Salam Eidul fitri..

Lagi beberapa hari Syawal akan menjenguk....tinggallah Ramadhan dan segala kenangan....

Tak sempat nak cerita banyak.....tetapi ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari raya Eidul Fitri kepada semua kenalan, para bloggers...Ampun maaf...Semuga bergembira dan mendapat sejuta keberkatan daripada ibadah yang dilakukan dalam Ramadhan...

Insya'allah..jumpa lagi....

Maisarah, solat tarawikh & batu seremban..

I can't recal exactly when was the first tarawikh done..but I guess when late ayah was based at Woodland, S'pore...I had to follow my late mum..and 20 rakaat plus witir for the first time..so the next day and days after that when my late dad called out for us to follow him, I wd pretend to be sleeping...kunun kekenyangan berbuka..

Then we shifted to few places...and all I cd remember was being jealous towards my brothers as they cd stay out at night playing with fire crackers ..and only come back when my mum shouted from the verandah..while me, myself and I wd have to clean the table and help mum make raya cookies..

And it was when I went to boarding school that performing solat tarawikh was like no excuse to those who are eligible...

This year I thought of bringing my two small kids to practise tarawikh..normally we (the girls) just did at home..at leisure..
But both Maisarah and Maryam just completed few rakaat...as they were heavily disturbed by a group of small girls at the back playing batu seremban...amboi!..so I just close one of my eyes..let them be...

And yesterday Maisarah had pleaded me to sew her batu seremban and she had earlier went to the kitchen finding something to feed into those batus....and yang jadi mangsa adalah sagu-sagu...

So batu seremban , 5 pieces each for maryam and maisarah and I ended with back pain that ayah had to take over preparing something to eat for sahur.....blessed!

Its like the cycle..I used to play batu seremban during primary school's break..I remember we were so addicted to it...even masa kat rumah nak tunggu berbuka pun asyik dengan batu seremban..sampai arwah mak terpekik kat dapur baru le berhenti...

So I taught my two little kids to play the batu seremban...wah!..like a master...they looked..amazed!!..( haha!...If only they cd see my primary school best friends..who were much more pro than me.....)

Tonight they had insisted me to go to the surau..I guess not so much to perform solat tarawikh but more so to show off the batu seremban....well...kids..are kids...should I go?should we go?..and I wdn't dare to let them follow the ayah..becoz ayah as usual..oleh kerana selalu solo..tidak akan kesahnya ngan budak2 nih...nanti budak2 ni tak de orang yang supervise lak....kotle nak pi toilet ke...kotle bising .kena marah lak dengan makcik2 garang...well...wait till this evening...see if mama cd stand the back pain...hehe!

And while I am writing this, it is raining heavily outside..Salam Barakah Jumaat to all!!..Happy weekend!..

Nostalgia- nostalgia Ramadhan

Maisarah bertanya : Mama, sejak bila mama puasa...mama tahan ke?...Pas tu, tok wan kasi duit raya tak?..etc....

Tidak dapat dipastikan sejak bila berlatih puasa tetapi kemungkinan dalam umur 7-8 tahun..di mana yang paling kuingat telah dipaksa oleh arwah Mak untuk minum segelas air susu dan pastinya nasi disuap sewaktu sahur...terkulat-kulat dek takut kan arwah mak..telan..gak..( Arwah Mak memang sangat garang!!..mungkin sebab nak kejar masa)..air mata ke kanan ke kiri..bayangkan nasi yang berada dalam genggaman mak bila dibandingkan dengan mulut-mulut kami semua...dan ayah kekadang ade dan kekadang kami saja..almaklum ayah samada kerja shif atau belayar atau kursus...sesekali bila ayah ade.... dek janji akan dapat duit raya..pasti saja satu kekuatan untuk puasa hingga ke petang...walaubagaimanapun..ade juga hari-hari yang sangat meletihkan dan tidak dapat dinafikan kunjungan ke bilik air..ibarat "sambil membasuh muka..minum air"...dasyat...tapi lebih dasyat lagi adik beradikku yang lelaki..kenakalan yang pasti menerbitkan berbagai cara untuk berkreatif..menyegarkan diri..olej kerana aku bukan kaki repot..aku hanya melihat telatah mereka..dan berkata pada diri sendiri ..satu hari..arwah mak mesti tau punya!!!haha! Dan waktu berbuka arwah sangat bertenaga....nasi berlauk dan kueh mueh..Ketika itu tidak pernah ade pasar ramadhan...

Anak-anakku pula tidak pernah dijanjikan oleh siAyahnya untuk diberi duit raya...kalau habis puasa..so Kak long pernah merungut : "Tak best mama dah tak kerja....jgn harap ayah nak kasi duit raya.."..Rasenya aku yang memanjakan anak sedemekian rupa...well different upbringing!!

Dan apabila hampir syawal..pasti saje arwah mak yang sibuk dengan tempahan baju raya dan kuih raya..DAri situ aku belajar..berniaga..penat lelah..Apetah lagi bila ayah dah pencen, arwah mak akan berhempas pulas memasak untuk berniaga di pasar ramadhan..Dan kunjunganku ke pasar ramadhan psti saje mengembalikan kenangan...dan tatkala hujan lebat...juadah akan dikirimkan ke surau untuk sedekah moreh..atau kami saje yang telan..atau akan jadi juadah ayam-ayam belaan ayah keesokkan harinya...Kekadang aku sendiri tidak paham bagaimana tergamak ade peniaga menjual semula juadah semalam..yang hampir ..basi....dan arwah berkata padaku..:"Belajarle tinggi-tinggi..Ta!Dapat gaji lebih sikit...kerja kat opis...jual muka tepi jalan dan melayan kerenah orang tidak seronok melainkan jika benar2 terpaksa..."..Kalau ditanya pada adik-adikku jerit payah..mereka lebih mengetahui kerana aku sudahpun habis Spm dan belajar jauh..sesekali pulang hanya waktu itulah aku dapat belajar dari mak...resepi dan teknik masak...satu ilmu yang mak tinggalkan...rasa banyak lagi yang tak sempat diturunkannnya..dan untuk semua orang..Ramadhan pasti saje menggamit kerinduan kepada masakan ibu sendiri..Bagiku..itu tidak mungkin akan berlaku lagi...Yang tinggal hanya periuk belanga dan segala perkakasnya...Dan semalam mimpi didatangi arwah mak menyuapkan kue tat..seperti mengubat rindu didada..melihat kelibat arwah ayah mengemas rumah...Alfatihah..Alfatihah..

...bersambung....

Another anniversarry...

Alhamdulillah...especially to anak-anak mama...yesterday was your parent's 15th wedding anniversarry..yeay...syukur...

No special events..special dinner..(coz..any special dinner without the two eldest wd surely accompany with guilty feelings....).no flowers becos he knows I wd prefer makan-makan.j..ust a simple day with big smiling heart and many prayers....Barakah Ramadhan!

So at the table during sahur...me said to ayah...Happy 15th anniversarry ayah dear...!!!..and ayah replied the same..and knowing his nature..a smile from him is just great...bikin dup dap hati...cos to many..he is the reserve type..even my kids' friends regard uncle musa as very the garang and no nonsence one....but the kids love the father for his touch, playfulness ( he really handle this dapartment well..coz..normally I am the lazy one to entertain my kids..with badminton, jogging, main layang-layang, playing at the beach, motorcycle ride..etc...)and caringness..eventhough many a times..mama play the 'middle' person...for every request..ape daa..


Remembering all those past years...we've been through many things together..happy and not-so-happy moments...the understanding...the quarrel..(sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit beb!).the forebearance..etc..from one kid...to double, tripple and quadrappled...( and know carrying a little one inside!!)..from flat house at wangsa maju..to gombak..to setiawangsa..to puchong..and now to terrace at rawang...From the years of using public transport to motorbike to wira and now to Toyota Unser..for being there and supportive enough when my parents died...also for being the master pay..during my non working days..and still am...for everything...

I smsed to my dear hubby:-

" Selamat Ulangtahun perkahwinan yang ke 15..To my kind, loving husband. ampun maaf. Thnx for everything.and look forward 4 many more happiness and blessings from Allah. Kaseh sayang selalu.."


And what came back from ayah..has made up my day..so sweet...:-

"Alhamdulillah di atas pemberianNya.Cabaran dan dugaan. Semuga Allah memberikan kebaikan kpd kita dan zuriat kita. Salam Kaseh sayang. Love and kisses...."

Waaaaa...he rarely speak of those romantic words...(well..that's what I think..)..

Being an adult orphanage...even though I still yearn for my late parents pamper and everything...that's left me...to be independent...only ayah is around..and my siblings..and my friends....but the most important thing..am grateful to Allah for all the blessings...Ameen...

To my dear hubby and kids...insya'Allah until death do us part...

Breakfast was just me, maisarah and maryam..(who had earlier at 655pm..accidently ate the karipap!..pity her..)..and ayah was busy at office..later when he reached home about 10pm..he said...he had made use of the instant noodle at the office pantry...sob!sob!...

And guess what..not sure what was his thoughts during his journey back ..he brought back a little box of munchkins from dunkin donuts...just for mama!!!.... ;p

Nice day people!!..Have a nice weekend..happy window shopping!!

Ramadhan Almubarak..

To all blog hoppers and friends..wishing all of you..Happy Ramdhan and hopefully, this year around..a more meaningful and blessed!

Despite practice after practice ( during last months..)..my first day of fasting was a mixed of 'sleepy' and 'happy' and 'joints pain'.

We came back quite late the previous nite after the check up at Gombak and few shopping...kemas dan laundry segala..settled down about 12...I had wanted to turn on the alarm but I guessed..I just slipped away..mujur le dengar hujan subuh around 5 am..and really dragged myself to the kitchen...
(..Wd be best if once in a while..everything is already prepared kan!)..So the anak2 and the ayah pun dikejutkan...and the most hatred incident happenned again..coz Maisarah accidently slipped her cup of milo and ayah did that to my nescafee....aduh!!...kerja mengelap!!

Kakak: Sarah..ko nasib baik..kalau dulu..mama mesti dah pial perut akak!!!
(Surprisingly...i am more tone down now...)

At 9 am..I had wanted to finish sewing my raya dress..but went on to nap about 2 hours...dan keadaan di dalam rumah sungguh sunyi sepi...( ape hal semua orang tak mau bangkit!!)...relax la..

After zhr, slowly..at my own pace.to the kitchen...dalca ayam and kacang botol goreng,with kubis lemak and ikan goreng untuk kekanak...So what about dessert???First history I had tried to make donut which turn out to be 'bentan'...well ..too much of butter..and since ayah was so lazy to go out..(even though I had hinted so many times to him..)..we swallowed everything during breakfast...

Between cooking wd see..Maisarah and Maryam...peeping into the kitchen....complaining of hungry..etc...Shian nih....so about half an hour before berbuka...patik teman le kanak2 tuh main basikal kat luar rumah...(Ish!!...ade energy??)..and I felt a few pain at my joins..must be too long of standing at the kitchen..knowing now..I have extra weight!!

So..that was yesterday..alhamdulillah and today i might be just me, sarah and Iyam,...coz kakak shall go back to her school..and ayah..can't promise whether he cd be back to berbuka bersama..
So...what'd u suggest?...Whats for cooking??

Tata!

Just about few things...

Missing many posting as usual my friends...sorry..sorry...sorry..

Been trying to update and write..but sigh...each posting would just been end up inside either the draft..and the ..scrapped!!!

The recent school holidays had just ended..so me with ritual routine....I said to my two younger kids..

mama : ..Its now only 3 of us..or 4 if ayah won't be that busy with his u.a.t...( what a computer shortform!)

maisarah : no mama...still 4 ..even if ayah is not around.....

Yes, I'm entering 25th week now...and last scan which was taken 4 weeks ago..has made everybody in the house...excited..could not wait for another addition into the house...God bless...ayah will have a gang!!...I just couldn't believe it..but pray hard and am very thankful..and blessed.....So fellow bloggers....I am counting the days before the beginning of another episode of my life ...and I begin to worry about the preparation...already feel like a big giant balloon..with cramps hear and there...

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My eldest daughter has decided to quit from her boarding school.....another headache...in addition to her loss of her wallet at Puduraya Bus Station....

I can't force her, can I?....and since ayah has been very busy lately....it took all me to draft out the plan...the appeal letter..to think about the pros and cons and present to ayah and Munirah..

It surely not going to be easy...but Munirah had set up her mind..what to do....

Next week will see mama and ayah going to JB...and back at Kl...to PPD gombak....

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It has been almost a week now since I last see my car....After 3 years..I accidentally hit a pili bomba..just a few house away from my porch...macamana boleh tak nampak!!..

Saw a huge waterfall after the hit but eventually..it was from the car..and the wreckage.....had brought me to the nearest workshop....theregoes..saving for the festive/raya...or to be exact saving for a new oven......sob!sob!sob!!!..so I tell my kids..looks like this raya..mama is not going to be pinned infront of the oven...quite relax la this time..excuse..excuse..

Grounded at home...cook whatever supply there is..and waiting impatiently for the fishmonger /'lori ikan' uncle..but to no avail....( has he stopped making rounds at my block??)...and I hope my taste bud cd still swallow the eggs..and sardine....surely make me miss of the time when I can easily go out and enjoy morning roti canai...or buy goodies at pasar malam...( Insaf ni....puak depa yang nak jamah nasi pun susah...buat aku rasa insaf...)

Thanks so much to Maksu..for your assistance in ferrying Munirah to Puduraya last Sunday...

Thanks so much to my kind neighbor - Kak Ani/Ustaz Rahim...for borrowing us your cute myvi..to send Masturah to Jeram...Rasa best gak naik kete comel nih..

I called the workshop this morning..but my unser still not ready yet.( hujan la akak...kete blom kering la..etc..entah ye ..entah tidak..cis!!).......must call again tomorrow..and the day after tommorow....paster them...paster them...

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Guess these are all about a few things...not inclusive...missing my friends gathering at the Z*one and emerald..and feeling sleepy already...hopefully I wd get a good sleep tonite....for the past few weeks...I am experienceing pregnancy imsonia...and as a result of watching Emily ROse...horror movie last Wednesday ...Maisarah cd not sleep last night ( dah tak de teman..kakak2 semua dah pi balik asrama..)..and she actually cried at wee hours in the morning..scared..(sayup2 dengar..ingatkan nangis jatuh katil ke....ish!) ...so long my friend...getting myself a cup of anmum milk ( eventhough frankly I abhor milk for this time around)...ta ta!

Rejab,,Syaaban..Ramadhan..

Satu perkara yang pasti sinonim untuk semua bulan di atas adalah puasa wajib ( rukun islam yang ke5)..sunat puasa dan qada' puasa..

Jadi sudah beberapa hari...di sini menggagahkan semangat untuk meng'qada' puasa-puasa yang tertinggal pada Ramadhan yang lalu....

Dalam keadaan yang agak keletihan dengan adenya 'penghuni sementara' didlm tubuh badan ini...maka cuba sedaya upaya untuk berpuasa...mengganti puasa yang tertinggal...

Aduhai..sempat ke....macam kena siaran terus menerus aje.....setidak-tidaknya sampai hujung bulan ni..takut kalu tangguh nanti ...ade lak halangan lain...tidak baik dan tidak patut...

Itu lah..sepatutnya ganti bersama puasa sunat syawal..tapi...beraya sakan....pastu tak sangka merana 'kemabukan'..(dan anakku...kamu harus bersabar....kerana ibumu harus berpuasa....nanti mama makan banyak2 masa berbuka..)

Dan Maisarah pun sibuk nak bangun sahur....ish!!!

Mudah2an...berjaya dan diterimaNya..

Kengkawan yang sewaktunya...jgn lupa tanggungjawab kita....and Munirah..jgn lupa juga..and Maksu...and Che'da...and MakLong Anis....juga.....

"Dan sesungguhnya antara kegembiraan orang-orang yang berpuasa adalah di kala berbuka....."

I need to figure out what to have during breakfast and iftar..all these are important..to boose up the morale...motivation..motivation..

Nice weekend everyone...

jiran itu rezeki...

Masa mula-mula pindah sini, jiran sebelah rumah ni buat ubahsuai rumah....kontraktor lari..kerja separuh jalan...yang bersepahnya halaman rumah di sini juga...Itu la pasal..tak sesabar nak ubahsuai...nak cerita ape lagi pun tak kan selesai masalah bumbung belakang dan laman belakang rumah di sini yang bersepah segala sisa binaan rumahnya...DIa ade panggil INdon tolong kemaskan..tapi sekadarnya sahaja..kedekut!!!

Pas tu...dalam 6 bulan..datang pulak kontraktor lain...untuk sambung kerja-kerja yang terbengkalai....jadi boleh dibayangkan...bersepah bersama bunyi-bunyian yang kurang menyenangkan.....

LEpas 3 bulan...jiran pun pindah masuk..bersama anjing-anjing kesayangan yang selalu memecah kesunyian....

Sejak semalam...kontraktor baru datang untuk merobohkan binaan 2 tingkat ( bahagian dapur) dan membina semula binaan baru.....tidak perlu dijelaskan ketenteraman dan kebersihan udara tercemar lagi....

Apa nak buat..jiran itu rezeki.....

Nak dimarahkan kontraktor...ibarat marahkan nyamuk dan kelambu dibakar..nak dimarahkan tuan rumah..sampai hari ini tidak ade budi bahasa langsung...mintak maaf ke...maklumkan ke....

Selagi dia tak selesai masalah rumah yang senget..selagi tulah...di sini tidak akan dapat merealisasikan cadangan untuk menambah suai dapur..ape tah ladi landscaping dan sebagainya...

Nasib...nasib....jiran itu rezeki..bersyukur kalau dapat yang tidak menyusahkan.....

She is 14 today..

And yeap..we share the same zodiac...only away by couple of days..and thats my ever dearest K. Long Munirah..which is fondly known as Bambino..( well..to me only..)

To Munirah..even though u are so far away..and we cd not celebrate ur birthday..remember all of us at home...miss u soooo much....that every now and then we are waiting for your cal....( satu keajaiban!!)..and mama miss each seconds of your sight..of your 'mengada-ngada'..'manja'..and of coz..at times mama wish u wd be here to be the prefect for me...tau ajelah...adek2 kat rumah..kekadang tak makan saman..and knowing mama..I think..ageing makes mama tak kuasa nak jerit-jerit lagi dah....( mama tau..mama tau..u wd mention to your adek2..kalau mama garang macam dulu..padan le ngan semua orang..isk isk!)..but again u were also..the one yang paling 'macam-macam kenakalan'...so very different fr me even though just by looking at you..sure punyala..keturunan Tok Wan 100%..( oopsss.sorry ayah!! tidak bermaksud to discount u..hehehe!!)..One thing for sure u have the 'cool' of ayah..and itu yang buat mama very proud of you..not so like me yang very the emosi..very the gelabah..and very the 'stage fright!!!'...

Remembering few moments before u were born when mama's water bag broke suddenly broke..it was 2 weeks earlier than the schedule..and ayah was panicky..hehehe!!( itu lah..malam sebelumnya..asyik tengok bola!!!)...and I had to wait 2 and a half days at Hospital B*sar KL...it was a terrified experience moment..and the midwife nearly missed u !..while the d*ktor pelatih took his own sweet time sewing what he supposed to sew..and mama fainted infront of the public phone while trying hard to contact your ayah and nenek...plus vaguely heard the n*urse...cursing me..becoz she had to do extra work putting mama back to the bed of a third class ward...hahaha!..I had a long sleep...cdn't remember whether u were crying or not...and it was early in the next morning that ur ayah came with a plastic of hot Milo...all excited about his first product!!...(U were born on30 June..at .7.30pm khamis malam Jumaat..a blessing!!)..

See..gambar pun dah pandai posing...!!!dari kaki sebesar 2 ibu jari..sampai kaki dah melebihi saiz kasut mama....always suka posing!!just like ur Maksu too...(and mama pretty sure u r very fond of your maksu..walupun maksunya pun ala-ala glam dan banyak gila-gila..precaution precaution..sorry Maksu!).. remember..she's your nanny!!

And why no 14 reminds me of your Mak su is becoz at that very early age..her mother ( my beloved mother and ur late grandmother) started to fall ill of cancer and eventually passed away...your Maksu Ija ( Maksuku Yang Chun - as u refer her in your hp) perseveres despite many turbulent...even though many times mama caught her lost and she comes back...yearn to be pampered and to be loved....well ..she was your nanny and she admits you are sentimental to her..ewah!


Pesan ayah : "Jadilah wanita yang paling bahagia di dunia ini dengan mensyukuri setiap nikmat Allah..bersyukur..dan bersyukur...kerana apabila kita bersyukur..kita akan mengenali diri sendiri dan berusaha memperbaiki diri ke arah yang lebih baik..serta belajar untuk lebih menyayangi orang lain yang serba kekurangan.dan janganlah bersedih dengan perkara yang remeh temeh..kerana insan yang kuat sentiasa memandang ke hadapan untuk berjaya..dan hanya melihat ke belakang sebagai pengajaran"

Salam Kaseh Sayang..bersama doa dan harapan..kakak selalu berada di dalam peliharaanNya..diberikan ketajaman fikiran..akhlak yang baik..dan cemerlang dalam ape jua bidang!!..Make us proud and make ur other siblings look up to you..as angle..always...


Leaving you in the most precious loving tender care of Allah the Almighty...tata Bambino!please forgive my wrongdoings which might have hurt your feelingss..

Kenang Daku dalam doamu...mmmuuuahhh!!!Stay sweet and caring!!and remember not to forget to remember us..

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The missed events ...

Way back:-

1) Report card day at Munirah's School in Johor Bahru
- She still has lots of room for improvement ( some A's, some b's, ) especially in her maths as it just on the fence...(..eeemm cdn't digest becoz mama pun tak pernah tak suka any teachers...well hate is not the correct word la..but I still make extra effort to do well especially during exams..cuma ade few..sesaje kasi markah rendah sket..just to qualify myself into extra tuition class...). Her teacher said..some of her results were quite disappointing as she was always the most participative students in the class....Tak pe lah..Kakak..cuba lagi!!!I am Sure u know your capabilites...
- Munirah has been complaining of the tight schedule between her academics and arts lesson.
- PIBG baru saje ditubuhkan..dan berbagai-bagai masalah diluahkan oleh para ibubapa...alamak seperti sama yang aku rasa pulak...hopefully...with the new committee..many things cd be done for the benefit of the students..and tak mau le..my daughter be one of the 'guinea pig' by the kementerian......akedemik nak kejar....seni nak kena tip-top..We heard that Kementerian yang berkenaan akan mengkaji dengan lebih mendalam tentang Sekolah Seni..the syllabus..the assessment based..etc....sementara itu bertahan lah anakku...and above all u know academic is first..so Study Smart....(..mmm..How mama wish I cd be there...for you..kuatkan semangat ok...)


2) Report card day at Masturah's school in Jeram
- It is quite tough for her especially on her 'madah' subjects...overall they're just above average...for she need to brush up on her Arabics..dan tulisan Jawi....( Mama seperti terpegun ....bila mama belek-belek Mas punya exam papers....)
- The teachers had commented that she is hardworking!!Alhamdulillah..

3) A brief weekend at Lumut during last school holidays..
-...Okay la...trip was quite tiring...beach was ok..food and lodging was just ok!

4) Sending off Munirah at Pudu Raya and Mas to their respective school.

5) Masturah was hospitalised for acute appendicitis...she had to undergo operation on her right tummy....and Mama has to play a good nurse...accompany her at Hospital Sg B*loh...Pity her...and Mama pun terpaksa tidur dalam keadaan yang serba tak kena for the 3 nights...But Masturah was very brave and strong....Alhamdulillah...A few days stay at hospital saw me...berbaik dengan beberapa friendly visitors..(some were quite peacock...entah kenapa!!), guards and cleaners...well.the nurse..were ok....Also..some people..diuji Allah dengan penyakit yang lebih berat...sanak saudara tidak jemu datang berkunjung...berminggu terpaksa berulang alik ke hispital..jadi ape yang kita alami anakku..hanyalah satu ujian kecil...

6) Maryam's report card day
- Yang ini macam a blessed to mama and ayah all the way..and her teacher kata she had done well..except for few careless/spelling mistakes...ye lahh..baru Tadika 6 tahun...

7) Tomorrow is Maisarah's report card day...so nanti kita update lagi la...

Each and everyone of my kids has different sets of personalities....some a fast learner..some baru nak merangkak...but a precious advice by one of my friends...pandai membawa diri, akhlak yang baik, menghormati orang tua....sudah cukup menggembirakan hati mama...I love you all my angels...

Ta!Ta! Have a nice weekend....