Rain..rain

Remember this one nursery rhyme we used to sing ...perhaps back from ur kindy years..and I bet we still hear them being sung by our little ones...

Rain rain go away....
Come again another day...
Little..so and so..want to play...

But as I am writing this..I wonder...at times..being human..we wish...for the rain to come again...

And there is also..an English proverb/idioms...naahhhh....WHEN IT RAINS IT POURS...I wonder..how that applies to our current climate...or political climate perhaps..How are you Mr So and Mr So....I guess If My Late Dad ws still around....being a Perakian...well..better not elaborate here huh!

And a famous malay proVerb which says : MENDENGAR GURUH DI LANGIT AIR TEMPAYAN DI CURAH JANGAN...but in my case other than the actual meaning of the proverb itself....muga2 tak kemarau.....ape lagi nak buang air tempayan....Ya Tuhan...Rabbi Yasser..Wa la Tu'aseer...Ya Kareem....

Happy Friday you all...

Yang patut dan tak patut

Semenjak berpindah ke sini..hampir 4 tahun lalu dan oleh kerana adenya sedikit tanah..yang mungkin sekangkang ker* itu...keliling rumahku seperti berseri dengan tanaman hasil usaha tak lain tak bukan...Che Abang ku...

Dia mungkin pada kebanykan orang..sangat pendiam..tetapi...hasil tangannya..bak kata orang tua-tua...sejuk..maka alhamdulillah..adelah beberapa jenis pokok yang telah pun membuahkan hasil...seperti..papaya, pisang, ..termasuklah beberapa jenis dedaun ( yang menjadi kesukaan isterinya..yang memang tidak pandai berkebun...hanya pandai tolong siramkan...)..contohnya..daun kari, daun pandan, serai, daun limau..halia, lengkuas....akhir2 ini..seperti bertambah pulak spesis tanam-tanaman..kacang botol lah..eh!..ade rambutan juga....Pak Choy..dan entah siapa yang baling biji kurma di belakang rumah..tiba-tiba...biji kurma telah bertunas......yeay!....

(Gambar ayah tertido masa temankan maisarah dan Maryam cabut gigi..)


Itulah serba sedikit kekagumanku.. padanya..( ade banyak lagi...ramai yg tak tahu..tapi tak bule lah cerita semua..nanti....takut timbul riak..di samping ..nanti tak de cerita pulak nak karang..).begitulah juga peluk belaiannya terhadap anak-anak..yang gadis, yang kanak2..dan terakhir..si Bujang ku....sudah tentu aku setuju sangat dengan pepatah Inggeris...Actions speak louder than words......seperti pernah aku ade menulis pada catatan yang sudah....bagi anak2ku..ayah mereka memang pendiam..hanya berkata2 fakta..tetapi itulah ayah mereka...kaseh sayang paling banyak disulami melalui perhatian, sentuhan dan layanan..serta lawak jenaka yang bersahaja...dan yg paling anak2 suka..pabila ayah menggaru2 belakang waktu nak tido..( yg ni pada yg kenit lah....sebab yang dah besar..pandai malu pulak...alahai..malu tapi mau!)...O..lagi satu..bab-bab korekkan telinga anak2..gosok daki ke....itu memang his department!...love u Bang!..(You are special in ur own ways..oo...and O why...hearing u coming back from work ..yeap the sounds of your motorbike..already heaven to ur kids...)

Nak dipendekkan cerita kelmarin..dalam cuaca yg agak panas..aku seperti dapat menjangka yang pokok papayanya semakin menjunam...barangkali entah tak lama lagi mungkin akan patah..dek kerana lebat buah papaya....

Aleh-aleh..dengan sekali angin yang tiba2 kuat...patah le pokok itu..bertaburan lah buah-buah..nak diambil gambar..kamera tak de..jadi aku minta tolong Maisarah dan Maryam mengutip buah papaya itu..masuk dlm baldi...setinggi paha ku..banyak tuh...eh..budak2 mintak upah!..kemudian aku sms pada che abang...: "Innalillah...pokok putus Bang!..."

Che Abang pulang....membelek-belek buah-buah papaya..ade seribu kemilut perasaan yang tak mungkin aku fahami...dan bersusun lah buah papaya yang lebih dari 20 biji itu..( tidak termasuk putik2..yang masih beku dan kental..) di atas ambin depan porch...ade yang telah berlubang ditebuk beburung....syukur...

Sepatutnya lah..pokok tu patah......rezeki dari Yang Maha Esa juga..kata Che Abang..umur dah lanjut ni..musti fikir dan cari jalan buat sedekah....entah berapa banyak burung2 sudah merasa kemanisan buah papaya itu..begitu juga jiran-jiran.....petang semalam Che Abgku..potong salah satu buah dan mengumpul biji benihnya..entah kat mana pulak nak disemainya....aku tidak ambil kesah..sorry Bang!..I am so helpless with gardening...

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Pagi tadi sewaktu nak menjemur pakaian...tiba2 hatiku berdetik..eh!mana pulak tong gas ni...

Sudah berapa kali aku terniat nak bawa masuk tong gas yang dibawa pulang d rumah orang tuaku..kerana saiznya kecil...dah banyak kedai kami pi..tapi tokey kedai semua tak beli tong tu..kata mereka..gas kecik dah tak jual..

Jadi Che Abg..letak saje kat porch..tepi rak kasut..ade lah dekat setengah tahun..tong gas beradaa di situ tidakberusik...

Tiba2 pagi tadi..hilang...teringat aku malam tadi..selepas menyusukan Mikhael..macam dengar bunyi motor di luar..ku tinjau..tapi nampak Pak Guard je...Isshhh..sapa pulak nih?..

Aku tidak lah ralat sangat denagn hilangnya tong gas tu..tapi faktor keselamatan..macam tercabar pulak...takut jugak nih!!..

Aku maklumkan pada Che Ababg..eh!..tong gas kat luar hilang lah!..Che Abg menjawab...tak pe lah....huh!..tak pe..kataku..

Kemudain baru Che Abang teringat masa dia nak keluar rumah ke surau waktu Maghrib semalam, dia perasan pintu pagar besar terbuka...

Maka sahlah kejadian itu berlaku..semasa kami masing2 semalam sibuk..mandi, solat..dan tenteramkan Mikhael..waktu Maghrib...eh!..Ingatkan..suku sakat syaitan je berkeliaran waktu maghrib..ade gak yang tak patut pun berkeliaran jugak....aku jadi sedikit phobia..dan fikiran berangan-angan..agak2 berapa kos pintu pagar automatik....ade ke bajet?..

Itu lah tak patut...berhati-hatilah waktu maghrib lain kali....pesanan pada diriku...entah2 hamba Allah tu..dah lama perhatikan tong gas...entah berapa dia boleh dpt kalu dia jual tong tu...yang pasti..aku tahu tong tu cam bocor..nasib lah ....

Its the thots that counts

Suasana hari Jumaatpagi( 8 mei 2009)

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And maryam came back yelling..Mama!..Mama!...lagi beberapa hari...hari Ibu...I Love u Mama...

(And any mum's heart wd surely melt....)

Maryam: Mama, Kat book shop skola ade jual bunga..Iym ingat nak beli untuk mama..mama suka?..

Mama:..oo..mustilah..( sambil kehairanan...hadiah surprise dah kasi tahu 'in advance')

Maryam :...Nanti duit seringgit, Iyam tak mau guna....mama jgn lupa bekalkan air penuh...Iyam tak mau belanja....( sambil berlari ke bilik air..bersiap untuk ke skola..)

Suasana petang Jumaat

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Mama: Hai Iyam...ape kabar?

Maryam : Mama!..Iyam ade hal sket nak cakap laa..

mama : Nape la pulak

maryam: Iyam dah beli bunga tu..tapi bila dalam bas , ade kakak djh 2 mintak tukar bunga tu dengan sepit rambut..harga 30sen...Iyam kata okey lah..tapi dlm hati sedih jugak..Tapi kelmarin , Sarah dah pesan jangan bergaduh dengan kaka2 besar..jadi Iyam kasi jelahbunga pada kakak tu...tak pe lah..Iyam letak sepit ni kat bekas kaca mama eh!!...

Mama:..(..Why some people so mean.....!!)

Mama and maryam hug each other..

Mama: Tak pe sayang..ape-ape pun...mama terima..yg buat mama lebih happy bila anak2 mama ingat pada mama...dan lagi satu..lain kali Iyam kena berani pertahankan hak Iyam...tak payahlah lagi kasi barang2 pada orang lain...( And wonder..kalau dia faham atau tidak..as she is a very nice gal...gosh....loooks like I have another homework..to teach my daughter lessons of life...)..Mama loves u sayang!!!!

I guess...entah skil ape lagi nak ajar pada my small maryam....bukan sekali..ade a few times gak..dia dengan senang hati...bagi duit belanja kat kawan2 dia...bagi pensil warna dan entah ape lagi..(Kita bukannya hidup mewah sangat sayang oii.....mama tak kerja..ayah..ibarat kais pagi..makan pagi...kena lah jimat juga...)...and I dont really like the idea of bully...if that fits the word...cd it be my daughter tak pandai menggunakan kuasa atau kawan2 dia dengan mudah ambil kesempatan...entah lah..what to say..what to say..( aku dulu tak pandai lak nak minta tukar barang2 orang..)

Suasana malam Jumaat..sebelum tidor
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Maryam: Mama..mama nak lagi tak bunga cam tu?...cantik tau..ade teddy bear dan kad bentuk 'love'...

Mama:..Tak pe lah Yam..it is ok...

Maryam: HAri Isnin kalau ade jual lagi kat Book shop..Iyam nak beli lagi lah!..

(..O..Tuhan..lihatlah anak ku ini....)

Maryam..(merengek manja sebelum terlena tido...): Ma...bila gigi Iyam dua depan ni nak tumbuh?.....Si Iskandar tu suka ejek ..Iyam rongak!..

Mama:..Dah lah Iyam....ambik masa gigi nak tumbuh....kena minum susu banyak...dan biarlah SiIskandar tu..jgn layan sangat..

Maryam: ..tulis nota kat kertas..(."Ayah, jgn lupa beli fresh milk lagi esok...)...kasi pada mama..untuk di beri pada ayah...and she dozed off...

Maisarah:..Mama..Sarah sayang mama jugak....and tertido jugak....

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Small matters...big impact to myheart...
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Happy mother's day to all mumies out there...to their mummies too...

p/s: Writer misses her 2 eldest daughters very much..and off course she can;t help but to remember a person so wonderful in her life...her late mum..who peacefully left her and siblings plus late father(who follow suit in 2002) like 11 years ago...a month after coming back from umrah...2 days before 1998 Eidul fitri....Mak...(Monawa Abdul Wahid..a.k.aEsah)..Alfatihah...tears roll down....

What's in May?

The silence kills.....I think my boy miss the chaos and everything during last weekend..esp when ayah was at home...( cuti2 malaysia...)..and two big sisters at home too..(satu cuti sakit mata..satu lagi skola kasi cuti lepas pereksa 'madah'..)...plus the two ever 'excited' small sisters..perhaps his Maksu too...

So today...when everything seem so quiet..once in awhile..mama batuk2...( yeap...hampir 2 minggu..rase kuman batuk berkeliaran kat rumah ni..melekat di dinding, langsir segala....pasrah Ya Tuhan....)..of coz the lil baby calls for attention ..pasti mama buat tak berapa endah...tu lah pasal..asyik di manja , di dukung....sorry dear..mama not so strong to carry you around la..sakit lutut!!..

Routine as usual...

So what's up n May...

1)3rd jap for baby schedule immunization..

2)Few relatives' and frens' bday...


3)The girls'..mid year exam...followed by school holidays....again..yeepiee....( I am missing them again..today...as usual...!!)

and My other half is having bad cold and running nose.....

Weather is hot....ade saje alasan si kanak2 untuk tumpang baring2 dalam hawa dingin yang ber'timer'..

okay frens...have a prductive week ahead...wish cd write more....

..SO nervous...

This is not the first time..but being a mum..everytime my kid enter a competition...truely..I am always the exaggerate nervous..than the person taking the race herself...

Aduhai....lagi pulak time budak2 nak exam...maknye jugak sibuk buatkan jadual....sangat bersemangat 3 minggu sebelum itu..tapi selalunya...akhir-akhir ini..kerna tidak pandai membahagi masa (banyak masa tido ngan baby atau addicted ngan Fb ieetiuewww!!)....besok nak peksa..malam ini pulun....itu yang suara rimau segala keluar..( Tapikan Yang....kalupun kita garang..tapi budak2 semua mintak ampun....ujung rambut sampai ujung kaki..tak moh belajr ngan ayah....!!)...tapi kekadang..mintak tolong ngan ayah gak....dan bila dah sinsing lengan....."huh?..ape dia?....nak sampai kat jawapan..ayah selalunya akan soal balik...yang basic-basic....siape lah tak berpeluh.....dan ayah akan dengan sabar menunggu jawapan..walupun hari telah larut malam.....dan anak-anakku bisa bergenang..bercucuran air mata...masa tu selalunya..mama ade excuse....mama ade baby...tata!!!

And over here is waiting for my M1's..'pidato' result..which..jgn tak caye..dikelolakan oleh sekolah lamaku dulu..yezza....the merry TF!..shian anak perempuan ku itu..sakit2 mata pun terpekik melalau cerita pasal remaja dan dadah...kelentong ape gaknya....kerana sakit mata..hakim boleh kasi markah kesian kot..haha!

I had to fax a permission letter to her pengetua yesterday...ubat dah habis...mata lom baik...minta dia pulang puan pengetua..kami nak buat rawatan susulan.......ye lah tu!..

Ok....gd luck..and take care...eee nervous giler!!!....(dan jantungku berdegup-degap...tidak sekencang masa mula2 bertentang mata ngan ayah.....eeee...ape daa...)

Serupa kah?

2 days ago as I was just about to enter my car carrying my boy...I heard a makcik calling not far...:

Makcik :."Oiit..gi mana ngan cucu tu????"

Me :..( I turned left..right...she was talking to me?..???)**###!!"...but just waved back to that makcik and smile happily pretending...as it has started to rain..I didn't have the chance to prolong the conversation...

She was just an acquaintance..we always exchange smile.."-
- when I dropped by her stall to buy evening kueh oorr..goreng pisang... or..
- when I accidentally looked at her before or after buying my groceries at nearby shop..

But today..she was indeed trying to make a friendly conversation....

...Serupakah aku?...Entah dari sudut mana??...

p/s:..Yang..that was funny tickling me...

Yang nak diceritakan...

Nak tulis musti ade mood...ade perasaan...( quoting kata2 penulis buku biodata Jeanne - Isteri PM..I saw this in a slot of Wanita Hari ini...)

Tapi ini bukan biodata....

Ini kesah hidup seharian, harapan, impian dan curahan perasaan...berkongsi rasa..dan cerita buat yg sudi mendengar dan berkomunikasi

ape..ape lah...

(cuaca di luar, agak gelap walupun baru kol 240ptg.hari Khamis 26/3..issshh..nak ujan lebat..kena tutp internet dulu eh....takut kilat...shot lak...jadi penulis merasakan untuk berehat sebentar...)

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Friday, 27 Mac 2009, 710pm ( hopefully this one get posted...)

and before I forget....Alfatihah to Allahyarham Zubir Ali...( used to be my fav singer esp when he was with...Harmoni, then He joined R.A.P and Ikhlas Tapi Jauh was once music to my ears too...)..Penantian is my evergreen..enjoy listening...

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So the school break has ended....( tipu lah kalu aku tak miss anak-anak yg 2 orang tu....really..when they go away..they took away a piece of me too....Salam KMun And KMas..Kenang Mama dalam doa kalian...)left me ..alone again inthe house..during weekdays..with my baby boy...


Sigh..I went to the clinic today..got few medicines for baby...poor him..has been coughing for the past 3 days...his voice now is quite husky....






(Baby..baru lepas mandi daa..)




as I am writing this..I just put him to bed....lullaby love....be a good boy..becz mama is certainly in the mood of writing..




(Baby yawning away....)


Well...reminiscing back few things ...

1. M1 is busy at my old school's field....training 'lontar peluru' for her coming mssj...and she did call mentioning..she actually saw the green block..he..he...( but so busy with sports....how's preparation for pmr?)







(On the right : Kakak Mun with boy...bedak sejuk time....during last school hols..p/s:...baby cam tak suka je..dicomot-comotkan..hihi...rashes la sayang oii..))





2. M2 is adjusting her new life with her new specs....poor her....she had complaint time and again of her eyesight..and her teacher (during last parent/teache meeting)..that she was always seen sleeping in the class....o..o.. was is becoz of her eyesight....bila rabun....tak leh fokus..tidoq je...



(At the right KMas trying out a cartoon cermin mata - entah mana dia korek dari bakul mainan Maryam....just to get a feeling camana rupa kalu pakai kacamata...hihi!)



But now, no excuse (At the left : KMas enjoying her layang2 session with ayah at pantai Jeram before curfue time of her asrama...)



ok..K.mas....hopefully u cd adjust well....and is it true that..rabun boleh dikaitkan dengan keturunan....oopss..sorry ayah...jgn kecik hati eh!!!...but I told Mas, it's not easy wearing specs around....among others..some people tend to forget the whereabout of their specs....eg: Ayah: "..Eh!..ade nampak cermin mata kita?".....( manalah kita nak tau...where u people put ur glasses..)..all the best dear...muga2 ade improvement to ur well being..

3.
M3 came back just now : " Mama, Sarah kena berdiri luar kelas tadi..."..
mama:" huh?..kenapa?"
m3: "Sarah terlupa bawak kertas jawapan periksa Bm Penulisan...tapi Sarah rasa dah letak dlm beg mlm tadi..."
And mama just remembered few minutes before her school bus came this afternoon..I had taken the paper out fr her bag...without telling her...becoz last night I was too tired and sleepy to go thru the answer with her..so I thought I wd do that this afternoon..alamak....mama too efficient???
Mama: "..REal sorry Sarah...mama bawak keluar tadi..lupa nak ckp ngan Sarah..."
m3:.."Alaaaa..mama..ni...."...
And we hugged each other..I saw tears in her eyes..( she probably ashamed just now at her school..)..and I promised to her that I wd never do that again....even kalu habuk korek pensel pun..mama akan beritau Sarah ok...

4. m4 was sick last week.....coughed...sore throat..(agaknya ...sebab tu ..baby terkena batuk this week lak...)...but she came back this week..scored A for all her test..Alhamdulillah...and she came back just now also..feeling angry and confused of her school time table..
m4: :Mama, Iyam pelik la....kenapa Harini pun ade tasmiq...balik 630ptg....?"
SO mama said..." Kan Iyam yg bagi mama surat dr cikgu semalam...starting yesterday...djh1 balik kol 630..."
I guess..she was just tired......selalu benar tertidor dlm bas sekolah...mujur pakcik bas..sabar nak tunggu dia terkedek-kedek turun dr bas...

Those were few things happening to my kids...


(latest pic of baby and moi..on the way to G**bak Medical Centre...follow up appt with My gynae and baby doc...injection for 3 mth's old laa....)



AS for me...managed to get a few pills+pain killer+ calcium for my sakit lutut/radang sendi.....well..doctor kata..it cd be arthritis .......Also...I am yet to learn all about pelvic floor mucsle...cause of its injury and weakening....( mind u..after this 5th childbirth....something is just not right there..I regret a bit for not going to my fav gynae this time around...at Amp*** Pu****)......any specific remedy my friend.??..the kegel exercise took me ages laaaaa....ape tu...kayu serapt la..majakani la...binari la...what do u think?

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on 5th march

Then : Maryam 3 months old

Ok..my dear Maryam yang masih lagi manja....here is ur turn lak...hari tu mama wish bday untuk Sarah..so here...:

Now: Maryam 7 years old

Happy 7th Birthday my little princess..( though not little anymore..)...

All our prayers darling sweet....Kenang Daku Dalam Doamu juga....

Used to be the youngest..she is especially known for one who wants to be first all the time..even if when we're back from outing...she'd quickly ran down from the car and stand in front of the door to be unlocked...Once ayah sengaja nak nyakat dia..and ayah stood infront of her...not letting her in..and she merajuk all night..no night-night kiss for ayah..( shian tol!)..Also..Kak Long pun turun berlari-lari sama nak ddiri depan pintu...and she kalah..dan merajuk nangis..juga...aduhai...ramai lak yang suka menyakat nih!

Also, in a car, she at times wd complain..why wd the motorcylist always infront of our car..at traffic..and ayah kata..laa....itu pun tak boleh kah?..Shian ayah yg hari2 pi kerja naik motor...

KNowing kids..like to 'berlumba'...I think she is so like that...in class..in school's concert...she normally make sure follow the rule one....one thing ..ok lah..good fighting spirit..on another thing..slow down sayang....becoz she'd got frustrated..and cengeng if things turn the other way round..

And she is as helpful as Maisarah too...cuma kekadang basuh pinggan..ade mengelat sket!!..also...so sayang the baby boy...waa...a caring sistah!

And Maisarah sometimes said, why ma....kalu mama tanya sarah soalan..dia pun nak jawab....hihi!!

I guess...she just doesn't want to be left out...would u agree???..We all love u Maryam...Celebration later ok!!

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Received cal from Klong juga...syukur..

M1 : Mama, guess what..kakak kat stadium larkin..

Mama : Huh! Wat ape tu?

M1: yeay..yeay..baru menang gold medal lontar peluru sukan skola men daerah jb.....sorry ma..stf kalah!!...tapi ..skola kitorang tak dpt masuk final bola jaring ( she is playing GD under-15)..kalah ngan S.e.t.a...sebelum dpt lawan stf..ooo..yess..sukan skolah tahun ni..rumah akak menang..rumah hijau.....( yes..go green go.....sama ngan mama juga....)

Mama:.waa.....Alhamdulillah...what's next?(..she ..so..like to compare her school with mine..tak pe lah...kasi can..)

M1: Ade schedule untuk msd..if lepas..mssj...

Mama:..woit..sukan sakan lak...so how do u feel..

M1: best sgt ma...and now tengah enjoy tengok acara lari-lari...kuat gak dak stf...tapi akak lebih thrill tengok abang-abang lari-lari...dan rsa mcm dpt rase ape yang mama cerita..zaman mama sibuk ikut orang pi stadium larkin...makan ais krim roti kongsi2...cuci2 mata...

mama:....@#???....amboi!...hahaha!!..( yeap..I used to love following my school frens to the stadium..watching sports event...alahai..tak kira asal dpt outing lah!..and I was never good in sports too...I survived hockey team just few first month of form one..issh..tak larat lari satu padang hoki weh!!....and selalu ponteng gi latihan hoki petang2 lepas prep....lama2 senior pun drop le mama...tak leh pakai hihi!!..and one more thing that I hate most during my secondary sch years was to run around the school compound....satu penyeksaan...)..and I do believe only those with big hearts that cd pump in much more oxygen wd excel in sports...plus those who hae extra special muscle..leg or hand etc...

M1:..Mama, nanti akak cal lagi eh!..tata...lov. so much

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and I love today!....gd night you all....I am much better in spirit!!

no news..

Yeap..as the saying goes....no news is a good news... see u when I see you...it is March already..how fast time flies....and the only thing that is constant is change....a lot of thinking lately...much time still occupied with the lil' baby..and some time back I remember one of my friends'magic equation ~ e=mc2....what the h**k?..can somebody pls elaborate..or simply means..to make things happen..requires energy..or what eh?...mind u..I am not from a pure science background...and I certainly need energy ....my two little gals are having their first 2009 school test this week...( and I wonder what Klong and Kngah are doing, right now..?)..and yeap..school hols is just around the corner..yeepee...

gals at the park..

So we had a short stress free time at the park last weekend.......and then my gal snapped my photo without even looking the back scenario..hihi! dunno who's that guy behind..


c u! and me in deep thinking...and still as thirsty as ever..

Just the four of us..

It was raining like cats and dogs outside...and time was running fast..

"going or not?"...." can we make it?"..

We only have each other..actually three.. because the little one is not independent yet!!.

Maisarah and maryam , each has their own agenda..own wish list....

Whereas mama...the grocery list..must count in..her favourite beverage..( mind u...breast feeding does not stop me from enjoying it!...nescafee....Hi Ch' Ani of Irshad......buzz me if u read this!)..

I had to bathe my baby first..so that I won't be that tired after coming back from the shop...

WE desperately need to go to the shop just to buy some few important and must buy things...ayah has to be excused...( while I am writing this, ayah is still in his office..struggling for the dateline..I presume...)..

Earlier on, maryam was given the task to jot down the list while Maisarah finishing her last bit of bm homework....

I opened the gate, started the engine..put baby beside me...(alamak..dah start nangis pulak..)

M3 switched off the lights, tv, the fan and locked the door..

M4 held the main gate..

And baby cried..all the way.....(aduhai!!!)

Arrived at the shop shortly...put the baby next to my shoulder..( oh..nasib baik dan tak nangis..)

The 2 girls helped me with all the things needed....mama paid at the counter while baby started to cry again....( he wanted to sleep....laaa...tadi mama puas dodoi kat rumah ..tak mau tido'..sabar je lah...)..and he made everyone in the shop looked at us as if it was one of the heavy drama scene...M3 and m4 carried all the groceries beg..

I had to singgah kedai Kak Mah too..just to get my favourite curry mee...and Kmah greeted baby:

"Baby...awatnya nangis ni..laparg kah????..."..

Then we had to stop by the stationery shop ..(ape lagi..budak2 ni..nak beli colour lah..pemadam lah....etc..kunun semua dah exhaustive..next week ujian bulanan...kena ready alat tulis....)

Quickly we went back...and alhamdulillah..we made it home despite few obstacles...

All mama wanted to say here is : thx so much to my two little girls...

I used to think they are still small..especially when the two eldest came back from their school...

But now...I know I can depend on them.....Alhamdulillah...I am so grateful...I am not alone getting through all this having-new-baby experience..

And perhaps..that is also the reason..ayah knows I can handle the situation...(though at times rasa macam ibu tunggal lak...and the least I wanted to do is to burden him with the groceries' list either)...he is the breadwinner....(amboi..naik manja lah yeee....u shd be lucky la ayah..never see u iron baju lagi sekarang jugak...and lemak berkati-kati..bertepu-tepu...)..ooh..yes...and ayah had to stay back to make up for the days he took mc few days ago..fell of from his bike...left some scars and bruises....( oo..my....Allah is so grateful..He still make my hubby..safe and sound..alhamdulillah..even though kaki terdengkot-dengkot....)..and I just do not want to think of the other way round..not yet!!...

It was just a small test...to see my other half in pain...not so him...

That remind me of my friend 'Helza'...she is a strong woman....taking care of her 4 boys...alone...but I know and pray ..Allah showers her with all His strengths and Kindness...I had one posting for her somewhere in 2008 : this

Remind me of ayah's pesan..: "Kalu boleh..minta tolong dengan anak-anak..mana yang boleh..."..He knows very well..that I am the type who like to do everything by myself....never want to bother others....(pas tu bila penat..tensen lah pulak!!)

Leaving me with smile in my heart..eventhough I miss our family time..but we still have each other to offer help..to ease...

Tata! I hope you all have smile (plural) in your heart this weekend..