The chaotic of school's exam..

I thought I do not want to fall into the category of a parent pushing her kids ..to excel..in their studies..

But I guess...I am me...And not to disqualify my Other half..but I think..I am a panicky type when it comes to exam..(I had my older post regarding this : kids'exam).

Lucky me, my eldest is in a boarding school..but that shd leave me with 1 growing up teenager , 2 little princesses and one very active toddler....

Do I look like a panicky?.Too much of Motherly?

Its just endless effort over here..not very sure if my effort is good enough to have tackled the syllabus of one secondary and two primary...again at the same time, try to calm my little boy!..( Oh Dear..Mr Mu*a...if you read this, I hope u'd care to at least 'love' to come back early..especially during exam week...because..I shall love u double if not triple if you could share this little burden..!).

Looking back at my schooling years...my mom wdn't have to prepare schedule..let alone sit and guide and look for sample exam questions..I just study..on my on..and I did!

Also, back then...there weren't so many motivational course..( which is indeed expensive nowdays!!!)..all of us..(at least for me and my siblings).. know.."..Oh..we've got to study...becoz tomorrow is exam day....we have to..we've got..to..."..eventhough there're only the text and exercises book..not much choice...and we ended up sleeping early...

I might not be the 'top scorer' for always..but Alhamdulillah, Allah has made it easier for me to excel..get noticed by the teachers...I did fail..a couple  of times ..but I just know, I must double my effort...In Malay...BELAJAR DENGAN TEKUN...and popularly now. we shall see jargons like  STUDY HARD.AND STUDY SMART!!..

On another note...I was careful with my stationeries too....But my two little ladies..always need few extra pencils..keep losing their eraser..and ruler..and colour pencil..Gosshh....Oh people...how many times must we remind!.This morning, while sweeping the floor, i saw some little erasers and one pencil..(very2 short but sharpened top and bottom!)..under their study table..when I asked..whose pencil is this?..and one wd say.."Ma, takkanlah kitorang ade pencil cam tu..tak baikkan...kata orang tua, pensil kerok depan belakang..nanti mak cepat mati!"..Only then I remember, I had scolded one of them and refuse to give them extra allowance for pencil..

Sometimes I just feel like surrender..cdn't care less about their exam day..but could i?...Then, I shall be guilty as charged.....

Oh Kids..pls grow up..and listen...I love u all, darlings...And to Ms Elly...All the best for your SPM..its just 5 months ways...do not get stress up..not because mama expect too much of you..but I know you have  the potential..Insya'Allah sayang..:USAHA*DOA*TAWAKKAL*!!..

We are aging..I am aging too..

I gave birth to my 5th child when I was just 40.( a few months away!)

For some, age is just a number...And are expected to grow maturely...( There goes my savings too..it is supposed to get matured?...)

At 40, ( many would agree..esp to someone non-sporty like me)..I do find some routine a bit strenuous...I cd sense and feel the difference..comparatively to some 10-15 years ago.

Raising up toddler at this age is lot more challenging....The difference is maybe..I am more calm now...more relax...shhoo away my moody episodes..

But my major hiccups few months back is my eyesight. The pic (on the right) was taken almost one and a half years back..and now, I think it is deteriorating..

Reading is a must with spectacle..If not, I wd have to hold the material about 2 feet away..My siblings/relatives wd laugh at my holding my cellphone that 'away' just to read an sms text or who's the caller..

Whenever we'r eating out for family dinner..I am not as quick as bfore..Still I have to do ordering..i am as dominant as ever!!.To read the menu, shall need my glasses..And to eat as well...It is just funny to wear a magnifying glass just to have a clear pic of what one is eating..And cutting my boy's nails...and searching for my gals' 'lice'..( yeah..no joking....those small tinny Winny things mum do!)

Nowdays..to enjoy my tuition time with my kids..is at times miserable!!..Hey kids...mama still can read, okey! Could you all do me favour, pls, please tell your daddy to get me a good reading glass...Would u? 

Again..it is aging..And why make such a fuss about it...I still have my other sense working perfectly..Alhamdulillah...

p/s: I was supposed to buy formula milk with 'honey' for my boy..but when I came home, It was a 'chocolate' flavour...( preety sure I cd differentiate between the photo of a bee and a choc?)..Oh my...oh my...

Longing for 'me' time?.. Permissible?

He..he..

I found this 'old' book while doing housekeeping..

I read pages by pages..it describes almost everything..about the role, duties, rights and obligations..of a woman, single and married...

What captures me most was the way it describes how importance role of a mother in upbringing her child..not easy though but it is so simple and straight forward...that I began to think....oowwh..there is so plenty of rooms for improvement...ask all mums, all want to do the best and be the best..but at times its just not feasible to do all...And at this point, I think, we need best supports, right?..But imagine, if supports are at no avail...it will disrupt the equilibrium...And I am rambling....and not kidding either?

That brings me to those 'unproductive' time...for all 'unexecuted plans'..

And after all the thinking...don't u think we, mums, deserve, her 'me' time...Is it permissible?..

Apabila berpisah itu lebih manis..

Saya terkedu apabila pulang dari menziarahi seorang sahabat ..

Tiada lagi apa yang boleh dikatakan...

Hanya boleh memandang dan berjalan terus ke hadapan..

Saya doakan sahabat saya itu menemui ketenangan dan semuga Allah permudahkan segala urusan beliau..

Semuga dia tabah..dan kuat untuk menggalas segala amanah yang telah Allah beri..Insya'Allah dia pasti akan lebih gembira...jika itu takdirNya..

Allah telah berjanji dalam surah Annisa Ayat 130 :

 " Jika kedua laki-isteri bercerai, maka Allah akan memberi kesenangan bagi masing2nya dengan kurnianya. Allah lapang (kurniaNya) lagi maha bijaksana."

Saya sayang cikgu saya..dan cikgu pada anak2 saya..Happy teacher's day!

CIkgu, satu profesyen yang mulia....satu anugerah Keramat!!!...

Selamat Hari Guru buat semua guru di luar sana..insan2 yang luar biasa...

Bimbinglah anak2 saya tanpa syarat....Tkaseh cikgu!

Typhoon with kids..(labour's day!)

I rarely watch movie..but this was awesome!

At first, I accidentally turned on the tv programme almost midnite...just want to kill the time..after the tiring episodes of cup cakes...( as if there's nothing else better to do at the eve of Labour's day!..) and had became tv couched potato!!..alone!

Next morning, I think, I had caused a stir ....by telling to everybody..about the movie last nite...

And next thing I know, my eldest and her siblings , were quietly watching it from the You tube...siap bergelapan dlm bilik..untuk memberikan suasana yg lebih dasyat !

Me not a good story teller..but again...I love that my kids love it too!

Sayang emak..sayang Musalmah..Happy mum's day!

Happy Mother's Day....

Setiap tahun..bahkan setiap hari...saya dilimpahi kaseh sayang dari anak2..dengan cara mereka tersendiri...tahun ni, anak2 yang dekat bagi 'present'...kad..dan yg jauh itu...sempat gak telepon...

Eemm...nak cerita panjang tapi masa sangat suntuk....

Tapi sudah pasti saya akan teringat pada arwah Emak....Saya tahu anak2 saya pun begitu terutama Kak Moon, mungkin juger KMas..kerana yg lain2 hadir setelah emak pulang ke rahmatullah....DAn sudah itu kehendakNYa..Pasti itu yang terbaik buat arwah mak dan kami semua...walaupun setiap saat saya merinduinya...Saya kira itu hadiah paling bermakna...tetapi setakat 30 tahun sahaja....DAn jikalau sana siini orang memperkatakan tentang dasyatnya doa ibu..

Saya rasa kekurangan...tetapi saya yakin....emak akan datang memeluk dan mendengar segala rintihan melalui rahmat kaseh sayang Allah...Semuga Allah menempatkan arwah Mak bersama para solihin...Dan " aku mohon Ya Rabbi..agar Engkau jadikan aku anak yang soleh..agar doa2ku dapat menerangi perbaringan arwah emak..."..Serta..Janganlah Engkau biarkan aku seorang diri Ya Rabbi..Setelah Engkau ambil kaseh sayang arwah bondaku..Aku hanya menggantungkan harap padaMu"

Bila arwah mak dah tak de....saya ade satu lagi pilihan..iaitu Mak Mertua....

DAlam Radio IKIM kelmarin, sempena hari ibu...Dr Fadhilah Kamsah kata.." seorang isteri mesti sanjung , kaseh dan sayang pada Ibu Mertua mereka...lebih (kalu tidak sama) dari ibu kandung sendiri...."

DAn saya diam terpaku..walaupun sedang memandu...Saya kira..ade banyak lagi peluang yang saya belum ambil..banyak lagi ruang kosong untuk saya penuhi..banyak lagi hati yang saya belum 'jaga' sepenuhnya..SesungguhNya hati kita semua milik Yang Esa...

Masihkah ade hari esok utk saya terus menyemai budi pada anak2 dan IbuMertua..?..Saya berasa penat dan lemas dalam pelbagai harapan..saya harap, saya dapat yakinkan pada anak2 saya bahawa hidup ini adalah satu ujian dari Allah, orang2 yang berjaya adalah mereka yang dapat melalui kehidupan ini dengan kejayaan dan sentiasa tunduk kepada ketetapan-ketetapan Allah..

Selamat Hari Ibu semua!..Khas buat Ibu Mertuaku..(biarpun engkau mungkin tidak betah melihat tulisan ini)..Puan Salmah Bachik..Sayang Mak..Sayang Musalmah...

Red crescent/scout/puteri islam?

Apabila Kak Mary pulang dari sekolah dan berkata, dia telah terpilih memasuki persatuan bulan sabit merah sebagai pilihan kokurikulum, maka saya adalah orang yang paling tersenyum lebar.....

Yeay!!!....kerana, mama juga adalah ahli persatuan bulan sabit merah...siap ade sijil pertolongan cemas kelas ke2..

Hati mama berbunga..sambil menyoroti kenangan zaman sekolah menengah...

Cuma perbezaan pakaian, Dulu..kami pakai gaun putih, ala-ala juru rawat...Sekarang, seluar panjang putih, dan Tshirt lenganpanjang merah putih...

Seperti suatu legasi..kerana 3 kakaknya memilih' Persatuan Puteri Islam...kain/tudung serba merah jambu... Kak Moonelly ( sewaktu sekolah rendah lebih cenderung kpd persatuan pengakap dan pernah menjadi pelajar terbaik peserta perkhemahan unit berpasukan) suka kepada aktiviti lasak, tetapi sejurus keluar dari sekolah seni, hanya memilih persatuan puteri islam...lebih santai katanya...terlalu penat mungkin dgn pelbagai tugasan lasak semasa di skolah seni.

Kenapa suka Persatuan Bulan Sabit Merah?..Nak jadi jururawat?..Nak jadi tuan Doktor?...Saje2 suka?..

Hi..hi...kalau bobi lebih memilih red crescent dari pengakap...err....ayah, u okey?

Nak jadi ahli yang komited?..Kena selalu pergi koko..kena ikut segala aktiviti...kalu nak jadi komanden...kena ade suara yang KUUUAAAAATT!.Mcm kak Moonelly!!.

Apa yang mama suka sebab belajar teknik pertolongan cemas..termasuk CPR..( mama berpeluh2 buat amali semata2 nak lulus ujian pertolongan kecemasan..siap wakil sekolah utk pertandingan..termasuk kawat kakai!!)lebih menarik, latihan kawat kaki...yaa...kawat kaki.....itu saje cukup memberi latihan kecekalan dan keyakinan tinggi..Selamat berjaya anak2...dan  usah risau kalu kulit terbakar di bawah pancaran terik matahari....kerana ianya sebahagian dari Arwah Tok Wan kalian......Seorang Pesara tentera Laut...Baju uniform...PUtih!!!!!