Jun sudah datang..separuh 2010 sudah pergi..

Sedang menyiapkan minda...setelah hampir 2 minggu cuti oleh rutin biasa ...(rutin2 berkenaan anak2 sekolah rendah dan anak kicil..)

Hari ni menyaksikan anak yang bersekolah menengah kembali ke sekolah masing2...diiringi sejuta doa..harapan seorang ibu...hati sayu...perpisahan dan kerinduan...seperti merobek jiwa...

Ingin kembali menyusun strategi agar pertengahan 2010 yang kedua ini..menjadi lebih bermakna..lebih mensyukuriMu...Ramadhan kiat menggamit...

Akan kembali....Salammmm...

make money out of it...

Long before, when everybody start talking about bizzness through internet, I did my own research...

Well nowdays, I must say money is important..it might not make u happy a whole heartedly but, serious ,money makes u happy...at one stage I mean..( eventhough some says, money can't buy anything..I guess at this point , look who's talking??..emm...)..

It is no longer barter trading sytem..like old days when we learnt history, orang putih nak rempah, tukar dengan somethign else with the pedagang...( tak ingat sangat daa...)

And I had long discovered, money could solve many things...after all, in this world economic system..we need to pay for everything!..Tengok kalu u pi kedai..u bawak rm50..u beli a few grocerries...dah habis duit!!!tak termasuk alat tulis budak2..yang saban minggu...pensil hilang lah, pensil warna kena curi lah!!..pemadam tak de...hoi!!..korang ni?..ingat sayang oii..mama bukan kerja chop duit!

When I decided to become a full time housewife..deep inside, told me, it is gonna be pain, dear!..lots!..and for a kind sole breadwinner of my dear hubby, to feed us...means ..kerja keras, kais pagi dan ptang sesungguhnya..

So when I first start blogging, i wanted to see money coming into my bank..yes!, no kidding!!!.you have a product..you do the marketing through the internet....woila..duet masyukkkk....but due to some circumstances, i ended up, writing down my expressions...like not worth it lah!!..rugi.rugi...

My brother was kind enough to employ me as part timer for his office accounting work..that I do fast within days..and collected the allowance..or I took my own sweet time until the auditor chase after me..ha..ha..( penalty for late submission, only rm20...must be part of the reason huh?)..Historical data..ma..who'd be interested?..The board of directors make some decisions from the accounting information u feed them..so if there's no annual report, what do they rely on?...this is when creative accounting comes in...( I am smiling....!!:)))))

Serious blogging started few months before Mikhael was conceived...prior to that, I think i was like a crazy job hunter!!!...I wanted to work and earn but at the same time,I am afraid of leaving behind my kids..for cases of abuse and emergencies I had endured before..very tiring!!..very moody!...yeap, like early birds and came back like zombie...kesian my anak2...I had turned down few offer...again fearing of coming back late...my background was accounting and finance..so where on earth u tengok boleh balik sharp at 5 punya???especially during year end closing??..and when the auditors came to ransack every transactionsss??.

I knew I had few skills of cullinary...I once saw and helped my late mum....in food bisness...And I had managed to earn few bucks, 100% profit when I engaged in selling festive biscuits and cakes...still I tell you...It was an extremely tardy, tired,,but happy!!I love baking, only when I have the energy and time ..I love sewing baju kurung raya for my kids..too...I feel good!!..But that was last time!!!

Seriously, my little baby has caught all my attention...Some friends frustratedly ask me, why I didn't answer their calls...I simply said..Either I sleep or I just put the phone on silence mode..Everybody who has baby..know, when the baby is asleep..heaven othe mother..especially masa tu lah nak buat kerja rumah and not forgetting surfing and fb-ing!..Some even dare to kate,,,u tido je ke kat rumah?..Aikkk...I don't have to explain to you lah ..suka hati aku ok!

Now, 2 years after all the ordeal, am i ready to make a come back to this food bisness?..then , I would have extra pocket money..yaahooo..yabedabedu!!!..And my baby is growing up. fast..few friends has already asking for samples..for the coming festive?..Would I take up the challenge?...Aiyoo...i need support group lah sayang oii..kalau nak buat bisness kueh raya dan kek lapis segala..matilah sorang2 kat dapur..and what about the pots and pans.sape nak cuci?.and Mikhael's screaming for attention would definitely shoot up my blood pressure...And then, came my hubby, " dear, orang buat kueh siang2 hari,,,Waktu Ramadhan, malam2 orang pi Tarawikh, tadarus......Oooo..Aaaaaaa......."..I sayang u lah Abang and tq for reminding!!..

And the ones who wd be there to beli lauk bukak posa..or masak nasi goreng untuk sahur...boleh teka sape?he..he....(nasib baik tak berbuka posa ngan kueh tat dankek lapis..macam cerita kat tv tu!!).

So how?...Oh idea..please come...please!!!

A quick rendang ayam recipee for my angles..

Salam anak2ku dan kawan2 yang menziarah...

Hujung minggu lepas, mama sangat gumbira kerana menerima kunjungan kawan2 lama se'usrah'..zama2 uk dulu...

Rasenya dah lama tak bergelak ketawa dengan hiburan dan lawak jenaka kawn2..rase hilang stress satu badan..

Bila depa maklum nak datang, selalunya kepala mama akan berputar ligat..ape juadah hidangan...mama telepon ayah tanya pendapat...( mungkin masa tak sesuai..ape lah telipon ayah siang2 waktu pejabat hanya nak tanya menu??....)..dan akhir kalam ayah kata yang mudah2 je lah...kalu tak larat...kita beli...

Yeepie.yahoo..!!!

Petang tu ayah balik dari kerja bawak balik beberapa buah2an..

Malam tu mama tersinggah kedai...(lepas layan kanak2 nak makan burger...) dan terbeli bahan2 nak masak esok..
( Walupun dalam hati agak bimbang kerana Mikhael kurang sihat akibat demam selsema...takut2 tak dapat nak masak kerana melayan kerenah dia....tapi...tawakkal jelah!!)

Dan pagi tu pun datang..mama masak le nasi, rendang ayam dan sup sayur campur..tengok2. ade lak kawan mama yang mintak resepi....jadi mama share lah kat sini..kot2 akan datang bila anak2 mama nak masak, leh cuba resepi rengkas ni.

*******************Rendang ayam rengkas ( satu ekor setengah- potong 12)
Bahan2 kisar:-
7 biji bawang besar
1 labu bawang putih
2 inci halia
1 inci kengkuas
1 inci kunyit
6 batang serai
10 biji cili api ( boleh tambah kalu nak lebih pedas)

Bahan2 tumis:-
1 btg kayu manis
5 biji pelaga
5 biji cengkih
2 bunga lawang

1. panaskan minyak 1 cawan, tumis bahan kisar bersama rempah ratus. Tumis sekali bersama 2 helai daun kunyit, 4 helai daun pandand dan 4 helai daun kari...( Yang ni sebab akak suka aroma daun2..)
2. Bila dah garing, masukkan 2 sudu rempah besar kari babas (yang telah dicairkan bersama 4 sudu besar air) dan 2 sudu besar cili boh/giling.
3. masukkan ayam ( yang telah dipotong,dibasuh dan tos tadi) bersama 2 packet santan pekat.
4. Api kasi besar sket dan gaul ayam biar mesra bersama rempah.
5. BIla santan hampir pekat, masukkan perahan air asam jawa ( 1 sudu besar perah dengan air 1 cawan ), asam keping 1.Kacau sebati.
6. Setelah 10 min, masukkan garam ( 1 sudu besar), ajinomoto ( separuh sudu teh), kerisik 2 peket kecil, hirisan gula melaka 2 inci, dan kicap manis suku cawan...kacau lagi perlahan.
7. Waalllaa...apabila kuah dah cukup pekat, kecikkan api dan biar reneh ayam dalam setengah jam. tutup api dan tabur hirisan sehelai daun kunyit.
8. tempoh atas api lebih kurang satu setengah jam.

p/s: Ok Rozi...resepi ni lah yg akak pakai kalu buat rendang pagi raya...biasa2 je..ni je yang akak tahu..masak kambing tak pandai!!...he.he..

SElamat mencuba...byee...Maaf, gambar lauk dah sipa tak de, sebab kamera digital tak de daa...

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Anak2 mama tahu..tak banyak koleksi resepi mama...selalu masak yang tu dan yang ni juger...

Makanan laut jarang sekali kot, sebab ayah berpantang..'gaut'..

Masakan kampung...sket2 tahu lah..(ilmu pasal sayur2 kapung pun masih banyak yg nak dipelajari..)ape tah lagi ikan2 air tawar..kalu sesekali ayah pi beli ikan keli atau jenahak..bercinta mama nak siang dan masak..mujur ayah tak gemar belut segala...

Selalu masakan tak pedas..sebab adik2 kecik tak makan pedas,...dan mama sendiri ade gastrik...

Tetapi ape yang teringat mama kan kongsikan kat sini..Pengalaman bersama sedikit ilmu masa belajar sains rumah tangga dulu sangat membantu..dan yang paling mama dirindui adalah kenangan belajar masak lauk dan kueh mueh bersama arwah nenek kalian..Allahyarhamah Monawa Abdul Wahid...Alfatihah..dan seribu rase terkilan kerana banyak lagi ilmu masak memsak yang tak sempat dipelajari..apetah lagi ilmu berumahtangga dan menjadi ibu dan isteri solehah...Alfatihah!!..

Beberapa gambar 'favourite' mama bersama arwah nenek kalian..
Navy Day ( KD Sri Langkawi 1970s)


Arwah Tok Wan And Nenek - Last AIdilfitri celebrated together 1997


Arwah Nenek At Madinah 1997 ( approximate one month before her demise in Ramadhan 1997/1998)


Us- the moments mama shall always treasure...

The art of forgiveness..

Is there an art??

be kind to the unkind as they need it the most?

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Almost every Tuesday morning, I wd turn on Hello On TV2 at *8 am..just to watch my fav programme..vitamins for the mind..host non other by Prof Dr Muhaya Mohamed..my super duper senior of secondary school...

And without fail, i wd scrutinised and tried to remember each words said..(phuh..kalah take notes down zaman skolah2 dulu!!..)..and if my baby is not up yet..and whatever housechores need to be done early..finish up fast..a cup of nescafee..glued in front of tv..Bliss!!!

This morning, the topic struck me by lightning....

FORGIVENESS DOES NOT RUB THE PAST BUT IT SHAPES THE FUTURE...

a'ha..how's that!!

Bad man is a good man's job

Good man is a bad man's teacher...

So??..who wants to be a teacher to me?..Isshh..

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Before you go sleep at night pls say forgiveness :
1) Seek from Allah The Almighty
2)Forgive everybody
3) Forgive yourself..

Say your prayers..and i am off to my zombieland..Nite2..everyone...

p/s:..And where is my partner?...Aiyoo..Larling...Badminton M'sia dah Kalah ngan Jepun lahh....and can you believe Ka*pal said budak tu Tipu...

Allah knows the truth..and the truth shall prevails....Lets Doa!!

Jikalau itu takdirNya..

Pagi tadi saya telah dikejutkan oleh makluman tentang ibu kepada jiran terdekat yang telah kembali ke rahmatullah...

Innalillahi Wainna Ilaihi Rojiuun....DariNya kita datang dan kepadaNya kita semua akan kembali....

Saya terkedu apabila menziarah jenazah arwah makcik itu...

Terbujur kaku...diam membisu...teringat saya tanpa ilmu, pasti saja beliau tidak akan disempurnakan segera..betah juger kita semua kepada kejiranan yang prihatin...itu tidak dapat dinafikan...

Lalu saya berfikir..dalam keadaan sedemikian..siapakah yang akan menyempurnakan jenazah itu...memastikan mayat tidak disakiti.....maruah/aurat dijaga rapi....???

Saya menitiskan airmata tatkala mendengar tangisan anak dan cucu beliau..seakan-akan merasai apa yangsaya rasai apabila kehilangan orang tua sendiri...

Dan seribu persoalan bermain di fikiran...

Mati pasti datang...dan sudahkah diri ini bersedia???

Sekiranay Ditakdirkan sya pergi dahulu...betahkah anak2 menguruskan diri ini??...sejuta doa agar anak2ku diberi kekuatan untuk mengharungi kehidupan...atau di mana saja saya berada..saya mahu disempurnakan sebegitu juger,,,pantas, rengkas dan praktikal...

Apa yang akan saya bawa sebagai bekal ke alam kubur yang gelap..kesorangan itu???Tinggallah kekasih hati, anak2, sanak saudara , kaum keluarga dan rakan taulan..Ditangisi mungkin?...didoakan harapan?

Saya berhenti disini dahulu....saya terfikir untuk menyenaraikan kepada kekasih hati dan anak2..segala wasiat beserta perkara2 yang patut dilakukan oleh keluarga apabila ahli keluarga mereka meninggal dunia...

Baru cuti sekolah kelmarin, saya bercerita kepada anak2..(hasil dari menonton drama melayu..)..sekiranya ibu terbujur kaku...buat itu dan ini, siap itu dan ini,,,,jgn panik...dll...saya berdoa segalanya mudah..bukankah Allah itu Maha Pemudah..Pengasih dan Penyayang...

Dan kenangan dan segala persoalan bermain di fikiran..bersama rindu yang tak mungkin akan pudar..kepada arwah orang tuaku...

Alfatihah..

My inner sayings...

“Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau hitung kami sebagai bersalah, jika kami lupa atau kami tersilap. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap mereka yang kufur terhadap-Mu” [al-Baqarah 2: 286]

Small gifts, tame the heart

It is true all the way..just as true as the law of gravity that God creates...

The power of generousity...not merely in terms of material and kind....

It could be in terms of prayer, sacrifice..., help....like a fan=mous quote everybody knows...THE MORE U GIVE, THE MORE U GET...

One day one of my gals ask:"mama, do u we need to give when in fact we just have few?"(particularly at school when some of her friends always look forward to know what she bring to the school as bekal..)

And I said: : How do u feel, when u give?..Nice isn't it..definitely not
'...riak'....

I guess all these good values must be nurtured onto my kids and rest children of the world..

Give and be generous not because u want something in return..but as a host to God, The Most merciful and Most Kind..that we hope for Allah's blessings...to give us blessings in whatever our undertakings...

....In Islam, Our beloved prophet s.a.w encourages us to bring gift whenever we visit somebody....small things...tame the heart...

In fact , my late mother always remind me to prepare food and share with the visitors....for sure..the generosity shall stay in their heart..and I know...lots of my mums' friends wd regard her as very kind, generous...love her cooking...but me...I am still learning...plus, a slow worker...took a lot of energy to finish a dish..let alone do the housekeeping..ha..ha...not a good example my gals.

Have a nice day!Just a thought to share!!!

2 hours? can arrr?

I am in dilemma...

I read and understood..

Kids must endure at least 2 hours of revision/reading/homework etc..per day...

How???

I am pretty much occupied with house chores things...so overwhelm!!..plus my busy little man..wanting my attention all day long!...

Sigh!!

With two schools session...come night..after dinner..finish homework...play dolls some more...drawing some more..read comics somemore..accompany me watching Malay soap opera somemore...revise mengaji somemore...where on earth is the time???Ayah complain of my gals.tak habis nak main Dolls...

(P/s:Abang dear...depa tu masih anak2...just like Aisyah R.a...still main anak2 masa dinikahi Rasulullah s.a.w...)

Result of first test of 2010, out already...

Euwwwwwhhhh!!

I wonder how are my two big gals doing?...Oii...korang belajar tak kat sna?...

And I am sleepy....Zombie you all...

( O Allah..grant me with strength to carry out my duties...my vision...for you are The Most Powerful and Most Kind..)

Tonsil and March 2010 - wrap up!

Sorryy......very late updates!!!..guess this is my first ever story telling session....

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And in she went into the OT..accompanied by Ayah...before she got the G.A. jap...(she was holding ayah's hand until she's put into sleep..and mama kind of miss that moment...as that time mama was still at home, waiting for CH' Mok's to bring us ~mama, m4 & m5 to the hospital..)

(Ooo...hopefully we cd reach the hospital right after m3 was done with the tonsil removal...mama keep praying...p/s:..And CH' Mok belanja we all breakfast that morning...bliss!!)

About 10.30 we reached Al-Is*am hospital in KG B*ru.....

There she was..out from OT...half awake..but already moaning in pain...

"Mama, haus...haus..nak air..nak air."

OO.. no..no..Mama was in tears trying to comfort her... Ayah was very calm...even m4 and m5 cd sense the pain of their sister....

Mama just wet m3's lips with few drops of water..enough to make M3 to sleep again...but not for long...half an hour later..she was crying......( Ya Allah!..kasihanilah anaku...kuatkanlah semangatnya....permudahkanlah segalanya.....)

She had difficulty swallowing and speaking..Ayah was lot patient than mama when it comes to medicine!!..Bad mummy!!





And we were home, 2 days later..Alhamdulillah...

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M1 and M2 were at home too last school holidays...we were glued at home....borak, makan dan lepak..ha..ha...

And we managed to do housekkeping..plus, all the girls now enjoyed the spacious room of once mama&daddy enjoyed!..(I miss the air cond tho')..

Ayah and mama has decided to forgo the room to the girls...as we were thinking to shift one the smaller room for my only boy...akhirnya..telah diputuskan all 4 girls in one big room, 1 boy in another room (tapi dia ni mungkin lagi 3-4 tahun kot tidoq sendiri...)..and mama and ayah ambik je lah next room...


Oiissh..penat gak kemas dan pindah barang!!!..settled!

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M1 was awarded few gifts for her school's 2009 anugerah kecemerlangan...Alhamdulillah..

She was so eager to go to BSN to get her cert (sijil simpanan) been cash...

Few days before school end..all of us...went to R*wang....early morning and hope to do some shopping ...things they normally bring back to school..toiletteries lah, food lah..

But..and but...when we arrive at the Bsn counter, the person incharged said:
1."Maaf dik, sijil ni kena tunggu 45 hari dari tarikh keluar..baru boleh tunaikan"
2.:"Adik kena bayar rm12, untuk ganti kad atm hilang:..

Waakaka..kaa...ingat nak dpt extra rm100..kena lak bayar rm12...

SO ape nak shopping????..errggh.hhh

And dgn muka seposen si kakak pun kenen pada si adek...

"Dek, ko ade bape kat bank?..Akak pinjam dulu eh?"

And Kngah as usual..never lokek one.....off we went to Parkson...Kakak was happy...everybody else...too..sebab Kngah belanja lunch!!...


(Mama..dah kering poket!!!!!Even ayah's pocket was badly injured too...and waiting impatiently for EPF refund!!!)

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Ding-ding-dong
"Perhatian kepada penumpang, tren Express Senandung Malam Ke SIngapura.Sila beratur di depan platform B ..etc..."

KLOng is now love travelling back to and fro her school via train...ketapi tido....and with diskaun pelajar..50%...naik ketapi lagi murah dari naik bas, eg Tr*nsnasional Rm32 itewww....but mama was a little bit worry about safety...but alhamdulillah she was ok when she called us the next morning....all the way to Jb from Kl....time really flies.....she is independent now!

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M2: "Mama, nampak tak jubah adek?"

Mama:.."Aik......mana lah mama tau..kelmarin kan mama dah lipat masuk dlm lemari adek?

M2: "Tak de Ma..kot-kot kakak bawak balik skolah dia!!!"

Mama:..ADe ka...

And mama was sewing an instant jubah frantically just before m2 was scheduled to go back to her asrama...

Isshh..anak..anakk..habis jubah biru kesayangan mama terpaksa di 'trim'....

And we went to send kngah last 2 Sunday...

Funny, when we came back, I just remembered to peep under M2's cupboard....

Laa....bawah almari..jubah kamu Masturah!!!!

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m4: (came back from skola agama crying..)..Mama!..Mama!!

Mama: Nape yam???(terkejut lah jugak..apasal lak si anak patung ayah ni!!!)

M4: Mama, Iyam dpt nombor 1 pereksa bulanan skolah agama..rase nak pecah jantung!...

Mama & Iyam hugged each other...Alhamdulillah...she simply brilliant
(Yam...mama lagi nak pecah jantung every time tunggu keputusan periksa..semua anak-anak mama..dan Mama masih dan selalu berdoa agar anak2 mama cemerlang akhlak juger)

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While writing this m5 is sound asleap...afternoon nap...he has shown improvement....no astmatic no more!alhamdulillah..he loves pediature too!!

And M3 has no more tonsil now...( 2 weeks ago ) and she now enjoying the big hole...kemaruk makan lah jugak... a little pain some times near to her throat, some times next to her ear....(DOktor kate...urat2 saraf lah tu...!)..and we shall come back to another doctor at Audio Lab somewhere..nak buat test untuk her hearing...Pasrah aku kepadaMu, Ya Allah!

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Mama back to square one....planning and planning...thinking on how best o maximize quality time with her kids at home?, jimat berbelanja?, 2 jam cukupkah untuk anak2 mengulangkaji pelajaran?....etc...still and always missing my MOOnirah adn Mas2rah....and little man itu..si Bobi..semakin macam-macam..

Thanx to my friend, Salw*ni..for her tips on recuperation after tonsil removal and breastfeeding...

Sal, I love u Sal..thx for ur concern...

Thx all for doa...

Kenang Daku Dalam DOa mu...

Selingan...

(Sayup sayup terdengar)...

m3: Hello, ni siapa?

pemanggil: Nak cakap ngan mama?

m3: Mak saya tengah tidur...siapa ni?

***Mama pun terjaga dari tidur2 ayam tadi dan bingkas menyambut telepon dari M3*******

Mama: Hello...

M1:..err.saya nak cakap dengan mak saya....Mammmmmaaaaaaa!.Ni kakak lah!

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mama: ( dalam hati....mcm2 cara anak2ku menjawab talipon!)..:)))))