwhile..without internet..managed to clean the fridge...some thing spilt over..and nobody cares to bersihkan..bila tanya..sape yang tumpahkan ni...tak dak sape nak ngaku...mcm2 sisa..keropok, gula lolipop separuh habis,..butter dah luput tarikh,,,cili dah kering..dan segala..see I tell you....entah sjak bile peti ais ni terbiar.....( adoi mak..ponat den oii!!...)..and again..keep re-arranging the perabut and stuff kat ruang tamu...entah berapa kali punya position...

(Initially just trying to seek cause..sebab tetiba ade agas berterbangan kat rumah...even dmn tudung saji..oo..lupa..lubang kat tudung saji takcukup kecik untuk depa..issshh!!!....mana dtg depa ni??..Spray/ubat nyamuk....tak jalan daa...arang, soda, daun pandan serai segala....Hello! heloo!..father of my kids...AGAS NAK BUAT CAMANA EK???.)

So today..briefly..sempatla..jenguk few of my fren's blogs....jenguk fb...chek and delete yahoo email...pheww...

Kids..2 orang kat rumah duk pulun belek-belek ...selak-selak buku..Ujian Ogos...
M2 - pulun dgn Ujian Ogos....akademik dan ngajinya....
M1 - percubaan pmr

And My baby boy...dah mula nak bertatih....( and tolong!..anakku..pinggang mak ni dah penat naklayan kamu bertatih.....so clingy Mikhael oii...)...age factor limits my 'pergerakan;..and at times I just surrender..and bagi lah dia ape saje..asal tak tercekik!...O Tuhan...gie me strength..

Had tried cuba puasa sunat nisfu syaaban..aduhai..haus tekak..lemah badan...( Eh!..ustaz kata ibu2 yang menyusu tidak diharuskan puasa...wah!..best!...tapi berapa lama nak ganti pulak???)

and ..Ramadhan nak tiba..yeepiee.....best!..

bYE YOU ALL....

Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Ustaz Asri - Rabbani...

p/s:.Sakit sendi segala..itu baru bersihkan peti ais dan ubah perabut....nite nite..

Topeng ? Ape itu H1N1?..Moon

Came back yesterday evening from school.. saw Maisarah with the mask...

Mama: Eh! Mana dpt ni Sarah?

M3: CIkgu kasi ma..percuma..suruh pakai..Selsema Ba Alif Ba Ya...(Oppss..kita tak leh sebut yg itu ma..sebut khinzir...)

Mama: Emm..banyak le stok cikgu...( Dan rase pelik..kenapa tiba2 macam satu peristiwa besar lak..oho..oh..nak kena awas kah?..habis camana nak gi jln2 bawak baby?...H1N! telah menular???)

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About 645 pm..Maryam came back ..also pakai mask hijau..(Aiish..mcm scene dalam bilik kecemasan hospital la pulak?...)

Maryam: Ma..ok Tak Yam pakai ni?..Cikgu bagi..suruh pakai?..

Mama:..(Nak ambik hati anak....belek2 lah topeng tu..)

Maryam:..Ma, kita kena pakai selalu kata cikgu dan pakcik Bas...sebab penyakit selsema H1N1 tu dah dekat..

Mama:..Huh?....dah nak dekat?...alamak....(bukanke dah lama kempen..ape yg dekatnya..?)..okay..nanti esok tanya cikgu..ade jual lebih tak?...nak kasi kat baby..boleh?..

Maryam:.Maa..tak yah le tanya cikgu..ma ajakle ayah pi Mydin...pot pet..pot.pet...

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If the H1N1 that serious...then..nak keluar rumah pun rasa cemas juger...luckily, My car's battery dah flat...plus..lesen memandu dah expired..waa....a. ..good excuse.....tak yah drive..
Tetapi...tengok resources dlam freeze dan almari..alamak..replenishment..siape nak tolong ni?..Tolong??..

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Moon, Kami doakan semuanya ok..jgn risau sgt pasal minor operation tu....insya'Allah..Berdoalah anakku...mohon yang terbaik...Aduh..rase nak pi Jb lagi......Ayah.bawak kita pi jb weekend ni?..

(Yeap..Moon just had ultra sound scan at JB's gen Hospital.. radang kelenjar?...a possible minor opeation?..me am waiting for the warden's update....)..aduhai...

Yasmin Ahmad - ..Ne Me Quitte Pas, 51 stress??

Untuk ramai orang..nombor 51 hanyalah satu nombor..tunggal...dan biasa-biasa saja

Untuk saya..nombor 51 menyaksikan pemergian beberapa tokoh seni yang terkini...contoh: Michael Jackson dan Arwah Yasmin Ahmad..lagenda seni tersohor...
( terdahulu ..saya kira Arwah Sudirman pun pergi awal....)

Untuk saya ..kebetulan..nombor 51 mengingatkan saya juga kepada arwah bonda....yang juga meninggalkan kami ketika Allahyarham berumur 51..hampir kepada 52....kerana barah usus...

Satu sahaja teori yang saya suka kaitkan antara mereka bertiga..adalah keupayaan dan tenaga yang luar biasa di dalam bidang masing-masing...yang mereka kerah..dan kerah...ibarat lilin menerangi bumi...berkorban ape saja demi merealisasikan kehendak, cita-cita sendiri..ya..mungkin juga untuk orang lain...ape yang saya boleh katakan mereka ini..telah ditakdirkan pergi dahulu..Allah sahaja yang tahu..kenapa mereka dipanggil awal...Mungkin itu yang terbaik..untuk mereka..dan juga untuk orang2 lain...

Saya teringat pada petikan buku Tok Guru Hadi (Mursyidul Am- Pas)..dalam salah satu buku persediaan mati.....
"Sesungguhnya mati itu ibarat..kerehatan daripada ape saja kesukaran..kesakitan..di dunia.."..

Jesteru..apakah kita tahu kesukaran, kegelisahan yang melanda jiwa2 di atas..Wallahualam...

Saya tidak berapa mengenali Michael Jackson (yang dikatakan telah memeluk Islam...???)dan Yasmin Ahmad secara peribadi..hanya sempat menonton, mendengar..hasil karya seni...tetapi umum mengkagumi mereka...Alfatihah...

Tetapi saya sempat mengikuti..menyaksikan..jerih payah seorang wanita...membantu suami mencari nafkah...ini mak lakukan setelah ayah pencen..(berjualan sarapan di gerai waktu pagi dan petang di sekolah agama..)...membesarkan anak2...cucu2...dan akhirnya rebah pada penyakit barah..itu hanya penyebab...tetapi saya pernah mendengar rintihannya tatkala stress yang terlampau tinggi..:"Ta..Mak rase penat sangat...tapi apa kan daya....?

Antara makanan yang mak akan sediakan:
A)Makanan Berat: Mee goreng, Kue teow goreng, Bihun goreng, Nasi empit -kuahLontong,-kuah kacang, Roti jala dan Kuah Kari..(kekadang ade nasi lemak dan laksa)
B)Kueh goreng : Karipap, Cucur badak, Cucur pisang, Keria
c)Kueh lembut: Talam, Kueh lapis, Kueh Bakar, Kueh Bengkang, Seri Muka, Koleh Kacang..

( Tapi.sayang..seribu kali sayang..saya tidak sempat belajar kebanyakan menu masakannya..her speciality include kek lapis sarawak dan kueh tat yang sgt lazat)

Menu di atas adalah satu kemestian di atas meja jualan...persiapannya...ooh..oh..tanya saja pada adik2...dapur berkecah..hihi!


Entah mana datangnya kekuatan arwah Mak..selama bertahun...(dengan ayah sebagai pembantu khas.....kekadang adik beradik..)..dan kadang2 ambil tempahan 'catering'..serta jualan kueh kek biskut raye...Tuhan saje yang tahu..

Dan apabila mengenang Yasmin Ahmad..tiba2 saya teringat pada satu lagu 'background' adengan slot dalam filem Mukhsin..."If u go away..(Ne me quitte pas..)"...(Oh..oh.jangan tanya saya tentang spanish atau French..walupun sempat belajar Bahasa Perancis dari tingkatan 1 - 3..tapi semata-mata untuk penuhi syarat sekolah..maka yang tinggal di dlm ingatan sisa-sisa bahasa...seperti merci beaucoup!!...terima kasih banyak!)

Lagu asal nyanyian Ne Me Quitte Pas dari Mr Jacque Brel.(1947).kemudiannya saya petik dari video Dutsy. Springfield (1967)..Kalau tak silap ,saya pernah mendengar arwah mak menyanyi lagu itu semasa saya kecil..tatkala ayah membuka radiogram....Oh..kenangan..( Arwah Mak sangat pandai menghafal lirik lagu inggeris..biarpun tidak tamat persekolahan...kerana memberi laluan pada adik2nya..)




Saya juge teringat pada kawan lama saya, helza, yang telah kehilangan suami pada usia yang lebih awal..Kata beliau..:Beliau membesar tanpa kaseh sayang ayahnya..dan berharap anak2nya tidak menerima nasib yang sama tetapi Allah tahu yang terbaik...saya ade satu post untuknye kelmarin..disini... (to my friend who has lost her husband)
Dan sekali lagi Semuga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mereka2 yang terdahulu pergi..Muslim/muslimat,mukmin/mukminat...

Setiap jiwa pasti akan merasai maut....

Mudah2an kita juga tergolong dalam golongan yang Allah permudahkan cara pemergian....di saat sakaratul Maut...amin....

p/s:..Saya mungkin belum diuji dengan ujian yang lebih hebat....tahap stress saya mungkin biasa-biasa saje...dan saya tahu Tuhan akan menguji hambaNya mengikup tahap kemampuan indiidu tersebut...aduhai..dan saya pasrah!!!Saya harap saya boleh mewarisi semangat hidup dan kekuatan fizikal mental mak...emmm..tetapi pada umur 41 tahun ini..cabut ubi pun payah..macamana tu??..dengar baby melalak-lalak pun pening dan cemas...macamana pulak tu?..

- Dusty Springfield from her tv show in 15 Aug 1967...(belum lahir lagi daa..)..sekadar hiburan....Moonn..mama suka laguni...