My inner sayings...

“Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau hitung kami sebagai bersalah, jika kami lupa atau kami tersilap. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap mereka yang kufur terhadap-Mu” [al-Baqarah 2: 286]

Small gifts, tame the heart

It is true all the way..just as true as the law of gravity that God creates...

The power of generousity...not merely in terms of material and kind....

It could be in terms of prayer, sacrifice..., help....like a fan=mous quote everybody knows...THE MORE U GIVE, THE MORE U GET...

One day one of my gals ask:"mama, do u we need to give when in fact we just have few?"(particularly at school when some of her friends always look forward to know what she bring to the school as bekal..)

And I said: : How do u feel, when u give?..Nice isn't it..definitely not
'...riak'....

I guess all these good values must be nurtured onto my kids and rest children of the world..

Give and be generous not because u want something in return..but as a host to God, The Most merciful and Most Kind..that we hope for Allah's blessings...to give us blessings in whatever our undertakings...

....In Islam, Our beloved prophet s.a.w encourages us to bring gift whenever we visit somebody....small things...tame the heart...

In fact , my late mother always remind me to prepare food and share with the visitors....for sure..the generosity shall stay in their heart..and I know...lots of my mums' friends wd regard her as very kind, generous...love her cooking...but me...I am still learning...plus, a slow worker...took a lot of energy to finish a dish..let alone do the housekeeping..ha..ha...not a good example my gals.

Have a nice day!Just a thought to share!!!

2 hours? can arrr?

I am in dilemma...

I read and understood..

Kids must endure at least 2 hours of revision/reading/homework etc..per day...

How???

I am pretty much occupied with house chores things...so overwhelm!!..plus my busy little man..wanting my attention all day long!...

Sigh!!

With two schools session...come night..after dinner..finish homework...play dolls some more...drawing some more..read comics somemore..accompany me watching Malay soap opera somemore...revise mengaji somemore...where on earth is the time???Ayah complain of my gals.tak habis nak main Dolls...

(P/s:Abang dear...depa tu masih anak2...just like Aisyah R.a...still main anak2 masa dinikahi Rasulullah s.a.w...)

Result of first test of 2010, out already...

Euwwwwwhhhh!!

I wonder how are my two big gals doing?...Oii...korang belajar tak kat sna?...

And I am sleepy....Zombie you all...

( O Allah..grant me with strength to carry out my duties...my vision...for you are The Most Powerful and Most Kind..)

Tonsil and March 2010 - wrap up!

Sorryy......very late updates!!!..guess this is my first ever story telling session....

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And in she went into the OT..accompanied by Ayah...before she got the G.A. jap...(she was holding ayah's hand until she's put into sleep..and mama kind of miss that moment...as that time mama was still at home, waiting for CH' Mok's to bring us ~mama, m4 & m5 to the hospital..)

(Ooo...hopefully we cd reach the hospital right after m3 was done with the tonsil removal...mama keep praying...p/s:..And CH' Mok belanja we all breakfast that morning...bliss!!)

About 10.30 we reached Al-Is*am hospital in KG B*ru.....

There she was..out from OT...half awake..but already moaning in pain...

"Mama, haus...haus..nak air..nak air."

OO.. no..no..Mama was in tears trying to comfort her... Ayah was very calm...even m4 and m5 cd sense the pain of their sister....

Mama just wet m3's lips with few drops of water..enough to make M3 to sleep again...but not for long...half an hour later..she was crying......( Ya Allah!..kasihanilah anaku...kuatkanlah semangatnya....permudahkanlah segalanya.....)

She had difficulty swallowing and speaking..Ayah was lot patient than mama when it comes to medicine!!..Bad mummy!!





And we were home, 2 days later..Alhamdulillah...

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M1 and M2 were at home too last school holidays...we were glued at home....borak, makan dan lepak..ha..ha...

And we managed to do housekkeping..plus, all the girls now enjoyed the spacious room of once mama&daddy enjoyed!..(I miss the air cond tho')..

Ayah and mama has decided to forgo the room to the girls...as we were thinking to shift one the smaller room for my only boy...akhirnya..telah diputuskan all 4 girls in one big room, 1 boy in another room (tapi dia ni mungkin lagi 3-4 tahun kot tidoq sendiri...)..and mama and ayah ambik je lah next room...


Oiissh..penat gak kemas dan pindah barang!!!..settled!

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M1 was awarded few gifts for her school's 2009 anugerah kecemerlangan...Alhamdulillah..

She was so eager to go to BSN to get her cert (sijil simpanan) been cash...

Few days before school end..all of us...went to R*wang....early morning and hope to do some shopping ...things they normally bring back to school..toiletteries lah, food lah..

But..and but...when we arrive at the Bsn counter, the person incharged said:
1."Maaf dik, sijil ni kena tunggu 45 hari dari tarikh keluar..baru boleh tunaikan"
2.:"Adik kena bayar rm12, untuk ganti kad atm hilang:..

Waakaka..kaa...ingat nak dpt extra rm100..kena lak bayar rm12...

SO ape nak shopping????..errggh.hhh

And dgn muka seposen si kakak pun kenen pada si adek...

"Dek, ko ade bape kat bank?..Akak pinjam dulu eh?"

And Kngah as usual..never lokek one.....off we went to Parkson...Kakak was happy...everybody else...too..sebab Kngah belanja lunch!!...


(Mama..dah kering poket!!!!!Even ayah's pocket was badly injured too...and waiting impatiently for EPF refund!!!)

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Ding-ding-dong
"Perhatian kepada penumpang, tren Express Senandung Malam Ke SIngapura.Sila beratur di depan platform B ..etc..."

KLOng is now love travelling back to and fro her school via train...ketapi tido....and with diskaun pelajar..50%...naik ketapi lagi murah dari naik bas, eg Tr*nsnasional Rm32 itewww....but mama was a little bit worry about safety...but alhamdulillah she was ok when she called us the next morning....all the way to Jb from Kl....time really flies.....she is independent now!

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M2: "Mama, nampak tak jubah adek?"

Mama:.."Aik......mana lah mama tau..kelmarin kan mama dah lipat masuk dlm lemari adek?

M2: "Tak de Ma..kot-kot kakak bawak balik skolah dia!!!"

Mama:..ADe ka...

And mama was sewing an instant jubah frantically just before m2 was scheduled to go back to her asrama...

Isshh..anak..anakk..habis jubah biru kesayangan mama terpaksa di 'trim'....

And we went to send kngah last 2 Sunday...

Funny, when we came back, I just remembered to peep under M2's cupboard....

Laa....bawah almari..jubah kamu Masturah!!!!

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m4: (came back from skola agama crying..)..Mama!..Mama!!

Mama: Nape yam???(terkejut lah jugak..apasal lak si anak patung ayah ni!!!)

M4: Mama, Iyam dpt nombor 1 pereksa bulanan skolah agama..rase nak pecah jantung!...

Mama & Iyam hugged each other...Alhamdulillah...she simply brilliant
(Yam...mama lagi nak pecah jantung every time tunggu keputusan periksa..semua anak-anak mama..dan Mama masih dan selalu berdoa agar anak2 mama cemerlang akhlak juger)

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While writing this m5 is sound asleap...afternoon nap...he has shown improvement....no astmatic no more!alhamdulillah..he loves pediature too!!

And M3 has no more tonsil now...( 2 weeks ago ) and she now enjoying the big hole...kemaruk makan lah jugak... a little pain some times near to her throat, some times next to her ear....(DOktor kate...urat2 saraf lah tu...!)..and we shall come back to another doctor at Audio Lab somewhere..nak buat test untuk her hearing...Pasrah aku kepadaMu, Ya Allah!

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Mama back to square one....planning and planning...thinking on how best o maximize quality time with her kids at home?, jimat berbelanja?, 2 jam cukupkah untuk anak2 mengulangkaji pelajaran?....etc...still and always missing my MOOnirah adn Mas2rah....and little man itu..si Bobi..semakin macam-macam..

Thanx to my friend, Salw*ni..for her tips on recuperation after tonsil removal and breastfeeding...

Sal, I love u Sal..thx for ur concern...

Thx all for doa...

Kenang Daku Dalam DOa mu...

Selingan...

(Sayup sayup terdengar)...

m3: Hello, ni siapa?

pemanggil: Nak cakap ngan mama?

m3: Mak saya tengah tidur...siapa ni?

***Mama pun terjaga dari tidur2 ayam tadi dan bingkas menyambut telepon dari M3*******

Mama: Hello...

M1:..err.saya nak cakap dengan mak saya....Mammmmmaaaaaaa!.Ni kakak lah!

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mama: ( dalam hati....mcm2 cara anak2ku menjawab talipon!)..:)))))

To You..

And for the sleepless nights...I think let me jot something here,

My 3rd gal shall undergo an operation for her enhanced tonsil..so big that the doctor said they're in stage 4 and as parents, what wd u think?

She has shown the symptoms from her very early age...selsema pagi, mengantuk dlm kelas..berdengkur itu perkara biasa!..(some time same kuat dengan her ayah!) time and again, we had few doctors suggesting to us to consider having her tonsils removed...For us, it sounds horrified..especially to her...tragic the maximum!..

We brought her to see an E-N-T specialist...oo..oo....she was so excited to get to see the inner side of her throat, ear and nose...at least she knows what are the things bothering her for quite some time...Dia dok ingat ade pasir kat dlm telinga lepas berkelah kat Tg Balau last Disember...Itu pasai asyik dok suruh ayah pi korek telinga....and ayah did!..but she still rase tak cukup dengar...So when we went to the specialist, the doctor said the adenoid and tonsils has grown together, hence making the pressure inside her ear became negative, pulling back her gegendang...OOoiisssshhhh..we listened and watched!Some hearing assessment were done and proven...there's problem in there!

Afraid of any further difficult outcome that might come...medical terms like sleep apnea, stop breathing for few seconds at night,recurring sore throat..sickness, sleepy head....low focus in the class....etc...left us with any other choices?...and since recently she mentioned, ade some frens calling her names..(even pakcik van sekolah!..~...Oii!..Pe*ak/ T*uli)..becos she didn't respond in time!..

Actually, I had long realised she was a bit slow in responding...like macam nak panggil dia..(dari tingkat bawah ke atas) macam nak kena jerit kuat sket..And kalau suruh perlahankan olume tv, dia suka nak tengok tv dekat2...
So we think it is about time..and of coz, ayah is busy thinking about the ringgit!

Please make du'a for us my blogger friend...for her operation and speedy recovery...I am hoping she would recover and at least would assist her in her well being and studies!

Mama sayang Maisarah!

Sentimental mood ..

What to doo...

Suddenly being sentimental..saw me listening to all oldies..while catching up with ironing etc..

But sad songs makes one sad also...(he..he..I am missing my big gals again...sob!sob!)..selalunya para2 ibu gitulah..

Well lets hear to some happy tune...Oo..Sudirman?


Or Kartina DAhari?

Taking a long break

Yes, I am..

I have to stop my writings...need to focus on other urgent matter..

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Just discovered my boy is mild asthmatic and my 3rd gal is stage 4 large tonsils+sinusitis....I am Florence nightingale..2 in 1 role..

(Last weekend was a hospital trip..) While M3 was nervous about her running nose and chances of peeping at the innerside of her ears, M5 had his first lung xtray and nebulizer..oowhhh...oh yes, he got that extra attention for his howlingg ....and of course daddy's pocket shrunk!!

Bad news to me too..deactivate my fb account..that's great!..but then..can I live wthout peeping into it?..Ha..ha..nanti ade msg..terlepas lak..

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I might come back to this blog..or perhaps a make-over...or perhaps create another blog...less stories about personal..less openness...more on interest..I don't know..obviously..it is difficult to put in writing nowdays...the madness of expressing....me and my expression...I am mad? Mental?..I am angry with myself or somebody else? Is it fair?Do one voices out?..Or just keep it inside..pretending ?I miss my dad?.Can I not just be calm and relax? I am exhausted?..why ask?

I hate my shortsightedness!!and I hate most, I cdn't focus on my part time accounting work!..Abhor, Double hate, Loath entirely!!!!..Soorryy..all the negative coming out!!

I need laughter!..So if u don't find me here, probably I am out there..finding something to tickle me up..boost the hydrogen level in my mind...

o..oo.. yes, I have this one funny scene ( at least it made me laugh!)..from The Grinch ~Jim Carrey...(Do not forget to 'pause' my music..)




...Sigh...

May tomorrow be a perfect day
May u find love and laughter along the way
May God keeps u in His tender care
till He brings us together again...

Where are my writings??Feb 2010 already?

January 2010 considered gone already..and I am still no where in adding news and about of past happenings..Aiyoo.....sorry my blogger friend and esp to two of my big gals somewhere in Jb and K.S'hgor!... :( .......

how can I explain?

Well , blame on my poor time-management!....to be exact..why so addict to f*cebook????..And some said in the next month, it will require payment...guess by then, I am free fb!..ha..ha..U bet!

Frankly, my little boy now only took about an hour nap, morning and afternoon. I used to squeeze between his nap hours to do the house chores...and surfing the internet..but now, as he has started to go mobile...he got so active whenever he is up and about...there goes my starring at the pc....so how?

tell me friends, what is ur normal productivity hours and span?...

Still, I plan to do a bit housekeeping to this blog..got lots and tonnes of fren's blodgaddress to add...Can i Fit everything in my blog?..blogs I follow, current affair, my srikandis' frens, my other kelakar frens..(yes, I got so many kelakar frens out there...where I blog hop...just to increase the Hidrogen level in my brain...).my cooking, child interest, food fo thot, motivational..and music..all in one??..Well, thats a lotttt!!..

And everytime my hands got on my kLong's laptop ( he..he...Yeap, she got a new laptop from his uncle for her straight A's PMR...so mama tumpang la kakak oiii!)..I click here and there and at the same time feeling much guilty of the long due accounting work I promise my Bro to complete and Abg K*din dah banyak kali bising..oooiii! dah due lah!..satu tahun denda rm 20!....I just can't resist the temptation to be so kepoh of my fb..roaming around comments of others, photos of frens been uploaded!..so whats priority now?...

And then , I still prefer to update my blog at my old desk top...(the only harta yang I ade drpd EPF..remember we cd wdraw monies from epf to buy pc..and then becoz of some culprit..freeze lak akaun epf..entah ape2)..becos..of big screen lah I suppose..Mata saya sudah rabun dekat tahap kronik..and lasik wd cost me a thousand yearsssss...(remember I am a house wife..!..)!..But still and but, itu desk top computer sudah semakin lambat..berapa kali En Mu*sa tukang komputer itu sudah tengok2an itu pc..tapi masih lembab...jadi nak tunggu pc log on...bla..bla.., kekadanag it got jammed or hanged..and even if theres so big tunder, this pc akan kena kilat punya..waa...sgt sensitif pulak!..and I wd have to wait for itu En M*sa Tukang komputer sekali lagi tukar network card..etc..(Oh..Saya tak paham perkara dlm isi perut komputer!)..harapan tinggal harapan..

But today, at this hour, I want to say to my frequent visitor..hey, I am still alive..and having difficulty in managing my time, balancing between facebook and housechores plus demanding todler..attendingg to two busy primary school gals..and missing her big daughterss...all the time...all the time...and then end up, joining my son afternoon's nap!

Enclosed here pics of none other than my broods....( latest I think!...the last family dinner together in 2009, before my Eldest and Second went back to their school...)..and I can't help looking at their past photos....



Guess who ?..(Mama and Moon at 1+ year old!..venue- Spore)













Mama and Moon - right after the pmr result 2009 was announced












Mama, Moon and Mikhael, on the stage of Sekolah Seni...




Moon/Klong (after 15 years...) with fav buddy..on th way to a kenduri Dec 2009








As usual KLong imitating Mikhael






Klong w Maryam






Klong and Maisarah








Klong and her only 'adek'..She never thought she will have another 3 adiks...and admit she has big responsibilities...


Us, at pantai Remis, sending off Kngah...Dec 2009







And wishing all..happy february!..(Excuse, me am so motherly...busy and alive!)

Will be back!!

Selamat tahun baru 2010

Masih tidak sempat untuk menulis tentang pelbagai peristiwa akhir 2009..sebagai kenangan tatapan umum terutama anak2...:-
1) Hari Ulang Tahun Mikhael yg pertama = 24/11/09
2)Hari Ulang Tahun KMas yg ke 14 = 18/12/09..dan mendaftar semula ke Maahad Haf*iz Jeram...Selamat Maju Jaya----Gd Luck for ur PMR 2010.
3) Perjalanan ke Johor Bahru., Klong menerima keputusan PMR 2009 pada 24/12/2009...(Alhamdulillah- sungguh tidak disangka...menjadi contoh yg baik untuk adik2 sekalian..cemerlang akademik dan akhlak juger ye...mama sayang kakak!)
4)Kenduri Kahwin dan DOa Selamat rumah Pakcik/Makcik di JBahru = 25&26/12/2009
5) Hari Ulang Tahun CIk Abgku yg ke 42 = 31/12/2009 (Selamat Ulang Tahun Bang!)
6)Perjalanan ke JB semula menghantar KMoon kembali Ke sekolah= 2/1/2010
7) Kenangan tinggal bermalam di rumah keluarga Angkat di Gelang Patah ( Pakcik Aziz dan Mak Mon)..ooowwwhh..so nice to be pampered, mendengar pelbagai peristiwa pengalaman mereka semasa menunaikan haji, mendengar dan menerima pelbagai nasihat tentang mendidik anak2 serta mendekatkan diri pada yg Maha Esa..di usia mulai menjejaki 40an.....dan merasa sangat rindu pada arwah orang tuaku...Alfatihah!!

* Pakcik Aziz dan Makmon adalah antara rakan karib arwah orangtuaku...(Pakcik Aziz seorang pesara tentera laut dan kami pernah sama2 berjiran semasa di rumah tinggi , singapura..awal 70an..)..dan di rumah merekalah tempat persinggahanku semasa bersekolah di JBahru
( 1981-1985)..sementelaah arwah orangtua menginap Labuan dan Lumut!)

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Awal tahun seperti biasa....pelbagai perkara yg lebih menuntut perhatian...tidak lupanya kerenah anak kecil yg semakin membesar....

Ade sedikit keletihan dengan tugasan apabila anak2 mula bersekolah..(Mudah2an Allah beri kekuatan jasmani dan rohani...sihat tubuh badan demi menjalankan amanahNya..)

Merindui anak2 yg telah ke asrama...KMun dan KMas..(Kenang Kami Dalam DOa mu..anak-anak2ku )

Memikirkan bila boleh membuat perancangan tentang pelbagai perkara terlebih lagi...dari sudut ekonomi dan pendidikan anak2...seterusnya perlaksanaan...

Meninjau2 waktu sesuai memulakan semula aktiviti kerja sambilan...duit poket!..(Sorry Pak LOng....account for auditing dah lama dueeeee!!)

ALhamdulillah....Masih dipanjangkan umur untuk tahun ini....mudah2an boleh dimanfaatkan dengan pelbagai ibadah, peningkatan..istiqamah....

Selamat Tahun baru semua..Kenang Kami Dalam DOamu....MUdah2an kalian juga beroleh keberkatan Ilahi dan DipermudahkanNya segala urusan...Hingga ketemu Lagi..