Small matter but disturb me a little..

(Terpaksa menulis cerita seperti di bawah..kerana mood sedikit lari..)

I had never missed my wallet...Was very careful with things..very obedient ( as referred by my late parents..p/s:..sorry my siblings...true or not?).Except for when I was in form two in stf when my suitcase was wrongly placed by the pakcik bus at the Larkin Bus station..I was supposed to balik Ipoh (to Lumut) with train...LUckily I had the train ticket inside my baju kurung..with no cash..haha!..(thx for my friend..cd not remember whether it's BJ, Yus, Shana or Kmar yang belanja karipap masa dlm train).I was horrified to relay the news to my dad when I reach Ipoh and had been tortured time and again by him at home (I had never been scolded by ayah..not even a jentik..was a nice girl lah kununnya...and rase sedih sgt kena interogate ngan ayah macam pesalah askar!) as why I was so careless...err..not my mistake!..2 weeks later, we went back to Jb via bus and found my suitcase safely at one of the counter..syukur...

But my kids..all of four girls...(the little baby boy is still small tho'..)..and I just could not comprehend..were they not being careful..or fated to be?..no..no..no...

First, K.Long lost her wallet last year and only to realise few days before opening of school...she said must have been pick pocketed while waiting for ayah at the Pudu raya Bus station..huh? (rase cam tak percayakan!..)..So u cd imagine the trouble we have to endure again..pi buat ic baru, hilang all the atm's card...etc...

Then, Si Kakak Ngah pulak..she said she was sure she put inside the pillow case..huh again? few minutes before ayah came to pick her up (last school holidays punya cerita la h ni)..then just we were about to go to the Jabatan pendaftaran Negara..some days later...she said.."Sorry ayah, adek dah jumpa...simpan tempat lain..carik tempat lain..."..and ayah being ayah..nasib baik tak kena marah...( sebab before tu..I said to her to cakap sendiri pada ayah...saje takutkan dia..hihi!)

And this week alone, Maisarah and Maryam lost their wallet in two consecutive days .(MOn and Tue) ..huh..ape nih? Each lost Rm2.50 ( their savings from last week )..SO on Wednesday (semalam)..no duit belanja for them..bawak lah bekal..terkulat-kulat their eyes looking at me..

And last evening, I really had my nerves on..kena gak le Si Maisarah. She came back knocking the door and was happily explained to me how she had missed the bus first trip and since she didn't want to wait for second trip ( together with those who finished school at 630pm including Maryam), she had chosen to walk back...SOme half way..: "Ma, ade mak cik kasi tumpang Sarah, ma..."..and she had not known the makcik..a stranger..

Suddenly I was angry..and I said :

"Bukan mama dah kata, jgn ikut orang yang tak kenal!"

" Sarah tak ingat, ma..salah ke?"

"huh!...memang salah..what if dia tak hantar Sarah depan rumah...anything can happen..and if Sarah tak balik..for sure mama kena cari Sarah macam orang gila..dengan mengelek baby ke sana - ke mari..."..ayo...dush! dush! ( can't describe la..nanti di kata mendera lak.."

So I texted ayah:

"Geram dgn m3.Pandai2 balik skola jln kaki. Pas tu half way ade pulak orang pompuan yg tak dikenal tumpangkan sampai depan rumah..syukur sampai umah..If not...musti mama tension gile..stress..so now mama suruh dia berdiri depan pintu store tunggu sampai ayah balik..grrr..."

But me ..being me...I pitied her..( I memang hati lembut not like my late mum...if berdiri sampai malam..sampai malam la..tak caya tanya my brothers yang suka balik rumah lepas 'waktu')...about Maghrib , I had asked to clean, solat, dinner and do her homework...in her own room..not in my room..( as usual..sebab nak tumpang air cond!)

At least she came back home safe..syukur...and again and again I said to her..never try to be very clever and adventurous..not in this case..suka-suka hati tumpang orang..If miss bus, wait for the second trip...I was just being safe..

I was frantic..part of it because K.Long was thought to be lost when she was in std one..isshh..

I came back around 7pm from work one evening..went straight to the child care centre only to be told that she had not came back from the sekolah agama...and guys..u cd imagine..huh?..mana budak ni pergi nih?

I think only Allah knows my feelings...I searched for her at sekolah agama..even my late dad on his bicycle..roamed around our house compound..he even went and checked at every classes at sekolah agama including the toilet...and my maksu had borrowed her friends bike..all of us went and searched for her everywhere..frantically...I called ayah jugak lah een though I know he wd only be home an hour later...

Suddenly...around 830 pm...a neighbour came with her...she already nangis one...the neighbour said:" Dia ikut cucu makcik balik tadi..siap dah mandi dan makan".... (huh!..I said inside..)..so I thanked the neighbour...and the drama began...

My late dad was there to watch how I screamed at her..smacked her..(oopss!)...and I cried too...wahh..I was so garang then, macam naik hantu..(later my late dad kata..he just observed..and if I went beyond boundary only then he wd interfere...hihi)...and Kngah memang dah kecut perut habis..terus tertido..

Then she said: ..."Mama, kakak tak suka duduk nursery...mama tak payah lah kerja..."...alamak...hati I cair... so we hugged each other....bla..bla..bla....Ayah came back after that..everything had cooled down..he even went to his daughter room to check..kot lah all the bruises kena sapu minyak or not...he never said a word to me..he knew I was angry!!( nasib baik tak naik hantu terus!!)

And there were also other incidents where my first daughter wd do...missing from nursery again la.( at every nursery!..imagine I banyak kali pindah...Setiawangsa la, Gombak lah..Puchong laa...Tmn karak Utama la...)...gaduh dengan pengasuh lah.....( as she was rebellious..kena pukul gak dengan pengasuh nursery....) patah kaki kat sekolah lah....etc...( all these...might add to the reasons on why I am a fulltime housewife now...)

Am I too worry?..Should I not be worry?..or AM I just being too possessive?....oohh..how should I explain?..would u not be angry like me as well...

I guess...I had spent quite a life painstakingly taking care of my ailing parents...I loved them so much..but in the end Allah loves them more...that was why..as long as I am still healthy..I will take care of my kids...never know when Allah will take them back...

Am I paranoid?

Maybe the above are just small matter..but it do disturb me...the sensitive cancerian me..hence..I must find back my jovial mood to write about my ex-school re union...

Take care everybody....Nice weekend ahead..tata!

To my kids..if u read this later..then surely u wd remember 'the garangness' of mama..who time and again..wd always try to make up for the not-so-good moments...as human..those were mama weakness..but I shall be here..with so much love to shower you all everyday..as long as I could..

And again , everybody in the house wd regard ayah as the sainto...wal hal...aku lah yang sibuk ke sana ke mari...kesian aku....( sorry yang!..saje nak lepas perasaan nih!)

The last week of Jan 2009 - days to tf85reunion

I had wanted to write earlier...normally when the baby had dozed off and between free time after finishing the house chores ( yang tak pernah habis nih!!), I wd quickly run thru my pc..at times just when I wanted to browse thru the internet...baby wd make his sound...sometimes he wants milk, then change diapers, then change position...bla..bla....( macam-macam lah!)..and thus reluctantly I wd have to attend to his needs....and there goes my writings..( I am not complaining...coz I guess all mums wd feel the same..experience the same...)

I had planned to write on few things...and during breast feeding rather than staring blankly at the the tv or the wall, I wd try to picture in my mind those things reasonable for the posting...

Funny that at times when I got the chance to scribble..I wd end up changing the template la...the colour la...bloghop la....so..where got enough time to write?

So the long school holiday , ie. CNY break( a week for K.Long, few days for K.Ngah and Sarah and Yam) had just ended... Remembering back what I did?

1. Wednesday (21/1) : brisk housekeeping....ye lah bilik sikakak2 ni ade yang menyepahkan..including all unfold laundry...yeap..bilik2 tak berpenghuni selalu jadi mangsa berkumpulnya barang2 ibarat store...karang kalu tak susun balik ape yang patut ade lak suara yang merungut...especially kakak..( dia nih mengalahkan Mdm..)..

2. Thursday (22/1) : ayah picked up Kakak Mas..and Maisarah & Maryam were jumping up and down as they missed their sister..a surprise for them when they came back fr school..and cd not wait for Kakak Long pulak..

3.Friday ( 23/1) : ayah picked Kakak Moon from Bukit Jalil..they reached home around 1 am...borak-borak ngan die jap..:" Kakak, esok remind mama ye...telepon chik Midah...nak tau bila diorang nak dtg?"...

4. Saturday ( 24/1) : Family time together...with loads of laundry oleh budak-budak yang balik dr asrama....tak cukup-cukup ampaian...read my srikandi85 yahoo mail....waduh..terasa macam teringin nak join kengkawan ku..and forgot to call my relatives...

5. Sunday (25/1) : Family time together...lepak-lepak kat rumah....and I forgot what we did!

6. Monday (26/1): After lunch, ayah brought K.ngah, Sarah & yam to Air terjun Serendah...and I stayed home with KLong and Baby...A bit sad becoz I had missed to watch the eclipse of the sun and the solat sunat as well....gara-gara tertidur kepenatan jaga baby..( mlm semalamnya dia meragam sket!!)..Yg bestnye they came home with my favourite roti nan from non other restoran Ali Maju kat rawang tu...

7. Tuesday (27/1) : Sent Kakak Mas to her school....cuti dah habis la sayang...Late evening received call from my uncle fr Jb,,they are not coming....yeay!!!..later I asked K.Long:

"Kakak, mama mcm nak pi lah reunion stf..u think I shd go..and agak2 ayah kasi tak?"I don't know why I am comtemplating..sound like afraid of ayah pulak!!

" Eh mama..pi lah..bestnye...mana tau this cd be ur last chance..tak tau bila akan jumpa lagi kawan-kawan mama tu...akak rasa ayah kasi lah mama...kalu ayah tak leh jaga baby. akak boleh jaga dier...".So my K.Long has been the first supporter..as she also share the same feelings about boarding school..and thus perasaan ini membuak-buak ...malam tu tak berapa lena tido sebab nak susun plan..rase cam nak pi reunion stf85....

8. Wednesday (28/1) : Cooking as usual..and still thinking of relaying the decision to ayah about the reunion...Ayah was busy with his notebook ( he had applied leave to entertain our relatives..but in the end lepak kat umah je lah sebab sedara tak jadi dtg..)..ayo...macamana nak cakap kat ayah nih!!Kalau tak silap received sms dari Shana request for class photo..alamak sorry beb..tak dak lah..

Ayah took Kakak to A*bank to open another bank account at Bdr country home..(malas nak pi rawang la tu!)...with sole purpose to get a new atm card as she lost her c*mb atm card at Pudu raya Bus Station last year..issshh..pick pocket...But was dissappointed when after everything was done, the cashier said :

." " Maaf, dik. Bawah 18 tahun tak dpt atm card."..so Kakak and ayah went into the car and kakak called me...

" Ma, kena deposit Rm100 dan tak dpt atm sebab akak bawah 18 tahun."

"Say what?...ape bank tuh?..B*n pun kasi atm card"...Mama grumbled and asked ayah on whether he had asked the counter about it..I felt annoyed becoz I was the one who had insisted ayah to accompany Kakak..after browsing the internet which states opening account requires a minimum of Rm20....or was it I salah tengok...salah baca?

" Kakak, go back to the bank and bawak keluar duit.." I said to kakak..terasa macam mendidih perasaan pd bank tu.THinking also, I wd like to reserve my few cash for reunion registration...

Later kakak called me and informed. " Ma, hari ni tak leh sebab baru buka akaun, esok baru boleh. Ayah kata esok lah ayah buka akaun baru and kakak can use his atm card."...so i replied..ok lah..that's sensible..

As the night came..still thinking about reunion stf...

8. Thursday (29/1) : Masak spesial sket le hari nih..kunun nak ambik hati ayah pasal reunion lagi!..after maghrib ...memberanikan diri menyuarakan hasrat hati with all the plans and schedule serta perkara yang melibatkan Baby....(ape nak buat kan..macam inilah..mothers like me...kalu nak bergerak memang kena pastikan everything in order..I worry too much..walhal...they surely wd manage punya...)

Yes!!..ayah kata :" Pi lah, ayah jaga baby"...

dan tanpa membuang masa, hantar sms kat Dada...:".pls count me in Dada..I nak pi reunion"..and

Dada jawab :" U memang gatal...bla-bal-bla...pay at singgahsana and dress to kill tau!"..and Dada if u read this...aku memang gatal!!sorry eh!

9. Friday (30/1) : Pagi2 buta hantar sms kat Shana and Farah...tghri gosok baju untuk nak pi reunion...arrgghh..hijau..hijau..mana satu baju hijau nih!!Hati sangat gumbira..at last dapat menghiburkan diri sendiri..about 10.30pm..masa tengah tengok Raja lawak kat astro ( as if mcm tak de cerita lain nak tengok..) received call from Shana..sangat teruja nak pi reunion..

10. Saturday (31/1) : Early morning went to the shop to get few groceries, buy breakfast with extra lauk sebab tghr tak masak heavy but thinking on just nasi goreng ..Ayah went jogging without notifying me...isshhh!! becoz I thought I wanted to ask him to buy breakfast. When I came back, baby was crying out of his lung....isshh terkejar-kejar rasenye..( ayah still not back fr his morning jog..grr.)...nak mandikan baby, feed him..laundry and prepare table for breakfast...

Then about 10am..ayah took Maryam to the DEntist...nak kena cabut gigi..I said to ayah tak payah le pi dentist..cabut je dengan benang..but ayah kata..tak pe lah..kesian lak kat maryam..And they came back around 12 pm..."Ayah, cabut gigi kah?..buat gigi?"..then Maisarah kata ade ramai orang kena tunggu giliran...by this time, I know I must start packing things for baby (including my stored milk ..) as ayah nak bawak dia pi umah his sister lepas hantar mama ke Singgahsana.

About 1pm we left home and stopped by r&r for solat zuhur but later decided to go to nearest petrol station ( as parking mcm tak de je...)..

Reached singgahsana around 215pm.....and so I was greeted by few friends....yeay!!!..I've made it...I am at the reunion tunfatimah85....for this..I shall make special posting later..I had a great time....at last ..a little break from the housewife, mum and nursiring routine..(.but a little bit sad becoz Farah, one of my best friends, txted me saying she cdn't make it...)..

Then ayah came around 7pm...saw Mikhael sucking Maryam's little finger...he must be very hungry...I miss him....along way back, I relayed to ayah what had happened at the reunion...and said to ayah...I got a rose!!how sweet..plus other goodies..and balloon too..( I first saw my friend tacked away the balloon for her kids..so I copied cat her...just to see smile on Maisarah's and Maryam's face as earlier on they had pleaded to tag along...)

Reached home around 8pm...after cleaning myself and baby...to the kitchen just to cook simple dish ( walupun dalam hati..aduhh...penat arr....).

Later watched kakak doing her packing...and again relayed the whole incident to her...and laughed over silly things which I had encountered...especially pictures on the slide ...hihi!!

11. Sunday (1/2) : oo..how I wish..I cd just lay down..no worries about anything..I think my jaw line muscle hurt little bit..eh..why arr???( well..must be too much laughter at the reunion..see...friends...aku dah lama tak bergelak sakan..memang kelakar..).Cooked 'jemput-jemput' tepung ...as requsted by kakak..and around 9am..off we went to Bukit Jalil..and we said bye-bye to Kakak Munirah...till we meet again, insya'Allah for the next school break..

" Kakak, jaga diri ok...jaga kesihatan..and study smart...doa dan solat hajat for ur coming exam..."..and I waved to her....tears coming out la pulak....

Then we went straight to J*ram Kuala Selangor to visit Kakak Mas...stayed about an hour at Pantai Remis as Kakak Mas wanted to buy Kerang bakar..and we chit chat chit chat....and kakak Mas belanja adik2nya KFC chicken sold at the van bergerak..(never saw this KFC van before...)and sent her back before 6pm..

" Mas, jaga diri and banyak doa supaya mudah capai target 'hafiz'.."

"Mama dan ayah doakan adek ye!!"..Kakak Mas wd always refer herself as 'adek' whenever she talk to us..So we said gd bye..tears again for me...Around 6pm..reached home....

And those were things happening for the last week of January 2009...at least I am able to record them in this so called electronic diary...for my future reference...for my broods...for all the events of which each carries its own smile and tears...thats' life...I am blessed!!

Just feeling like...carpenters again

I just had a quick snack..just an egg sandwich to suffice my hunger before dinner tonight...

Sigh..I am constantly hungry and thirsty too....dehydration...( feel like I cd drink a whole 1 litre at one go....hihi) cd it be the 'jamu' that i just started consuming for the past few days...

Thus..I am finding something to soothe myself down...( soothing lil Mikhael is another thing though..)..How I wish at times that I cd have hands like octopus..to grab one thing in one hand, eat at another, cooking and lullaby my newborn son...( not so newborn lah...almost 2 months..and he's starting to coo..and ahh..and smile that melts me down...)and..the most currently is to hae another hand to roam around the mouse so that I cd surve the internet, bloghop, facebook..etc...perhaps just like the mum of the incredibles.

Just went thru one of the old songs...my favourite and thought wd like to add into my blog..at least all my broods wd remember later...that carpenters used to be their mama fa singer..songs...enjoy dear...

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Top of the world

Such a feelin's comin' over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here

I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

And its Monday again..and close to you..carpenters

and so does all the routine work..

and counting of when I would be able to do or at least start some where of all things planned..

Spoken to ayah last night : ".. Cepat le besar baby..."

And ayah replied : " Ni dah besar la ni...slowly..tunggu la nanti bila dah mula merangkak...tunggu la mama..just watch the hero in action..."


Watching the baby in the arms of his father....so sweet...and he is so gentle....not knowing whats going on out there....in the world...in Gaza..perhaps...and i feel so blessed...

And I just dozed off...tak perasan bila ayah tutup tv..AJL...entah sapa yang menang..as mama had to catch up on short nap..before baby wakes up for another round of feeding..Meanwhile..ayah takes charge..haha!!!

Maisarah and maryam pun dah lama tidor..esok mula sekolah semula...

Praying for the greatest health so that what ever planned cd be materialised...well what else...

And out of boredom..I still find the songs by Carpenters..so ..music to my ears...




CLOSE TO YOU (Carpenters)

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.

Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Hahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Lahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.

The two go bald..??New year resolution?

Dear Son..now u are fully awake and what kind of look is that?...can u see me in you or its all daddy's....(waa....tak aci...)..and eh! awat hidung hang kembang???



And just wanna have these two special person captured in my blog after having their hair shaved..

Wallaa...new year with new head....bald is sexy meh!!!



( and they sleep like a log....at least mama cd have a cup of hot milo..during supper)





( And Sarah and Yam cheekily giggled and watched the daddy with their little brother..)





(and Mama wdn't wanna miss a shot too...well friends..how do I look?)..from the face..ok lah..Huh..but I still have those spare tyres and stretchmarks...which I think will take more than a year to be repaired...anyway...I close my case... Mikhael punya hidung kembang lagi...

And what am I doing now?..the research says for every one ounce of breastfeed..I shd be able to shed away 20 calories..and for a good supply of milk I need at least 12 glasses of water and good 1500 calories....waa..( nak makan ape tu...)..true or not???..and baby is fed at a minumum of 10 times a day with at least 2 ounce per feeding..(maths..mathss..)but one thing for sure I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight..and sheepishly 2 kilo lighter...waa..heaven!!(but still the BMI is overweight...) isshh..and dear ayah..u still owe me a good juicy beef steak kan!! Bila nak belanja???

when it comes to maintaining gd health and shape..I usually am the lazy and not strong willed(hangat-hangat- tahi ayam one.).and as I cd not miss sweat menu & beverage...loooonngg road to go..even I still have few packets of param, ubat sapu kurus..and the 'bengkung' dah satu minggu kasi cuci (kunun lepas habis pantang kasi cuci la..and ingat akan pakai lagi..)and hang nicely inside the drawer...waa...ini macam mana boleh 36-26-36....ha!ha!........( sorry Che Abang Mus..errr sponsor me to that slim & trim place ..can or not?)..p/s: Baby mikhael is 48 days now...

Dear bloggers...one need strong determination to achieve one's objective....at least to keep fit remain one of my new year resolution...ever...every year...every year..



p/s: i am exhausted and off to my noon nap....see you ! tata!

Prisoner of Zenda..Bye Kakak Moon..

(Kakak Moon few days before school holidays at her school - arts performance Nov 2008, i.e malam gala kesenian P.ramlee where she played a scene from Ali baba Bujang Lapuk)



( Kakak Moon affectionate kat ayah...amboi-amboi...)









( Kakak Moon and mama - few hours before the birth of Mikhael..and mama was wearing wrist watch..timing her mild contractions.... a miracle..miracle...)




So..the last few days before we went off to Jb, saw Kakak Moon frantically trying to finish all her homework including reading the above novel and thus answer the question given by her teacher..

It was a simple but nice novel..well..it caught my attention..( sebab nak tolong Kak Long fahamkan the whole story..)..Then I said..this was a famous novel tapi mama tak ingat ade baca masa zaman skola dedulu but I remembered my late dad used to have the tv show taped and watched over and oer again...( err..betul kah Ch' MOk?)..

It has been quite looong time since I could finish a novel...MAta sakit.( sudah rabun dekat nampaknya..).kepala sakit...sebab nak focus dan concentrate punya pasal..wahh..sudah tua kah???.but at last..dpt gak tell a summary to K.Long..(such a pengelat!)..siap bukak you tube lagi sebab nak fahamkan betol2..That's a spirit..

So we managed to send KLong on 4th january ...GOnna miss u sooo much especially as she was a great help..taking care and singing to Little Mikhael..( dear kakak..true mikhael already miss your high and loud tune..).Mama doa..kakak dpt segala hajat..diberi kesihatan...almaklum another exam year for you..ingat pesan ayah supaya jgn tinggal solat dan solat hajat..and don't worry about KakNgah Mas..nanti kita akan visit dia..take care sayang!!




(K.Long and Busyhuk-busyuk Mikhael)





(K.Long and Kngah Mas)










(K.Long and K.chik Yam)











(K.long and K.Lang Sarah)




Yesterday...was the first day of schooling for Maisarah and Maryanm..duadua excited dan sangat teruja...bangun pun senang nak dikejut...and it was like a dream watching little Maryam in her new school uniform..thanx to the courtesy of dear daddy.( who had to take leave).just to make sure she was ok on the first day..and yes..she was superb..Only that Maisarah could not find her class and being Maisarah she had joined her old friend which was actually not her right class...ended up receiving wrong class time table...Isk !isk!...Luckily she was quick to realise it was the wrong class when she met one of her friend directing her to the new class...hai..Maisarah..maisarah..so mama pun membebel...make sure u get the time table from ur teacher tomorrow, ok!..So the two girls are on the evening session..at least I cd have a little of my time with Mikhael after 1 pm right to 6 pm...wah!!! syurga!

I am trying to squeeze my time especially to take advantage of the solace when Mikhael is fast asleep..isshh..terkejar-kejar rasenya...masih teringat pada kerja akaun2 my brother yang tergendala...talk about discipline and time management...

IN the mean time..hope you all had an enjoyable opening of 2009..

See u again...

Byebye 2008..welcome 2009.."U mean everything to me "

Wowweee..seems ages since I last updated my blog..time flies so fast..and I am so stuck with my new routine..nursing my new little boy....preety tired...and thanx so much with the help of my girls..( not forgeting the daddy as well - who appears once in a while due to his work nature - miss u terribly dear...)

Many things have changed..and all of us slowly adjusted to the new timetable..tip toeing around...night screams..slumber disturbance...taking turns of having meal..etc..etc..am sure..all chaotic at first...but again..everything comes with a price..and we are ready to pay for it..

It has been over one month..and Baby Mikhael has gained his weight...from a mere skinny 3kg to 4.2kg)

It has been a week now since my 2nd daughter has gone back to her school...( happy belated Birthday Mas! - thx a lot ayah for the cheese cake)...

It is almost a week before the new school term begin...we shall be sending my first daughter to her school in Jb...( she is all anxious for its going to be her pmr year..)

.and by next MOnday my 3rd and my 4th daughter shall resume their days of schooling..

That means..I shall be alone with baby...Omigosh..can u imagine..me being alone with him...chaotic..no more lullaby by his kind sister...perhaps..perhaps..he shall cry out loud for more than he can imagine as mummy shall be busy with the normal routine...and ayah if you happen to read this...forgive me from the bottom of my heart..for all the 'moody' moments....never meant..never meant..have pity on me dear!!

I am saying bye bye to 2008..with great memories...

I am welcoming 2009...pray for the best..prosperous..and happiness..all the year throughout..

The same goes to all my blogger friends...Happy New Year..Much Love..Tata!!

p/s: Happy Birthday to my dear hubby....on this coming 31st December...and please listen to this old song..." you mean everything to me.."


and dear Maksu...all the best for the project...and this neil sedaka song was also our parents' song..

..He is the apple of many eyes...

Dear bloggers...

~Muhammad Mikhael~ safely born on Monday morning 1240am...24 Nov 2008...( 37 weeks & 2 days pregnancy age)..

Could not describe the many feelings that i felt..with his presence...much joy...much happiness..I totally forgot the pain of childbirth once the doctor safely place him on me..well that was a very intense pain.but quite a very short labour... ( I tell u!) .but for one thing I know..one of the many wishes has been granted..yes..that one wish...

But most of All..I am so grateful for the gift from Allah...and today the mood is quite sober for everyone over here.( funny that his sisters cried along our way back to home after seeing the little Md. Mikhael in his birth suit )...as he has to be left at the hospital for the jaundice treatment since yesterday afternoon..

So I am taking this opportunity to thank everybody whose prayers and support had made me strong along the pregnancy..and also well wishes...

This post is rather short..but enough to announce the arrival of our little boy..

Shall meet again..Thanks you all...

Baby minutes after been delivered (top) and after being cleaned (down) ..

Baby at home.. 4 days old.






Satu anugerah..akhirnya...and to all my beloved family and friends..thanks again..see you when I see u..tata!

Wouldn't u also ???

Since last visit to my gynae, my appetite has gone hay-wire...thus..cooking is the last thing i enjoy.(especially when at times the smell makes me dizzy..which of course make me wonder..how on earth..at this trimester??)..if its not a must....and these few days if someone wd have spotted me..they wd see me around the area of food court near my place..( difference wd only be the gown I wore and the time plus the food i bought)..Since there'r only me and my two little girls....it makes my reasoning to bring ready-made food so much easier..less hastle..no guilty...

This afternoon I stopped by a noodle stall which also sell 'bubur kacang' - sweet dessert...I was greeted by a boy still wearing a school uniform..(the said conversation is then translated into Malay language.)

Me : Eh, Mana mak?

Boy : Err..jemput makan makcik..Mak saya balik jap, solat...Makcik nak ape?..( prior to that he himself was actually scooping the noodles to himself....)..

Me: Mee hun sup 1 , bubur kacang 1 dan 2 dadih.

He looks so pro when packing all those ordered..and between that I asked him few question...like how's the paper, his other siblings..etc..

Me: Baru balik skolah?

Boy: Habis paper spm, cik...Saje je temankan mak kat sini..

And my heart melts for no reasons...

Quite a times I had this opportunity to have met and deal with nice and well mannered boy..and of course my heart wd smile all the way...why?..maybe I had compared them with those boys roaming around on a bike...dangerously showing off their talent..and things like that..or laughing hysterically inside the cyber cafe regardless of the surroundings..( u bet ..i'd been inside those cc..and since it didn't separaete adult and kids...it was like h*ll..sitting beside those little ra*cals...)

But again...I wd love to see and meet those kind of teenagers...which I think are becoming very rare..well depends on the type of places I visited...

To conclude...would n't u also love to meet and be treated by some nice and well mannered teenagers..?..Deep inside..I am eager to meet their parents too...and at least learn the parenting skills..etc...which I think still lot to be learned..

And of course..what about my own kids???

Bak kata pepatah melayu:..bagaimana acuan..begitulah kuihnya.......I wonder if I cd carry the mission...and if anybody out there who have met my husband..who is so reserved and introvert..(facts only ok!) then I'd say for this department alone..lots and lots work must come from me eh!..adeh!..well talk about soft skills...pr..pr...Well...maksu..give me a hand pls!!

Have a nice day for all nice people I have known and met out there..

Feeling grateful..

I am so grateful that it rained just now....

I am so grateful for so many things...and words aren't easy to describe the feelings..

and this short post is to greet each and everyone of you out-there..

have a very productive week ahead...

p/s:..Quite nervous over here...!!