I miss posting to my blog

Not a diligent blogger...emmm...I've been trying to think to write something....apart from my Maisarah and Maryam popping in and out..wanting for more computer fun&games..I have been occupying myself with lots...and lots of rest..whenever I could...

I went and peek at my friends' blog ..like wanshana, mrsnordin, ibu ( eventhough she seems so quiet since the winds of change..)...and others too...I guess they are all instant source of laughter that made my day...filling in my times..with their antics and anecdotes..managed to post some comments..but what about my own postings...and mrsnordin had even said that she could not open my blog..alamak..how should I know...virus or something..not sure...but I do remember instead of writing..aku dok asyik..menambah dan menukar..'lay out'....ape yang aku dah buat..gatal tangan...kah??

Well..actually I am feeling rather strange for the past few weeks....(mixed feelings actually...because..last time I had all these symptoms..it was like 7 years ago....) ..heavy, some time sleepy..some time could not sleep...suddenly nausea starts creeping in.????..poor Maisarah..she had to endure with my 'not-so-nice-mood'..during her homework session...believe me...I am quite 'tonned' down with my two younger kids..but last night..I pinched her..( it left bruises the next morning...but I apologized and applied ointment...kot la nanti silap haribulan kena tahan kerana mendera.)..she didn't cry..I guess she know she could not escape..it was her fault..to forget her numbers and calculations..and she got 20 answers wrong in her last maths test.(but sayang Maisarah..mama janji...mama akan cuba bersabar...next time...could me?).....perhaps, perhaps, perhaps......

I am scheduled for ultrasound next week..and I am scared actually as I shall turn 40 in the next couple of months..what do you think.?..( the hpt is positive.....!!jeng! jeng!) support me , please!!does it sound that some part of me is still working after years treatment of endo/adenomyosis?.Should I be happy and proud..O God..Please help!I just had one chemical preg last May, One molar preg back in 1995 and one ectopic in 1998...Thank God I have 4 surviving angles..but all sorts of things cd happen at this age???last performance perhaps???

Mean time..I guess Maisarah and Maryam..would have to entertain them self a lot..( I shall think after this of ways to make up with them.later.) .because..If I am not writing..that means I am just being lazy..sleepy.. (besides my other routine chores like cook simple dish, driving them around) and just couldn't help doing many things..except.rest..nap..and .worry..( I have left folding my laundry for three days...they are all piled up. now .hehehe!)....Ta..ta...

Malay Old Song : 2 versions

My dear Angles,

Among the songs hummed by your late grandmother was this song that I grew up listening to....The first version was by the late Saloma and the second version was by Uji Rashid..and U know..Mama wd never fail to listen to this song over and over again that I bet , it had already left some tiny places in your mind....

The sweet melody and the magic lyrics.... I guess it was part our malay old tradition...everything was not that straight forward....like ...in malay words....'Berkias'...when one is happy, is sad, is hoping..its like a word uttered cd have meanings behind it and they just show the 'Melayu' and 'Lembut'..and it was potrayed in every actions...thus we were thought since young to be 'Lemah Lembut' / soft and respect especially to the elderly...plus have patience with the younger ones..

But time flies so fast..that nowdays...we are thought to be outspoken..we are more straight forward..we speak up your mind..just be careful dear..with the words..because Allah creates each and every one of us unique..what u think is right and fancy ..at times is not right and fancied by others....but again fight for your right and befriend plus seek advice from knowledgeable people..most of all seek guidance from Allah The Almighty...if you were faced with hiccups in your life...

p/s: By coincidence this song was presented by one of the AF-6 contenders.....down my memory lane la.....

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MENGAPA DIRINDU

Anak Punai Anak Merbah
Terbang turun buat sarang
Anak sungai pun berubah ini pula hati orang
Mengapa dikenang

Asal kapas jadi benang
Dari benang dibuat baju
Barang lepas jangan kenang sudah jadi orang baru
Mengapa dirindu

Kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam mimipi
Kasih yang baru simpan di hati
Kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam mimipi
Kasih yang baru simpan di hati

Selat teduh lautan tenang
Banyak labuh perahu aceh
Jangan kesal jangan kenang walau hati rasa pedih
Mengapa bersedih

Kalau pinang masih muda
Rasanya kelat sudahlah pasti
Kalau hilang kasih lama cari lain untuk ganti
Mengapa Dinanti

Patahkan tumbuh hilang berganti
Akan sembuh kalau diubati....

Sayang Mengapa Dirindu....

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New assignment: The 8 things..

Thanks Wanshana dear...for tagging me..that should left me with few sleepless night of what should I jot down as a reply...wahaha!..( I dah kata kat u shana..I kan baru dalam alam blog-memblog nih..apo eden nak tulis ni..bantai jo lah!)

But what is 'tagged', ?..
1) A piece of paper nicely pinned at one's product for sale? like the picture above or..

2)Like tag along.. or tag as the game in which one child chases and tries to touch another
( courtesy of Oxford advanced learners dictionary)

3) Just another sharing things...

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But first I must admit..I wouldn't feel free if i just ignore my friends' wish...and for your information blogger hoppers..there were quite a few drafts on these topic alone..hahaha! Shana...so I think again and again I'd blog hop at ur blog lah! but wd try not to make them all the same..I'd be charged with plagiarism ..and no full marks for students who plagiarized!.eerr..do u penalty ur students, shana..or u just keep one eyes closed.nop!..I don't think so..You being among the strict academician..creature on earth!!..Must have a standard kan!..If not..how would the quality of the grads be judged then?..(Apa daaa...merepek meraban ni!!!!!!!!)




o..oo...ok..

8 things I'm passionate about:-


1. Marriage & Family - Continuous improvement bla..bla..bla..
2. Children - their welfare, study, discipline and manners ( even though there were times ..probably becoz worries exceed everything..I just close one eye..and let them go unnoticed, free market!!)
3. Surfing internet - on line reading maa...for news and articles especially related to the first two above.

4. I love baking ( making use of the utensils left behind by my late mum) and sold them during last festive seasons ( make money out of your hobby..dear , even though not much becoz one man's show cd only produce these much and these much..lack economies of scale): they include kek lapis sarawak and kek lapis rempah, kek gulung, kueh tat tradisional, Biskut Semperit/Dahlia, Biskut Corn flakes, Biskut Mama Carries, Biskut Choc Chips....But sadly this no 4 has to be put off for a while..the reason being..my oven had gone 'kaput'/electric short circuit some where last 2 weeks....and Ayah has so far been quiet about it...sigh...so my dear kids...if you feel like home made pizza, caramel pudding ( yg slalu tak hangus tu..), bread pudding,plain cake..or even roasted chicken..then..shout out loud to your ayah la...(ooo..If I were to bake again then I'll have the picturs of my masterpiece..if and If Icd get hlod of the camera)

5. Sewing ( this is also courtesy of my late mum sewing machine which she had bought in 1970..)..I am not a professional for that matter but I love to sew Baju Kurung Raya for my anglesand Baju Kurung/ Jubah Sekolah ooppss...excuse the not-so-pro cuttings...so far non of my kids had complaint but my eldest has started to begin to like tailored one..ya lah..mama tak pandai buat kebaya what!!and sorry Ayah..my tailoring skills is not extended to your Baju Melayu daa....but for those basic..I must thank my SRT teacher, my dedicated friends like Noraini and most of all...My late Mak!..Normally ..for all these effort...nanti ayah musti belanja punya lah!

6. Window shopping...poor ayah has to patiently wait in between taking care of those running little yankies..becoz mama's eyes shall only focus on items to buy...to choose..from a booth to another...to another..until Ayah wd asked : "Dah sudah ke?" or "Dah jumpa?"...err...kaki dah penat...or.."Apa kata pi surau dulu?"..what???
7. Budget - Being a full time mother/house wife..of course money...money..budget..and budget...becoz whenever ayah got his pay..he will give me some amount..for everything...so if I 'joli sakan'...nanti lagi one week nakdapat another pay...I'd have to justify if I request for another sum??? Jury?
8. Baby??...jeng..jeng...(this one I shall elaborate later....Insya'Allah..)


8 Things I want to do before I die:-

1. Settled all my debts.....( If only I could turn back the clock..)..
2. Go to Mecca with Ayah...perform Hajj...( Not registered yet...!...how???)
3. Tour on a cruise...in the middle of the oceon..capture a glimpse of a mermaid..( becos my late dad said : he thought he had seen one..but the real mermaid is not so lovey-dovey..!!)
4. Get to see all my kids are all settled down....if married and have kids..please do not let me be the child care centre ok!
5. Own a bakery..(wwoooaaaa..this is very ambitious lah!)..and at least write few articles..get published..and get paid!
6. Finish recite all the surah in the AlQuran.each for my late parents...since I miss them soooo much..I had asked an Ustazah..and she said..the best is if the children cd finish recite , ie. Khatam Quran for their demised loved ones...
7. Finish my professional studies....( if only my mind and pocket could afford it) and get a license!
8. Spend the rest of my live in a kampung house..with verandah..surrounded with trees..and preferably by the sea...( I used to be a sailor's daughter what!)


8 things I say often:-

1. Pity you...(Shian ni..)
2. Oh My God! (Ya Allah....Ya Rabbi..-- this is esp when the kids get on my nerve!)
3. Did I not say earlier (Kan mama dah kata..bla..bla...itu pasal jadi cam ni..tak mau dengar)
4. Thank You
5. Sayang ( Love You)
6. Oo..is it (Ye..Ke..)
7. Ek!
8. Ade ade aje


8 books I read/plan to read:-

1. Memahami Keutamaaan : Prof Yusuf AlQardawi
2. Personality Plus
3. How to win friends
4. Stress Management
5. The Child Psychology
6. Spiritual on religion
7. Coping with Bereavement
8. Make money


8 songs I love :-

Thousand apologies my friend..I am so retro , sentimental, oldies listener...that my eldest wd complaint..ape la ma...ketinggalan zaman..out of date..loud music..hurt my ears...err..sorry..

1. Love Story - Andy Williams
2. The Last Walt's - Connie Francis
3. Its not Unusual - Tom Jones
4. Quando-quando-quando - Engelbert Humperdick
5. Engkau Laksana Bulan _ Sheila Majid
6. Aku Dan Kenangan - Brain Connection
7. KepadaMu Kekasih - MNasir
6.Fatamorgana - Hijaz

Phewww!!..When it rains, it pours..at least now I'm done and this post shall not sit on the draft bin anymore..traaa!!I don't disappoint u, Shana dear!

Please forgive my grammatical error and excuse my emotional remark...I am only human with dreams and mistakes..

Have a good Day my fellow bloggers...Love u all and take care...

Ageing?? Shortsightedness??

For the last couple of months, I've had difficulty reading my sms on the cellphone, pricking thread into needle, reading newspaper less than 1 feet, enjoying the colours of my food at less than 0.5 feet too..so what's going on?

I searched and read religiously on eyes problems...etc..etc..

In conclusion...this is indeed another symptom of ageing...Innalillah....

Don't worry..Be happy...Ayo sudah tua la..

Care to join me shopping for a new pair of reading glasses..??.Err..what do they normally asked for the best glasses for one who is shortsighted, could't stand glare esp during night driving..and dry eye also? (..mmm..asking too much?)



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Ada cinta

Dear Kakak Mun,

Mama knows u are peeping....okay..this one is for you..enjoy..



So..bila nak tepon mama ni.....itu fulus sudah terima..senyap sunyi je ...

Salam Kaseh Sayang :

KENANG DAKU DALAM DOA MU

Its not unusual

Dear diary,

I'm feeling ..its not unusual..here's sharing a song ...and to my kids..this is especially out of the world..yeahhh...your mama is a big fan of retro what..enjoy..





Here's the lyrics too..

It's not unusual to be loved by anyone
It's not unusual to have fun with anyone
but when I see you hanging about with anyone
It's not unusual to see me cry,
oh I wanna' die

It's not unusual to go out at any time
but when I see you out and about it's such a crime
if you should ever want to be loved by anyone,
It's not unusual it happens every day
no matter what you say
you find it happens all the time
love will never do what you want it to
why can't this crazy love be mine

It's not unusual, to be mad with anyone
It's not unusual, to be sad with anyone
but if I ever find that you've changed at anytime
it's not unusual to find out that I'm in love with you
whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh

Have a nice weekend every body!

At last..

Feel like announcing to everybody.....check Mate!!!

Ahoi!..Ahoi!..and especially to my dear Kakak Mun..we have streamyx back at home.yes!yes! yes!..dengan ehsan ayahmu yang tercinta...

So these few days if you had been bouncing to and fro ...deep apologies from mama le, sayang oii..( and to my fellow friends ...Hi you all!!)

As usual mama yang 'bute' IT ini would rely a lot on the expertise of others..

While configuration was taken place...bla..bla....bla...switching on and offf...

So much to write..just that so little time...lets call it off for this mean time...

Shall be right back.....ZZZzzzz

Take care you people out there...