Was it the food or, the weather or...

It has been almost a week now...my poor Lala & Iyam have been sick, cough and fever..Just when mama thought mama is going to be the supermum taking care of the two..burning the midnite oil..playing the most dedicated nurse..my superman started to give in too...And Allah The Almighty had made me sick too..so who's taking care of who now???what more who's pampering who?..

Was it the food or the weather that make 4 of us experiencing bodily pain...fever etc...

This morning Lala's fever was there again and after two cortal she's already jumping up and down..sheepishly beg me...

Lala : Bole tak, tak payah pi sekolah???Rasa macam demam sikit ni..nanti kat sekolah cuaca panas?
Mama: Alamak! Dah 3 hari tak gi sekolah.Mama rasa dah elok...jap lagi siap ..ok!

Lala: ...eeemmm..Cuba mama telepon ayah...(Ayah is always the rescue!)kot-kot ayah kasi..

So..mama send a quick sms to ayah..and voila..

Ayah replied: Ok la..M3 kan lom sihat lagi...tak yah gi skola..

and there goes my Lala...impatiently waiting for Iyam coming back from Krista..so that she cd enjoyed her afternoon( of which she is supposed to get rest)..and at many a times keep asking me the same question:

Lala: Mama dah sudah kat computer nanti..boleh lah Sarah main game pulak..

And there goes my day...

Creatively been thinking on what's the best dishes this evening...as everybody's appetite at home was badly jeorpadised by the fever or perhaps the side effect of the medicine has made our tougue tasteless...

A liitle test by Allah...reminds me of my late ayah..few months before he passed away....he complained of bitter taste in his mouth..had difficulty in appetite...again and again advised me to enjoy life to the fullest..eat healthily and remember to give sedekah....be grateful for whatever that we're granted today...and I miss u ayah..(like any daughter who yearns to be pamper by his daddy whenever she got sick...)

And again as human..the thought of wanting to be pampered..especially when we are sick justify that we are all human ..with needs

And outside, rain has started to pour..(I love when it rains...)and I'm grateful..at least..with the ccoling effect...it could lessen the irritable me..who had just started on 'Norcolut'...

Recap of 2007 last few days ...and now..

Sentimental I am..but I bet every mother on earth would not want to be parted with their children..and school holidays coming to an end..Moon already had half of her things packed inside boxes which she had succeeded in persuading ayah to buy..While Shua every now and then peep into my room while I was busy repairing her 'jubah' and all clothing for her new school.and Lala was also anxious checking when would her school uniform be ready..and Iyam as usual an attention seeker.

Between those stressful days..I am between the-mother-who-prepare-the-simplest-dishes and the-wife-who-decide-on-the-things-to-buy-and-prepare/budget...and also the-person-who-sleep-like-a-log whenever time permits..We really occupied each other before that very day...

Gone are the days to celebrate Hari Raya Haji. This year mama 'cuti masak'..no lontong..no sambal tumis..no rendang nor ketupat..Ayah had suggested us to join the 'kariah surau' for gotong-royong-korban..and later savour the dishes prepare by the chef..menu i.e. beef soup, fried vege, beef cooked with soya ketchup..and all of us had a good afternoon nap after lunch.Bravo to Kakak Mun for covering mama during 'cutting meat' session..as usual mama is like allergic to the fresh'aroma' of lembu..isshhh mual cam mengandung le pulak!!That's why mama seldom cook red meat..an escape actually as ayah also has to 'berpantang' for his gout cases...shian..But a trip to a boastful steak or lamb chop is always one of my wish list.

Early morning of the 25th Dec (and our neighbour enjoyed the chrismas carol...) we had to flock to Klang for parents; briefing and than straight to Jeram to enrol Kakak Shua..It was raining cats and dogs...alhamdulillah rezeki..and kakak Moon showing her expertise in organising Shua wardrobe...Mama masa kat S*F dulu buat sendiri je...he he..Bye Bye Kakak Shua..Mama hope Kakak Shua could easily adjust yourself with the new environment, new friends..be independent.be patient with all the challenges to be a 'H***zah...Mama tried to control her tears...cool bebeh!

31 Dec..ayah came back late fr office..mama managed to bake a simple orange cake..Happy Birthday Ayah!!and we stayed in front of the tv..counting new year. watching fire crackers..without Kakak Shua...Mama beginning to feel it....

1st Jan 2008.trip to Johor was as early as 7am..Amboi..penuhnye gerabak kereta..Stopped by Mak Uda's house ( Musa's Sister) to fetch Mak to Sepang..Musa was very patient with Mak.(.Mak had to stay almost 2 months at Mak Teh's house after she accidentally fell in the toilet and had few ruptured her back bone)...Reached Sepang around 12 and after a short chitchat with Mak Tam we start to head to JB..Nice lunch at Pagoh before Jusco Tebrau as Kakak Moon need to buy few stationeries/workbook..entah ape-ape lagi..make ayah risau..Called Ch'Midah and thankfully we wouldn't have to check into any rumah tumpangan ..Ayah was tired of driving..zzzzz and mama busy catching up with ch'Midah.

2nd Jan - Kakak Moon register at Sekolah S*ni JB..It was drizzling and tata Kakak Moon.and my tears rolled down..again..this time heavier..ayah let me cool down..after two hours..ayah pun tegur.."Mama dah OK?"..JUst when I thought I could control..walla....banjir lak..hu..hu...Earlier Lala and Iyam had dozed off..and 4 of us went back to Rawang..

Now almost 3 weeks into 2008..When ayah off to work..I am left at home with Lala and Iyam..I do miss both of you Kakak Moon and Kakak Shua...my 2 big angels..If last year the 'loneliness' wasn't that bad..but this time around..only Allah knows how I miss talking to both of you, sharing the laughter, accompany each other watching the cerekarama etc,,,,sharing the house chores and assisting me with whatever kind of assistance any daughters would do to their mother.

This was how my late mum felt...

This is reality...when the time comes..if Allah permits..my little angels would start to crawl out from mama and ayah and your journey of life as a teenager begin.Later into adulthood.. Mama pray that both of you shall always be under the guidance of Allah and His precious tender loving care.

Salam Kaseh Sayang anak-anakku..Kenang Daku Dalam Doamu..