Simple but meaningful

I would love to have this one sentence written and printed and portrayed in my mind over and over again...and in my writings especially.....and want to believe that I cd force myself to have it practiced :

Speak Kindly, Care deeply, Love generously

Those words were uttered by Prof Madya DrMuhaya....and I love them.. I love to believe that those shall have positive impact on my state of mind..that every each and one of us shall have our own fair share of test..and that we should live in harmony and create positive ambiance...

Happy new year ? 

Life hiccups

You may experience life hiccups along your journey...

It's a test

How do you manage your inner turmoil then?

I want to believe that every cloud has a silver lining..I would love to hang on...I would love to..

S.O.S!!

Ujian dan kesabaran

"Dan kami pasti akan uji kamu dgn sedikit rasa takut, rasa lapar, kekurangan harta, kekurangan nyawa dan buah2an. Dan berilah berita gembira kepada orang sabar" Surah AlBaqarah ~155..



" Iaitu mereka yang apabila ditimpa musibah mereka mengatakan : kita milik Allah dan kepadaNya kita pasti kembali " AlBaqarah ~156


..Penulis kan kembali...

SAlam Maal Hijrah..

Hijrah itu pengorbanan
Hijrah itu perjuangan...
 (berkali2 bait2 lirik lagu Hijrah dimainkan di tv1..)

SAlam Maal hijrah semua....hijrah kepada yang lebih baik...sedikit2..dan berterusan...istiqamah..

Friends and food is luxury?

How trueee...?I thought it is a necessity???

Lambaian Kaabah

Sebelum terlambat..ingin saya titipkan di sini rase terharu dan ingatan abadi terhadap rakan2 dan saudara mara yang akan menjadi tetamu Allah pada tahun ni....( Posting ini agak lewat..kerana Aidul Adha sudahpun berlalu..dan barangkali semasa saya menulis ini ade rakan2 yang telah pun pulang ke tanah air..)..

Sewaktu didaftarkan..saya kira perasaan segan menyelubungi teratak hati..mengingatkan diri sendiri..apekah layak aku ini?...mampukah aku?..Beserta dengan keadaan ekonomi yang masih lagi jauh untukmembolehkan aku menjadi tetamuNya..

Tetapi ramai yang berkata..kita harus berdoa..terus berdoa..kerana menjadi tetamu Allah itu adalah sebahagian rahmatNya..apetah lagi solat di masjid Nabawi dan Masjidil haram saje..dijanjikan pahala yang jauh berlipat ganda jika solat sendirian di rumah..jesturu....mari kawan2..kita bermunajat...berdoa dan berusaha..mana tahu...tahun depan giliran kita dijemput ke sana / semula..

Saya tahu ade beberapa rakan satu sekolah dulu sedang menghitung hari..dan sekembalinya mereka dari tanah suci..apekah 'ole'ole' yang akan di bawa kepada masyarakat islam tanah air khususnya...

Beberapa gambar kenangan semasa menghadiri jamuan doa selamat salah satu rakan yg akan berangkat menunaikan haji tahun 2010:-

Nita's Mum, me, Nita ,Anne

Yus, Reha,Nita,Moi, Liz,Awin

Yus, Liz,Neng,Reha, Awin & Moi

Dan tatkala pulang selepas menziarah rakan2..penghayatan mengimbau kembali saat2 bersama arwah bonda ketika menunakan umrah lewat 2007..satu kenangan yang pasti tidak dapat dilupakan...sungguh..segala kekuatan itu hanyalah milikNya..bayangkan pergi berdua (menumpang muhrim seorang doktor)..dan kesana kemari, mengusung kerusi roda..tanpa kudrat muhrim sendiri..payah dan jerih..tetapi berbaloi..kerana hasrat seorang ibu yang derita kanser usus...dpt dilangsaikan...itulah permintaannya yang terakhir..semuga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya...Dan alhamdulillah..utk aarwah ayahanda..umrahnya telah selamat ditunaikan oleh saudara kandungku sendiri...Alah sahaja yang dapat membalasnya!

Kenangan lama bersama arwah bonda di depan masjid Nabawi 2007:-

Bersama Bonda Dec 1997 ( Meninggal pada 28 Jan 1998 : beberapa minggu sekembali dari tanah suci)

Bersama bonda Aug 1992 ( semasa beliau masih sihat!)

Bersama Arwah ayahanda  7 Dec 2002 (ayah pergi pada 15 dec 2002)

1997 Last raya together : Semuga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mereka dan menerangi kubur mereka sehingga hari kiamat. Ya Tuhanku..jadikanlah aku anak yang soleh..agar doaku sampai di perbaringan mereka..

Kali ini..mudah2an Allah akan makbulkan doa kami...tidak tahu bila..tapi insya'Allah..

Menulis dan expresi..

Terlalu subjektif.

Sesiapa pasti mengiyakannya...

Sejarah penulisan saya..sama juger seperti orang lain...dari bangku sekolah...hinggalah sekarang...tetapi saya rase arwah ayah adelah penggerak..diikuti rapat oleh arwah emak..yg pasti saje memberi dorongan...

Saya bukanlah boleh dikategorikan oleh para cikgu, kalangan pelajar yg pandai menulis..tetapi saya akan pastikan saya tidak lupa dari ingatan guru2....rakan2...sanak saudara..dan yang pasti saya adelah johan menulis surat paling banyak untuk ayah dan emak, adik beradik..termasuk juger johan pengirim kad raye...ingin sekali saya mentitipkan di sini beberapa naskah surat dari arwah emak dan ayah...buat tatapan anak2ku khususnya...

Dan berterima kasih kepada cikgu dan rakan2 semasa bersekolah di jb...saya semenjak itu tahu , bagaimana menulis dengan lebih kreatif...

Saya suka membaca..tetapi lewat ini, terbatas dengan pelbagai perkara...yg paling utama, keadaab penglihatan yg semakin rabun deka...hatta nak menjamah nasi...tidak beberapa tepat selok belok tulang ikan...jesturu,,sudah lama tidak cuba memasak ikan parang..apetah lagi ikan terubok...(saya rindu pada masakan arwah mak...)

Saya akan cuba pahatkan diingatan barisan ayat2 mudah...bahasa melayu dan inggeris..(maaf, saya terkilan kerana Bahasa Arab saya waktu srp sekadar cukup makan, manakala bahasa perancis..langsung lah merapu..).Langsung saya menurunkan kepada anak2...masih lagi pada kadar yg agak perlahan..Saya salahkan kepada pengurusan masa yang tak keruan...begitu juger peranan IT ..yg mencuri perhatian anak2 saya.

Saya akan tersentuh dengan ayat2 dramatis...yg menyentuh jiwa, motivasi, spiritual....

Lalu saya mendekati beberapa penulis...tidak sekadar membaca karya mereka...tetapi juger berangan jika saya boleh tukarkan hobi kepada suatu bentuk yg bersifat material..sesuai dengan kehendak ekonomi sekarang....agak payah...dan saya tenggelam dengan lamunan sendiri...sekali lagi pengurusan masa dan bajet!

Paling tidak, saya mengunjungi rakan2 fb...walupun saya sedar..pakar2 penulis/pengkarya di luar sana..pasti punya rakan yg beribu...mana mungkin mereka sedar akan kehadiran saya..apetah lagi memberi sepatah dua komen pada catatan dindin...Agak terkilan....

Tetapi lewat beberapa minggu yang lalu, saya singgah di suatu mukabuku seorang pakar motivasi, setelah menghayati ruangan slot motivasi beliau di tv1...saya dengar dengan tekun..saya mau belajar....saya mau menambah ilmu...anak2 sudah ke sekolah...tinggal anak kecil yang masih diulit mimpi...say ambil kesempatan mendengar isi dan komentar di kacatv pagi itu. Lalu saya hulurkan ucapan dan cuba berkongsi dengan rakan2 fb yang lain ( saya amat berharap tidak ade yg berpendapat, saya cuba menunjuk pandai atau berlagak alim..) Dan ingin sekali saya turunkan disini ape yg saya tulis :

Motivasi di Tv1 kol 745 pagi tadi via Haji Muhammad Zakaria: penamat kpd kehidupan adalah nyawa, selagi ade nyawa perkara yg remeh & segala trauma yg merobek jiwa-pasti boleh diatasi, berpaksikan percaya adenya Tuhan..tidak kira ape agama..ape yg dibuat..pasti ade Yg melihat...Yg mendengar,Yg Memberi ganjaran.Kitarkan hidup anda dgn berjemaah secara positif & kondusif...insya'Allah terhindar dr segala gejala negatif.

DAn anda ingin tahu samada saya mendapat respon yg baik?

Suatu lontaran hasrat dari tuan punya penceramah...merobek jiwa penulisanku :-

Mazlita: Anda sudi menjadi penulis kepada buku motivasi saya? Dulu saya penulis kepada buku motivasi Dato Haji Mohd Fadzilah Kamsah dan Dato Ustazah Siti Nor Bahyah. Now I need to multiple myself. Time is running short. Kerja makin bertambah.

Dan ketika ini saya masih terkebil2.?..apekah benar ini semua?...Dari sini..bagaimana harus saya bermula?

Saya senyum di dalam hati....saya rindu pada nukilan emas arwah ayah dan emak...pasti juger dari suami..yg kerana tulisan jugak menemukan kami...tetapi suami sudah jarang sekali menulis..walupun sesekali nukilannya pada kad2 ulangtahun anak2..pasti saje menyentuh jiwa...

Dan anak2 yang bersekolah rendah...sayup2 mengalun-alunkan nasyid Doa Rabitah..sempena hari penyampaian anugerah di sekolah agama mereka tak lama lagi...Dan izinkan saya berkongsi :-

Ya Ilahi...Sesungguhnya Engkau tahu

Bahawa hati ini telah  berpadu

Berhimpun  dalam naungan cintaMu

Bertemu dalam ketaatan 

Bersatu Dalam perjuangan

Menegak syariat kehidupan

Kuatkanlah ikatannya...Kekalkanlah cintanya

Tunjukilah jalan-jalannya

Terangilah dengan cahyaMu Yang tidak pernah kunjung malap

Ya Rabbi..bimbingilah kami..

Lapangkanlah dada kami

Dengan kurniaan iman

Dan keindahan bertwakkal kepadaMu

Hidupkanlah hati2 ini dengan makrifatMu

Matikan kami dalam syahid di jalanMu

Engkaulah Pelindung dan Pembela

Selamat malam semua.....oh..sudah pagi....Kenang kami dalam doa kalian...

Its October....exam fever for many mummies...

Ramadhan has long gone.....

Syawal too...

My second just sat for her recent pmr 2010...ayoo....

My 3rd and fourth..still busy playing w barbie.....not realising mama is panicking that their final exam is 2 weeks away....double ayoo...

Cakes and kinds sales shooting down...( tu lah pasal..sapa nak dpt duet lebih..musti nak kena berniaga di bulan berkat Ramadhan kelmarin...)..and I had just finished doing stock taking...and there goes my financial statements...oo..o..nak kena report kat iR?..with borang E/...tripple ayoooss...I slow down my marketing..and samples and everything....tired..not the word, ok!

O...Abang Kudin...ade jawatang kosong tak kat opis mu?

Little Mikhael has began to mumble..and talk..and 'lasak;....he likes to immitate the azan..

OH..ALLAH..THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE LOVED AND LOVE BY MY LOVED ONES..especially my kids..and of coz my partner..who else...I am an adult orphange ok..so, its them..my family...my worries.my story..my life...

I gotta go now...its masak for petang time...babaii..everybody!!..

ooowwhh.. I so miss..writing...and expressing...nice day everyone..

In case you've missed my fb updates...some 2 weeks ago..

Salam Ramadhan to all sisters and Brothers in Islam...Greetings to all.

My New venture..So..what do u think?

I am about to close all orders within a week's time...Pls call or email for details .( Note: Price shown is exclusive of postage/delivery charges outside Klang Valley or overseas..)
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If u miss the dateline...etamycafe is closed during Eid..and shall consume production a week after that..see u!..

Okey You all.., pics of home made cakes and kinds are found here : Riang Ria Aidil fitri :EtaMycafe

Amongst the motivator..

I just love my super duper senior of my ex secondary school...haven't met her..but whenever i had the chance to view her in one of Tv2's slot , normally at 8am, every Tuesday morning...

And one of her words that I love :

:SPEAK KINDLY, CARE DEEPLY AND LOVE GENEROUSLY.." ..

So start your day, feeling good about yourself..how can u serve...avoid self sabotage thoughts..ok.....see
 you!!

I am so overwhelmed with the thought of my new passion....the kek lapis and kinds..and i am starting my gear....into new momentum very soon...OMG.....so scarry....

Nice day you all...and before it is too late.....marhaban ya Ramadhan to all my muslims friends out there...

Etamy's cooking - kek lapis

Been wanting to write about latest project..but again..it's just time management....

But I am posting few pictures first and i shall catch up with u later..my blogger friends...with recipee and events ya!

But..on another note, I think better if I start a new blog of my cakes and kind.What do you think?...And you are welcome to my cooking's blog etamy's shared recipee...see you...!

Another year...

I am feeling so blessed today as it is another day of bday...(2nd July..)

So blessed for the love and kindness that Allah has bestowed me through dear family members, relatives, friends..and whomever who  our path might have crossed..who had touched my heart in their own and many special wayss..


Alhamdulillah...and of course..Alfatihah to my dear late parents.....

Jun sudah datang..separuh 2010 sudah pergi..

Sedang menyiapkan minda...setelah hampir 2 minggu cuti oleh rutin biasa ...(rutin2 berkenaan anak2 sekolah rendah dan anak kicil..)

Hari ni menyaksikan anak yang bersekolah menengah kembali ke sekolah masing2...diiringi sejuta doa..harapan seorang ibu...hati sayu...perpisahan dan kerinduan...seperti merobek jiwa...

Ingin kembali menyusun strategi agar pertengahan 2010 yang kedua ini..menjadi lebih bermakna..lebih mensyukuriMu...Ramadhan kiat menggamit...

Akan kembali....Salammmm...

make money out of it...

Long before, when everybody start talking about bizzness through internet, I did my own research...

Well nowdays, I must say money is important..it might not make u happy a whole heartedly but, serious ,money makes u happy...at one stage I mean..( eventhough some says, money can't buy anything..I guess at this point , look who's talking??..emm...)..

It is no longer barter trading sytem..like old days when we learnt history, orang putih nak rempah, tukar dengan somethign else with the pedagang...( tak ingat sangat daa...)

And I had long discovered, money could solve many things...after all, in this world economic system..we need to pay for everything!..Tengok kalu u pi kedai..u bawak rm50..u beli a few grocerries...dah habis duit!!!tak termasuk alat tulis budak2..yang saban minggu...pensil hilang lah, pensil warna kena curi lah!!..pemadam tak de...hoi!!..korang ni?..ingat sayang oii..mama bukan kerja chop duit!

When I decided to become a full time housewife..deep inside, told me, it is gonna be pain, dear!..lots!..and for a kind sole breadwinner of my dear hubby, to feed us...means ..kerja keras, kais pagi dan ptang sesungguhnya..

So when I first start blogging, i wanted to see money coming into my bank..yes!, no kidding!!!.you have a product..you do the marketing through the internet....woila..duet masyukkkk....but due to some circumstances, i ended up, writing down my expressions...like not worth it lah!!..rugi.rugi...

My brother was kind enough to employ me as part timer for his office accounting work..that I do fast within days..and collected the allowance..or I took my own sweet time until the auditor chase after me..ha..ha..( penalty for late submission, only rm20...must be part of the reason huh?)..Historical data..ma..who'd be interested?..The board of directors make some decisions from the accounting information u feed them..so if there's no annual report, what do they rely on?...this is when creative accounting comes in...( I am smiling....!!:)))))

Serious blogging started few months before Mikhael was conceived...prior to that, I think i was like a crazy job hunter!!!...I wanted to work and earn but at the same time,I am afraid of leaving behind my kids..for cases of abuse and emergencies I had endured before..very tiring!!..very moody!...yeap, like early birds and came back like zombie...kesian my anak2...I had turned down few offer...again fearing of coming back late...my background was accounting and finance..so where on earth u tengok boleh balik sharp at 5 punya???especially during year end closing??..and when the auditors came to ransack every transactionsss??.

I knew I had few skills of cullinary...I once saw and helped my late mum....in food bisness...And I had managed to earn few bucks, 100% profit when I engaged in selling festive biscuits and cakes...still I tell you...It was an extremely tardy, tired,,but happy!!I love baking, only when I have the energy and time ..I love sewing baju kurung raya for my kids..too...I feel good!!..But that was last time!!!

Seriously, my little baby has caught all my attention...Some friends frustratedly ask me, why I didn't answer their calls...I simply said..Either I sleep or I just put the phone on silence mode..Everybody who has baby..know, when the baby is asleep..heaven othe mother..especially masa tu lah nak buat kerja rumah and not forgetting surfing and fb-ing!..Some even dare to kate,,,u tido je ke kat rumah?..Aikkk...I don't have to explain to you lah ..suka hati aku ok!

Now, 2 years after all the ordeal, am i ready to make a come back to this food bisness?..then , I would have extra pocket money..yaahooo..yabedabedu!!!..And my baby is growing up. fast..few friends has already asking for samples..for the coming festive?..Would I take up the challenge?...Aiyoo...i need support group lah sayang oii..kalau nak buat bisness kueh raya dan kek lapis segala..matilah sorang2 kat dapur..and what about the pots and pans.sape nak cuci?.and Mikhael's screaming for attention would definitely shoot up my blood pressure...And then, came my hubby, " dear, orang buat kueh siang2 hari,,,Waktu Ramadhan, malam2 orang pi Tarawikh, tadarus......Oooo..Aaaaaaa......."..I sayang u lah Abang and tq for reminding!!..

And the ones who wd be there to beli lauk bukak posa..or masak nasi goreng untuk sahur...boleh teka sape?he..he....(nasib baik tak berbuka posa ngan kueh tat dankek lapis..macam cerita kat tv tu!!).

So how?...Oh idea..please come...please!!!

A quick rendang ayam recipee for my angles..

Salam anak2ku dan kawan2 yang menziarah...

Hujung minggu lepas, mama sangat gumbira kerana menerima kunjungan kawan2 lama se'usrah'..zama2 uk dulu...

Rasenya dah lama tak bergelak ketawa dengan hiburan dan lawak jenaka kawn2..rase hilang stress satu badan..

Bila depa maklum nak datang, selalunya kepala mama akan berputar ligat..ape juadah hidangan...mama telepon ayah tanya pendapat...( mungkin masa tak sesuai..ape lah telipon ayah siang2 waktu pejabat hanya nak tanya menu??....)..dan akhir kalam ayah kata yang mudah2 je lah...kalu tak larat...kita beli...

Yeepie.yahoo..!!!

Petang tu ayah balik dari kerja bawak balik beberapa buah2an..

Malam tu mama tersinggah kedai...(lepas layan kanak2 nak makan burger...) dan terbeli bahan2 nak masak esok..
( Walupun dalam hati agak bimbang kerana Mikhael kurang sihat akibat demam selsema...takut2 tak dapat nak masak kerana melayan kerenah dia....tapi...tawakkal jelah!!)

Dan pagi tu pun datang..mama masak le nasi, rendang ayam dan sup sayur campur..tengok2. ade lak kawan mama yang mintak resepi....jadi mama share lah kat sini..kot2 akan datang bila anak2 mama nak masak, leh cuba resepi rengkas ni.

*******************Rendang ayam rengkas ( satu ekor setengah- potong 12)
Bahan2 kisar:-
7 biji bawang besar
1 labu bawang putih
2 inci halia
1 inci kengkuas
1 inci kunyit
6 batang serai
10 biji cili api ( boleh tambah kalu nak lebih pedas)

Bahan2 tumis:-
1 btg kayu manis
5 biji pelaga
5 biji cengkih
2 bunga lawang

1. panaskan minyak 1 cawan, tumis bahan kisar bersama rempah ratus. Tumis sekali bersama 2 helai daun kunyit, 4 helai daun pandand dan 4 helai daun kari...( Yang ni sebab akak suka aroma daun2..)
2. Bila dah garing, masukkan 2 sudu rempah besar kari babas (yang telah dicairkan bersama 4 sudu besar air) dan 2 sudu besar cili boh/giling.
3. masukkan ayam ( yang telah dipotong,dibasuh dan tos tadi) bersama 2 packet santan pekat.
4. Api kasi besar sket dan gaul ayam biar mesra bersama rempah.
5. BIla santan hampir pekat, masukkan perahan air asam jawa ( 1 sudu besar perah dengan air 1 cawan ), asam keping 1.Kacau sebati.
6. Setelah 10 min, masukkan garam ( 1 sudu besar), ajinomoto ( separuh sudu teh), kerisik 2 peket kecil, hirisan gula melaka 2 inci, dan kicap manis suku cawan...kacau lagi perlahan.
7. Waalllaa...apabila kuah dah cukup pekat, kecikkan api dan biar reneh ayam dalam setengah jam. tutup api dan tabur hirisan sehelai daun kunyit.
8. tempoh atas api lebih kurang satu setengah jam.

p/s: Ok Rozi...resepi ni lah yg akak pakai kalu buat rendang pagi raya...biasa2 je..ni je yang akak tahu..masak kambing tak pandai!!...he.he..

SElamat mencuba...byee...Maaf, gambar lauk dah sipa tak de, sebab kamera digital tak de daa...

***********************

Anak2 mama tahu..tak banyak koleksi resepi mama...selalu masak yang tu dan yang ni juger...

Makanan laut jarang sekali kot, sebab ayah berpantang..'gaut'..

Masakan kampung...sket2 tahu lah..(ilmu pasal sayur2 kapung pun masih banyak yg nak dipelajari..)ape tah lagi ikan2 air tawar..kalu sesekali ayah pi beli ikan keli atau jenahak..bercinta mama nak siang dan masak..mujur ayah tak gemar belut segala...

Selalu masakan tak pedas..sebab adik2 kecik tak makan pedas,...dan mama sendiri ade gastrik...

Tetapi ape yang teringat mama kan kongsikan kat sini..Pengalaman bersama sedikit ilmu masa belajar sains rumah tangga dulu sangat membantu..dan yang paling mama dirindui adalah kenangan belajar masak lauk dan kueh mueh bersama arwah nenek kalian..Allahyarhamah Monawa Abdul Wahid...Alfatihah..dan seribu rase terkilan kerana banyak lagi ilmu masak memsak yang tak sempat dipelajari..apetah lagi ilmu berumahtangga dan menjadi ibu dan isteri solehah...Alfatihah!!..

Beberapa gambar 'favourite' mama bersama arwah nenek kalian..
Navy Day ( KD Sri Langkawi 1970s)


Arwah Tok Wan And Nenek - Last AIdilfitri celebrated together 1997


Arwah Nenek At Madinah 1997 ( approximate one month before her demise in Ramadhan 1997/1998)


Us- the moments mama shall always treasure...

The art of forgiveness..

Is there an art??

be kind to the unkind as they need it the most?

*************************************perghhhh....*************************************

Almost every Tuesday morning, I wd turn on Hello On TV2 at *8 am..just to watch my fav programme..vitamins for the mind..host non other by Prof Dr Muhaya Mohamed..my super duper senior of secondary school...

And without fail, i wd scrutinised and tried to remember each words said..(phuh..kalah take notes down zaman skolah2 dulu!!..)..and if my baby is not up yet..and whatever housechores need to be done early..finish up fast..a cup of nescafee..glued in front of tv..Bliss!!!

This morning, the topic struck me by lightning....

FORGIVENESS DOES NOT RUB THE PAST BUT IT SHAPES THE FUTURE...

a'ha..how's that!!

Bad man is a good man's job

Good man is a bad man's teacher...

So??..who wants to be a teacher to me?..Isshh..

************************I ponder..I ponder....***********************

Before you go sleep at night pls say forgiveness :
1) Seek from Allah The Almighty
2)Forgive everybody
3) Forgive yourself..

Say your prayers..and i am off to my zombieland..Nite2..everyone...

p/s:..And where is my partner?...Aiyoo..Larling...Badminton M'sia dah Kalah ngan Jepun lahh....and can you believe Ka*pal said budak tu Tipu...

Allah knows the truth..and the truth shall prevails....Lets Doa!!

Jikalau itu takdirNya..

Pagi tadi saya telah dikejutkan oleh makluman tentang ibu kepada jiran terdekat yang telah kembali ke rahmatullah...

Innalillahi Wainna Ilaihi Rojiuun....DariNya kita datang dan kepadaNya kita semua akan kembali....

Saya terkedu apabila menziarah jenazah arwah makcik itu...

Terbujur kaku...diam membisu...teringat saya tanpa ilmu, pasti saja beliau tidak akan disempurnakan segera..betah juger kita semua kepada kejiranan yang prihatin...itu tidak dapat dinafikan...

Lalu saya berfikir..dalam keadaan sedemikian..siapakah yang akan menyempurnakan jenazah itu...memastikan mayat tidak disakiti.....maruah/aurat dijaga rapi....???

Saya menitiskan airmata tatkala mendengar tangisan anak dan cucu beliau..seakan-akan merasai apa yangsaya rasai apabila kehilangan orang tua sendiri...

Dan seribu persoalan bermain di fikiran...

Mati pasti datang...dan sudahkah diri ini bersedia???

Sekiranay Ditakdirkan sya pergi dahulu...betahkah anak2 menguruskan diri ini??...sejuta doa agar anak2ku diberi kekuatan untuk mengharungi kehidupan...atau di mana saja saya berada..saya mahu disempurnakan sebegitu juger,,,pantas, rengkas dan praktikal...

Apa yang akan saya bawa sebagai bekal ke alam kubur yang gelap..kesorangan itu???Tinggallah kekasih hati, anak2, sanak saudara , kaum keluarga dan rakan taulan..Ditangisi mungkin?...didoakan harapan?

Saya berhenti disini dahulu....saya terfikir untuk menyenaraikan kepada kekasih hati dan anak2..segala wasiat beserta perkara2 yang patut dilakukan oleh keluarga apabila ahli keluarga mereka meninggal dunia...

Baru cuti sekolah kelmarin, saya bercerita kepada anak2..(hasil dari menonton drama melayu..)..sekiranya ibu terbujur kaku...buat itu dan ini, siap itu dan ini,,,,jgn panik...dll...saya berdoa segalanya mudah..bukankah Allah itu Maha Pemudah..Pengasih dan Penyayang...

Dan kenangan dan segala persoalan bermain di fikiran..bersama rindu yang tak mungkin akan pudar..kepada arwah orang tuaku...

Alfatihah..

My inner sayings...

“Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau hitung kami sebagai bersalah, jika kami lupa atau kami tersilap. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap mereka yang kufur terhadap-Mu” [al-Baqarah 2: 286]

Small gifts, tame the heart

It is true all the way..just as true as the law of gravity that God creates...

The power of generousity...not merely in terms of material and kind....

It could be in terms of prayer, sacrifice..., help....like a fan=mous quote everybody knows...THE MORE U GIVE, THE MORE U GET...

One day one of my gals ask:"mama, do u we need to give when in fact we just have few?"(particularly at school when some of her friends always look forward to know what she bring to the school as bekal..)

And I said: : How do u feel, when u give?..Nice isn't it..definitely not
'...riak'....

I guess all these good values must be nurtured onto my kids and rest children of the world..

Give and be generous not because u want something in return..but as a host to God, The Most merciful and Most Kind..that we hope for Allah's blessings...to give us blessings in whatever our undertakings...

....In Islam, Our beloved prophet s.a.w encourages us to bring gift whenever we visit somebody....small things...tame the heart...

In fact , my late mother always remind me to prepare food and share with the visitors....for sure..the generosity shall stay in their heart..and I know...lots of my mums' friends wd regard her as very kind, generous...love her cooking...but me...I am still learning...plus, a slow worker...took a lot of energy to finish a dish..let alone do the housekeeping..ha..ha...not a good example my gals.

Have a nice day!Just a thought to share!!!

2 hours? can arrr?

I am in dilemma...

I read and understood..

Kids must endure at least 2 hours of revision/reading/homework etc..per day...

How???

I am pretty much occupied with house chores things...so overwhelm!!..plus my busy little man..wanting my attention all day long!...

Sigh!!

With two schools session...come night..after dinner..finish homework...play dolls some more...drawing some more..read comics somemore..accompany me watching Malay soap opera somemore...revise mengaji somemore...where on earth is the time???Ayah complain of my gals.tak habis nak main Dolls...

(P/s:Abang dear...depa tu masih anak2...just like Aisyah R.a...still main anak2 masa dinikahi Rasulullah s.a.w...)

Result of first test of 2010, out already...

Euwwwwwhhhh!!

I wonder how are my two big gals doing?...Oii...korang belajar tak kat sna?...

And I am sleepy....Zombie you all...

( O Allah..grant me with strength to carry out my duties...my vision...for you are The Most Powerful and Most Kind..)

Tonsil and March 2010 - wrap up!

Sorryy......very late updates!!!..guess this is my first ever story telling session....

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And in she went into the OT..accompanied by Ayah...before she got the G.A. jap...(she was holding ayah's hand until she's put into sleep..and mama kind of miss that moment...as that time mama was still at home, waiting for CH' Mok's to bring us ~mama, m4 & m5 to the hospital..)

(Ooo...hopefully we cd reach the hospital right after m3 was done with the tonsil removal...mama keep praying...p/s:..And CH' Mok belanja we all breakfast that morning...bliss!!)

About 10.30 we reached Al-Is*am hospital in KG B*ru.....

There she was..out from OT...half awake..but already moaning in pain...

"Mama, haus...haus..nak air..nak air."

OO.. no..no..Mama was in tears trying to comfort her... Ayah was very calm...even m4 and m5 cd sense the pain of their sister....

Mama just wet m3's lips with few drops of water..enough to make M3 to sleep again...but not for long...half an hour later..she was crying......( Ya Allah!..kasihanilah anaku...kuatkanlah semangatnya....permudahkanlah segalanya.....)

She had difficulty swallowing and speaking..Ayah was lot patient than mama when it comes to medicine!!..Bad mummy!!





And we were home, 2 days later..Alhamdulillah...

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M1 and M2 were at home too last school holidays...we were glued at home....borak, makan dan lepak..ha..ha...

And we managed to do housekkeping..plus, all the girls now enjoyed the spacious room of once mama&daddy enjoyed!..(I miss the air cond tho')..

Ayah and mama has decided to forgo the room to the girls...as we were thinking to shift one the smaller room for my only boy...akhirnya..telah diputuskan all 4 girls in one big room, 1 boy in another room (tapi dia ni mungkin lagi 3-4 tahun kot tidoq sendiri...)..and mama and ayah ambik je lah next room...


Oiissh..penat gak kemas dan pindah barang!!!..settled!

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M1 was awarded few gifts for her school's 2009 anugerah kecemerlangan...Alhamdulillah..

She was so eager to go to BSN to get her cert (sijil simpanan) been cash...

Few days before school end..all of us...went to R*wang....early morning and hope to do some shopping ...things they normally bring back to school..toiletteries lah, food lah..

But..and but...when we arrive at the Bsn counter, the person incharged said:
1."Maaf dik, sijil ni kena tunggu 45 hari dari tarikh keluar..baru boleh tunaikan"
2.:"Adik kena bayar rm12, untuk ganti kad atm hilang:..

Waakaka..kaa...ingat nak dpt extra rm100..kena lak bayar rm12...

SO ape nak shopping????..errggh.hhh

And dgn muka seposen si kakak pun kenen pada si adek...

"Dek, ko ade bape kat bank?..Akak pinjam dulu eh?"

And Kngah as usual..never lokek one.....off we went to Parkson...Kakak was happy...everybody else...too..sebab Kngah belanja lunch!!...


(Mama..dah kering poket!!!!!Even ayah's pocket was badly injured too...and waiting impatiently for EPF refund!!!)

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Ding-ding-dong
"Perhatian kepada penumpang, tren Express Senandung Malam Ke SIngapura.Sila beratur di depan platform B ..etc..."

KLOng is now love travelling back to and fro her school via train...ketapi tido....and with diskaun pelajar..50%...naik ketapi lagi murah dari naik bas, eg Tr*nsnasional Rm32 itewww....but mama was a little bit worry about safety...but alhamdulillah she was ok when she called us the next morning....all the way to Jb from Kl....time really flies.....she is independent now!

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M2: "Mama, nampak tak jubah adek?"

Mama:.."Aik......mana lah mama tau..kelmarin kan mama dah lipat masuk dlm lemari adek?

M2: "Tak de Ma..kot-kot kakak bawak balik skolah dia!!!"

Mama:..ADe ka...

And mama was sewing an instant jubah frantically just before m2 was scheduled to go back to her asrama...

Isshh..anak..anakk..habis jubah biru kesayangan mama terpaksa di 'trim'....

And we went to send kngah last 2 Sunday...

Funny, when we came back, I just remembered to peep under M2's cupboard....

Laa....bawah almari..jubah kamu Masturah!!!!

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m4: (came back from skola agama crying..)..Mama!..Mama!!

Mama: Nape yam???(terkejut lah jugak..apasal lak si anak patung ayah ni!!!)

M4: Mama, Iyam dpt nombor 1 pereksa bulanan skolah agama..rase nak pecah jantung!...

Mama & Iyam hugged each other...Alhamdulillah...she simply brilliant
(Yam...mama lagi nak pecah jantung every time tunggu keputusan periksa..semua anak-anak mama..dan Mama masih dan selalu berdoa agar anak2 mama cemerlang akhlak juger)

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While writing this m5 is sound asleap...afternoon nap...he has shown improvement....no astmatic no more!alhamdulillah..he loves pediature too!!

And M3 has no more tonsil now...( 2 weeks ago ) and she now enjoying the big hole...kemaruk makan lah jugak... a little pain some times near to her throat, some times next to her ear....(DOktor kate...urat2 saraf lah tu...!)..and we shall come back to another doctor at Audio Lab somewhere..nak buat test untuk her hearing...Pasrah aku kepadaMu, Ya Allah!

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Mama back to square one....planning and planning...thinking on how best o maximize quality time with her kids at home?, jimat berbelanja?, 2 jam cukupkah untuk anak2 mengulangkaji pelajaran?....etc...still and always missing my MOOnirah adn Mas2rah....and little man itu..si Bobi..semakin macam-macam..

Thanx to my friend, Salw*ni..for her tips on recuperation after tonsil removal and breastfeeding...

Sal, I love u Sal..thx for ur concern...

Thx all for doa...

Kenang Daku Dalam DOa mu...

Selingan...

(Sayup sayup terdengar)...

m3: Hello, ni siapa?

pemanggil: Nak cakap ngan mama?

m3: Mak saya tengah tidur...siapa ni?

***Mama pun terjaga dari tidur2 ayam tadi dan bingkas menyambut telepon dari M3*******

Mama: Hello...

M1:..err.saya nak cakap dengan mak saya....Mammmmmaaaaaaa!.Ni kakak lah!

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mama: ( dalam hati....mcm2 cara anak2ku menjawab talipon!)..:)))))

To You..

And for the sleepless nights...I think let me jot something here,

My 3rd gal shall undergo an operation for her enhanced tonsil..so big that the doctor said they're in stage 4 and as parents, what wd u think?

She has shown the symptoms from her very early age...selsema pagi, mengantuk dlm kelas..berdengkur itu perkara biasa!..(some time same kuat dengan her ayah!) time and again, we had few doctors suggesting to us to consider having her tonsils removed...For us, it sounds horrified..especially to her...tragic the maximum!..

We brought her to see an E-N-T specialist...oo..oo....she was so excited to get to see the inner side of her throat, ear and nose...at least she knows what are the things bothering her for quite some time...Dia dok ingat ade pasir kat dlm telinga lepas berkelah kat Tg Balau last Disember...Itu pasai asyik dok suruh ayah pi korek telinga....and ayah did!..but she still rase tak cukup dengar...So when we went to the specialist, the doctor said the adenoid and tonsils has grown together, hence making the pressure inside her ear became negative, pulling back her gegendang...OOoiisssshhhh..we listened and watched!Some hearing assessment were done and proven...there's problem in there!

Afraid of any further difficult outcome that might come...medical terms like sleep apnea, stop breathing for few seconds at night,recurring sore throat..sickness, sleepy head....low focus in the class....etc...left us with any other choices?...and since recently she mentioned, ade some frens calling her names..(even pakcik van sekolah!..~...Oii!..Pe*ak/ T*uli)..becos she didn't respond in time!..

Actually, I had long realised she was a bit slow in responding...like macam nak panggil dia..(dari tingkat bawah ke atas) macam nak kena jerit kuat sket..And kalau suruh perlahankan olume tv, dia suka nak tengok tv dekat2...
So we think it is about time..and of coz, ayah is busy thinking about the ringgit!

Please make du'a for us my blogger friend...for her operation and speedy recovery...I am hoping she would recover and at least would assist her in her well being and studies!

Mama sayang Maisarah!

Sentimental mood ..

What to doo...

Suddenly being sentimental..saw me listening to all oldies..while catching up with ironing etc..

But sad songs makes one sad also...(he..he..I am missing my big gals again...sob!sob!)..selalunya para2 ibu gitulah..

Well lets hear to some happy tune...Oo..Sudirman?


Or Kartina DAhari?

Taking a long break

Yes, I am..

I have to stop my writings...need to focus on other urgent matter..

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Just discovered my boy is mild asthmatic and my 3rd gal is stage 4 large tonsils+sinusitis....I am Florence nightingale..2 in 1 role..

(Last weekend was a hospital trip..) While M3 was nervous about her running nose and chances of peeping at the innerside of her ears, M5 had his first lung xtray and nebulizer..oowhhh...oh yes, he got that extra attention for his howlingg ....and of course daddy's pocket shrunk!!

Bad news to me too..deactivate my fb account..that's great!..but then..can I live wthout peeping into it?..Ha..ha..nanti ade msg..terlepas lak..

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I might come back to this blog..or perhaps a make-over...or perhaps create another blog...less stories about personal..less openness...more on interest..I don't know..obviously..it is difficult to put in writing nowdays...the madness of expressing....me and my expression...I am mad? Mental?..I am angry with myself or somebody else? Is it fair?Do one voices out?..Or just keep it inside..pretending ?I miss my dad?.Can I not just be calm and relax? I am exhausted?..why ask?

I hate my shortsightedness!!and I hate most, I cdn't focus on my part time accounting work!..Abhor, Double hate, Loath entirely!!!!..Soorryy..all the negative coming out!!

I need laughter!..So if u don't find me here, probably I am out there..finding something to tickle me up..boost the hydrogen level in my mind...

o..oo.. yes, I have this one funny scene ( at least it made me laugh!)..from The Grinch ~Jim Carrey...(Do not forget to 'pause' my music..)




...Sigh...

May tomorrow be a perfect day
May u find love and laughter along the way
May God keeps u in His tender care
till He brings us together again...

Where are my writings??Feb 2010 already?

January 2010 considered gone already..and I am still no where in adding news and about of past happenings..Aiyoo.....sorry my blogger friend and esp to two of my big gals somewhere in Jb and K.S'hgor!... :( .......

how can I explain?

Well , blame on my poor time-management!....to be exact..why so addict to f*cebook????..And some said in the next month, it will require payment...guess by then, I am free fb!..ha..ha..U bet!

Frankly, my little boy now only took about an hour nap, morning and afternoon. I used to squeeze between his nap hours to do the house chores...and surfing the internet..but now, as he has started to go mobile...he got so active whenever he is up and about...there goes my starring at the pc....so how?

tell me friends, what is ur normal productivity hours and span?...

Still, I plan to do a bit housekeeping to this blog..got lots and tonnes of fren's blodgaddress to add...Can i Fit everything in my blog?..blogs I follow, current affair, my srikandis' frens, my other kelakar frens..(yes, I got so many kelakar frens out there...where I blog hop...just to increase the Hidrogen level in my brain...).my cooking, child interest, food fo thot, motivational..and music..all in one??..Well, thats a lotttt!!..

And everytime my hands got on my kLong's laptop ( he..he...Yeap, she got a new laptop from his uncle for her straight A's PMR...so mama tumpang la kakak oiii!)..I click here and there and at the same time feeling much guilty of the long due accounting work I promise my Bro to complete and Abg K*din dah banyak kali bising..oooiii! dah due lah!..satu tahun denda rm 20!....I just can't resist the temptation to be so kepoh of my fb..roaming around comments of others, photos of frens been uploaded!..so whats priority now?...

And then , I still prefer to update my blog at my old desk top...(the only harta yang I ade drpd EPF..remember we cd wdraw monies from epf to buy pc..and then becoz of some culprit..freeze lak akaun epf..entah ape2)..becos..of big screen lah I suppose..Mata saya sudah rabun dekat tahap kronik..and lasik wd cost me a thousand yearsssss...(remember I am a house wife..!..)!..But still and but, itu desk top computer sudah semakin lambat..berapa kali En Mu*sa tukang komputer itu sudah tengok2an itu pc..tapi masih lembab...jadi nak tunggu pc log on...bla..bla.., kekadanag it got jammed or hanged..and even if theres so big tunder, this pc akan kena kilat punya..waa...sgt sensitif pulak!..and I wd have to wait for itu En M*sa Tukang komputer sekali lagi tukar network card..etc..(Oh..Saya tak paham perkara dlm isi perut komputer!)..harapan tinggal harapan..

But today, at this hour, I want to say to my frequent visitor..hey, I am still alive..and having difficulty in managing my time, balancing between facebook and housechores plus demanding todler..attendingg to two busy primary school gals..and missing her big daughterss...all the time...all the time...and then end up, joining my son afternoon's nap!

Enclosed here pics of none other than my broods....( latest I think!...the last family dinner together in 2009, before my Eldest and Second went back to their school...)..and I can't help looking at their past photos....



Guess who ?..(Mama and Moon at 1+ year old!..venue- Spore)













Mama and Moon - right after the pmr result 2009 was announced












Mama, Moon and Mikhael, on the stage of Sekolah Seni...




Moon/Klong (after 15 years...) with fav buddy..on th way to a kenduri Dec 2009








As usual KLong imitating Mikhael






Klong w Maryam






Klong and Maisarah








Klong and her only 'adek'..She never thought she will have another 3 adiks...and admit she has big responsibilities...


Us, at pantai Remis, sending off Kngah...Dec 2009







And wishing all..happy february!..(Excuse, me am so motherly...busy and alive!)

Will be back!!

Selamat tahun baru 2010

Masih tidak sempat untuk menulis tentang pelbagai peristiwa akhir 2009..sebagai kenangan tatapan umum terutama anak2...:-
1) Hari Ulang Tahun Mikhael yg pertama = 24/11/09
2)Hari Ulang Tahun KMas yg ke 14 = 18/12/09..dan mendaftar semula ke Maahad Haf*iz Jeram...Selamat Maju Jaya----Gd Luck for ur PMR 2010.
3) Perjalanan ke Johor Bahru., Klong menerima keputusan PMR 2009 pada 24/12/2009...(Alhamdulillah- sungguh tidak disangka...menjadi contoh yg baik untuk adik2 sekalian..cemerlang akademik dan akhlak juger ye...mama sayang kakak!)
4)Kenduri Kahwin dan DOa Selamat rumah Pakcik/Makcik di JBahru = 25&26/12/2009
5) Hari Ulang Tahun CIk Abgku yg ke 42 = 31/12/2009 (Selamat Ulang Tahun Bang!)
6)Perjalanan ke JB semula menghantar KMoon kembali Ke sekolah= 2/1/2010
7) Kenangan tinggal bermalam di rumah keluarga Angkat di Gelang Patah ( Pakcik Aziz dan Mak Mon)..ooowwwhh..so nice to be pampered, mendengar pelbagai peristiwa pengalaman mereka semasa menunaikan haji, mendengar dan menerima pelbagai nasihat tentang mendidik anak2 serta mendekatkan diri pada yg Maha Esa..di usia mulai menjejaki 40an.....dan merasa sangat rindu pada arwah orang tuaku...Alfatihah!!

* Pakcik Aziz dan Makmon adalah antara rakan karib arwah orangtuaku...(Pakcik Aziz seorang pesara tentera laut dan kami pernah sama2 berjiran semasa di rumah tinggi , singapura..awal 70an..)..dan di rumah merekalah tempat persinggahanku semasa bersekolah di JBahru
( 1981-1985)..sementelaah arwah orangtua menginap Labuan dan Lumut!)

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Awal tahun seperti biasa....pelbagai perkara yg lebih menuntut perhatian...tidak lupanya kerenah anak kecil yg semakin membesar....

Ade sedikit keletihan dengan tugasan apabila anak2 mula bersekolah..(Mudah2an Allah beri kekuatan jasmani dan rohani...sihat tubuh badan demi menjalankan amanahNya..)

Merindui anak2 yg telah ke asrama...KMun dan KMas..(Kenang Kami Dalam DOa mu..anak-anak2ku )

Memikirkan bila boleh membuat perancangan tentang pelbagai perkara terlebih lagi...dari sudut ekonomi dan pendidikan anak2...seterusnya perlaksanaan...

Meninjau2 waktu sesuai memulakan semula aktiviti kerja sambilan...duit poket!..(Sorry Pak LOng....account for auditing dah lama dueeeee!!)

ALhamdulillah....Masih dipanjangkan umur untuk tahun ini....mudah2an boleh dimanfaatkan dengan pelbagai ibadah, peningkatan..istiqamah....

Selamat Tahun baru semua..Kenang Kami Dalam DOamu....MUdah2an kalian juga beroleh keberkatan Ilahi dan DipermudahkanNya segala urusan...Hingga ketemu Lagi..