Wouldn't u also ???

Since last visit to my gynae, my appetite has gone hay-wire...thus..cooking is the last thing i enjoy.(especially when at times the smell makes me dizzy..which of course make me wonder..how on earth..at this trimester??)..if its not a must....and these few days if someone wd have spotted me..they wd see me around the area of food court near my place..( difference wd only be the gown I wore and the time plus the food i bought)..Since there'r only me and my two little girls....it makes my reasoning to bring ready-made food so much easier..less hastle..no guilty...

This afternoon I stopped by a noodle stall which also sell 'bubur kacang' - sweet dessert...I was greeted by a boy still wearing a school uniform..(the said conversation is then translated into Malay language.)

Me : Eh, Mana mak?

Boy : Err..jemput makan makcik..Mak saya balik jap, solat...Makcik nak ape?..( prior to that he himself was actually scooping the noodles to himself....)..

Me: Mee hun sup 1 , bubur kacang 1 dan 2 dadih.

He looks so pro when packing all those ordered..and between that I asked him few question...like how's the paper, his other siblings..etc..

Me: Baru balik skolah?

Boy: Habis paper spm, cik...Saje je temankan mak kat sini..

And my heart melts for no reasons...

Quite a times I had this opportunity to have met and deal with nice and well mannered boy..and of course my heart wd smile all the way...why?..maybe I had compared them with those boys roaming around on a bike...dangerously showing off their talent..and things like that..or laughing hysterically inside the cyber cafe regardless of the surroundings..( u bet ..i'd been inside those cc..and since it didn't separaete adult and kids...it was like h*ll..sitting beside those little ra*cals...)

But again...I wd love to see and meet those kind of teenagers...which I think are becoming very rare..well depends on the type of places I visited...

To conclude...would n't u also love to meet and be treated by some nice and well mannered teenagers..?..Deep inside..I am eager to meet their parents too...and at least learn the parenting skills..etc...which I think still lot to be learned..

And of course..what about my own kids???

Bak kata pepatah melayu:..bagaimana acuan..begitulah kuihnya.......I wonder if I cd carry the mission...and if anybody out there who have met my husband..who is so reserved and introvert..(facts only ok!) then I'd say for this department alone..lots and lots work must come from me eh!..adeh!..well talk about soft skills...pr..pr...Well...maksu..give me a hand pls!!

Have a nice day for all nice people I have known and met out there..

Feeling grateful..

I am so grateful that it rained just now....

I am so grateful for so many things...and words aren't easy to describe the feelings..

and this short post is to greet each and everyone of you out-there..

have a very productive week ahead...

p/s:..Quite nervous over here...!!

The ones most excited....

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...And since these two little girls are always there...they'r also the ones who can't wait for the arriving of the little baby their mama is carrying around....only few weeks left...errr...the agony of waiting ....what more.....the baby, cd be familiar with the yelling voices of the girls...as it wd do many kinds of somersault inside there whenever the girls calling after....the suspense is killing...As for me..I've long forgotten the labour pain...( Ni lah hikmahNya....kalu semua orang ingat sakit...tak bertambah jumlah umat..he..he...of coz..I miss my Late mum!..)

Maisarah : "Mama, bila baby boleh keluar ma?"

Mama : " Insya'Allah, When Allah makes it happen , when everything is ready and of course when the baby is matured enough.."...

Maryam : " Matured enough tu ..bila jantung dia dah kuat ya mama..."..

Mama : Maisarah dan Maryam mestilah rajin solat dan doa untuk dia , ok!...



And time after time...they wd play doctor and patient with one assisting the other to deliver...
( amazingly..how good they are in immitating!!)..hahaha..when I asked Maisarah...nak jadi doktor kah?.....tak mau lah..Sarah saje je ni...Sarah nak jadi tukang masak.....dan lukis fesyen baju...Iyam pun...

I guess I just let them be...

Little did they know..that life with a little baby is going to be lot different..and of course mama wouldn't be this extra nice to entertain them....and as to quote Kak Long.....hehe!!..Mama wd be grumpy at times.....oopss.....post natal blues!!!

We r yet to make a visit to the baby shop for last minute shopping..those essentials...and of course the ayah is still comtemplating on the spring cleaning of the house..oh yes...and ayah is aiming to transfer the task to kak Long and Kak Ngah...hahah!when they's back for the school holidays...about a month from now..and by that time...I am hoping and praying the balloon will pop !...ie..just like my all other angles... out by 37 weeks...insya'Allah...

Cheers to everybody....

Kan syawal sebulan???

And Maisarah recently askd me...

Maisarah : Mama, kan raya sebulan ..kenapa sekolah tak cuti dan ayah kerja tak cuti lama..?

See..even the little girl has been enjoying the holidays..the jemputan rumah terbuka...makan-makan..etc..

Apparently...little kids...

Dan kalu semua orang bercuti sebulan raya.....bayangkan apa akan terjadi to the whole system....

Even parents bercuti kirana nak bagi moral support untuk anak2 yang nak ambik periksa...pun ade yang bagi remark yang tak puas hati.......and there's this one person who had commented in the news...if within an organisation many parents take leave for their children..what wd happen to the productivity...bottom line....etc

Entah le...so subjective..I bet this same type pf person wd give same kind of comments when people take leave during begnining of the year to accompany small kids entering std 1 or form 1..or boarding school or university..well...

Ape nak buat...

Rambut sama hitam..
Hati lain-lain

Lain ulu lain parang
Lain dulu lain sekarang...

Tata!!.

Raya..sebelum dan selepas...

Selamat Hari Raya dari Kami semua........( oopss.dgn ehsan gambar dari hp ayah...!!)


Me..with all the girls...including..maksu chun

And who wdn't want to be 'touched up'..girls are girls.....Maisarah, Munirah, Masturah and Maryam
p/s:...tapi kenapa semua senyum 'kambing' je ek!!...

****************************Sunday 28 Sept:-************************

About 9am...to my lateparents' house in gombak...with everybody in the car still sleepy or groggy after sahur...just to accompany Maksu..with her housekeeping project....thought I wd be helping her..but bila dah sampai..lemah longlai...jadi mandur sesungguhnya..yang membanting tulang hanyalah Maksu dan bibik express..sesekali Munirah mencelah....mas, sarah and iyam..tolongkejap..pas tu tidor..entah ape yang letih...and our parents' house look so clean...shining armour..except for a few spot..yang aku rase..kalu panggil bibik mana-manapun pasti dah tak de tenaga menyental dari 1030pagi samapi 530ptg....and later off Munirah tagged with Maksu to berbuka puasa..( munirah ni pun pantang org nak belanja...hehe)...and ayah and us..flocked back to Rawang....tapau Mcd...(macam tak tertelan rasenya sebab kids aje yang enjoy fast food.....tapi syukur)..and Munirah overnight umah tokwan..kunun nak study....

*******************************Monday 29 Sept:-********************

Early in the morning ..had pastured ayah to drive me around..cari daging segala..since he didn't like NSK..so ..kemana-mana ajelah ayah oi...Kundang? Batu Arang?..and sampai terbabas ke Paya Jaras Sg Buloh....Just to get ingredients for sambal goreng and ayam masak merah.....reached home about 11am..with Iyam..every 10mins before that has pleaded to buka posa..tak tahan le...sakit tekak lah..well not so bad for first timer...20 days and Maisarah only missed 4 days...Suka hatilah Iyam...go help yourself with the fresh milk..bukan nak makan sangat pun...Then I had to drag myself clean up all the daging and udang..etc..get everything rebus...and pampered myself with a good one hour nap!!..
Woke up..and start packing for the raya as we are going to stay over my late parents' house...uisssh...berbeg-beg..macam nak pi overseas..lak...between that had asked mas to isi balang kuih raya...( both for maksu..and for our house...)...and remind Mas not to forget to prepare daun pandan untuk kubur tok wan dan nenek..kemas rumah ala kadar..mood raya weh!!..place on the coffee table..and ayah had fixed the timer for lampu lip lap...aduhai...penat...nasib baik berbuka oleh ehsan ayah..tapau pasar ramadhan...tarawikh cuti...and dozed off awal...only to bangun around 5am...apelagi..nasi goreng was the simplest ever menu for sahur..Received a call from Ch'mok...far away from Libya....Selamat Hari Raya Ch' mok!!

**********************************Tuesday 30 Sept:-*******************

With all the necessary kitchen utensils..(assuming maksu might not have this and that including rempah ratus segala..almaklum..orang duduk bujang...), waduh penuhnya gerabak kereta...around 7.00am...as eager as ever..we started our journey back to gombak...Had smsed Maksu to wake up Munirah to get ready to ziarah kubur our late parents as soon as we reached Gombak...
Event which had been a monthly affair now became a once a year routine....

To pusara arwah mak first at keramat and then to ayah's at Tmn Selaseh Gombak..because Keramat area wd be jammed around its pasar due to people flogging to buy raya stuff..
Reminiscing back almost 11 years ago..same time same date...My late mum was buried at Keramat Muslim cemetry...about 2 days before syawal...the emotions then was hard to express...even to cook raya dishes required extra lot extra energy from our part..while late ayah was cool as ever...reciting Alquran...
and almost 6 years ago..we celebrated hari raya with late ayah at HKL...a week after that..ayah left us behind..with no one by his side..alone he had suffered....I guess if any of us were present..a trauma thru the rest of our life as the doctor related how they tried hard to assist to my late dad during his last breath...

While everybody was eager to balik kmapung to gather with their family...me and my siblings have accepted the fact...we only have us for raya gathering...

Alfatihah...and alhamdulillah we finished both visits around 11 am...and as it getting hot...I kept pleading to my hubby to have the car aircond fixed ( since the last repair..I think the mechanic didn't do the job properly...now we know there's a leackage...well another unexpected expenses..)..dropped by the nearest pasar pagi because stuffs like sayur mayur for masak lodeh lom beli lagi...
Around 12..reached Gombak..and everybody was already tired...and my hubby left us for the nearest car centre...so maksu and me...leisurely ourself with a short nap...wah..jap lagi nak masuk dapur nih!!..bercinta tol!!
Amazingly after zhr..maksu was like superwoman...with Munirah as a great assistance....Me?...u cd guess la....physically hindered..voice to be heard only when Maksu asked..what else to put inside the rendang, sambal goreng and masak merah...and ayam rendang...( wah! bayknya nak masak Maksu..ramai nak dtg kah??)..
....prior to that lauk berbuka sudah pun siap....ooooo...how nice to have somabody else to pamper urself with their cooking..blessed!!!
Had wanted to anyam ketupat..tapi tak pandai..so beli aje daun ketupat yang dah siap di anyam...isi beras biasa campur beras wangi..haha!!.sebab beras biasa dah habis stok.( i'm sure this ketupat takan tahan lama sebab mana ade orang campur beras wangi...lantakle labu..asalkan ade ketupat atas meja di pagi raya!!

Like the adv fr the tv...Maisarah asked :" Mama, kenapa kita kena raya kat sini..kan tok wan dan nenek dah tak de?"..

And Maryam was also puzzled...

But I told...sesekali kita temankan Maksu beraya kat sini..we cd have always prepare eth at Rawang...but I guess just for that sentimental feeling...and Munirah and Masturah never stopped relating how they have missed raya with Tok Wan..and This year since my mother in law will be staying with my hubby's brother nearby...so..here we are....syok sendiri..masak-masak dan kemas-kemas...

Later that night, Pak Long Kudin datang...before his journey to Sitiawan....hehehe...me dapat duit raya fr my big brother..terharu tak???and Mak su had missed it..sorry Maksu...tu lah ...ade je nak keluar mlm raya...nak kasi lauk kat 'kawan' segala..


****************************Wednesday 1st Oct..************************

Allahu akbar...Allahu akbar...Allahu Akba..Walillah Ilham......Ist syawal...

Preparing the table for the syawal morning has always be my routine..and it continues until now..so I told my kids...to wake up early for the ceremony..and sheepishly told Maksu...once u are married its going to be part of your routine too!!!..because I remebered my mum used to tell me...make sure eth is ready on the table and let ur hubby eat and drink first before his solat hari raya...wahhIsteri Mithali gitu!!..( walupun...braxton hicks kerap menyerang these few days...!!!)

With ayah return from his solat hari raya...we are all in our baju kurung raya and my girls siap di 'touch up' by their Maksu...we gathered for salam bersalaman..maaf bermaafan.....wah! syahdu....ade dosa yang harus diampunkan?..ade tangisan?....ade duit raya???



Then..we eat and eat....went to visit my mother in law at Uncle Harun ( My hubby's brother)..and to Keramat to visit my aunts...( late ayah's sisters...)..reached Gombak back at 3pm..and everybody dozed off...full of raya dishes...

So that's this year ............................Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.................

Munirah had went back to JB...no more at Puduraya but at Bukit Jalil.....Take care my Bambino!!

All pictures are in the process......shall be posted here once ready...yang ade hanyalah ehsan dari hp ayah..yang tak berapa terang..tetapi sekadar mewarnai...posting ini...yang selalu kering kontang...no pics...etc..

Salam to everybody...now still in mood raya..back to normal routine..and to my kids...bulk up your belt.pull up your stockings....final year exam is around the corner......

Alhamdulillah..and to my hubby..thx so much for being so sport...for your understanding....budget lari sket kah????Jgn serik ye Yang....kesianlah kat I ni...yatim piatu....

This weekend..shall be sending Mas to her school lak....and another pre natal check up....

Have a nice weekend everybody...

Salam Eidul fitri..

Lagi beberapa hari Syawal akan menjenguk....tinggallah Ramadhan dan segala kenangan....

Tak sempat nak cerita banyak.....tetapi ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari raya Eidul Fitri kepada semua kenalan, para bloggers...Ampun maaf...Semuga bergembira dan mendapat sejuta keberkatan daripada ibadah yang dilakukan dalam Ramadhan...

Insya'allah..jumpa lagi....

Maisarah, solat tarawikh & batu seremban..

I can't recal exactly when was the first tarawikh done..but I guess when late ayah was based at Woodland, S'pore...I had to follow my late mum..and 20 rakaat plus witir for the first time..so the next day and days after that when my late dad called out for us to follow him, I wd pretend to be sleeping...kunun kekenyangan berbuka..

Then we shifted to few places...and all I cd remember was being jealous towards my brothers as they cd stay out at night playing with fire crackers ..and only come back when my mum shouted from the verandah..while me, myself and I wd have to clean the table and help mum make raya cookies..

And it was when I went to boarding school that performing solat tarawikh was like no excuse to those who are eligible...

This year I thought of bringing my two small kids to practise tarawikh..normally we (the girls) just did at home..at leisure..
But both Maisarah and Maryam just completed few rakaat...as they were heavily disturbed by a group of small girls at the back playing batu seremban...amboi!..so I just close one of my eyes..let them be...

And yesterday Maisarah had pleaded me to sew her batu seremban and she had earlier went to the kitchen finding something to feed into those batus....and yang jadi mangsa adalah sagu-sagu...

So batu seremban , 5 pieces each for maryam and maisarah and I ended with back pain that ayah had to take over preparing something to eat for sahur.....blessed!

Its like the cycle..I used to play batu seremban during primary school's break..I remember we were so addicted to it...even masa kat rumah nak tunggu berbuka pun asyik dengan batu seremban..sampai arwah mak terpekik kat dapur baru le berhenti...

So I taught my two little kids to play the batu seremban...wah!..like a master...they looked..amazed!!..( haha!...If only they cd see my primary school best friends..who were much more pro than me.....)

Tonight they had insisted me to go to the surau..I guess not so much to perform solat tarawikh but more so to show off the batu seremban....well...kids..are kids...should I go?should we go?..and I wdn't dare to let them follow the ayah..becoz ayah as usual..oleh kerana selalu solo..tidak akan kesahnya ngan budak2 nih...nanti budak2 ni tak de orang yang supervise lak....kotle nak pi toilet ke...kotle bising .kena marah lak dengan makcik2 garang...well...wait till this evening...see if mama cd stand the back pain...hehe!

And while I am writing this, it is raining heavily outside..Salam Barakah Jumaat to all!!..Happy weekend!..

Nostalgia- nostalgia Ramadhan

Maisarah bertanya : Mama, sejak bila mama puasa...mama tahan ke?...Pas tu, tok wan kasi duit raya tak?..etc....

Tidak dapat dipastikan sejak bila berlatih puasa tetapi kemungkinan dalam umur 7-8 tahun..di mana yang paling kuingat telah dipaksa oleh arwah Mak untuk minum segelas air susu dan pastinya nasi disuap sewaktu sahur...terkulat-kulat dek takut kan arwah mak..telan..gak..( Arwah Mak memang sangat garang!!..mungkin sebab nak kejar masa)..air mata ke kanan ke kiri..bayangkan nasi yang berada dalam genggaman mak bila dibandingkan dengan mulut-mulut kami semua...dan ayah kekadang ade dan kekadang kami saja..almaklum ayah samada kerja shif atau belayar atau kursus...sesekali bila ayah ade.... dek janji akan dapat duit raya..pasti saja satu kekuatan untuk puasa hingga ke petang...walaubagaimanapun..ade juga hari-hari yang sangat meletihkan dan tidak dapat dinafikan kunjungan ke bilik air..ibarat "sambil membasuh muka..minum air"...dasyat...tapi lebih dasyat lagi adik beradikku yang lelaki..kenakalan yang pasti menerbitkan berbagai cara untuk berkreatif..menyegarkan diri..olej kerana aku bukan kaki repot..aku hanya melihat telatah mereka..dan berkata pada diri sendiri ..satu hari..arwah mak mesti tau punya!!!haha! Dan waktu berbuka arwah sangat bertenaga....nasi berlauk dan kueh mueh..Ketika itu tidak pernah ade pasar ramadhan...

Anak-anakku pula tidak pernah dijanjikan oleh siAyahnya untuk diberi duit raya...kalau habis puasa..so Kak long pernah merungut : "Tak best mama dah tak kerja....jgn harap ayah nak kasi duit raya.."..Rasenya aku yang memanjakan anak sedemekian rupa...well different upbringing!!

Dan apabila hampir syawal..pasti saje arwah mak yang sibuk dengan tempahan baju raya dan kuih raya..DAri situ aku belajar..berniaga..penat lelah..Apetah lagi bila ayah dah pencen, arwah mak akan berhempas pulas memasak untuk berniaga di pasar ramadhan..Dan kunjunganku ke pasar ramadhan psti saje mengembalikan kenangan...dan tatkala hujan lebat...juadah akan dikirimkan ke surau untuk sedekah moreh..atau kami saje yang telan..atau akan jadi juadah ayam-ayam belaan ayah keesokkan harinya...Kekadang aku sendiri tidak paham bagaimana tergamak ade peniaga menjual semula juadah semalam..yang hampir ..basi....dan arwah berkata padaku..:"Belajarle tinggi-tinggi..Ta!Dapat gaji lebih sikit...kerja kat opis...jual muka tepi jalan dan melayan kerenah orang tidak seronok melainkan jika benar2 terpaksa..."..Kalau ditanya pada adik-adikku jerit payah..mereka lebih mengetahui kerana aku sudahpun habis Spm dan belajar jauh..sesekali pulang hanya waktu itulah aku dapat belajar dari mak...resepi dan teknik masak...satu ilmu yang mak tinggalkan...rasa banyak lagi yang tak sempat diturunkannnya..dan untuk semua orang..Ramadhan pasti saje menggamit kerinduan kepada masakan ibu sendiri..Bagiku..itu tidak mungkin akan berlaku lagi...Yang tinggal hanya periuk belanga dan segala perkakasnya...Dan semalam mimpi didatangi arwah mak menyuapkan kue tat..seperti mengubat rindu didada..melihat kelibat arwah ayah mengemas rumah...Alfatihah..Alfatihah..

...bersambung....

Another anniversarry...

Alhamdulillah...especially to anak-anak mama...yesterday was your parent's 15th wedding anniversarry..yeay...syukur...

No special events..special dinner..(coz..any special dinner without the two eldest wd surely accompany with guilty feelings....).no flowers becos he knows I wd prefer makan-makan.j..ust a simple day with big smiling heart and many prayers....Barakah Ramadhan!

So at the table during sahur...me said to ayah...Happy 15th anniversarry ayah dear...!!!..and ayah replied the same..and knowing his nature..a smile from him is just great...bikin dup dap hati...cos to many..he is the reserve type..even my kids' friends regard uncle musa as very the garang and no nonsence one....but the kids love the father for his touch, playfulness ( he really handle this dapartment well..coz..normally I am the lazy one to entertain my kids..with badminton, jogging, main layang-layang, playing at the beach, motorcycle ride..etc...)and caringness..eventhough many a times..mama play the 'middle' person...for every request..ape daa..


Remembering all those past years...we've been through many things together..happy and not-so-happy moments...the understanding...the quarrel..(sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit beb!).the forebearance..etc..from one kid...to double, tripple and quadrappled...( and know carrying a little one inside!!)..from flat house at wangsa maju..to gombak..to setiawangsa..to puchong..and now to terrace at rawang...From the years of using public transport to motorbike to wira and now to Toyota Unser..for being there and supportive enough when my parents died...also for being the master pay..during my non working days..and still am...for everything...

I smsed to my dear hubby:-

" Selamat Ulangtahun perkahwinan yang ke 15..To my kind, loving husband. ampun maaf. Thnx for everything.and look forward 4 many more happiness and blessings from Allah. Kaseh sayang selalu.."


And what came back from ayah..has made up my day..so sweet...:-

"Alhamdulillah di atas pemberianNya.Cabaran dan dugaan. Semuga Allah memberikan kebaikan kpd kita dan zuriat kita. Salam Kaseh sayang. Love and kisses...."

Waaaaa...he rarely speak of those romantic words...(well..that's what I think..)..

Being an adult orphanage...even though I still yearn for my late parents pamper and everything...that's left me...to be independent...only ayah is around..and my siblings..and my friends....but the most important thing..am grateful to Allah for all the blessings...Ameen...

To my dear hubby and kids...insya'Allah until death do us part...

Breakfast was just me, maisarah and maryam..(who had earlier at 655pm..accidently ate the karipap!..pity her..)..and ayah was busy at office..later when he reached home about 10pm..he said...he had made use of the instant noodle at the office pantry...sob!sob!...

And guess what..not sure what was his thoughts during his journey back ..he brought back a little box of munchkins from dunkin donuts...just for mama!!!.... ;p

Nice day people!!..Have a nice weekend..happy window shopping!!

Ramadhan Almubarak..

To all blog hoppers and friends..wishing all of you..Happy Ramdhan and hopefully, this year around..a more meaningful and blessed!

Despite practice after practice ( during last months..)..my first day of fasting was a mixed of 'sleepy' and 'happy' and 'joints pain'.

We came back quite late the previous nite after the check up at Gombak and few shopping...kemas dan laundry segala..settled down about 12...I had wanted to turn on the alarm but I guessed..I just slipped away..mujur le dengar hujan subuh around 5 am..and really dragged myself to the kitchen...
(..Wd be best if once in a while..everything is already prepared kan!)..So the anak2 and the ayah pun dikejutkan...and the most hatred incident happenned again..coz Maisarah accidently slipped her cup of milo and ayah did that to my nescafee....aduh!!...kerja mengelap!!

Kakak: Sarah..ko nasib baik..kalau dulu..mama mesti dah pial perut akak!!!
(Surprisingly...i am more tone down now...)

At 9 am..I had wanted to finish sewing my raya dress..but went on to nap about 2 hours...dan keadaan di dalam rumah sungguh sunyi sepi...( ape hal semua orang tak mau bangkit!!)...relax la..

After zhr, slowly..at my own pace.to the kitchen...dalca ayam and kacang botol goreng,with kubis lemak and ikan goreng untuk kekanak...So what about dessert???First history I had tried to make donut which turn out to be 'bentan'...well ..too much of butter..and since ayah was so lazy to go out..(even though I had hinted so many times to him..)..we swallowed everything during breakfast...

Between cooking wd see..Maisarah and Maryam...peeping into the kitchen....complaining of hungry..etc...Shian nih....so about half an hour before berbuka...patik teman le kanak2 tuh main basikal kat luar rumah...(Ish!!...ade energy??)..and I felt a few pain at my joins..must be too long of standing at the kitchen..knowing now..I have extra weight!!

So..that was yesterday..alhamdulillah and today i might be just me, sarah and Iyam,...coz kakak shall go back to her school..and ayah..can't promise whether he cd be back to berbuka bersama..
So...what'd u suggest?...Whats for cooking??

Tata!